I Am In A Personal Rut In My Battle With Mental Illness. Mainly, The Doctors Have YET To Find The Best

I am in a personal rut in my battle with mental illness. Mainly, the doctors have YET to find the best combination of meds to keep me calm and control my symptoms. I do not kid myself, I will be on Anti-Psychotics and Anti-Anxiety meds for the rest of my life. That being said, I have hope that at some point in the future, I will have the right combination of meds needed to finally live in peace. I have struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was in 2nd grade. With my breakdown, those thoughts increased, with me thinking that my parents would be better off without worrying about me. Those thoughts are still there but they are on the back-burner now.

Now, I fight my mind for my life's sake, and the fight is worth the backslides that appear. I have hope for the future; the sun WILL come out tomorrow, and I want to live to see it!

I don't want anyone to die because some nihilist bastards say that recovery is an impossible pipe dream that you will never achieve. Anti-Recovery? How in the hell did that get the traction it has? Don't believe the naysayers! Recovery is REAL and ATTAINABLE!

ive been on tumblr a long time and i remember when everyone said “oh don’t romanticize mental illness” and it was agreed that doing that was gross and a good way to kill people indirectly

but somehow we’ve come full circle and there are people who legit defend their right to be anti-recovery there are people who don’t want to get better and spread the idea that you can’t get better as if it’s gospel and it’s fucking frightening to me bc nobody seems to want to say “hey? this is toxic and untrue and is your disease speaking, and it’s not something you should accept.”

and i feel like every recovery post gets about 500 of these people saying “this isn’t something that will work” “cool karen i’m depressed” “maybe it worked for you but it won’t work for other people” and that’s… just… im so sorry if you’re 15. i’m sorry if you’re in high school and watching grown adults tell you it doesn’t get better. that nobody says that with time and help and patience the world stops being so heavy, that accepting your illness as a fact is one thing but accepting it as the only way to be is just wrong, that you can learn to live with it and still find some degree of “happy”…. if i had seen this shit back when i was … oh god starting at 12 when i was already self-harming …. i think i’d have actually honest-to-god killed myself. not a joke, not a funny tumblr punchline, i would have actually just killed myself. 

i’m saying this right here and right now to the adults on this site. if you for any reason shoot down positivity that’s causing no harm - you might have indirectly worsened someone else’s condition, and you should try and do better in the future. if you find it necessary to tell people “recovery is a lie”, you need to do better. i know everyone has different circumstances, but i also know that mental illness behaves in such a way that everyone thinks they can’t recover.  if you feel like you should be spreading the Word Of Relapse, you are causing toxic language to be normalized and you need to do better. 

im team “cool karen ive got depression and that means i’m going to try this because i’ve got to try something” i’m team “romanticize recovery” i’m team “it isn’t working now but it might in the future and it’s worth staying to find out” im team “hey this didn’t work for me but it might help somebody else out”

fuck guys it shouldn’t be an unpopular opinion to say “i don’t want any of you to die”.

Pinterest

#madanaru #пирожок@madanaru.. | MadaNaru | Madara Uchiha × Naruto Uzumaki | ВКонтакте | Naruto shippuden characters, Naruto, Naruto shippude

Oct 10, 2020 - #madanaru #пирожок@madanaru #art@madanaru

I like this artwork! It is very well done, and it is MadaNaru! Found it on Pinterest and I knew I had to show you guys.

@lewistheeditor, Vielen Dank! (Thank you very much!) for stressing the importance of crediting artists' work, so beneath the image, I put a link to the actual page it is on! I will try to make a habit of this, unless it is from the actual anime or manga, as we know who to credit there! Again, thank you!

Listen to this person!!!!! I have a shitty internet connection and if it rains, I can't get on ao3 to read my fave fics, so I started downloading them. What this person says though is true, the fics may not be there the next time you go to the site. It's a lot like buying a hard-copy book that you really like. The bookstore can take it off the shelf at any time and if you really wanted the book, your SOL.

The authors don't mind, they posted their work on the site to share their hard work and to please their fans. Give them kudos, type a comment, and then download it so you can read it until the end of time... or at least until your computer dies.

A lesson I should have learned a long time ago, but that I routinely forget: Download your favourite fics. They might not be online forever.

Well, folks, it's that time again! Time to end the day and embrace our sleep with loving arms.

For those who, like me, are going to bed: Good Night and may sleep find you content and reward you with happy dreams!

For those who are going to stay awake, either for work or entertainment: Good Night and I hope you stay safe and enjoy whatever hobby you will be indulging in!

Pinterest

Pin on ❖Bnha❖

Discover (and save!) your own Pins on Pinterest.

Link to the Pinterest page the image is located on. If you know the artist or ARE the artist, let me know so I can give you credit for this amazing work of art!

Look at "Dababy!" His look says, "No. Mine! Touch and I kill you!" This is one of the CUTEST Dabi pics I have ever seen!

Pinterest

Pin on BNHA BOYS

Discover (and save!) your own Pins on Pinterest.

Another art post that isn't mine, but I don't know the artist either. I put the link to the page on Pinterest where I found him. No identity is mentioned, it is even asked for by one of the commenters on the page. If you know who drew this, message me the identity, and I will edit it into this post. If YOU are the artist, message me either your approval or disapproval of my using the image.

Wattpad

El Omega Del Rey Licantropo

Una historia que no era como creía, el mundo que recien comenzaba a ver como era. Izuku es comprometido con el heredero...

The link to this image leads to this Wattpad. The story, when translated is:

"The Omega of The Lycanthrope King." It is in Spanish, so I couldn't read it, even with my computer being able to translate the title.

The story and image belong to TaraShinka on Wattpad:

Wattpad

Tara Shinka (@TaraShinka)

Katsudeku🧡💚 Kirideku❤️💚 Tododeku🍰💚 5 Works, 12 Reading Lists, 987 Followers

I put this link up if you are interested in her stories (and can read Spanish). I wish I could, I would SO read this and her other stories.

Anyway, enjoy!