I Went Into The Study Room After A Hard Afternoon (I Was Laying In My Bed For Hours Because Hearing A

I went into the study room after a hard afternoon (I was laying in my bed for hours because hearing a certain bad word frightened me so much that I felt that fright in my shoulder/chest long after that and I had to calm my nerves - also had to take my meds, but I'm finally starting to accept that I need them) because my aunt called me and I didn't want to talk in front of my roommate, and while talking to my aunt there came a girl into the room to study. After I finished talking on the phone we actually started to talk with the said girl and turns out she is currently studying Norwegian (I studied Norwegian for three years myself!) and the realization hit us both so randomly that after that we talked for half an hour about books, music and concerts and it felt so great because I almost forgot I have my anxiety and panic disorders and for half an hour I felt somewhat normal, it was a delightful feeling! I really think it's a sign that I'm not fighting in vain and great things can still happen, even in these cruel conditions. I feel greatful!

- Reni

your kindness should include yourself

reminder to self: you are not faking your illnesses. you are valid and so are your conditions.

Just in case you don’t get to hear it from your parents or family in general…
You’re doing a great job. I am so proud of you. I believe you can achieve your dreams. You’re going to be okay. Making mistakes is okay. You are important. And you are deserving of love and happiness.

You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.