Occasionally I’ll post my hobby stuff on here, but this is low-key my poetry dump(She/her), 25 years old. Bi
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uh so i never do this but maui is quite literally on fire and there isn't nearly enough care or consideration for. you know. Native Hawaiians who live here being displaced and the land (and cultural relevance) that's being eaten up by the fire. so if ya'll wanna help, here's some links:
maui food bank: https://mauifoodbank.org/
maui humane society: https://www.mauihumanesociety.org/
center for native hawaiian advancement: https://www.memberplanet.com/campaign/cnhamembers/kakoomaui
hawai'i red cross: https://www.redcross.org/local/hawaii/ways-to-donate.html
please reblog and spread the word if you can't donate.
I went from watching cells at work to cells at work: code black. How’d we go from a body whose who vibe was “uwu sowwy Im always a lil’ sick and clumsy! I really should chill on eating seafood huh? Sorry guys!” to “I’m a stressed out, so I’m taking you all out with my bad decisions”? I just feel bad for the poor lil’ platelets, they used to be so cute 😵💫
I finally started the dimension 20 and drag queens campaign and I was already insanely attracted to Brennan but this… this is playing so dirty I can’t. Y’all gave the fandom not just candy but CAKE with this just-. Flabbergasted by this man.
I’m on episode 2 of “Lessons with Uramichi oniisan”, this show is the literal definition of “who hurt you?” And then you remember “right, adulting, got it”. The nihilism really hits hard, I’m obsessed 10/10 would recommend
The annual fair just happened in my town and for whatever reason it triggers this craving for like: summer romance on a Ferris wheel and getting a smooch at the top whilst the sunset comes over and down. Maybe it’s a bit overplayed as an amusement park trope but like- my brain puddles at that sentiment
The king or fool?
Pant pant, each breath I draw makes me weary, the nightking coming up from below,
All by my sights got me reeling,
Where in the hell do I go?
The wretched plains, the sturdy wind
Toss me up and down
With the nightking coming, and everyone running, up the hill we go up and abound
His face as flat as a wall
A maw entirely made of fangs
His crown quite crooked and oh so lurid
In motion when he hunts his men
The pits of us commonfolk crushed
With every swipe he takes down with his hands
They gash they reap, sow and keep
The souls of those going up the way
With labored breathing, I’ve touched the top
A hill no one’s ever truly climbed
The nightking gawks with his beedy eyes
Churning up my insides
His retreat is swift and vicious
I was confused and noticed what was amiss
A man utop this hill so high
There’s no way I could ever get down
In a way I’ve become the king of the hill
I sewed what I worked on and reaped all the more
But alone on this hill of emptiness
Makes me a fool for running up with no friends no less
The wisps of love
It’s like a haunting, every trinket, every verse, makes it feel like the house is cursed.
The walls look the same, but the vibe has changed.
Dreams of you whispering in my ears, I jolt up to wipe my tears.
It’s like grieving the dead, yet you’re alive, sometimes I feel nothing, other times it’s like you’ve died.
The glimpses of us: former you and me, paint a portrait I knew but now cannot see
Melancholy pangs my heart, but the feelings fade
Overtime the wisps of love will do the same
so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god
I just finished all of season 2 of Bridgerton , and I have some thoughts:
- I’m glad they cut down the amount of sex scenes, when it finally happened I felt like I threw up confetti. The tension alone was palpable to the point one could make a lotion out of it and I was totally cool with that.
-the featherington drama made me tired. We didn’t need that much of them, but like alright whatever.
- Eloise was really annoying this season, I hope they give her more depth besides whining about her gender and the inequality of it. If you can’t suck up a ball for 5 minutes for your family then fine, go away.
- Benedict this entire season was my spirit animal, like yes king, go off with those very relatable facial expressions.
- Collin’s protection over Penelope makes my heart warm but oof that last episode.
- Daphne got way cooler after having a baby. That’s all I got
- As a younger sibling I cackled everytime Kate and Anthony was annoyed or bickering with one another. Like, there’s this face they both make when they win or when they’re telling their siblings to shut up and that’s been my ENTIRE existence. I kept giggling and looking at my own sibling and it was MARVELOUS
Overall season 2 was okay, I liked the relationship but the other stuff in the background was kinda meh.
Ever have someone say something so sweet you can feel your heart swell with love for them? That it just sticks with you and makes you so grateful they love you, you can’t help but love them all the more?
Tl;dr my partner said something so sweet and just so telling about their character that I’m literally crying from joy thinking about them.
I’m watching Kotaro lives Alone and I’ve been emotionally destroyed by this child who speaks like a feudal lord and all the wholesome ass neighbors that live around him. It’s got some triggering topics like child abuse, neglect, etc. but if you enjoy a solid anime about found families and ridiculous children, give it a shot. I’ll just be here crying with my tissues
I’m on like episode 9 of the case study of Vanitas, why is it that everyone in this show.. is gross somehow(?) The world building is definitely interesting as well as the premise but man everyone is low key crazy or blood thirsty (like thirsty Thursday kinda thirsty). Still watching tho, anyone else feel this way?
Y’all heard me say this once and I’ll say it again: I’m obsessed with another show and this one’s really had my feelings in it’s tiny palms. Ranking of Kings hits a different way with the juxtaposition of this fairytale looking world with complex rounded characters that have real life to them. I’ve never had a show where I’ve loved all the cast so hard, or one that’s gotten me to cry on the first episode. Give this show a shot, you’ll see why our Prince Bojji has won best boi of the year ☺️❤️
I finished CENTAURWORLD completely, I loved every bit of it. If you can’t deal with musicals, jokes on you, the songs give plot. I love that the story threads got tied up and the show wasn’t dragged out long, but goodness they need to take the “child music” title out cuz they did not hold back with the violence with some parts. I have so many thoughts and feelings right now but I’m gonna rewatch it.
Okay so I aggressively binged Q-Force and it’s amazing. Like, yes. Watch the thing.
(Btw Stat is my fav, but earnestly I love all of them)
I would like to put out an ad for a snuggle partner. Must be willing to be paid in snacks, soft blankets, and the occasional belly rub. There will be no sexual conduct in any form, but friendship is advised and overall encouraged. DM me your resume and we can get started
Heavy and empty?
(Warning: low key sad, word vomit)
I don’t know if other people get this way but I have a feeling in my chest that’s empty and almost super heavy at the same time. It’s like someone dug a cavity right into my upper chest and the scoop motion of digging has left that concave feeling into it. I can’t say if I’m sad or not but I definitely feel really lonely and I don’t know what to do about it. It’s not like I don’t have friends, family, partners, etc that can help with those feelings, it’s just that it feels weird. I feel unfulfilled in the relationship dynamics I have, and I feel like I can handle the emotional capabilities of other people but conversely no one really tries to deal with my shit too(?) I don’t know how to really talk about how I really really feel sometimes with other people cuz I get these super awkward faces and then I get frustrated and dismissive of those feelings in the moment which later kinda flexes itself into this loneliness later. It kinda turns into disappointment and a bit of despair because I feel like I tried really hard to get to know other people but the same energy wasn’t put in back(?) (which makes me feel like that’s not fair because it doesn’t come out all the time so to ask other people to figure that out also feels kinda bad because then it’s like, you can’t have relationships where you expect people to gift back stuff just because you gift them). I’m low key gaslighting myself for feeling bad that the people in my life don’t know what to do with me when I get feelings. The people I feel like I want to be closer to, it feels like they drift out. Out of previous rejections I’ve had, I try to fight every instinct to cling because I know clinginess is ugly but I don’t know what to do now. Do I just make new friends at this point? Even with new relationships I can’t tell if I’m putting distance between myself and others because I’m hard or others do because they low key know I’m internally messed up. Do I give up on these other relationships because it constantly feels like no one knows me anyway so what’s the point? I feel like I put in work to them so what do I do to not feel hollow? Am I even right to crave feelings or assurance from others anymore since all I get is awkward face? I don’t really know anymore but it’s pretty exhausting. I know myself pretty well, I’m just tired of constantly maintaining my feelings to the point I feel empty and heavy almost all the time. I’m blunt and can tell people what I’m feeling but the awkward faces I get from people I’ve considered close is getting me, the distance I feel from other people I consider close is getting me, the actual physical distance I have between me and people I consider close is getting me. I guess applications for companionship are below, I promise I’m just low grade crazy inside not outside.
Thought on TWEWY episode 3
- oof the cgi is starting to kill me a bit
- rhyme’s erasure feels like it had a bit more impact with the CRONCH but like after that I feel like the pacing for the characters was again meh
- I miss the reaper banter but what can you do
- hopefully we’ll see more mr.h in the next couple episodes because he’s ug dad
- the fight scenes are meh but that last hit with neku and the game master was pretty cool
- it’s for the drama but like, I kinda wanted to see neku see Shiki off in that glow and let her go up, but the choice to let him know she’s his 2nd entry fee now is okay too
- overall, not a bad way to wrap up shiki’s week. I feel rushed still and I can feel like they’re trying to get this show over and out with up to like 12 episodes so so maybe that’s why? We’ll see if the pacing will ever get better. My nostalgia is sorta clouding me a bit but i feel like even if I had no reference for the games, the attachment that I have to the characters would still be the same which is about ‘meh’ right now.
Let me know how you’re feeling about the show in the comments!
Thoughts on TWEWY episode 2
- twister being the opening theme song was an amazing choice, good job guys
- the pacing is a slight bit better but the impact that they’re dead feels like it coulda hit harder
- neku’s personality still hasn’t completely kicked in for me yet, but maybe that’s just me (I guess I mean I miss his sass)
- Shiki’s internal struggle with her friendship with Eri and her self loathing was executed pretty well (but I miss the mr. new jab and how he’s more like a piggy)
- beat and rhyme feel like they’re closer friends sorta
Overall, the character development is going more towards the deurotagonists rather than Neku, which I’m fine with sorta but I feel like the show is missing out on him and making him a kinda bland protag. Lemme know what you think in the comments!
Thoughts on Episode 1 for TWEWY
- the art style is really good
- hearing “Calling” after all these years makes me wanna AHHHHH it’s so good
- the pacing for the show is kinda all over the place, for the first episode, we really jumped to day 3 already
- We missed out on the Hachiko dog statue plot, and how the scanning thing is important, like how focusing on certain thoughts really helped . I know minor characters can’t be Dwelled on too long but still, interacting with others in the games was important and showing the weird connection between the underground and the real ground was crucial
- we also missed out on the characters urgency with almost missing their timer, kinda bummed but the fight was still cool (referring to day 3)
With all my complaining I think the first episode is about average, the changes in the plot make me feel some type of way but i’m hoping the plot will get a bit slower and paced better by next episode! See you guys then!
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