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Opening Eyes - Castiel/Misha Imagine

Summary: Sam Dean and the reader are transported back to the world where they are all actors. There are a few surprises along the way.

Requested By: @jayde0602

Coughing you turned over as water spluttered from your lungs. ‘Alright Y/n, you’re alright’ You felt someone pat your back. You groaned and sat up slowly. Sam was before you holding his head groaning. Dean was on his hands and knees coughing and spluttering. You bolted over to him. ‘Woah there bud’ You smacked his back. He grunted. You heard Sam curse behind you. 'Jensen, you okay?’ You looked up at the man kneeling at Dean’s head who was patting his back.

He had a headset on him. You glanced around. Men and women stood around the three of you. There was cameras and computers and cars behind them. A tent stood on the far side of the clearing you had been in before you had passed out. You all were on the edge of the bank of the lake you had jumped in to avoid the stupid Angel battle. Angel battle, Cas. where was Cas. He had disappeared into the crowd after shouting at you and Winchesters to jump. Your head snapped around looking for him. 'Crap’ Dean grunted. 'Not again’ You felt hands on you and you jumped. Sam dragged you to your feet and then you both reached down to help Dean up. 'Not again?’ You muttered as someone wrapped a large grey blanket around you.

Dean grunted shrugging away from the one being draped around his. You shot him a glare and he sighed allowing the smaller man to do the same to him. 'The weird universe where we’re actors’ He grumbled hugging the blanket tighter to him. 'Are you three okay?’ A short plump man rushed forwards checking you and the boys over. 'We’ve radioed the paramedics, they’re on their way’ You wondered why you would need them, but then remembered that you were probably just actors and things like this were a big deal.

You allowed a smile to grace your face. 'We are fine’ You assured him. 'Although I think in need of a lie down, or a tea break’ The man waved you off. 'Of course, take the rest of the day off and however long you guys need to recover’ He gestured a boy over to you. 'Bob, get them to the tent and some tea and chocolate, chocolates good for shock’ The kid nodded and stuttered out for you three to follow him.

You did. Dean wrapped his arm around your shoulder and pulled you under his blanket with him when he noticed you shivering. 'You alright doll?’ He whispered as you leaned into him. You nodded. 'How will we get back?’ You looked up at him as you made your way out of the group of people. 'What about Cas? What if he needs us and we can’t help?’ Your hands gripped your blanket tighter.

Dean let out a laugh and Sam smirked. 'Course you worry about the Angel’ You felt your cheeks heat up. Typical Dean. His best friend was back home possible dead and he decided to tease you. It was no secret, to anyone, that you were head over heels for the angel. But Cas had always failed to notice. At first you had taken him as shy and oblivious when he ignore your advances. Now you had just stopped, given up on them. It was true he was oblivious but he was also an Angel. He had no interest in you, he had no interest in humans like that. He saw them as fascinating creations, no more. That didn’t stop you crushing on him though.

Everytime you seen Cas you fell for him that little more. It was the eyes. The eyes that just shone goodness. The bright blue that would settle on you and send shivers down your spine. The full lips that just begged to be kissed, that he would part when he was confused. The lost look he would get when he didn’t understand something, oh you just wanted to take him in your arms and run your hands through those dark brown locks.

But what really made you fall for him was just him. How he was always there, how much he cared about humanity. How he had willingly gone against Heaven to help Sam and Dean. He was kind and selfless and good. He was pure and one of the best people you had ever met.

You glared up at Dean and he just smirked. 'Y/n’ You heard your name being shouted and you looked away from Dean. Your breath caught in your throat when your eyes fell on him.

Cas

He was running towards you. The trench coat flapping behind him. His hair was messed up. His eyes wide and a panicked look on his face as he sped towards you. 'Cas’ You breathed out. You slipped from under Dean he was saying something but you ignored him as you began to walk forwards faster than the others. Dean tried to grab you saying something but you were only focused on the Angel who looked pale and worried.

As soon as you were in reaching distance Cas reached out and took you in his arms. Your eyebrows furrowed as he pulled you into his chest. Tensing as he buried his face in your wet hair. 'I heard what happened. Are you okay? You’re not hurt? Oh I’m so glad you’re okay baby’ You slowly reached around and wrapped you arms around him too. Since when did Castiel hug you? And call you baby? And be this open about affection.

He pulled away slightly. His hands came up wiping your hair from your face. 'You are right? I don’t need to bring you to hospital? The medics have given you the okay?’ He leaned down his eyes searching yous. His hand on your cheek his thumb rubbing against your cold skin. You instinctively leaned into it likig the warmth of his skin against yours. 'You’re freezing’ He commented. 'But I’m okay, I’m not hurt. I’m just a little cold’ You reassured him.

You seen the tension leave his shoulder and the worry disappeared from his face replaced by relief. 'Thank God’ He breathed. 'I don’t know what I’d do if anything happened to you’ He smiled and then leaned down. Your eyes widened as he pressed his lips against yours. You tensed in his arms before sighing and leaning into him. He pulled away from the long peck and leaned his forehead against yours. His lips were as soft as they look. And set your body alive before. You gulped as he hugged you tighter. 'Cas’ You breathed.

He grunted. You opened your eyes and were met with those beautiful blue eyes. Only there was something different. There wasn’t as much innocence, as much pain, but there was happiness, real happiness. Something you didn’t see in Cas often, if at all. He chuckled. 'You just called me Cas again’ You opened you mouth furrowing your eyebrows at his confusion. Why was that funny to him? You always called him Cas.

Unless this wasn’t Castiel. That would explain why he had kissed you, the hug too, the baby, the affection. This wasn’t Castiel. The realisation made you pull away from him a little although you couldn’t escape the tight hold he had on you. 'Wait, you don’t actually think I’m Cas do you?’ The worry was back on his face. His eyebrows furrowed. His hands reached out and he took your ams. His hands running up and down it trying to gt some warmth into you 'Baby, did you hit your head?’ It explained why his voice was so different. He hadn’t got the same deep tone. 'Baby, it’s me, Misha’ He said hesitantly. You gulped and nodded. 'I-I know, slip of the tongue?’ Even to you it sounded more like a question. What the hell was going on?

You felt a hand on your shoulder and jumped a little. You slipped away from this Misha guy, Misha, that was an odd name. You stepped back and into Dean’s chest. 'Jensen, Jared’ Cas, no Misha, threw his arms around Sam, or Jared as he knew him. 'Glad you’re okay man, When I heard they had dragged you out unconscious-’ Misha’s voice cracked. Sam cautiously wrapped his arms around Misha patting his back. ‘We’re alright man, we’re good’ He reassured the smaller man.

You glanced up at Dean, who looked slightly bored by this. 'Jensen’ Misha pulled away and reached around you wrapping his arms around Dean. 'Man, I was so scared, I came down as soon as I heard. Thank God, you’re all okay’ Dean patted his back. 'We’re good buddy’ You smiled as Misha pulled away a smile on his face. He left his hands on Dean’s shoulders. 'You still terrified me, worst moment of my life’ He pursed his lips and instinctively you reached out.

You dropped your hands remembering that this wasn’t Castiel. But he had seen anyway. 'Right, we’ll get you out of those wet clothes’ He smiled down at you reaching out. He took your hand in his and pulled you close to him. He ran his hands up your arms and down your back. 'The paramedics are in the tent, and I have to get them tea’ The shy man told Misha. Misha rubbed his hands up and down your back creating warmth.

The man holding you looked down at him. 'That’s smart’ He smiled at him. 'Would you get it ready? The lake is cold and Y/n is shivering’ Misha stopped moving hands and put pressure on your back making you step closer and pressed you against him. You smiled up at him. The kid nodded and ran off towards the tent. 'Your clothes are still in the trailer' Misha wrapped his arm around you tucking you into his side. You knew you shouldn't have but you snuggled into his side. The heat he gave off was too much to resist.

You spotted your name on a small drawer. Y/n Collins, well it was your first name anyway. Beside it was Jensen Ackles, Dean, Jared Padalecki, Sammy. You froze when you spotted the next name. Misha Collins, he had the same last name as you. Sam and Dean walked over to their drawers straight away pulling out clothes. You trailed behind them your eyes flicking between your name and Mishas. ‘Put some dry clothes on and we’ll get you to the tent as quick as we can’ Misha squeezed you and pressed a kiss to your temple.

He went to his drawer pulling out his own clothes. It was a plain jeans and jumper combo. Damn you had always wanted to see Cas in casual clothes. You had loved the suit but you always wondered. You opened your own drawer to find a simple jeans and oversized jumper. You smiled. It looked comfortable. You tensed and became numb. In a small plastic bag was a gold band and another ring with diamonds on it. You were married.

Sam and Dean just stripped, of course and were clothed in no time. 'Time to get me some coffee, you okay?' His voice brought you out of your trance. Dean rubbed his hands together and breathed in them. You nodded. ‘Yeah, I’ll catch up’ He leaned down and pressed a kiss to your drying hair. 'Least you got to kiss Cas, or someone who looks like him' He chuckled leaving. Sam gave you a look asking you silently if it was okay to leave you here. You nodded after Dean, he needed to get wam too and they were both still as old as ice. He squeezed your shoulder before leaving you and a shirtless Misha alone in the trailer.

Your eyes trailed over his chest. Damn he was hot, those hips would be the death of you. You looked up as he pulled on his top. ‘It must be still sinking in for them' Misha was looking at you with furrowed eyebrows. You blushed looking down. 'They don't seem to care that they almost drown' You dropped the blanket and looked up at him again. 'Almost drown?' Your voice came out a whimper. Cas-no, Misha’s eyes widened. He dropped his jumper and rushed forwards. 'Baby, it’s okay. They got you out. You're okay' He took your hands in his. He had a wedding band on his finger. 'I'm so sorry you went through that' He raised his hand and you followed the glint of the band as it made its way towards your face.

A jolt of electricity went through you as this man laid his hand on your cheek. 'You’re safe now, I got you baby' You gulped. 'Misha Collins' You breathed as realisation dawned on you. You were married to this man. You were married to the man who looked like Castiel, who played Castiel in the show about the boys lives. You were married to him. It was the only logical explanation. 'You're worryin me, get dressed, you're still freezing. I need to get you checked out' He dropped his hands and reached into your drawer pulling out your clothes.

Misha sat on the small couch in the corner as you pulled off your boots and jeans. You tried to hide as much as possible. He may look like Cas, he may be your husband but that still didn't mean you were comfortable being naked around him. You pulled off you top and reached around to undo your bra.

You cursed silently unable to undo it because of your numb fingers. ‘I got you’ Two large warm hands covered your pulling them away from the clasp. Misha undid the bra and then picked your jumper from the drawer. He handed it to you. ‘Thanks Misha’ You smiled at him. He reached out and put his hand on the small of your back. ‘Baby you’re still freezing’ He sounded worried. You slipped off your bra and pulled on your jumper.

You smiled as the warm material engulfed you. You never wore anything like this back in your own universe. It was cosy. You tensed when Misha’s hands began to rub circles on your back. ‘You’re so tense, it’s okay. You’re safe’ He began to knead the knots out of your back. Damn those hands were good. You felt yourself loosening up. You sighed and leaned back onto his hands. ‘Come on, maybe some coffee will warm you up’ He took his hands from your skin and you frowned.

You shook your head trying to remind yourself this man wasn’t Castiel. You turned and wrapped your arms around yourself. ‘Here’ He pulled his blue pullover from his head. ‘Misha no, I’m fine’ You protested and grabbed his arms. ‘No, questions. No way I’m letting my wife get sick’ You stopped at the word wife, you were this guy’s wife. You never thought you’d hear anyone call you their wife.

When your were preoccupied Misha maneuvered you into the jumper. He reached around you. ‘Misha’ You grabbed his arm. ‘Eh, what happened?’ He grabbed the plastic bag taking out the two rings. ‘You guys jumped into the lake for a scene and never came out’ He grabbed your hand slipping the rings onto your finger. ‘You’re getting warmer’ He said with a smile his eyes on your finger. You could see the happiness in his eyes as he looked up at you.

He raised his hand and cupped your cheek. ‘Y/n’ He whispered and man you loved hearing your name falling from those lips, especially with the love that was put behind the word. He didn’t have the same grit in his voice as Castiel did but it still made you happy. ‘From now on, the stunt guys are doing that. I can’t lose you’ You seen his eyes behind to tear up and you felt your heart break.

You wrapped your arm around his shoulders pulling him down to you. He wrapped his arms around your waist. He buried his face in your neck pressing a quick kiss to the skin. ‘It’s okay, I’m fine’ You ran your hands over his black hair. ‘It should be me reassuring you’ You shook your head as he clung to you.

Misha had his arm around you when you walked into the tent. The boys were sitting at a table sipping on coffees. A medic was checking Sam over. Misha was wearing a spare jumper he had. It wasn’t as warm as the one you were wearing but he had insisted he was okay with what he was wearing. But you had seen him shiver a little as he walked out of the trailer. ‘I’ll see if I can get you a blanket, go get the medic to check you over’ You nodded as he leaned down and pressed his lips to your forehead.

Dean smirked and slid you a coffee as you sat down opposite him. ‘Looks like you two are hitting it off’ He smirked and you took a sip of your coffee. The medic sat down beside you and began to check you over. ‘We should’ You growled and held up your hand. Dean choked on his coffee when he seen your rings. ‘You two are married? You married Cas?’ Sam gaped at you. The medic looked up at him with a furrowed brow. ‘They’ve been married for over 6 years Jared, maybe I should check you over again’ Sam’s eyes widened.

You cleared your throat. ‘He does that all the time to mess with me. Ignore him’ You smiled down at the medic. He chuckled and nodded. ‘Sounds like him’ You nodded taking another sip of your coffee. ‘Well, you’re all lucky. You’re okay, all I’d say is rest’ The three of you thanked him and he nodded packing his bag. You leaned across the table to the two boys. ‘How the hell do we get out of here?’ You whispered. Dean smirked. ‘You sure you wana go, you seem to be having fun’ You glared at him. ‘Shut up, and stop making jokes’ Sam chuckled a little when Dean scoffed glaring back at you. ‘Last time we had to wait until they came and got us, there’s no magic over here’ Your mouth dropped open. ‘You’re telling me we’re stuck here’ You groaned and laid your head on the hand.

You jumped as you felt someone drape something over your shoulders. You jumped and your head shot up. ‘I got you all blankets’ Misha handed the two boys blankets of their own. ‘Thanks buddy, but-eh- we’re-’ Dean cut himself off when he seen the glare you were giving him. ‘Yeah, thanks’ Sam chuckled beside him and they pulled the blankets around you. ‘What did the medic say?’ Misha sat beside you and laid his hand on your. You furrowed your eyebrows as you realised it wasn’t as warm as before. ‘That we’re all okay, see you’re worrying for nothing’ You reassured him.

The way he worried about you and the boys reminded you of Castiel. Except Misha was a lot more open about that, well to be honest he was a lot more open about everything. You looked down at Misha’s hand. ‘I knew you’d get cold only wear that tiny thing’ You scolded him. You took your hand from his and reached up to the blanket. ‘Oh no you don’t’ You frowned at him. ‘You’re getting cold Misha’ You snapped. ‘You need it more’ He retorted. You grunted. ‘I have two jumpers on. I’ll be fine’ He shook his head. ‘Just take the blanket’ He gripped the blanket securing it around you. ‘Y/n’ He snapped. ‘Misha’ You snapped back.

Dean laughed across the table. ‘You two bicker like an old married couple’ He laughed at you two. You both looked away from each other and at him. ‘We are’ Misha laughed. ‘Okay, yeah I am a little cold’ He grabbed one edge of the blanket and scooted closer to you. Her wrapped it around his shoulder. You felt his arm wrap around you and you leaned into him. ‘We can go back to the apartments whenever you want’ He told you all as the boys stared at you. ‘You guys can stay in the spare room. I want to make sure you’re okay’ Misha told them as you drank the rest of your coffee.

Dean held up his hands shaking his head. ‘Nah man, me and Sa-Jared can stay in ours’ He stated. ‘We got a place right?’ Misha nodded. ‘Listen, Misha’ Sam leaned forwards. ‘We’re beat, we just wana hit the hay. Jensen can stay in mine’ Misha’s eyes narrowed as he thought. ‘They’ll be fine together’ You laid your hand on his knee and he looked at you. ‘The medic said for them to rest, they’d be comfier in their own’ You reasoned. Misha sighed and nodded. ‘Alright, are you ready to go?’ He laid his hand on yours and you nodded. The quicker you got back the quicker the boys could try and fix this. You would keep Misha occupied.

The car ride back was quiet. You were being drove by a large man called Cliff, he was the boy’s bodyguard seemingly. You had yawned and curled up into Misha’s side before falling asleep. Almost an hour and a half later you groaned at the feeling of being jostled. ‘Go back to sleep Baby’ You heard a deep voice. ‘We’re almost there’ You smiled cuddling back into the chest. You were being carried. ‘Cas’ You breathed out recognising the voice, although it wasn’t the same. You heard a chuckle. That wasn’t Cas’ laugh. Your eyes shot open and you looked up. You were being carried by Cas.

Then it all hit you. You were in the other world. This was Misha, your husband. His face was set as he held you. For a second he looked just like Castiel, just like your Angel. Only there was a sparkle of happiness in his eyes. ‘We’ll see you two tomorrow, you need anything just call’ That was when you realised you were stopping outside a door. ‘Eh-ca-Misha, you wouldn’t have a key’ Misha chuckled and bent letting you down. ‘You guys are forever forgetting your keys’ You stood and leaned against the wall. as the three boys walked down the hall.

Misha was a lot more carefree as he walked. He didn’t walk like he held the world on his shoulders, Cas did. He let the boys into an apartment not too far down the hall from you. ‘You could have went in’ He laughed as he came back to you. ‘No key’ You shrugged. The blanket was still around you and Misha wrapped his arms around you sweeping you up into a hug. You reached around patting his back. While you liked the affecting, you really did, It was weird getting affection off a man who looked so much like the man you had grown to really care about. ‘I don’t know how I could have come back here if something had of happened to you’ He pressed a kiss to your head. He pulled away a little making you look up at him.

His eyes were full of hurt. ‘I don’t know how I could have told them’ He breathed and you smiled. ‘But I’m fine’ He nodded and leaned down pressing his lips to yours again. You tensed a little. But then you realised this could be your only chance to kiss Cas, or even a man who even came close to Cas. And he was your husband after all. You relaxed leaning into the kiss pressing yourself into him. He smiled and pulled away. ‘I love you Y/n’ He breathed. You closed your eyes and a wide smile spread across your face. For a second you imagines it was cas saying it to you. ‘I love you too’ You breathed out feeling like you had to say it back.

He pulled away and opened the door. ‘We’re home’ He called walking into the apartment. You furrowed your eyebrows and cautiously walked in behind him. Who was he talking to. ‘Daddy’ A scream pierced your ears. You froze as a small blond boy, no older than 5 came running out of one of the bedrooms. Misha bent and swept him up into your arms. ‘Mom’ He reached out to you. ‘Momma’ Your head snapped back to the same doorway. Out came another child. A little girl, she had make up smeared all over her face, although you could tell a good chunk of it had been washed away.

She ran towards you. ‘No, Mommy’s sick do-’But before Misha could finish his sentence she had reached you. You dropped the blanket and wrapped her up in your arms. This little thing had called you Momma, you were her mother. You had kids. One of the things that was forbidden in your world, something you could never think of. You had it, you had a child. And she was beautiful. You buried your face in her neck and she giggled winding her arms around your neck.

God, she was so beautiful. ‘You’re home early’ You ignored the voice as the child wiggled in your arms. ‘There was an incident at work’ Misha said and you finally looked up. A woman in her thirties stood in the doorway. She put her hand to her chest. ‘Oh, I hope everything is okay’ You smiled at her. ‘Everything’s fine’ You began to make your way to Misha and reached out for the little boy who had called you Mom. ‘I’m glad, I was just about to make dinner, I can stay if you want’ The woman told you both. You took the boy from Misha’s arms and snuggled into him too. Dinner? What time was it? It was almost dark. ‘No, no but thank you’ You looked at her. ‘I can make it’ You told her and she nodded.

Making dinner was always something you had wanted to do. It had always been diner food or packaged meals for you. And even when you did make dinner it was something for the boys or a single meal for yourself. This was different, this time you’d be making it for your family. ‘Baby, you ju-’ You shushed Misha. ‘I’m fine, let me make dinner’ You gave him the best puppy eyes you could having learned the art from Sam. He sighed and nodded. ‘I’ll see you tomorrow then’ Misha nodded at the woman showing her to the door and helping her with her coat.

You walked into the kitchen and out the two kids on the counter. ‘Alright, what will we be having?’ You asked them. The little girl clapped her hands screaming potatoes. The boy just shook his head shouting pasta. You laughed as you watched your children. ‘You should be resting, I’ll cook’ You turned to see Misha walking in a stern look on his face. ‘You help’ You beamed at him. ‘And it’s pizza night’ He told you as if he was reminding you. You smiled and wrapped your arms around him.

You leaned up and pressed a kiss to his cheek, and then tensed. What were you doing, this wasn’t your family. This was other you’s family. You had been so caught up in the fact that you had kids, and they were absolutely beautiful, and had Cas’ eyes, and that you had a home with them, and a husband. And you were going to be making dinner for them that you had forgotten that this wasn’t really you. They weren’t really yours, he wasn’t really yours. And more importantly.

He wasn’t Cas.

But the smile he gave you made all the tension in your body disappear. ‘I’ll go get this little one-’ He let go of you and grabbed his daughter twirling her around. She let out a loud laugh as she spun. A smile spread onto your face. ‘-All cleaned up, and then I’ll be back. Don’t over do it’ Misha told you as he stopped spinning. He bent and pressed a kiss to your forehead and the little boy made a disgusted face when he seen. ‘What’s with the face, mister’ You teased watching Misha walk out and then you picked up your son. He only made the face again as you laughed. ‘Come on, you’re helping with dinner’ You planted him on the floor and ruffled his hair. You decided you liked being a Mom and it made your heart sink that in your world you never could be, and these kids would never exist.

You softly closed the door behind you with a sigh. You were worn out. Those kids were energetic. After dinner you had all played for an hour or two before you had turned on a cartoon for them. Misha had gone round to check on the boys leaving you alone with them for 10 minutes or so. He had come back worried about them because they weren’t there. You had ended up having to reassure him that they were probably just gone to the store or something.

You loved how much he cared for the boys, you really did. This man was amazing. Fake you was really lucky to be married to him. He was kind and open and best of all he made you laugh. And he was an amazing father. The kids loved him and you could tell he loved them, more than anything in this world. Eventually you had given them both a bath before putting them to bed.

You had read them a story and sang them a song before just sitting and watching them sleep. They had taken after their father definitely. They were beautiful, having a little mischievous glint in their eyes that you had seen in Misha’s. ‘They took a long time to get to sleep’ You turned looking behind you.

Misha was crouching by the fireplace the flames leaping in the in front of him. ‘They fell asleep over an hour ago’ You admitted and he laughed standing. He opened his arms to you. ‘This is the first night in over two weeks where we’re not working’ He smiled as you walked towards him. ‘I pulled out the wine’ He nodded towards the coffee table as you stepped into his arms. ‘We can watch that new movie we wanted to watch’ You wrapped your arms around him smiling and closing your eyes. ‘Sounds good’ You could get used to this. The normal life, no hunting, no magic. A family, kids and a husband. Yeah this was something you had longed for without even realising it. Something you couldn’t have back in your universe

You yawned as the credits rolled. You were curled up into Misha’s chest as he wrapped his arms around you. You snuggled further into the blanket he had gotten and laid over you two. ‘Tired?’ He pressed a kiss to your head. You nodded closing your eyes. ‘Time for bed so’ You shook your head. If you went to sleep you might wake up in your world. You wanted to savour this for just a while longer. You leaned back looking up at him. His eyes shone in the light of the fire as he looked down at you. A small smile on his full pink lips. God, he was so handsome. His hair fell down on his forehead, not in his usual Cas style but a Misha style. It was untidy and messy and begged for you to fix it, but it looked too good on him to fix.

He chuckled and slipped out from underneath you and stood holding out his hand. ‘The medic told you to rest, come on’ You groaned and stood. He had been looking after you all night, not that you didn’t like it. You actually did, you liked someone looking after you, someone there for you. He fussed over you, something you weren’t used to. Being a hunter meant you looked after yourself, you got back up and dusted yourself off when something happened. You didn’t make a big deal of it.

But here was this man making a fuss over you, making sure you were warm enough, you were always comfortable. More than one he had felt your forehead just to make sure you didn’t have a temperature. You squealed and wrapped your arms around his neck as he swept you up into his arm. He chuckled and began walking towards another room. He kicked it open and you gasped. ‘Shhh’ You hushed him. ‘The kids are asleep’ Yeah, you really did like this being a Mother, you had slipped into the role easier than you had imagined. Misha dropped you on the bed and leaned down over it. ‘I know’ He winked and pressed a chaste kiss to your lips.

Before you could react he pulled away and walked towards the drawers beside the door. He opened it before pulling out a t shirt and tossed it to you. ‘I’ll go check everything is okay and you get changed. You cocked your eyebrow sitting up. ‘If you wanted me naked you could have just asked. Misha rolled his eyes laughing as he walked out of the room.

You curled up under the blankets. Damn they were comfy. You looked up as Misha walked back in. He closed the door behind him causing the room to darken. You heard him walking towards the bed and you could hear him shedding the layers f clothing he was wearing. You felt the bed shake and him curse. You laughed a little and he grumbled but you could hear the laughter behind it. You sat up and held out your hand. ‘Here, you’d think you’d know where the bed was’ You felt him take your hand and you guided him onto the bed.

He slipped under the covers and yanked you closer to him. You felt his skin against you. Your eyes widened realising he was wearing nothing but boxers. Your legs tangled together. You blushed, you were only wearing one of his large shirts. You gently ran your fingers over his torso as you laid your head on his shoulder. He tangled his fingers in your hair before tilting your head up. ‘I love you’ He breathed and pressed his lips to yours. You melted into the kiss sighing as your lips moved against his. You knew you shouldn’t be doing this, this wasn’t your life, he wasn’t your husband. But you could enjoy this, you could enjoy this perfect little life you had, for as long as you had it.

You turned over away from the heat source groaning. You smiled, never had you had a motel room so comfortable, and these sheets were so soft. You tensed panicking when you heard a groan behind you and you felt an arm fall over your waist and tugged you back into a chest. You looked over your shoulder. Cas?

No, no it was Misha. You turned in his arms. There was a dull grey light coming from the window meaning it was early morning. You reached your hand up running your fingers along his cheekbones. His skin was so soft. Your fingers ran along that jawline you had admired since you had seen Cas, the prickle of is growing stubble made you smile. You jumped a little as you heard a small bang outside.

Your head snapped towards the door. You gently lifted Misha’s arm from around you. You slid out of the bed. You quietly padded towards the door opening it as quietly as you could. You peaked around the corner of the room. Your eyes landed on a dark figure standing at the end of the hallway. They reached out putting their hand on the kids room door.

You jumped out and rushed forwards. Before they could move you grabbed the back of their shirt and slammed them into the wall. You pushed your arm into the back of their neck. ‘The hell’ You heard a grunt. ‘Dean’ You hissed and stood back. ‘Who else would it be?’ He turned glaring at you. You rolled your eyes. ‘What the hell are you doing here?’ You whispered as you walked back to the room and closed the door. Misha was sleeping still.

Dean opened his mouth to speak but you shushed him and pointed him in the direction of the kitchen. ‘What’s going on?’ You whispered walking over to the sink to get a glass of water. Dean didn’t respond for a moment. ‘We got a call, me and Sam, last night’ You nodded and turned. You froze, you hadn’t heard anyone else knocking around.

You gulped as you seen his eyes met yours after he took in your attire. ‘Cas?’ You breathed. It looked like him. That suit you loved and covered in the trench coat/ You had never noticed how rigid his posture was before, you guessed you were just used to it but you noticed now. You noticed how his shoulders were back his back straight and his face stoic. He nodded. ‘Yes Y/n’ The gravelly voice sent shivers through you.

You beamed as you put down your glass and rushed forwards. You threw your arms around his shoulders. Dean cleared his throat but you didn’t care. ‘Eh- Y/n’ Dean chuckled. You knew your shirt was riding up but you just wanted your arms around Cas. Cas hesitantly and loosely wrapped his arms around you. You felt your heart fall a little.

You sighed and pulled away from him stepping away looking down at your fingers. ‘Cas can get us back’ Sam rushed to cover up the awkward situation. You looked up at him. ‘What about everyone here? Will they remember? Or will it go back to yesterday?’ Cas cleared his throat. ‘It will be as if you were never here’ You nodded a little sadly. ‘Oh’ Was all you could say.

Sam reached out and put his hand on your shoulder. ‘Y/n?’ You looked up at him. ‘Wha- what if I don’t want to? Go back I mean?’ Sam furrowed his eyebrows. ‘I mean- what do I have to go back to?’ You pulled away from. ‘An empty apartment I’m never in, smelly motels that I stay a few days so I can kill a monster. I don’t even talk to people I know for months on end, before this case I hadn’t seen ye in almost 5 months’ You threw your hands up in the air. ‘I have everything here, a family, a nice house. I have everything I can’t have back there. Everything I wanted’ You felt the tears pool in your eyes.

Sam looked surprised. You didn’t dare look at Cas. ‘Y/n’ You froze as you heard your name coming in a soft call. Your eyes widened. ‘Hide’ You pushed Cas behind one of the worktops and into the corners. You were wiping the last tear away as Misha came into the room. ‘Hey’ You smiled softly at him. He looked at the boys. ‘What are you all doing up so early?’ You shrugged. ‘Came up for some water heard them knocking’ You explained walking over to him. ‘Why don’t you go back to bed?’ You suggested as you took his hand. ‘Baby’ His hand came up cradling your cheek. ‘Are you crying?’ His eyes widened.

You gulped and shook your head. ‘Yes you have been’ He accused. ‘What happened?’ He bent to your level. ‘Are you okay?’ You reached up and took his lips between your fingers closing them. He raised his eyebrow and you giggled. ‘I stubbed my toe I’m fine Honey’ You felt his lips pull at your fingers and you knew he was smiling. You let go of his lips and they stretched onto his face, his teeth showing. ‘The boys are leaving soon’ You told him. He nodded. ‘Is your toe okay?’ you nodded. ‘Go back to bed Honey’ He chuckled and looked at Sam and Dean

He quirked an eyebrow. ‘What would I do without her huh? Always putting me in my place’ He chuckled. ‘Alright, love you’ Misha leaned down and pressed his lips to yours again. You pulled away and buried your face in his chest. He wrapped his arm around your waist and the other held you against him. Your arms wrapped around his waist and you sighed closing your eyes. ‘Momma’ You both pulled away.

Your daughter stood in the doorway rubbing her eyes. You pulled away from Misha. ‘Yes Baby?’ You bent and picked her up putting her up into your arms and putting her on your hip. ‘M’thirsty’ Misha nodded and began to walk into the kitchen. ‘I got it’ Dean rushed. Sam put his hand on Misha’s shoulder stopping him. If Misha went any further into the kitchen he was likely to see Cas standing in the corner.

Dean handed the little girl a cup of water. ‘Thank Jenjen’ You smiled down at the little girl as she gave Dean a lazy smile. Misha chuckled. ‘I’ll put her back to bed, then I’ll wait for you in ours’ Misha took the little girl from your arms. He leaned down and pressed a quick kiss to your lips. ‘You guys should take the day off’ Misha told the boys. ‘Me and Y/n are going to bring the kids to the park if you want to join us’ Sam smiled and nodded. ‘Sure, sure we’d love to’ Misha smiled. ‘Alright, night guys’ They both said goodnight to him and Misha kissed your head before leaving the room.

Your eyes stayed on the spot that the two people had disappeared. ‘This isn’t you life Y/n’ Sam said when Misha was out of earshot. ‘This is someone else’s’ You sighed nodding. You knew that, you just didn’t want to face it. ‘I know, I know’ Your eyes landed on Cas as he watched you with furrowed eyebrows. ‘I’ll go get dressed’ You sighed willing yourself not to cry.

You knew you only knew them for a day, not even a day, only a few hours but everything inside you told you they were where you were meant be. ‘I just want to say goodbye to them’ You turned and rushed out of the room and down the hall.

Misha sat up when you came into the room. ‘The boys gone?’ He asked. You began pulling open drawers. ‘No’ You cleared your throat. ‘De-Jensen is having some trouble with something and I’m going to go give him a hand, I should be back soon, go to sleep’ You finally found the drawer that had your jeans in them. You pulled one out and began to pull them on. ‘Woah, woah Baby’ Warm hands grabbed yours and he stopped you from moving. ‘You’re worrying me’ Misha looked you in the eyes and you looked away looking towards the window. ‘Is this to do with why you’re crying? You didn’t stub your toe did you?’ He fussed.

You leaned up and pressed your lips to his quieting him. Your lips moved against his trying to pour your emotions into a kiss. After all this would be the last time you would get to do anything like this. ‘I just have to go sort this tiny little thing out, your wife will be back soon Misha’ You untangled your hands from his and left him standing in the middle of the room.

You stopped by the kids room as you went out. Your daughter was asleep again. You sighed and walked over pressing a kiss to their forehead. You smoothed her hair off her face. ‘It was wonderful to get to know you both’ You pursed your lips. You stopped in the doorway looking at their sleeping forms again. ‘They are beautiful’ A deep voice whispered behind you. You jumped and looked to see Castiel stop beside you

You gulped and nodded. ‘Is it them or the man who makes you want to stay?’ He asked keeping his eyes on the children. ‘Both’ You answered. ‘I want to stay for them both, but that is selfish’ You felt a hand in yours, intertwining their fingers with yours.

Castiel was holding your hand. ‘I would not allow you to stay, for my own selfish reasons. I do not believe I would be happy with your absence in our Universe’ You looked up at him. ‘These children, they are a result of the man who looks like me and he woman who looks like you’ He changed the subject before you even had a chance to say anything. ‘Yes’ You breathed looking back at them. ‘Then they are not your children’ You scoffed.

You pulled your hand from his crossing your arms. ‘I know that Castiel and I know he is not my husband. They are something I will never have. Those kids are something I will never have’ You snapped and closed the door. ‘Y/n, I did not mean to hurt your feelings’ You shot him one last glare before striding back to the kitchen. ‘Lets go’ You walked by them and out of the apartment leaving behind the life you never knew you wanted.

The car ride back to the clearing was silent. Cas had satten in the back with you and had attempted to talk to you once but you had seen Dean shaking his head in the rear view mirror and after that Dean had dropped it. You all stood by the edge of the dark lake now. You had your arms wrapped around you. ‘Are you cold Y/n?’ Cas asked and you shook your head. You knew you shouldn’t be angry at him, he was merely stating the obvious but it still wasn’t what you wanted to hear. In your mind those kids would always be part yours. They would be what came if you and Cas ever had a family.

The water began to glow from below the surface. ‘It is open’ Cas told you. Dean jumped straight in immediately and Sam followed. You looked back over your shoulder taking in the few things scattered about the clearing. Well, it was good to experience what life could have been if your family hadn’t of been murdered by those vampires, if you hadn’t of become a hunter. You sighed and turned.

You were met by Castiel watching you with a tilted head. He held his arm out offering you his hand. ‘Please come back with us, please do not stay’ You shivered his voice affecting you just as much as it always had.

Looking at Cas you realised that maybe your life wasn’t exactly that bad. Sam and Dean were amazing, and Cas was something else. He was a real angel. Your own little slice of Heaven. You would go wherever he would. ‘Please, it would hurt me if you did not’ He whispered. You let a small smile cross your face. You reached out and took his hand. ‘There was never any real doubt of me not following you Cas’ You breathed and he smiled. He smiled so wide you could see his teeth. It wasn’t a small smile but a full blown one.

He tightened his grip on your hand. ‘I did not like thinking about you with him, he loved you I could see that but I couldn’t allow you to be with him’ He turned away from you and tugged you towards the water before you could say anything. Again telling you something and now letting you ask him to elaborate on his words. ‘We must go, or it will be closed’ You nodded and jumped into the water pulling him with you.

You coughed and Dean pulled you from the water. ‘Rough ride?’ He chuckled. You felt another hand on the small of you back and you instantly dried. ‘I will get you back to the motel’ Cas came to stand by you. He nodded at the two angels that stood behind Sam and Dean. He reached out to the two brothers and you all were shifted.

You were back in the shabby little motel you and the boys were staying at. ‘I should get some sleep’ You muttered turning away from them. You needed to sleep this off.

No sooner had you closed the door were you met by Castiel standing at the foot of your bed. ‘You could still have that life’ You held your hand to your chest trying to calm your heart. ‘I’m a hunter Cas, I can’t. And no I’m not giving up being a hunter, not when I know what’s out there. Your eyes ran over the angel standing at the bottom of the bed. He was nothing like the man who played him. But it was no contest, if you had to choose, you would choose Cas. Everytime.

Cas nodded. ‘what did you mean when you said you couldn’t let me be with him Cas?’ He looked down at the ground uncharacteristically shy. ‘I always allowed you to be with other men, men you found in bars or on a case because I knew you would leave them eventually. That you did not care for them’ He paused and looked up at you. ‘But him, you would not have left him, or those children’ You shrugged. ‘I wouldn’t have if it hadn’t been for you’ You shrugged and walked over to your suitcase.

You couldn’t keep eye contact, he was so intense. The way he looked at you set your body on fire. And right in that moment you realised that no one could make you react like Castiel did. There was no one who could make you feel like he did. ‘Y/n’ You jumped as he laid his hand on your shoulder. ‘Do you love me?’ Your eyes widened and your mouth opened and closed. You turned to look at him. He had that cute interested face, his head slightly tilted to the side, his eyes squinted and lips parted. ‘Dean told me you love me, I believed it was only as a friend. But right now I am not getting that kind of longing from you, it is something more’ You didn’t think it was possible but your eyes widened more.

Your lips quivered. Then you took a shot. You grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him down to you. His lips met yours as you pressed them to his in a chaste kiss. You other hand grabbed the lapels of his coat.

For a second Cas froze but you were surprised when he wrapped his arm around your waist. The other tangled in your hair grabbing a fist full of the back of it. His lips began to move against yours as he pushed you back into the wall. You gasped at the impact. His tongue traced against your parted lips and then the pulled away.

You panted when he pulled away. ‘I did not believe Dean was telling the truth’ You let out a breathy laugh. ‘Misha wasn’t you Cas. He wasn’t you, and for a long time I’ve only wanted you’ You felt Cas press his lips to your head. ‘I am yours Y/n, I am yours’ You smiled and had to hide your face in his shoulder when you yawned. ‘You should sleep, travelling to parallel universes will drain you’ You nodded and pulled away from him.

You pulled off the jeans and climbed into the bed. ‘Y/n’ You looked back over at Castiel. ‘I enjoyed kissing you and would like to do it again some time’ You smiled. ‘You can kiss me whenever you want Cas’ With that he strode across the room and took your face in his hands pressing his lips to yours again.

You smiled into the kiss. You may have lost a family and a simple life but you had Cas. And you knew you would always choose Cas, no matter what the other choice was. Nothing would ever make you think otherwise.

Not even Misha Collins, he was perfect but he just wasn’t Your Cas.

Woah....Okay I kind of noticed this was EXTREMELY long and I’m sorry about that... I think I may have gotten a little carried away.

I do apologise.

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