Yes You Have ! Rafe Snapped At Sarah Knowing That He's Seen It In Her Eyes. Even If She Thinks She Hasn't,

❝ Yes you have ! ❞ Rafe snapped at Sarah knowing that he's seen it in her eyes. Even if she thinks she hasn't, he's seen her do it. At least...he thinks he's seen her do it.

❝ Because he always compared me to you. Why can't you be more like your sister, why can't you do what your sister does, why can't you just do like you're told like Sarah does...Always the comparison when I'm supposed to be the older one setting the example. No matter what I did for him -- it was you he favored. ❞ He finds himself with his finger in her face but he pulls it back fast, then brings his hands to his head, through his hair.

Then he hits his head with his knuckles hard - the thunks are audible. And then he starts to pace back and forth only to force a laugh when she makes note that he was so wrapped up in the coke and he looked down at everyone else.

He mutters something under his breath , but it's the same thing , the rhythm is there to indicate that he's repeating the same thing over and over and then he says it loud enough.

❝ Because it quiets the voices ! ❞ he shakes his head, pacing back and forth. ❝ They go quiet and I can think, I can think and not hear what they tell me, what dad tells me. Dad wouldn't help me, Rose wouldn't help me...❞ Tears form in Rafe's eyes, and they proceed down his cheeks.

❝ It's all I can do to make them be quiet, to not feel so stupid and so weak and useless...❞

while rafe chases his escape in drugs, sarah had chased hers outside of the walls of tanny hill. she refuses to fall in the same footsteps as her father or god forbid, rose. a life of meaningless wealth and status and unfulfilled happiness. she wants real love and enjoyment of life. no something just to show off with and in her pursue of that, she say what most of her family thought. how they were so wrapped up in their materialistic lifestyle that they lost sight of the real definition of family.

the thing is, even with that knowledge, sarah still hopes that one day they can maybe find their way of being family again. or at least get rafe back as a brother. but that day seemed so far in the future, especially when they are at each other's throats like this.

"that is where you are wrong. i never looked at you like how ward or rose did. i was always worried about you. when dad got mad at you, i wanted to help but you were always so angry with me, with dad. i didn't know how to help." because sarah was young after all. before the gold, before john b, before her life almost ended multiple times. "all i wanted was my big brother back but you were so wrapped up in barry and his coke but looked down on anyone else."

In a world that made me feel worthless , you made me feel something. Like I'm finally enough.

... Y'all got me having emotions over here on Rafe.

I don't like it.

❝ So what you're saying is your parents just fed you the baby variety of everything ; baby carrots, baby corn..? ❞ He knows if he keeps this up she is going to get him back ; and yet .. the smile on his face indicates that he isn't going to let up any time soon. ❝ Oh now you're just getting kinky, Juni. ❞

❝ Did you eat your veggies when you were a kid ? ❞ There is a light yelp he lets out when she pinches his side, but he also ends up laughing after the fact. ❝ You're about as intimidating as a chihuahua. All yips, no bite. ❞

...What is that book title...

How to Lose Friends & Alienate People, a Rafe Cameron Biography.

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