Tw For Abuse!

Tw for abuse!

Omg, so my mom is like super abusive to me (DW I’m okay) yesterday I was like super mad at my mom, like the most mad I’ve ever been at her and this morning she comes in room and tells me she had a nightmare.

But! The weird thing about this dream is that is was about animal crossing (which is one of my current hyper fixations) and basically it was like my villagers and blathers and everyone else telling her to like leave me alone 😭 Also it was Eunice that was the main one tormenting her, but she said that she wasn’t calling her Eunice but something that starts with a U. And think about it Eunice sounds a lot like Universe (at the start at least 😅)

So basically, my spirit guides and stuff got my back. 😂

Hello! I’m back from my little break, but I bet you didn’t even know teehee. Today’s topic is…. (Drumroll please)… What Mitski song describes you? I mean, who doesn't love Mitski? Her music is honestly iconic. I throughly enjoyed doing the Neighbourhood post, so I decided to another one of my favorite artists. What's your favorite Mitski song? I think mine is either Nobody or Me and my husband. Ok and just like the Neighbourhood post, the album you pick doesn't mean that your pile will have a song in the album and this reading will be spilt into your life, your personality, and you in your truest form, except I'm gonna add something which will be how are you presenting yourself now.

To pick a pile, take a deep breath, relax, and pick an album cover.

Warning ! Warning! Remember, tarot readings are not the end all be all. So if there is something that you don't like or if it doesn't resonate, don't take it! Second, don't take tarot readings as replacement for professional advice, I beg of you. Finally, I'm dyslexic, so if something is... Off, either call it out or ignore it and move on with your life-respectfully.

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Pile one

Your life: brand new city

Some lines that stand out

-I think my heart is ready to die

-Honey look at me

-I think the ground is pulling me down

-And teach myself how to die.

Ok I know that that they lyrics do look morbid, but it’s not like that. I’m getting that life had it’s go at you. You’ve definitely have been through a lot, but you don’t let it get you down. You might actually look back at with a sense of dark humor. You may think that life is just passing you by and you don’t think that you’re doing anything meaningful. I’m thinking that there is a person that maybe broke you heart. It doesn’t have to be a romantic partner, it could be a friend or a parent/guardian. For some of you, you could’ve just recently lost a loved one.

Your personality: townie

Some lines that stand out

- And I want a love that falls as fast

- I want a kiss like my heart is hitting the ground.

- And change, change, change is gonna come, but when, when, when

I’m getting that you are a confident person. You have a very loving personality. You are a very tough person. You are the warrior of your life. You stand up for yourself and don’t let people take advantage you. You try to keep a positive mindset, but it can be hard for you. You seem like the type of person who’s always in a relationship or always wants to be (nothing wrong with that).

How are you presenting now: Pearl driver

- Dive, dive, deeper

- But hunter, you were human, don’t forget it and go safely

- And, I, I’ll live without you, though the struggle will be daily

Right now you could be doing shadow work, healing, and/or going to therapy. You’re admitting when you’re wrong and learning from your mistakes. You could be feeling like you’re stuck in a sort of “limbo” phase. Though I think that you were the type of person to stand up for yourself, I think that you’re getting even better at it. You’re breaking bad habits especially bad love habits.

You in truest form: working for the knife

- but I’m working for the knife

- I start the day high and it ends so low

- Now at 29, the road ahead appears the same

-I always the thought the choice was mine and I was right, but I just chose wrong

You in your truest form will not be afraid to admit when they are wrong. You will also be fine with not knowing what is going to happen. You in your truest form will not be afraid to let relationships go. You won’t care about pleasing anyone or making people like you.

Pile two

Your life: last words of a shooting star

Lines that stand out

- And I am relieved that I’d left my room tidy

- They’ll never know how I’d stared at the dark in that room

- And you’d say you love me and look in my eyes but I know through mine you were looking in yours

- I always wanted to die clean and pretty

Growing up you were always told that you needed to behave and look a certain way. You could’ve grown up with narcissistic guardians or guardians that wanted to live through you and you really struggled to give through that. You may have also struggled with distancing yourself from this people as you got older. Like even though you know it would be best, you love them too much. It could also be that you grew up in a less than accepting family and you had to hide you were. Now that you’re older, you can start to be yourself.

Your personality: First love/late spring

-lately I’ve been crying like a tall child

- please don’t say you love me

- And I was so young when I behaved 25

- one word from you and I would jump off this ledge I’m on baby

You could be a person who is not very trusting. You have a hard time letting people in and you build walls around yourself. You’re the type of person to smile through the pain and pretend like everything is ok. You tend to not care what people say about you. No offense, but you’re the type of person to get mad when someone complains about their childhood or problems because you think that they don’t have it as bad as you. You may do this subconsciously. There’s nothing wrong with that, but when you get these thoughts, catch yourself and realize that everyone’s problems are valid. You could also be the type of person to push people away.

How are you presenting now: me and my husband

- and then I’ll be nothing forever

- so I bet all I have on that furrowed brow

- but when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved

You could have just met a new person and you are investing all of your energy into this new relationship. You kinda of just sit around and wait for things to happen instead of making them happen. Instead of investing all of your energy into other people, you need to start investing it in yourself. There’s nothing wrong with putting energy into your relationships, but you need to balance it out.

You in your truest form: I will

- I will take good care of you

- there’s no need to be brave

- cause all I ever wanted is here

You in your truest form will put yourself first and take care of yourself first. You will be able to be comfortable with yourself and know that your home is with you. You will not be so guarded and afraid of getting hurt. You will know how to love unconditionally both yourself and others. You will let people shower with you love and you will not push them away. You’ll love yourself first. And I’m not saying that you have to completely love yourself to love others and actually find good people for you will help you love yourself.

Pile three

Your life: fireworks

Lines that stand out

- and when I find that a knife sticking out of my side, I’ll pull it out without questioning why

- I will be married to silence

- I’ll hear fireworks outside, and I’ll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry

You enjoy having peace and quiet. You’ve always preferred being alone and getting away from people. You’ve always had a hard time expressing your emotions. You also could’ve been bullied before or have had people against you and you feel like that has made you strong. Though you may not like to admit it, you could be a romantic at heart. In the past, you could’ve had friends that turned on you for no reason or that were toxic.

Your personality: jobless Monday

- oh, I miss when we first met, he didn’t know me yet

- makes no difference where we’ll be

- But please under the light of day

You always had a hard time getting to know people. You’re the type of person who thinks that they don’t need anyone. You’re not the type of person who gives second chances and you also might be more pessimistic. You also might enjoy traveling and have always wanted to get away. Though may not think that you don’t need anyone, you have always wanted that special person in your corner. You always have felt like you don’t fit in with how your supposed to act.

How are you presenting now: fireworks (again)

Uh I don’t think there is a point to pick out lines haha

You’re presenting for very strongly. You don’t give up and you’re very resilient. “It’s over when it’s over” is your motto right now. You know that there’s no escaping your issues and others issues so you go through it all. If you’re not mentally not doing well, but you should always to rest mentally when you can and take care of your mental health. You have a hard time trusting especially in relationships. Whoever hurt in your past really left a bad mark on your life and mind. Though it may be hard, the only way to heal is to let it go and forgive, so you can move on and be happy. Though it’s weird to say, you’re too strong for your own good. You don’t deal properly with your emotions because you say you’re “strong” but you don’t have to be. It’s ok to feel your emotions and not be strong all the time. You don’t have to push everyone away in fear that they will hurt you, it’s ok to trust again.

Shhh, don’t tell the other piles, but I’m gonna give y’all some extra advice: you need to spend some more time looking within. You also need to take a reality check, is that person really not trust worthy or are you being paranoid. Follow your intuition.

You in your truest form: working for the knife

- I guess ‘cause I wish I was making things too

- I always thought the choice was mine, and I was right, but I just chose wrong

Ok so you in your truest form would know that they are able to do whatever they want without making excuses and without needing anyone’s approval or validation. You would feel better about meeting people and not automatically not trusting them. You would able to find true love and friendship. You would start attracting them. You won’t be ashamed to show the world your true self.

Pile four

Your life: fireworks (wow this song is popping up A LOT. If you feel called to pile three, check it out)

Lines that stand out

- I’ll keep going to work and he won’t see a change, Save perhaps a slight gray in my eye

- and I’ll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry

- but you know, oh you know in the quiet he holds, runs a river that’ll never find home

For some of you, you were really praised as a kid for something that you were good at. Like sports, academics, etc. This made you feel like that people didn’t care about some of the other things that you were interested in. You could’ve also felt like that people didn’t care about how you felt. You might be the type of person who falls for someone very quickly.

Your personality: last words of a shooting star

- they’ll think of me kindly

- carefully I was going to live

- quietly it was told to believe

- I’ve always wanted to die clean and pretty

You’re a people pleaser and you only want people to think highly of you. You may have a hard time with differentiating friends from acquaintances. You also could be the type of person who gets irritated when people don’t do their share of work. You probably don’t like when people worry about you and you don’t like sharing your feelings.

How you’re presenting now: real men

(Also this song says nothing about your gender, dw)

- and real men suck it in

- little boys cry and look around for comfort

- and tell me, “well done girl, you’re looking good.”

- oh I’m gonna be a real man

So you are presenting as the type of person who seeks external validation and doesn’t show emotions in public. You always act calm, cool, and collected. If someone is unnecessarily rude or tries to walk all over you, you’ll just suck it in. You could be feeling every lonely right now. You try not to dream that much and stay in reality. Which is really sad btw,,, it’s never a bad thing to dream and actually it’s very important to have hopes and dreams. You try to be the very refined person. Instead of following your own dreams, you follow the dreams of other people or what people say is stable. Like say you wanted to be a musician growing up, but someone told you that you should be something more “stable” and be like a doctor instead. So that’s what you would do. But you need to listen to yourself and your heart and do what you want.

You in your truest form: heat Lightning

- though I’ve held on, cant carry it much longer

- so, I give it up to you, I hope that’s ok

- well I’ve held on but feel a storm approaching

- Can I give it up you? Would that be okay?

You in your truest form would be able to live out their dreams. You may have held on to other people’s expectations, but you’ll know that you don’t have to do that no longer. You’ll be able to speak to other people about how you feel and you’ll not feel like you’ve burdened them. You’ll be able to have intimate relationships with people. You would be able to ask for love you deserve and not settle for less. You would see the hope in the future. You wouldn’t forget all the good things out there in the “bad” moments.

Pile five

Your life: crack baby

Lines that stand out

- blank open eyes watch the moon flower bloom

- crack baby, you don’t know what you want

- but you know that you had it once and you know that you want it back

Ok so in your childhood you probably had people that invalidated your feelings. Because of this, you had a negative a perception of people and the world and you also thought you had to do it all by yourself. Despite this, you always try to be as loyal as possible to the people that are in your life. Also growing up and even now you may have been told that you were a lot better than others at certain things, so you may have gotten a big head,,, you may also be quite stubborn towards change and you accept things as they are.

Your personality: a pearl

- sorry I don’t want your touch

- it’s just that I fell in love with a war

- sorry I cant take your touch

- it’s not that I don’t want you

Ok so like I said in the life part, you probably have a very big ego. I also get that you’re very hardworking. Also, if you want to, you should check out pile 3 and 4. You’re very prideful. Some people might also call you arrogant. You’re very stubborn and won’t take no for an answer (not in the gross weird way, I hope,,, always ask for consent plz and respect it) I’m getting that you’re a very masculine energy which doesn’t mean that you have to identify as masculine, it’s just your energy. I also get you can be very intimidating.

How you’re presenting now: nobody

- And I don’t want your pity

- And I know no one will save me

- And still nobody wants me

You’re presenting as the type person who is very confident and knows what they are doing. You are also presenting as the person who doesn’t want love, help, and maybe even friends. Your probably not interested in finding a long time partner and are only interested in hookups. Though deep down you probably want to find someone to settle down with. You’re presenting as the type of person who is a “realist” or just basically a pessimist. You see things as the way they are and not as they could be. You’re not the type of person who gives out second chances.

Your truest form: first love/ late spring

- wild women don’t get the blues

- so please, hurry, leave me, I can’t breathe

- Tell me “don’t,” so I can crawl back in

While I get that you’re confident now, you’ll be more confident in things like talking about your feelings and stuff like that. You will be able to correctly express yourself in a healthy way and you’ll have healthy relationships. You’ll be more satisfied with your life. You’ll realize you’re the ruler of your life and no one can dictate that. You’ll be able to change even though it will feel uncomfortable but you’ll be ok with that. You’ll be able to see things as the could be and you won’t just accept and expect the worst.

Thank you so much for reading! And I hope you enjoyed this reading :) I hope you have a wonderful day, night, or evening

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Hello! Today's topic is (drumroll please)... What will your February 2022 be like? Wow, it's almost February already! So far my 2022 has been fine. How has y'all's 2022s been so far? I hope it's been great! Also, I hope you like bread.

To pick a pile, take a deep breath, relax, and pick whichever bread you're most drawn to.

Warning ! Warning! Remember, tarot readings are not the end all be all. So if there is something that you don't like or if it doesn't resonate, don't take it! Second, don't take tarot readings as replacement for professional advice, I beg of you. Finally, I'm dyslexic, so if something is... Off, either call it out or ignore it and move on with your life-respectfully.

Also, if you enjoy my readings and you want to, you could donate and support me! I would appreciate it a lot!

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Pile one

Hello! Hope you're ready!

February is going to be one of your most social months. Which is both a good and a bad thing. Because you are not alone, your gonna feel like you can't be your true self in a way because you have to like perform for people. You'll miss your alone time. On the flip side, the good things are that you'll meet more people and celebrate with them.

Blessings: you'll definitely be more connected with yourself. Being around all those people will help you realize things about yourself. This month you'll be more connected to your masculine energy. In a way, you'll be led to your calling.

Challenges: you may struggling with what's fair. You might be going through a legal situation, but doesn't have to be. In a way, you'll feel ripped off or like you didn't get what you deserve. This will most likely happen with a person you meet. This could be a situation in school or work like in group projects where you could be doing all the work. When this happens, take deep breaths and keep calm.

What you need to focus on: you need to focus on taking care and being true to yourself in February. Don't be someone you're not. Be patient and strategic know your social interactions.

Advice: alone time and go with the flow. If your into things like this, you could connect with Crystals and do sound healing. Be authenticly you! Try to see the bigger picture! I hope everyone's February is amazing!

Pile two

Hello! Hope your excited!

In February, you will be healing and focusing on yourself and that healing. In the end of 2021 and the start of 2022, you been recovering from some kind heartbreak and now in February, you'll be at the very end of the journey. You're almost there.

Blessings: In February, you will find stability. For some of you, you'll stop feeling like you have to rely on others. And for others, you'll be able to give more to yourself. You have to fill up your own cup first. You'll find strength and you'll focus on yourself (finally).

Challenges: you will face the feeling of the lingering heartbreak that you are healing from. The change could also be difficult for you to handle. Try to find balance in your life. Like life to work balance or work on putting self care into your schedule.

What you need to focus on: focus on finding peace. Work on inner child healing. Try to find silence and time for rest.

Advice: go outside, take a walk. Start a dream journal and drink plenty of water! Honour your feelings. Stop overthinking and let your fears dissolve. I hope y'all have a peaceful February.

Pile three

Hello! Hope you're ready for this!

This February, you might be going through a "test" of sorts. There will be a hard decision coming up (perhaps in work). Instead of looking at this decision through your eyes, do what feels right.

Blessings: though, this hard decision will bring good luck! And a lot of happiness. You could meet new friends because of this decision. You will seen as mature, clever, and powerful.

Challenges: you could struggle with being unproductive. Because of this new position, you could feel like you don't have to work as hard. But! Don't think like that. Be humble. Don't let your ego get the best of you!

What you need to focus on: don't get lazy! Focus on working hard. But, make sure to take time for rest and relaxation. Stay productive.

Advice: dance, spend time with animals, take a walk, and eat a sweet treat! Trust all will be well, believe in your good luck, and practice gratitude. Don't stress too much over this situation! I hope you have a relaxing February.

Pile four

Hello! Let's get into it!

In February, you will probably be feeling pushed to the limit. Probably with a particular person or group of people. There are toxic people in your life that you need to get rid of and your starting to realize this.

Blessings: you will be breaking out of bad habits and bad cycles. Without these things distracting you, you'll be able to move forward with a purpose. Good change is coming. You will more dedicated in your studies or work.

Challenges: you may struggle with passion. Also, because of this toxic people, you may struggle with self image. Perhaps a lot of trouble with arise when you call these people out. Also these people could be some of the only people that you call "friends" so you may struggle with leaving them behind. But you need to. Relax and go with the flow. More people will come into your life.

What you need to focus on: getting comfortable in your own skin. Know that your not alone! Stop lying to yourself about your circumstances.

Advice: spend time with family, make an altar, drink some tea, and get a health check-up. Be proud of yourself, know your worth, don't let people walk all over you! Release your blocks and keep your heart open. There will always be more people.

Thank you so much for reading and sorry for any mistakes! Overall, have an amazing February and year.

Hello, hello! Today's topic is... (Drum roll please) who has feelings for you?😳 Yes, yes, a truly romantic reading! Now if you're thinking, " psh, no one has feeling for me. Not a single person!" First of all, have more confidence in yourself and second of all, you wouldn't seeing this reading! ( Side third of all, you don't need to have a person who has a crush on you to be valid! You're valid no matter what) Now if this isn't person who likes you now, this a person who likes you in the the not- so- far future! Like 6 months at most! Ok so plz, don't worry! You are completely lovable. Also, if you are aromantic AND/OR not interested in this stuff, then this isn't for you dear. Let's get into the readings! There are 4 piles here and the numbers on on the bottom of the pictures as usual!

To pick a pile, take a deep breath, relax, and pick the cat you're most drawn too!

Warning ! Warning! Remember, tarot readings are not the end all be all. So if there is something that you don't like or if it doesn't resonate, don't take it! Second, don't take tarot readings as replacement for professional advice, I beg of you. Finally, I'm dyslexic, so if something is... Off, either call it out or ignore it and move on with your life-respectfully.

Last but not least, I'm offering free readings as long as they are not too long! Just DM me!

Pile one

Hello, hello! Are you excited? I am!

Ok I'm getting that you know this person very well. You folks got a lot of majors, so this might be a divinely guided connection. This is a person who is very kind and loving. I'm feeling you 2 get along very well. You might of had a negative past with this person, but it is either better or getting better. There is a lot of energy in this relationship. This a one of kind love ☺️

Advice: you might have a negative perception of love, but it's time to let go of that,, (I know I know) stop treating love so Seriously. It's time to have fun! Does this person make you happy? If so, be with them! Don't be afraid dear!

Zodiac signs: leo, Cancer, Virgo, fire signs, water signs, air signs.

Pile two

Hello! Hope you're excited! I know I am!

So much earth energy! This is a very stable type of person! This person works very hard and is very proud when the see the fruits of their labor. They enjoy their alone time and I'm seeing they either have a hard time making friends or they have a very small circle. This person may have a cold, hard exterior, but they are very warm and loving on the inside. They are very passionate and wise. This connection was meant to bring stability, ease, and comfort.

Advice: take action! Don't be shy, if you like this person, show 'em! Also, you need to take care of yourself first! :)

Zodiac signs: aries, virgo, pisces, earth signs are BIG here, fire signs, water signs, air signs, and Virgo again.

Pile three

Hello, hello, hello! Hope you're excited for this!

This person is family oriented! They are a person who likes to take their time with things. I'm getting that this a person who will be very honest with you and isn't afraid to speak their truth. This person desires deep connection with people. This connection is one that will help you accept and connect with yourself. I feel like this person will help you let go of something or someone that shouldn't be in your life.

Advice: this person might not be the type of person you're usually into, but you need to be open to change! Do some deep healing!

Zodiac signs: Aquarius, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Leo, Aries, Libra, Virgo, fire signs, Libra again (lots of Libra energy), Aquarius again, air signs, earth signs, water signs

Pile four

Hello! Hope you're doing great! Let's get into it!!

For this person, they are very balanced. This person might be more pessimistic and might just say that they are more of realist. They seem like the brutally honest type. They probably have a hard time letting go of the past and might hold grudges. They are probably very emotional, but try to hide it. I'm getting Scorpio Energy,,, they are a strong person. There's a lot going on with person. This seems to be a karmic connect. This person will remind you of your worth.

Advice: push through any insecurities and take time to look at your feelings. What is your heart telling you about this person? Follow it! Stop overthinking things about this relationship. Also, for some, this person could be apart of you soul family.

Zodiac signs: Scorpio energy is big here, Leo, Aries, cancer, Libra, Virgo, Taurus, Aries again, cancer again, leo again, Virgo again, Capricorn, Aquarius, Aquarius again, air signs, earth signs, water signs.

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed this and sorry for any mistakes! Remember I'm offering free readings! Just DM me!

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My mom is very ill, we have house repairs that insurance won't cover, we need to get away from my abusive stepdad, and we are practically drowning in debt because of my stepdad. We could use as much help as possible right now.

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