I Wish I Was Without A Body.

I wish I was without a body.

ps: pics are not mine

I am so anxious, I wish a bus could hit me so that I wouldn't have to end it myself

I have an eating disorder but I don't want to die.

I don't want to die. People think that girls with an ED want to die. I want to live but differently.Being skinny is never just about being skinny, it's about ascending and floating above this heavy world that we live in.

I chose chaos as a teen

As a teen I willingly chose an aesthetic of chaos and self destruction. There is something incredibly beautiful in destruction. It looks and feels stylish. It feels empowering. Then one day I woke up. I realized what I had become. I had become nothing. I felt accomplished in my own destruction, and I was scared of how far I could keep on going. I couldn't keep on becoming nothing. I felt like Susanna Kaysen, I decided to heal and go out of the ward; to heal and not to fantasize about Lisa Rowe.

Anyways, as a young adult, my advice to all of the teens here: Choose life, don't waste your youth deconstructing yourself. the aftermath of self destruction is regret.

Imagine if everyone was kind, that would be so hot

I am not suicidal, because even in my deepest despair I still laugh at cat memes