Darkside

darkside

I'm going all dark again, a little bit. or maybe the itnernet makes it easy to pretend to be one way or another. what ever, I've tried to eat a live a few teen girls who type "I"M proud to be psyco" or "i'm insane, deal with it"

so yeah. would of been almost fun to see anon raids, or hateing haters, stir up the fun. I seem to be obcessed(which it's ok to be obcessed, no shame in that!)

so, how much of tumblr has people proud to be obcessed with baby snuff porn? I mean, I really would like to see these tragic things happen. even if I need to spend months and months of creative lies to make the most questionable person ever.  to see how much the world lights up with someone...dying over, being bullied for "being obcessed with toddlercon snuff porn"  I just don't have anyone, and know to fake deaths in real life, outside of "person presumed missing".  you can't hijack the airwaves and all the news with that, and I know from the "truthers" people want bodies. those sick fuckers say SandyHook shooting didn't happen/was all stated with actors, because they did not publish photos of the bodies. what the hell kind of person wants to see dead children?

so I can only assume that, people will have feelings, for someone who did die of sad, because evil people will tell someone to kill themself, if they write fan fiction that involves cartoon children, gore and brutal rape.

Now come on, tell me, tell me you would support them, you would right?

you would even if it was done for "the lulz" or only if a 13 year old writes it "because it is the only thing keeping them alive" and you never bash what people like. because those stories they write are make believe! and telling someone to die in a hole for it is hurting. it's murder.

this whole carade, it's easier than making a movie about said events, a mix of real and fake drama, and faked deaths, sock puppet haters, and someone doing questionable things.  like how you don't tell raciests off (no really, it's so not cool to tell anyone to kill themself, even if they say to kill all Muslims, or bomb Asia or anything. not even a kid who microwaves kittens. trust me on this, I troll facebook with these "what ifs" and I get supprising answers of "nobody deserves.....") nobody deserves, and yet those same people are most likly going to bitch about offensive media, like "Oh no, another save the princess video game" or "this movie is horrible, and women hating, the female character dies brutal death" why is that important? they will tell me I'm wrong for making them sad, yet if I made horrible movies, they can bitch about me and be heros

now where was I? I don't know.

maybe I'll blame my messes on my bipolar2. that is what the cool kids do right?

so their "i'm a target' is a noble sacrifice or are just have internet masochistic tendencies? "who will feel sorry for me unless I..." which then if they are masochistists, what is so wrong in emotionaly marring them? they like it, they want it. give them the fun they desire so much but are afraid to tell

Uh so like what happened did those people fake their suicides or what's really going on? I'm so confused.

What happened is really, really simple, and your major resource to look at that clusterfuck can be found on the affectedbyfake blog. This is a link to a list of pseuiciders that were mysteriously ‘hacked’. (As a bonus, this is one of the most bizarre things that I have ever read. No, it’s not satire, although I thought so at first, considering the words ‘medical wonder’ were used, but, damn, seriously, top-notch medical-fantasy, right there.)

Basically, it’s been a massive circle-jerk of hate for attention. Notice that despite the supposed ‘anon raid,’ only small blogs were targeted — minus sweatrjensen (whiskeyjensen), but she had posted before the ‘hack’ that ‘#hahah like anyone cares,” which is still there, even though the rest of the ‘hate’ and subsequent ‘Elvira “let me give ridiculous hospital updates!”’ posts have all gone. That one particularly stings, because we had spoken before, and I was personally hurt by that lie, which triggered my own, genuine feelings of self-hatred at not being able to help her. It’s not exactly rocket science to see that these people faked hate to attract attention for themselves. And it’s horrific.

With every concerned person that spread lines of urls to give ‘support,’ they gathered more followers and thousands of messages between them. The concerned people saw this rash of hate and panicked, believing an outside source. Thanks to rumours, that turned into, “4chan is targeting Tumblr users!” and then managed to evolve into, “4chan is going to hack lots of accounts! Jensen’s Twitter’s going to get hacked! Jared and Jensen’s lives are in danger!”

The problem now is that some of the concerned are outraged that they were duped — myself included, for a short time — and lash out, refusing to believe that they were manipulated. Thanks to twisted social justice warriors, these lying, manipulative people that thrived on faked attempts of suicide are being protected, even though their hate set countless others to panic, triggered depression, self-harm and suicidal thoughts.

Right now, Tumblr users are on Omegle, pretending to be from 4chan and offering their urls as ‘targets’. I went on there personally yesterday and was told incredibly personal things about tiny blogs, all with messages on their blogs that they were lonely. One in particular has posts about 4chan’s ‘plans,’ with screenshots, no notes on any of them, but on Omegle, the ‘stranger’ told me that the blog ‘knew too much’ so deserved hate, and asked me to promise that I would send them hate. I mean, seriously.

Look at it this way: if hackers wanted to frighten people, they would come here, find the biggest blogs and attack them, then fan out from there. They wouldn’t trawl through a tiny blog’s personal posts — some of which didn’t even have ‘personal’ tags.

Whenever you see a ‘a raid is planned!’ or ‘this person is a target!’ post, sit back and think about it. Of course some people were sent genuine hate, but that hate was by other Tumblr users looking to add to the drama, which hurt real, decent people.

The pseuiciders? Until they come out and apologise, promise to never do those things again, then they don’t deserve our care or our help. It doesn’t matter what their mental state is. As a person that suffers with depression and constant suicidal thoughts, I can categorically tell you that there is no excuse, none, to treat suicide as a joke, as a game, or for nothing more than a ploy for attention. It’s damaging and just plain wrong.

All I can hope is that one day, those people will look back at this and be truly, deeply ashamed.

Hi Helen, I hope you're having a good new year! So I saw this post the other day asking people to stop calling the Winchesters "nice." They described Dean as a sociopath. I was wondering your take on the Winchesters being described as "psychopaths" or anything like that? I had replied that I definitely do not think they are because they feel guilt and struggle with morality. Would you like to share?

The Winchesters are not ‘nice’ people. But they certainly aren’t psychopaths, and the attempt to label Dean as a ‘sociopath’ reads like an excuse to canonise non-canon abusive behaviours.

It’s really fashionable right now to have individuals — and favourite characters — stuffed under a label, set into a single box and consider the matter closed. That isn’t how life works. People have their labels, their descriptors, but that isn’t the essence of who they are. They are much more complex, and this is why others prefer the labelling system, because that way, they don’t have to factor in every grey area.

Dean is loyal, dependable, strong, with a tight moral compass learned from John. He’s also self-negative, needy, dependent and prone to physically lash out. On the flip side, he’s fierce, violent. His moral code doesn’t include money from others, as money is an unimportant concept. He’s a functioning alcoholic that tried to release Lucifer from the box and jump-start a fresh apocalypse, all for the want of releasing Sam from the Cage. He lies to women about his identity for kicks, but treats them well as people, using sex as a surrogate for intimacy, as he’s been conditioned to believe that outward feelings are weak. The number of hook-ups that he’s had have dwindled over the years, all because there’s a guilty steak that taints everything that he does. But he adds to the guilt because that’s his responsibility, a world-wide responsibility to each individual person alive in a twisted martyr complex that has him believe that if he fails, if something goes wrong, everything is his fault. So he covers those insecurities in more alcohol, more grins, all because he doesn’t believe that anyone should care about him. If they care, then their care is wasted, spent better on others. He takes compliments as jokes and finds it difficult to see other peoples’ behaviours as anything other than black or white. His worldview is limited to the self-imposed limits that he’s set on himself. He’s intelligent, but buries it. He’s there to kill monsters, not to comfort victims. When faced with death outside of those he’s actively come to care for, it’s another joke layered with this-is-my-fault if they’re already part of a case. When he dreams, there are nightmares, so he tries not to and now barely sleeps. His childhood was both stamped down and drawn out, because although he was forced into a horror-filled world from a young age, he sat back and obeyed until he was twenty-six, enough to stunt more adult growth and learn to depend on the needs and desires of others to fulfill himself. He’s broken, snapped apart, and has no concept of real self outside of physical needs.

Sam is intelligent, compassionate, independent and empathetic, with a more flexible morality that leads him to reason out all of his actions. He’s also cold, cruel and lashes out verbally. When he’s emotional, he swings between depressed and angry. The needs of those that he cares about supersede both victims and civilians. Where Dean’s lies are overt, Sam uses his intelligence for manipulation of others, using soft words and careful attention with witnesses which he can turn off immediately when out of their vicinity. Anger issues have dogged him since he was a teenager. After Jess’ death, he had to be restrained and pulled away before he attacked a civilian hunter. With more time on the road, more traumas, his moral compass has shifted. He once cared about credit card fraud, but had no remorse when faking a 911 call or stealing a car. Sam internalises his guilt and stretches himself to try and prove that he isn’t a bad person. He wants to be saved, wants to save others, but he believes that he’s a lost cause. With his suicidal tendencies, he stores every negative feeling about himself, and whilst he appears to be more stable, trying to make others, and Dean, talk, he doesn’t share his most damaging fears unless he has no other choice. When he strongly feels that he’s right, he refuses to be told that he’s wrong and clings tighter to his actions, even when he realises that he should change, all until his choices crash around him. He doesn’t want to be coddled, but needs Dean’s support, which leaves him in a limbo of I’m-an-adult and please-I-need-you. That, in turn, damages his self-image and has him frustrated. Sam’s breaks are more fluid. They bend before they snap, and when they do, he runs. As much as he wants to talk over issues, he can’t stay calm enough to force through solutions. His best safety net is to retreat into a personal bubble. He feels like a freak of nature, a monster, and his journey is a fight against that, which, ironically, has led him to do things that make him monstrous.

They both try so hard to be good that they fail over and over again. Their traumas, their experiences, have twisted their perceptions, ruined outside relationships and destroyed themselves. All they can do is hold onto a basic sense and shuffle through the dark.

What is a ‘good’ or ‘nice’ person?

Dean has given up and acts according to the job with little regard for others outside of the lives that they save. Sam is so determined not to be a monster that he tries hard enough for them both, but he can accidentally flounder into verbal cruelty.

They’re admirable people. They do the best that they can. But they’re morally-grey characters at best, characters to be feared, characters that steamroll their way across innocent people’s lives and demand both obedience and respect. They’re layered back and forth until good and bad is woven together too tightly to be taken otherwise. Both have their faults, each in different ways, and neither one is greater or worse than the other.

They just. Are.

A look back on some the amazing and talented voice actors who sadly passed away in 2014. The voices of our childhood will never be forgotten.

[All originally posted on my like page] 

brillant idea

this is the tags, for supernatural tv show.

so I know most of you people perfer using creativity to write any kind of smut, and will die for your pairings.

how many of you are familiar with the program Zelda Classic?

I was in the shower and thought, it would be adorkable to make a quest, or few, with the theme. seeing how, like, 10 Destiel shippers die a day for their obcession  I guess one can painstaklingly edit all Link sprites to be Dean Winchester and some Zelda ones to be Castiel and have him be stuck in the binding circle and you can play out your rescue fantasy.  I could just give the idea and help because I never finish anything, and don't seem to be good at editing the Pure tileset. oH and scripting. Oh god, I don't even want to try, just that this feels like it would need many scripted bosses and items to simulate the theme, I can hardly edit enemies or items right, let alone script anything, resulting in an aresnol of weapons, to again simulate the feel of the show (consumable weapons for monster weaknesses)

is there a way to do these in the program? I mean, making a stalfos that can only be killed with fire is one thing, but scripting magic can go beyond that

or you can make two others, Sam saves Dean, Dean saves Sam, Timmy gets trapped in the well and nobody else can help him(Yes, Lassie reference..that kind of thing. no Timmy in the well.)

how dO i turn this into a viable "I can answer all 6 of your questions?" Tumblr is hard to use. that is why I abandoned it for a while, and I lost intrest. hence why I want to give fans the idea of to do somehting like this. the love and dedication can make a full team of 4, each to do something, or share the burden. or like even have 8 fans and you each make the dungon, because that is hard to do.