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a lot of my self-loathing was easier to destroy for me when i realized that a lot of the stuff about my appearance was disgusting to me because it wasn’t aligned with the standard of “what white women should look like” that had entered my mind through mass media. and i’m about 90 percent of european descent. your attempts at unlearning of internalized racist imperialism will help your body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria because oppression is intersectional. a lot of the same stuff that’s leveled at trans women is also being leveled at women of color of all backgrounds. not a new thought by any stretch but it’s important for a lot of people to hear.

Touch me

fucking trans women - Mira Bellwether

hi your selfies were on my fyp i just wanted to say ur literally so pretty

thank youu! so sweet!

everyone so confident they have a gaydar…

but war has evolved

i realized i was a system like 2 days ago almost? and i’m noticing that i’m actually engaging in a form of masking similar to my autistic masking, but where i’m literally pretending to be my more palatable outward personality that everyone knows and expects of me instead of my actual personality that’s in the driver’s seat at that moment and it’s really jarring. I wonder if i’ve been doing this my whole life? or is this totally new? working through this shit on my own w no prior knowledge or experience is wild

outfit dump featuring sadako

i went to the aquarium!! love FiSH!

pisses me off when somebody specifically asks for help w something and then somebody says “you don’t have to do that thing to be valid.” most redditshit ever. bitch they specifically asked for something they wanted. we should strike “valid” from our vocabulary. To me it means fuck all nothing.

fuuck i think i just realized i’m a system… will update but it feels like when spider-man gets infected with venom right now lmaooo

Mystery / Koan

I don’t know about anyone else, but I, as a trans woman, do not know what it is to be a man. I know what it’s like to be surrounded by men, to be picked apart by them, to have masculinity enforced on me and to have my femininity degraded. I know what it’s like to be targeted for punishment, physically and sexually, for my femininity, for a girlhood the boys and men could see in me, to be queerbashed, to have my head slammed into hard surfaces, to have my genitals fondled, to be injured in all kinds of small and repetitive ways with things like pens, compasses, and so on.

I know what it’s like to be assumed to be a man, and to be abused because I am not. I know what it’s like to be separated from my female friends as a young child because my status as a ‘boy’ meant that I needed to be placed with the other boys, the ones who degraded me and hurt me. I know what it’s like to be beaten and burned. I know what it’s like to have teachers make an example of me because I cannot conform. I know what it’s like to be made afraid of being around other people, because people means abuse.

But I don’t know what it is to be a man. Even after everything they tried, I wasn’t one.

yes I'm a woman in exactly the same way all cis women are. yes woman is a made up category whose meaning is entirely dependant on societal assumptions. my womanhood is as fake as and in exactly the same way cis womanhood is. that doesn't mean it's not real tho

taking a trans girl on a botanical garden date as foreplay

anybody on here wanna unsex me?

this is what it’s like talking to other transfems…

Remembering that I, an autistic who can’t really live independently, saying that I don’t want it to be someone’s burden to take care of me I want it to be someone’s little treat…

Yeah it makes sense that I’m really into the human domestication guide

What’s your thoughts on Delicious in Dungeons Character Designs?

Ryoko Kui is the best to ever do it.

if i have to see the phrase “biological woman” once more in this lifetime i’m going to become the kind of creature that is only whispered about in hushed tones by the fearful masses.

Watching my paycheck hit my account and then immediately watching all of it go to rent before i have even gotten to work today is so soul crushing

it ok to not be ready