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as a girl with a lot of problems it pisses me off how often just doing something actually works. i just have to do it and then its done? what the fuck. why did i spend hours or days or weeks not doing it if it was this easy.

In a mass surveillance state we are all cam girls.

i need to go get groceries but there's Temperature outside :(

"Love and sex make us human"

Wrong. Most animals fuck. Some reproduce without a partner. Then there are some that can choose not to fuck (like those that remain in their pride or family and forfeit the right to mate in exchange for safety).

Definitely a lot of them love. In their own way or even our way. Like... so many birds mate for life. Humans only wish for that marriage success rate...

Love and sex don't make us human. The absence of them doesn't make us human.

You know what makes us human?

COOKING.

Humans are the only creatures in existence to cook their food. To have a culinary culture. To purposefully change the molecular structure of their sustenance for fun, art, and pleasure.

So, in a way, at the root of it, is pizza over sex and romance.

Pizza makes us human.

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I hate when you do something neurodivergent and neurotypicals are like "why?" I'm not telling you. You don't need to know everything about everything. You're brain works fine and you still haven't figured out how to mind your own business.

I thinks folks expressing incredulity at the quality of the writing and composition in Calvin and Hobbes are often missing the context that Bill Watterson is arguably the most influential sequential artist of his generation. Like, this is a guy who once told the editors of nationally syndicated newspapers to go fuck themselves when they wanted to mess with his panel layouts, and not only did he keep his job, he got his way. He could have had literally any gig he wanted, and he chose to be the Sunday funnies guy because that's what made him happy. He's basically the Weird Al of sequential art.

Grandmas were so right about puzzles and knitting and crocheting and solitaire and reading slow and slippers and baking and watching deer in the backyard send post

Why do 3.5 inch floppy disks seem so much more pleasant and edible than the 5.25 inch ones?

cause they are. 

5.25″ and 8″ disks were designed by IBM engineers who wouldn’t know good consumer good design if it bit them on the cock. They designed shit for Men With Short Hair And Pocket Protectors who did Important Work at like Raytheon or something. 

The 3.5″ was designed by Sony, who had been building appliances for the home since the 40s. They designed TVs and radios and the Walkman: They knew how to design a pleasant object to use in the home, and they understood all the sort of design choices that entails! 

It needs to be pleasant to look at, it needs to be sturdy so it can handle being dropped and stuffed into bags, and it needs to not look too “computery” to scare off the non-technical users. The 3.5″ floppy disk is an example of all those design goals applied to the overly-computery floppy disk, and they knocked it out of the park. The 3.5″ disk is very touchable, because it was designed to be from the beginning. They expected people to handle them, because that’s what stuff for the home is supposed to be. It’s a thing like a credit card, you can pick it up and play with it or stick it in your pocket or purse and it can just deal with that, because it is designed to be used by humans, as part of their everyday life. The older floppies are just some computer stuff designed to be used by trained technicians who knew how to handle it delicately and not damage it. 

one actually good thing stupid movie tropes did was associating sleek modern interior design with evil villains. that was excellent and ideologically correct

My favourite part of autism is how often I just don't know shit.

What am I feeling emotionally? Not sure.

What am I feeling physically? No fucking clue.

What are these thoughts and how do I interpret them? Pretty sure Mystery Inc. could work that out quicker than me.

worst part about getting angry is how much it makes you want to be mean

Is it a universal Autism experience to say something and then the people around you laugh and you ask "What's so funny?" and they say "Nothing" because NTs like to play a game with us called Guess What You Said That Made Me Laugh

Adults: Following rules is good, not following rules is bad

Little me: Okay :] *follows a rule*

Adults: Oh my god look at this loser. He doesn't know that this rule is Secretly Okay To Not Follow. Dumbass. Let's all laugh at him

As a neurodivergent individual, the worst piece of advice anybody can give when you're nervous is "just be yourself" -_-

.... Like ma'am.... how am I supposed to (sanely) explain to you that I physically cannot 'just be myself' because the self you are referring to is a carefully constructed facade tailored specifically to you and is in fact made up of an amalgamation of personality traits cherry picked from other people/fictional characters to suit your preference and personality?!!

TVs and monitors are separate species with common features, but which features these are have drastically changed over time. the two used to be similar sizes with very similar behaviour, and were differentiated primarily by which connection ports they had.

over time, their courses of evolution brought them closer together in that regard, with both species' survival becoming contingent on how well they could digest HDMI. as their analogue prey, such as VGA and Component, died out, the two display species were faced with the same choice: adapt, or die.

despite this newfound similarity, though, the two species still fill different ecological niches, and the way they adapted to these new environmental situations resulted in further physical distinction in other areas. for example, it is now almost impossible to find a modern TV that is a comparable size to a monitor; while the modern monitor is still limited in dimensions by the desktops where it prefers to nest, the modern TV has an almost unbounded adult size.

another strange new differentiation is that the TV seems to have developed a dependence on internet connectivity and software updates. while this benefits them in the short term, having more selling points than a monitor at first glance, it is working against them in the long-term, with each one's effective lifespan being cut dramatically.

the "dumb TV" that, quite intelligently, does not have any big software features, is nearing extinction, with very few members still producing offspring. and while we may feel sorrow for these displays, it is only natural that they are dying off - they are simply being outcompeted by the once-humble monitor. at the same size, and without the advantage of a wider variety of ports, the dumb TV cannot keep up with the monitor's much more refined adaptations for the same niche.

however, one mystery remains: why did the dumb TV never grow to the same impressive dimensions as its smart siblings? some observations suggests that the larger smart TVs have become overly territorial as a result of their decreased longevity, to the point that they will kill an infant dumb TV if they feel that it could grow to compete with them. it seems cruel to us, but in the wild, it's all a matter of survival. if you win the evolutionary race - you fight to keep first place.

Finding out that you're neurodivergent as an adult feels like you have to reparent your inner child.

trying to explain that no, your specific presence does not upset or overwhelm me, i am simply highly attuned to every single presence in the same room as me, sometimes even house, and that in itself is overwhelming, is so much harder than it needs to be.

no, do not feel bad that i need to be alone in my own room and dont want to hang out with you!! im just wired to be too silly and notice when other people are too silly!! this is not your fault!!

I think the quality of any society depends on whether you consider your own reactions to something as a signfiier of their value, and not a feature of yourself. If the sight of something evokes disgust in you, it's easier to label the subject itself as "disgusting" instead of simply aknowledging that you personally feel disgust towards it, whether or not anyone else does. It's good to ask this of yourself, often. Is this thing worthless, or do you personally simply see no value in it? Is this activity stupid and pointless, or do you personally find no enjoyment in it? It's easy to assign your feelings as the inherent features of the thing itself, to assume that your feelings are universal truths, but that is never the case, and you do yourself no favours by staying in this unconscious comfort zone.

So in conclusion, no, I am not cringe. You cringe at me.

fancy intensive pointlessness

Hacker is able to withstand thee?

one of the most stereotypically autistic things about me is how much i love to make lists and organize, but in true autistic fashion, when i was a kid i thought i hated making lists because adults would only ask me to make lists the way they wanted me to and about topics i found no joy in (like schoolwork or whatever) and i thought that was all lists could be. similarly, i thought i hated organizing because i was only taught that the concept of organizing was a tangible act, like organizing items on your desk. i like to organize my thoughts and no one tells you you're allowed to like that.

nono my dear ! let me show you the light !!! start ranking your favorite albums with stars and comments !!!! start writing down all of your queer headcanons until the note is a full gigabyte !!!!! make folders inside folders on your computer the possibilities are endless!!!!!!!!

"this too shall pass" well can it fucking get on with it

I'm not resilient.

I just learnt that I need to keep my mask up at all times because people don't like seeing the real you when you're 'weird'/'too sensitive'/'over-dramatic'.

Sometimes it's easier to make people think that you're resilient rather than letting them see you when you're vulnerable.

"you sound smart" that's because i've spent years doing academic writing to the point that it's my default cadence plus or minus the use of profanity as a tone indicator

"you sound stupid" that's because i'm dumb as fuck