It's 10 Pm And I'm Falling Down Again

❍⌇─➭ it's 10 pm and i'm falling down again﹀﹀ ︵↷

𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘺 - 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦

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it's happening again.

honestly, i dont know where to start. i would tell you directly but im just so scared and i dont know how to put it into words when im talking to you. you make me feel so special and like im the only person in the world even though im really not and i dont get it. love is a fucking wild thing and i didnt ever think i'd find it so soon but here we are and i love you.

it's so wild and strange and new but i love you. i really do.

and im terrified it's not both ways.

i haven't even seen you in over a year. how is it possible for me to miss you this much even though it's been so long since i've been around your physical presence? my heart races and my cheeks flush and my breathing goes erratic and it's simply because of a single text from you.

and yet, there's always the innate, inner fear. what if when we finally see each other again, i dont meet your expectations? im not that amazing in my opinion. you might be disappointed and the magic might disappear and i won't be as happy as i am now cause i wont have you.

and if you find someone new?

it's not like i'll be mad at you or anything. as long as they make you happy i'll find some way to be okay so you don't really have to worry about me. it'll fucking hurt though haha.

but right now, im going to cherish each and every memory we have and that we'll make because it's what i have of you besides the bracelet i made myself to remind me of the person that makes me feel like maybe im enough.

look at me, spilling most of everything right now onto the screen and for the internet to see.. maybe it's cause im scared of what others might think if i tell them, maybe it's because i need somewhere i can have with just me and my thoughts and nothing else. not too sure.

thank you for everything. truly. i'll keep it close to my heart always.

remember when you said "the thought of you makes me happy" ?

you are the cause of my euphoria <3

love, your sweetheart :)

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therapy is extremely expensive in this economy 😔🤝

hello hope you’re doing well 😁😁

pls rate my wrapped 🙏 my sanity depends on this

I can tell you use music for therapy

told myself i was gonna read something SAD and CRY before bed AND YKW THIS ABSOLUTELY DELIVERED :( GOD :(

lavender + vanilla ; one/two

☇ one/two , two/two

➣  pairing: taehyung x reader

➣  genre: angst angst angst

➣  word count: 4.7k

➣  a/n: inspired by a text i saw while scrolling on tumblr

➣  summary: a story about a boy who had forgotten his memory of you

After break ups, you usually would find yourself wanting to forget your significant other in order to heal all the pain by doing multiple things that either included drinking to forget their name, going out for a run to feel at least somewhat better your body and soul, or cleansing your mind entirely by painting or sleeping for a whole month. But in this case, you never thought forgetting someone could lead to a break up.

It was that morning when you remember answering your boyfriend of 3 years, Taehyung, on the phone when it was 8 and he had told you that he just left his class to greet you a good morning. It was your favorite type of calls- just hearing his voice in the earliest of day when you were too tired to get up and the only source of energy that got you awake was him- even though you miss the smell of his vanilla scent on your pillow.

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grinding and cramming for finals when I'd rather be grinding and cramming. in like a sex way or something. i guess. i dunno. shuffles away sadly. hits my head on a low-hanging branch and bleeds out in the snow

we're running out of time to fuck it we ball....

Don't Be Weird

a reminder during this difficult time...

if you are willingly seeking out unofficial pictures of the boys, trying to find their military schedules, looking up what they're eating every day, describing throwing/using weapons of mass destruction as a fun 'adrenaline' inducing activity... please respectfully get help. If you are trying to actively romanticize the military despite this being a forced conscription, you need to reevaluate your position as a fan and realize that this isn't some fun summer camp. They are being taught how to kill people. They are being forced to give up over eighteen months of their lives for a war decades older than they are. Both Namjoon and Yoongi have written about the subject of enlistment in quite a harrowing manner. I recommend you look into their works and stop viewing a government institution built on turning Korean men into personal property as something cute and quirky.

I have seen way too many people look into military schedules and make heart-and-rose-type posts about the members throwing grenades. Fucking grenades. BTS are already going through an extremely difficult time and they do not need an army of stalkers endangering them further.

Also...

DON'T FUCKING WRITE THEM LETTERS.

The company already addressed this several times with both Jin and Hoseok's enlistment, so if you write them a letter, you're not a fan -- you're a terrible person. I'm not going to sugarcoat that because you're actively going against their wishes.

Anyone who makes the military about ships gets a hard block from me. Anyone who tries to leak personal information gets a hard block from me. You will also be reported for actively trying to doxx someone. I've seen some people pass around that blurry picture of Jimin and Jungkook in a military classroom being like "SEE, THEY'RE NOT SITTING TOGETHER SO THEY'RE NOT ACTUALLY COMPANION SOLDIERS/DATING" as if you know how the seating chart works in the fucking military. No Sasaengs. No unconfirmed sources. No shippers. Nothing.

Get. A. Grip.

This type of obsession is not normal.

I'm stuck with you all until 2025, so I'm not going to sit here and watch you all call forced conscription sexy. As a non-religious person, I'll still say that you're going to hell for that.

See y'all in six months when Jin is discharged; we're in for a hell of a ride.