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I wish I could fuck you so hard into the mattress every night that you beg me to stop but still push back against me

I wanna travel and fuck you in every city we go to

I meant that you’re the best thing that ever happened to me and if I lost you I’d lose myself which is why I hold on so tight and sometimes i feel like I drown you…

“I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tightly is we fear something great won’t happen twice.”

— Unknown

“I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tightly is we fear something great won’t happen twice.”

— Unknown

Could be us

I was talking about being afraid of people leaving me behind because I'm too sick, and my boyfriend just looked at me and said: "It's my choice to be your boyfriend. It's your friends choice to be your friends. You don't have to understand it, but you have to respect our choice. Don't try to make the decision of whether you're worthy of people on their behalf because that's not your decision to make." I think that's an important thing to remember. That whether we're worthy of someone's time and effort is something others can decide for themselves regardless of whether or not we agree with them. There's a lot of peace in realizing that literally all you have to do is accept the love other people choose to throw your way. That you aren't the one who gets to determine that you aren't worthy of their love. That other people can choose to love you regardless of how you feel about yourself - and that you can learn to respect their choice even though you're feeling unworthy.

“She understood that the hardest times in life to go through were when you were transitioning from one version of yourself to another.”

— Sarah Addison Allen

You are endless summer in my heart. Your warmth never leaves me. The breeze brings to me the smell of flowers in the air and above me clouds frolick full of dreams and innocence. The eternal sunshine of your presence forevermore burns like the soft melody to which the flowers of my heart bloom.

e.v.e.

maybe I should just stop talking in the mornings

maybe you’d feel less insecure

maybe we wouldn’t feel strained…

maybe if I wasn’t in pain I could actually talk louder for you to hear me….

Sorry I’m such a fucking overthinker and I upset you for no reason.

I don’t ever try too, most of the time it just comes out wrong or I’ll think you’ll understand when I should’ve been more thorough.

I’m sorry I’m in pain and easily irritable right now.

Sorry I can’t speak properly.

Sorry I can’t even apparently message right while you’re asleep.

Sorry I can’t seem to be good enough to help you through your insecurities lately.

I love you.

I’m just tired baby.

Tired of being over worked.

Tired of doing things all the time.

Tired of all the expectations of me at work.

Tired of my family being sick.

Tired of not knowing how long my dad has…

Tired of not being sure of my place in this world.

Tired of not having money to do things I enjoy.

Tired of taking things for granted and not realizing until after the fact.

I’m tired of not knowing where I’ll be in 5 years.

I’m just tired of being tired.

Tired of living on some days but then I look at you and know my future with you is going to be wonderful.

I’m just tired. But I’ll be fine. Eventually.

I love you to the moon and back baby. @blackfox1013

Baby. You’re breaking my heart.

You’re not annoying.

You’re not a failure.

You’re mine. And I’m yours.

I’m just exhausted from work. Worried about dad. Worried about mom. Stressed because I can’t seem to muster the energy to clean my own room, never mind my car being a mess and not having the energy to do anything.

I’m sorry I’ve been so snappy. I know you were just excited and it’s my own fault for having the phone be so loud when I answered your call.

I’m always excited to talk to you baby. I’m always excited to see your face and I love watching you sleep and watching you be focused.

I’m going to try to be less bitchy…I’m just so tired. And stressed. And wishing you were here.

I love you. Please don’t doubt that. Or forget that.

I'm sorry I'm annoying

I'm sorry I don't make you smile

I'm sorry I am failing to make you laugh

Sorry for being excited to speak to you when you ended the call early earlier in the day and I hadn't gotten chance to message you because I was driving. And it was a stressful day.

Sorry you don't look at me the same way you did a few months ago

I'm sorry I've let you down

I'm sorry I'm a failure

I'm sorry...

Just want to see you smile. Be happy. Laugh. And I do make you do any of those things...

Baby I’m gonna stop you right now because I love you and we’re gonna have disagreements. It’s okay. I’m not leaving. You’re not allowed to leave. You’re mine and I’m yours. You’re not boring or stupid and you’re definitely enough and all that I need.

I. Love. You.

Why am I so annoying... Why am I such a failure... Why cant I just make her happy.... Why can't I just seem to make her smile...

All I do is annoy her...

All I want is for you to smile and be happy... And I can't even do that.

I'm boring

I'm stupid.

I'm not good enough

“I just don’t know how to love with anything less than my whole heart …”

—

“Be nice to yourself. It is hard to be happy when someone is being mean to you all the time.”

— Unknown