I Know Thats Right!!!!

i know that’s right!!!!

i just rewatched the ej and jamie scene again because i felt as though i didn't properly get it the first time, and my heart is shattered.

i can just imagine all the things going through ej's head as he's listening to gina's brother praising him about being a brother figure in her life.

the most painful part is that this man put himself out there despite his fears and now he has the impression that gina doesn't like him in the way that he likes her from someone who hasn't seen her in a long time. that sigh at the end says everything because he really thought she was the one just to feel disappointed.

i really hope that based on the sneak peak of 2x12, he sees just how happy gina is to go out with him.

portwell x fanfic moments

now that it's the end of season 2, i thought i'd make a big compilation of portwell moments that were straight out of a fanfic:

plane ticket: the first sign in season 1 of them actually becoming friends. i absolutely love this moment and it's so deeply personal to me. their conversation while the show kept on going and the way they looked at each other, it felt as though it belonged on ao3 instead of being canon but i'm so grateful for it :D

fake dating at north high: honestly everything about this moment is so pure and so adorable. the way he brings her in and puts his arm around her, the risotto - i will never get over it.

ej picking gina up from the airport: her flight to louisiana was cancelled. he went to bring her back in the morning. the moment was actually so perfect and on top of that, he brought her the granola bar she forgot. the entires time, she wore his sweatshirt which was so comforting and cute.

the risotto date: he remembered their little moment at north high and got the courage to ask her out for for real. their facial expressions and gina's excited walk away was so perfect.

can i kiss you: after the mutual heartbreak because of miscommunication, gina went to him outside slices and asked him to be her first kiss. the way they walked ran towards each other and were so unconditionally happy after so much tears was straight out of a rom com.

they finally got the happy ending that they deserved and i'm so happy :D

maybe it’s just me but if portwell hadn’t been a thing i would not have been even 1/5739238752 as invested in this season of hsmtmts

definitely not over the portwell kiss

probably one of the main reasons why i love portwell and think they will stay together for the long run is because they have the ability to acknowledge the other's worth.

in the first season, both ej and gina were constantly second choices, ej with nini and gina with ricky. even if it wasn't totally obvious, they seemed to be in second place to someone else. nini was still not fully over ricky, causing ej to hurt, and ricky was not fully over nini, causing gina to hurt.

even in something as trivial as the improv exercise, ej asked gina because he genuinely wanted to, not because someone wasn't there. he gave her compliments and made her feel like the only girl in the world. he wanted her to open up and talk about her experiences. when ej brought his concerns to gina, she gave him advice, care, and attention.

it's so important that gina wanted ej to be her first kiss because that is something so monumental and requires total faith in the other person. he wasn't stuck in second place anymore. standing in front of him was a girl who trusted him, loved him, and wanted to be with him.

in the airport scene with jack, gina mentioned that she wanted to get her first kiss once she found the right guy who would show up and stay around. throughout the entire season, ej proved just that. from picking her up at the airport to asking her out, he showed her that she is worth so much and was always there for her when she needed him.

so yes, the finale ended in the best way possible and i love that they have such a strong underlying connection between them.

1x05 | 2x10 | 1x09