Tangsuyuk Love

Tangsuyuk Love

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Summary: College student Jungkook passes cute notes with a customer who always orders take-out tangsuyuk at his part-time job. Meanwhile he’s trying not to miserably fail his Math class, while hiding his ever-growing crush on you.

Genre: college au, f2l, fluff, smut, one shot, did I mention FLUFF?

Warnings: mild swearing, sexual content, hold your heart palpitations!

Word Count: 11.5k

A/N: I wanted to write something light and sweet before I continued with Good Riddance. It will be easy, she said. It will be fun, she said. It will be quick, she said. Ha. haha. ha. ha. Ignore my pain. Enjoy!

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rolling stone | jeon jungkook

summary: he was a rolling stone with no ties to anyone or any place and that’s how he and his fans liked it. now he’s found you and it’s never been this hard to convince someone that he’ll stay.

the problem is neither of you know what it means to express yourselves without reverting to sex as a form to end discussion. it causes all hell to break loose when Jungkook realized if he wants you to stay for him [with him] then he needs to show it to you too. can Jungkook and Y/n get past their own growing doubts on if what they feel is real and work out a way to be together—especially considering Y/n wants nothing to do with the limelight?

➢ genre/au: idol au, friends-w-benefits, smut, angst

➢ pairing: idol!jungkook x non idol!reader[she/her. female autonomy]

➢ 17.2k words

warnings: smut. angst. FWB. jk is lowkey sad :(, also mentioned to be a player but we don’t see it. unprotected relations. handjöb. fingering. cunnilingus. make out in a jacuzzi. sèx interrupted. jk has a busy schedule. y/n isn’t mean, just blunt. jin and Hobi go to military. bts is on break. dispatch being little bitches. rough missionary and riding. face slapping during sëx. jealous jk. lowkey insecure jk. saesang mention. they have cute moments. slight fluff when y/n and jk are together—also v comfortable to be themselves. open ending sorta.

song inspo: rolling stone — brent faiyaz [ im rich as fuck and I ain’t nothing at the same time ]. still with you — jeon jungkook [ i will look into your eyes and say I missed you]. do I wanna know — arctic monkeys [ too busy beings yours to fall for someone new ].

this work is a part of a collaboration: INDUSTRY BABY

Blue flashing lights danced across the crowds of people in the large arena. It reeked of sweat and voices cracked out of pitch from screaming. So many bodies crammed into the arena creating body heat that added on to the sweat that came to him from dancing. Without a care in the world he lifted the end of his shirt to wipe sweat off his forehead. A smile spread on his face at the chants from fans going crazy over his exposed abs that glistened with sweat. When he let his shirt go there was a clear ‘awe’ sweeping across the stage.

Jungkook felt like he could live in this moment forever but the shutting off of the lights as the music faded into nothing told him it was time for him and the others to head out.

“They go crazy every time,” was the first thing Hoseok said when they made it backstage. A water was thrown at Jungkook that he caught midair chugging down its content in a few gulps, crumbling the plastic in his hand. He coughed a little, nodding his head, “Every time.”

“You know what I wanna do right now?” Suga, asked them all, “I wanna go home and sleep for two days.”

“Really? I want to go out and get drunk,” Jimin said with a grin, “What about you Kook?”

Jungkook reached for the back of his black tee, lifting it up from the collar and yanking it off, leaving to get his things in the corner of their dressing room. He just shrugged in response because he didn’t know. He could go out and drink and probably find some nameless girl in this foreign city to sleep with and get his adrenaline out but he was also so damn tired.

“I’m just gonna rest,” Jungkook said, making Jimin and Hoseok groan.

“It’s the last concert for a long time, come on man let’s go out,” Jin said as Jungkook threw on a t-shirt, “You’re gonna have so much time to rest.”

Taehyung had a little smirk on his face, “He’s not resting, he’s gonna call up that little sneaky link of his.”

“Which one?” Namjoon asked as he sat on the sofa for a breath. Hoseok joined him watching Jungkook pack up, “The only one he intentionally flies out to see. The others he only has when he’s already in the city. International playboy, our Jungkooky is.”

“I’m not going to call anyone,” Jungkook mumbled.

By the time Jungkook got to his hotel room it was past midnight and by the time he got in bed it was closer to 2:00am. He was too used to nightlife to be affected by this though. He was alone in his apartment and the only thing he had was his cellphone and the tv playing behind him. The movie that played in the background was boring and he flipped his phone over and over again against his chest as if contemplating something.

With an annoyed smack of his lips he unlocked it and went to his contacts waiting to hear the dial tone end and the line to connect.

“Hello?”

“Are you busy?” Jungkook asked, checking the time again, “What time is it for you?”

“Just past midnight, where are you?” You asked as you rolled onto your side on your bed. Jungkook’s brows furrowed in thought, “I can’t remember… but close enough to only be a couple hours apart from you.”

Your lips curled into a soft smirk, “Think you can catch the flight out?”

“You want me to?” Jungkook asked, checking the time again to see if that was even possible right now. He couldn’t see you shake your head no, even as you smiled.

“It’s late and you’re tired,” you said what he already knew, “Besides, don’t you have another girl to keep your bed warm? You know… it’s been a while since the last time.”

Jungkook scoffed, choosing to ignore the first question you made and chose instead to say, “Have you gotten a boyfriend since then?”

He wasn’t jealous at all.

Not at all.

The two of you have been in this extremely tricky relationship that isn’t technically a relationship but he doesn’t know how else to refer to it as.

He met you two years ago when the group performed in your city. You had been working as a waitress then and the management team had rented out the restaurant you worked at for them to go there for drinks and food after the concert. You were attractive, that’s what Jungkook had realized first when he saw you bringing out their plates. He had been pumped up with adrenaline from performing and once everyone was drunk and no longer paying attention he found himself asking you questions casually.

He remembers you telling him you had wanted to go to the concert but couldn’t actually get tickets because they sold out so fast. He remembers telling you that he’ll give you backstage passes for the next night where they would be performing there again. After meeting you backstage it didn’t take long to get you back to his hotel.

You weren’t easy but you also didn’t shy away from his advances, even signed an NDA for that one night without batting an eye. You understood his work and you weren’t expecting anything at the time. You were just a college student looking for fun and this idol gave it to you.

For the last two years he’s flown in to see you when he’s had the chance. His visits usually consisted of visiting your place for the weekend or meeting at his hotel to have sex and just give him time to relax. You had conversations after sleeping together sometimes in bed, sometimes in the bathtub, but never once did either of you push for anything more.

He believes even now you’re just here for the fun of it.

It’s been months since he last saw you and weeks since he last talked to you so his question felt valid and your silence felt alarming.

“I went on a date the other day,” you said with a shrug finally answering his question, “But it wasn't worth it.”

“Hm,” Jungkook said as he looked away, “What’d you guys do?”

“Just went to some restaurant and had drinks… you know the usual,” you told him.

He nodded, looking back at you as you laid in bed with the lights dimmed and the soft hum of the television in the background. It mirrored his own vacant bedroom and set up that he found himself on his side just like you.

You waited for him to say something but he didn’t, he just looked at his screen zoned out. You looked at him with worry in your eyes, “You’re tired.”

“No, I’m not,” he released a betraying yawn and even he couldn’t help but smile at his attempt to lie to you. He released a heavy breath flipping onto his back looking away from his phone, “Alright I’m tired, but I wanted to talk to you.”

“Did you miss me?” You asked with a smile watching him nod still looking up at his galaxy sky. You laid your head on your hand as you said, “I missed you too.”

He broke out into a smile as he shifted his gaze toward you, “Did you?”

“Mhm,” you nodded as he turned back onto his side to face you, “I missed a lot of things.”

“Yeah?” He asked subconsciously, biting his lip.

Now Jungkook couldn’t lie, he had relations with other people recently and he doesn’t regret nor feel guilty over them. He expresses himself very clearly that those hookups are nothing more than just that. In the beginning he might have said that you were just a hookup, a constant hookup in his life that he never thought much about, but now he knew that was a lie because he missed you too.

He cleared his throat as he decided to finally vocalize it instead of just nodding his head, “I missed you a lot actually.”

“Like?” You asked lightly.

“What?”

“Like what did you miss?” You asked with a hint of a smirk as you thought about all the things you missed about Jungkook since the last time you saw him. He looked at his screen with large sparkly eyes as he took you in. Your hair was splayed across your pillow and your shoulders were exposed just slightly over your shirt but he knew that you’re not wearing anything on the bottom. You liked to sleep without pants and he knew this well.

“Miss sleeping next to you,” he confessed as he thought about the empty bed he usually occupied. He looked at you more hazy, “Miss sleeping with you.”

You smiled knowingly because things between you always seemed to drift back to the topic of sensuality. That was what this situation between you two sprouted on anyway, the desire to have sex with one and other with no strings attached. This was built on your sexual attraction toward each and no matter the kind of conversation you have it will always find a way to drift back into its familiar territory. Neither of you had a problem with that but always a wake up call to whenever you get a little too emotionally attached and have to revert.

“Wish I was there with you right now,” you admitted with a small bite of your bottom lip, “I haven't been able to feel you in months, do you know how hard that’s been?”

Jungkook felt his heart leap for a moment as he understood where the conversation would lead to but still felt a pang of irritation. Don’t make him believe it’s difficult for you to be away from him when you enjoy dates. He hasn’t been inside of you in months but he also knows you’ve had your fair share of flings in the meantime just like him.

Still, he couldn’t hold in the small grunt in annoyance at the reminder of how long it’s been, three or four months too long. He shook his head, “Fuck, I really want to see you right now.”

“Jungkook,” you said softly through the phone, “I want to see you too.”

“What if I fly out this weekend?” Jungkook asked suddenly and seriously despite how late it was for the both of you.

“Could you?” You asked hopefully. He nodded his head, “I could.”

When Jungkook flew in that Friday at 3:00am he knew you would be sleeping. It didn’t stop him from using the house key you had given him the last time you were and probably in the most incognito way he’s been in a long time, he went to your place.

You were sleeping on your side looking peacefully perfect. Jungkook dropped his bags on the floor by your bedroom door before slipping off some of his outer layers to join you on the bed. You tossed around a bit at the noise and sleepily you opened your eyes nearly screaming at the figure approaching you. When you noticed it was Jungkook you smiled, lifting an arm up for him to crawl into. He did so tiredly as he collapsed onto your bed in your arms.

“I’m so tired,” he confessed as he rested his head in the crook of your neck, “So fucking tired.” And he wasn’t just talking about right now.

You pressed a soft kiss to his forehead letting him cling to you, “I know, baby.”

He sighed against you as he let his eyes close and went under the covers with you, “Miss you.”

“Missed you too,” you said, running your fingers through his hair as you both tried to fall asleep.

“Morning,” you whispered softly the next morning as you rolled onto his chest noticing he was awake. He gave you a warm smile, brushing your hair out of your face and looking down at you with sleepy eyes, “Morning.”

His arm was wrapped around your head as you laid on his bicep and his thumb reached over to caress your cheek softly.

Sometimes, he craves this sort of intimacy. He’s a man who has no problem moving from one place to the next, one girl to another… he’s just not the type of man that can be owned by any place, person or thing. There’s a reason he loves being on tour so much or why he has so many girls to be with not one relationship in a long time.

He’s a rolling stone, that’s what Namjoon always says, he can’t stay anywhere or with anyone for too long.

Namjoon’s right, Jungkook completely agrees with him. Sometimes he does imagine what it would be like to have someone to go to when he needs it, a constant in his life, never a rare occasion. You’re about as constant as it gets when it comes to his nonexistent love life and that probably makes this all just a fraction more pathetic. His most reliant fuck was still so out of reach.

His touch was tender, thumb still grazing on your cheek as you fought the urge to go back to sleep. He leaned down the short distance between you and pressed his lips to yours in a chaste kiss.

“What's your plan for today?” You asked with a smile.

“This,” he said, giving you another sweet kiss, “And only this,” another kiss.

You let him deepen the kiss, even pushing forward to get closer to him. He smiled between kisses as he shifted to his side and fully enveloped you in his arms. You pulled away after some time to look at him and his eyes were closed like he was still tired.

“But what’s your plan when you get back,” You asked him and he released a breathy sigh holding you close against his chest while caressing small circles along your arm.

“Well I have a bunch of meetings this week for Calvin Klein,” Jungkook said as he hugged you, “Then I’ll have to fly back home.”

“Mmm, does that mean I’m gonna get to see you in your underwear?” You asked, placing a soft kiss on his naked chest. He smiled, “You already do see me in my underwear.”

“You’re right,” you said with a small laugh before realizing something that made you groan, “That means millions of other people are going to see this and that makes me a little jealous.”

He breathed heavily as your hand slid down toward his purple briefs slipping under the band. Jungkook leaned toward you for a kiss, “I’m not going to have a photo shoot in just underwear, baby.”

“Yeah but that’s because of your reputation not because you don’t want to be seen like this,” you said, planting another kiss on his torso as your finger teased his happy trail, “You’re not doing it for me.”

Jungkook bit his lip, “If you don’t want me to do the shoot at all then… I could probably cancel it.”

He knew it wasn’t fully possible to cancel a contract he already signed and it’s strange of him to even propose that but the words left his lips before he could stop himself. He wasn’t thinking reasonably but if he could find a way to not do it if it made you uncomfortable then he won’t.

You shook your head, hand slipping toward his flaccid member that was slowly coming to life with your touch, “You can’t cancel it for me.”

“I know,” he sighed when your palm ran over his dick feeling himself harden underneath your touch, “But are you gonna be upset with me?”

“Of course not, it’s your job,” you said kissing down his abs while rolling his cock around with your palm, “I can’t expect you to not do something for me of all people. When you get a real girlfriend then you can make decisions like that.”

Jungkook nodded in understanding but still kept the thought in his head. If he had a real girlfriend he shouldn’t see you anymore—no, he wouldn’t see you—no, he couldn’t see you anymore. If he couldn’t see you then he wouldn’t be able to feel the pleasure of your hand slowly stroking his member.

Refusing to think more on that topic he pulled you in for a real kiss as your hand wrapped around his hard length giving it some gentle strokes that had him releasing a soft moan into your mouth. He let his hand slide down your back toward your ass letting his fingers dig in and hoist you up higher for a leg of your yo curl up against his thigh. His long arm reached down toward your covered center letting his middle finger trail up the length of your slit from where your clit started all the way toward your butt feeling a dampness from where your cunt was.

You climbed further up his side still with your hand stroking his cock as he pulled your panties to the side to feel your pussy.

Your free hand moved to his chest, taut muscles tensing with each stroke of his dick and you pulled away from his mouth with a string of saliva connecting you two still. You trailed kisses down his collarbone as his breath hitched from the way you switched between squeezing at his base to softly circling his tip. He licked his lips, biting back a groan as you left a sloppy open mouth kiss against his pec, tongue soothing any sting your teeth left when you nipped at him lightly.

Jungkook took a deep breath when he felt your tongue swipe over his hardened nipple all while you slipped your hand down to squeeze his balls making his cock twitch more. Your teeth nipped at his bud pulling lightly and he hissed in please as you did it again a few times while simply rolling his balls around while his cock twitched and ached for relief. He went to lower his hand down toward your clit when you nipped his sensitive nipple again.

He brought the hand that he had just resting on the bed toward your chest that pressed against his, groping a tit as best as he could from this position.

His middle finger ran along your folds slowly feeling your hips begin to wiggle a little against his thigh and he let his ring finger join in flicking your folds. You pulled away from his chest to look at him as he pushed the thick finger between your pussy lips sinking into your entrance before rubbing the outer labia.

“I never get tired of seeing you like this,” you moaned while giving his cock attention and jerking him off quickly. Your hips bucked back into his hand as he pulled his finger out to flick into your entrance folds before plunging back in rougher now with his ring finger too.

“I know,” he sighed as it all became too much. He had to be inside of you, he was too tired when he got here and now all he can think about is your pussy. With a grunt he picked you up and put you down directly over his cock not caring about your slick which dribbled onto his purple briefs. His hands immediately fell down to your hips guiding you back and forth to grind your wet push on his cock which laid flatly against his pelvis.

He licked his dry lips, “I love seeing you like this too”

“You gonna fuck me now?” You asked hopefully as he nodded, you raised yourself onto your knees holding his thin waist for support and watched him line his cock with your entrance.

You didn’t need much prep considering the foreplay you just had and let yourself sink onto his length.

There was nothing slow about the way you were lifting yourself up his length and dropping back down. You were in a time crunch solely based on your need to ful together once before you let your weekend with him start. Jungkook’s hands dug into the thick flesh of your hips and thighs as he picked up the pace letting his own hips fuck up until you.

“Fuck,” he growled as he moved you up and down on his big cock, “Love this pussy.”

Your hands groped at your own tits making him speed up his thrusts as he took in the pretty sight of you above him riding his cock like the good girl you are for him.

"Y/n, I lo—“

His words caught in his throat as you nearly jumped off of him. Both of you turned to the nightstand where his phone sat facing up and ringing. Jungkook shook his head, “Ignore it.”

You nodded trying to go back to riding him as the call ended making you feel more at ease. Just as you both were getting back into it, it rang again.

“Fucking hell,” he groaned in frustration as he looked at it and saw his manager’s name displayed. He chose to ignore it again, moving back in to kiss you this time but once again you were interrupted and at this point you were fed up. You pushed against his chest to move him back and with a defeated sigh he let you slide yourself off his hard dick.

He laid there for a moment trying to catch his breath as the fall ended only for another to begin. Swallowing dryly he picked up his phone and finally answered harshly, “What?!”

“Flight’s been changed, Seokjin leaves tomorrow for the military so you gotta get on the soonest flight available if you want to see him off,” his manager said and Jungkook felt a pang of guilt in his chest.

Guilt because he wanted to stay and make you feel good instead of just running off the second he’s called. Then he felt more guilty at the thought that he’s even considering not going to see his own hyung off.

“Okay,” Jungkook said in a raspy tone, “I’ll get ready.”

“I’ll pick you up in twenty.”

“Twenty? Wait that’s no—“

Click.

He released a deep breath as he looked over to you as you sat up and fixed your underwear looking around for a t-shirt to slip on. His member was achingly hard and coated with your wetness but he knew he didn’t have enough time. He would have to shower still and pack his bags.

“Sorry,” he muttered shyly as he sat up looking down at his dick knowing he would either need to jack himself off in the shower and shower cold.

“Don’t worry about it,” you said, tugging your hair behind your ears, “You have obligations, I get that.”

“Y/n,” he called to you but you weren’t listening.

You seemed to read his mind though since you said, “Go shower, I’ll pack up your things for you.”

In the end his leave was rushed and unsatisfactory, leaving him more stressed and worked up than when he first arrived here. In truth he was annoyed, he just got here not even a full 24 hours ago but he had to leave already. He hasn’t even been here for twelve hours!!! He thought Jin was leaving sometime later this week so when did that change? Why did they let him fly to see you only to make him go back the second he does?

He’s sad about his hyung leaving and he would never miss it but he doesn’t want to miss being with you either.

Jimin was the first to hang out with Jungkook after Jin’s departure. Jungkook won’t lie and say he didn’t cry sending his friend off which he’s sure is a mixture of missing him but also the stress that’s getting to him every day.

“Where were you this morning?” Jimin asked. Jungkook was stuck on a flight all night and he didn’t get back till this morning right before they sent Jin off. He released a tired sigh, “Do you really want to know?”

Jimin nodded as Jungkook continued, “I went to see Y/n.”

“Already?” Jimin asked with a small chuckle as Taehyung joined them in one of the cars they were leaving.

“Already what?” Taehyung asked.

“He already went to see Y/n.”

“You did?” Taehyung asked looking back at him, “How was that?”

“Short,” Jungkook answered honestly as he yawned, “Literally flew in one night and left the next.”

“What did Y/n say about you leaving?” Jimin asked him and he just shrugged.

“Nothing, well she said I have obligations and just ended it there. She didn’t really talk to me after but she helped me pack and stuff,” Jungkook said as he stared out the window as their trusted driver got in. Taehyung sighed, “You think Y/n is tired of it already?”

“What do you mean?”

“It’s been two years Kook,” Taehyung said honestly, “You’re not dating, you rarely even talk and yet you string Y/n along, basically. Or it might be the other way around where you’re being strung along by her and isn’t it just tiring? Don’t you just want to be in a real relationship with Y/n?”

“No,” Jungkook said sternly, “I don’t.”

“You’re lying,” Jimin said annoyed, “You do want to. We know you better than you know yourself so don’t sit there and tell us that you don’t want Y/n for more than just a fuck.”

“Don’t say it like that.”

“Isn’t that what it is?” Taehyung asked with a light scoff and laugh. He knows Jungkook, he’s not a relationship sort of guy.

He also cares about Jungkook deeply. He knows that out of all of them he seems to be the most exhausted and borderline depressed. He loves being on stage and touring but they all need a break and Jungkook is thankful for time off but he just doesn’t know what to do with himself. Instead he wondered what you were up to and he hated that. He shouldn’t be worrying at all about what you were doing.

“Are we getting drunk tonight?” Your friend Lia asked as the two of you stood in your bedroom. Jungkook left yesterday but you’re sure he’s back home now and it's barely Saturday night. He arrived during midweek but he couldn’t even stay past Friday morning considering he had to leave. It defeated the purpose of wanting to spend a weekend together but you understood.

You understand your place. You’re practically just a side piece and he had to go see Jin. Everyone is going to miss him and Jungkook will too, that’s why you couldn’t say anything to him and honestly you wouldn’t have even thought to act upset with him.

“We can,” you said, double checking your appearance in the mirror. Your intention for this weekend was to stay at home and probably lay in bed with Jungkook the entire time.

You didn’t even act like you were having the best night at the club. You did manage to actually dance with your friends and get a few drinks bought for you but you could only think about going home. Usually you don't mind going out and getting drunk but sometimes you just really aren’t in the mood for it. Tonight happened to be one of those nights where you’re practically forcing yourself to have a good time so it wouldn’t feel like an entire waste of time.

“So what’s your name?” Some guy asked you at the bar. He had just bought you and Lia a round of drinks that you watched the bartender make and now he’s interested in conversation. You didn’t think anything of it as you decided to entertain him at least for a bit while Lia chatted up the bartender.

“Y/n,” you said simply, “Yours?”

“Eric,” he said, taking a drink from his cup, “So what are you girls doing out tonight? Plan on hitting any more bars?”

“Probably,” Lia piped in, looking him up and down. You won’t lie and say the guy isn’t cute. He’s taller, a bit more lean and with wavy blond hair. His eyes were a shade of green from what you could tell and he happened to have pretty hands. In point, he’s attractive.

“Wanna join?” You asked, feeling slightly tipsy and at this point if you weren’t going to do anything fun tonight, why not make the most of it?

“So are you in school?” He asked once the three of you were outside and Lia was putting the number the bartender gave her in her phone case. You shook your head, “No, I’m graduated, you?”

“I work in eCommerce,” he told you as you walked down the busy streets of downtown which were full of nightlife and bar hoppers. You released a light gasp, “Me too.”

“Do you?” Eric asked while pointing to another bar where the three of you could go in. He paid for your entries and you repaid him with a drink at the bar. So far he seems better than the usual creeps who try to hit on you. You were both drunk too so conversation just came in easier. “What do you sell?”

“Um well I work for a company that takes on brand clients and we help them sell their things on Amazon and in store,” you told him as the two of you sat at the bar, “Just the other day I went to this sports apparel headquarters and we picked out best sellers and how to market them online.”

“I do similar work but with small businesses,” he told you with a smile, “You work with franchises though, right?”

“Yeah! Maybe I’ve seen you around somewhere, at a convention maybe?” You asked hopefully. Since the two of you had similar jobs it was easy to find something to talk about and by the end of the night you exchanged numbers and you actually didn’t mind it he texted you after.

You have to carry on with your normal life when Jungkook isn’t around. You’re not dating, you don’t even talk on the regular so it’s not like you owe him anything either. He goes off and sleeps with whoever he wants and you do the same. You shouldn’t feel guilty about getting a guy’s number but sometimes you can't help it.

The following Thursday you went on a ‘date’ with Eric. It wasn’t anything serious but the two of you had a lot in common. At first you tried to find an excuse to not go but Lia convinced you otherwise. She reminded you that it’s been too long since you went on an actual date and it’s not like you had a real reason to turn him down.

If anything it was a nice change of pace to get to talk to a man who can actually be seen in public with you and who doesn’t have to disguise himself every time you go out. He didn’t have a reason to leave the date or a flight to catch. You forgot how normal and easy it was to go on a date with a guy. You didn’t have to worry about pictures being taken or rumors that might spread.

It didn’t change the fact that you still missed Jungkook’s presence sometimes.

It took weeks to see each other and in all honesty, you were very surprised when you found out where you would be meeting. You couldn’t wrap your mind around the fact that he really did fly you out to a city you’ve never been to for the weekend. He had promotions here and wanted you to come because of how long it’s been since you last actually enjoyed each other’s company to full potential.

You looked around at the exhibit you were currently in. It was a dark room with a projection of being underwater mixed with patterns that felt otherworldly. It reflected off your skin and created a shadow wherever you stood and it just had you in awe at how pretty it looked.

“Finally found you,” a voice said from behind you and as you looked over you could see a perfect silhouette of someone familiar.

Jungkook stood where the light still hit more clearly and he was dressed casually but still in designer. The two of you met somewhere in the middle as you pointed to the room, “I think this one’s my favorite.”

“I can show you a better one,” Jungkook said as he took a step closer toward you letting his hand touch your lower back—the one without tattoos.

You were at an illusion museum, his idea but for the most part you were both still a little concealed with hats and baggy clothes. Still, he must’ve picked the right time because there was practically no one around anyway.

“Show me then,” you said as he took your hand in his and led you to the next exhibit which was a mirrored room from floor to ceiling. You could see your reflection at your feet and even when you looked up. Purple lanterns filled the room that reflected off of absolutely everything and looked like a maze. Once again there was practically no one around except a couple older couples. It made you both feel a little more at ease to be out in public together.

“Can I take some pictures?” You asked and he nodded. You ended up taking turns getting your pictures taken in different areas and got two of you both together. Jungkook laughed at one where your eyes were half closed or when your hair was out of place and you laugh at the ones he couldn’t keep a straight face in.

It wasn’t until you got to a different exhibit that looked like you were stepping straight into the night sky that someone approached you two. At first you both seemed very nervous until the man who had to be in his early fifties asked, “Would you like me to get a picture of you together?”

You looked to Jungkook trying to let him be the one to tell the man no but instead he handed the man his phone and said, “If you could.”

He came to your side and pulled you into him with a hand on your lower back, you placed your hand on his chest smiling for the camera as the man took a few shots. Jungkook ended up with both his arms around you as he pressed a kiss into your hair while your face scrunched cutely. That was probably Jungkook’s favorite photo and he didn’t hesitate to make it his lock screen. It’s not like anyone would see it.

“You look good in this,” Jungkook said as he showed you one of the mirror selfies he took with you in the lantern room. You peaked over his shoulder to look at it and smiled, “Right? I do look good.”

“Post it,” Jungkook spoke absentmindedly as you two sat in an empty blue room with clouds everywhere. The cushion you two shared looked like a cloud too. Before you could say anything he said, “You know just uh, just blur me out.”

“No, it’s fine,” you told him as you looked through the other pictures, “I can find one where I’m by myself.”

Jungkook looked down at you feeling the urge to apologize. If he was just some ordinary guy this wouldn’t be a problem. He wouldn’t look down at a picture appreciating your pretty face with regret that he can’t even show it off.

Your eyes met and you could practically see the guilt on his face so your forced a smile on his face and said, “Are you hungry yet?”

“Starving,” he muttered as he ran a hand over your hair before pulling you in for a quick kiss, “Where should we go?”

“We should probably just order in,” you offered more for his sake than yours but he shook his head no.

“It’s a big city, there are a lot of options and we could probably find some hole in the wall restaurant,” he said and it was settled.

His security team looked as inconspicuous as a bunch of seriously huff guys can look. They went in first to this tiny pizza parlor with a wall divider by a table and that’s the one you chose—the most hidden one. The two of you ordered a large pizza and drinks.

“Have you been busy?” You asked as your feet touched under the table. His foot ran over yours almost playfully doing footsies with you when you couldn’t hold hands.

Jungkook nodded as he played with the wrapper of his straw, “Yeah, I finished up the Calvin Klein shoot but it took a lot of energy. I’ve been trying to relax now that it’s over but this upcoming week I have a bunch of promotions to do again.”

“Not much of a break, is it?” You asked sadly. He took you by surprise when he took your hand in his hand over the table for anyone to see.

“Not really,” he said, tracing circles against your knuckles with the pad of his thumb, looking down at how your pretty hand fit perfectly with his.

You looked at him apologetically, “Am I taking you away from your work?”

He shook his head no, “No, well I don’t see it like that. I wanted to see you, it’s been a while and last time I left we didn’t have any time together.”

You were reminded of the time he left mid sex, literally. Jungkook looked up at you, “I did, um, you know go out though. Nothing serious just hung out with some girls the guys brought along, but I didn’t do anything.”

The two of you happened to be very open when it came to your personal lives. It sets a clear boundary line for any time either one of you gets too attached in your ‘relationship’. You just nod, “I went out too.”

When your food came the two of you switched topics of conversation and carried a light aura around you.

By the time you got to the hotel Jungkook had gone off to get you two drinks. You looked around the large suite he booked for you two and took in the jacuzzi outside.

“Should we go in?” Jungkook asked, appearing next to you as he handed you a glass of champagne. You stood at the balcony window overlooking the pretty city and decided that you should. When’s the next time you’ll be able to see a place like this, especially without Jungkook—who surely won’t be interested in you much longer. Flings like the kind you and him have don’t last.

“I didn’t bring anything to wear,” you argued and he looked down at your dress taking you in.

“Neither did I,” he winked and with a roll of your eyes you nodded.

“Let me go get ready then,” you said pointing toward the bedroom. He let you go off as he went outside to get it running.

You were just in your suitcase seeing if there’s anything you can wear when your phone rang.

“Hello?” You asked, putting your phone on speaker so that you could continue to get ready to go in the jacuzzi.

“How’s the convention? Are you bored to death yet?” She asked. It was midday for her whereas it was night for you. You lied and said you had a work trip this weekend.

“Not bad actually,” you told her as you found a hairclip to keep your hair up and out of the water, “Just busy.”

“Boring,” Lia said, making you laugh a little as you removed your jewelry next, “You know who I ran into the other day?”

“Who?”

“Eric, we were both waiting for coffee.”

Jungkook was already tugging off his belt on his way to the bedroom he would be sharing with you tonight. He stopped at the door when he heard another voice, debating if he should go in quietly or give you privacy. Instead he ended up just waiting outside when he heard something.

“I really like Eric for you,” Lia confessed through the phone as your eyes shifted to the entrance to make sure Jungkook wasn’t coming by, “You two seem to understand each other. You have the same occupation, same humor and I see chemistry. You haven’t dated in a while but honestly I feel like you and Eric would really work out.”

“Lia, I—“ you paused in thought. You’re not even sure what you’re trying to say, “We do get along but I don’t know, I’m not really looking for anything serious right now.”

“Bullshit! You’ve gone out like three times already,” Lia said, almost yelling through the phone, “You’re telling me you haven’t even thought about it?”

“I mean yes I’ve thought about dating but—“

“But what?”

Lia asked feeling a little annoyed. She’s your best friend, she knows that you’re always supposedly busy with something. She knows that if you talk to guys it’s only to entertain them and nothing more. In no way is she saying you need a partner to survive but you’re always stressed and she wished you had someone to always be there for you and understand your line of work and busy schedule. She released a deep sigh, “I’m not saying it has to be Eric but I am saying he’s practically made for you. You enjoy talking to him right? You like your conversations and that you have a lot in common. I just think that if you give dating a try, Eric is perfect.”

“I’ll think about it,” you said, “But I have to go. Everyone’s going out for drinks right now.”

Jungkook came into the room a couple minutes later. You looked over at him as he began to undress making sure to fold his clothes and leave it on the bed next to yours. You smiled as you took in his naked appearance aside from his briefs and went over to him. Jungkook felt your arms wrap around him as you hugged him from behind and he placed his hands over yours on his stomach trying to smile.

He has to act like he didn’t just hear your full conversation and that he wasn’t bothered by it at all.

“It’s ready,” he mumbled as he looked over at you. You had a pretty set of black lingeries and a silk robe that had his eyes trailing over your body in lust, “What if we just go naked?”

He needed to distract himself from what he just listened in on. You have to admit you felt guilty about your conversation with Lia considering you were flown out to see Jungkook and you didn’t want to think about anyone but him. That’s why you nodded eagerly and said, “Take it off me then?”

Jungkook smiled as he did just that, sliding down your underwear first. In the end the two of you went outside in only your silk robes and fully nude into the jacuzzi. You hissed at the hot water but he helped you sit down next to him while handing you the glass of champagne. The water was just high enough to cover your breasts or at least where your nipples were but Jungkook didn’t mind seeing you bare like this.

“The jets are strong,” you said, popping a few of the bubbles it made.

Jungkook laughed for a reason unknown to you and said, “No, I just farted.”

You pretended to gag in disgust, “Jungkook! You’re disgusting.”

He only laughed harder, “What? Don’t act like you don’t do it.”

“I’m a lady, I don’t fart,” you joked, making him roll his eyes as he played with the water.

“That’s not true, I’ve literally heard you do it in the bathroom,” he said honestly and it was refreshing that neither one of you were embarrassed. It felt domestic the way you were comfortable around each other and not always trying to look appealing and sexy to one and other. He enjoyed sex with you but he enjoyed joking and laughing with you two. It’s not talked about as much but you make him laugh and you get his jokes, you’re not embarrassed even when you pretend to be. One time he burped right in your face and despite telling him it was gross you did it right back.

“In the bathroom,” you said with a smile, “Not in public like you.”

“We’re not in public,” he said, lifting a foot out of water to watch it drip down, “It’s just me and you.”

You nodded in agreement and he smiled, “Tell me an embarrassing story and I’ll tell you one back.”

“I don’t have an embarrassing story,” you lied with a shrug making him roll his eyes yet again, “If you keep rolling your eyes at me I’m going to drown you.”

Jungkook just laughed as he looked you over, “If you dunk me in that water the only way I’ll drown is between your legs because you’re looking way too sexy right now.”

“You’re really going to say that after telling me to tell you an embarrassing story? Won’t that give you an ick?” You asked splashing his face with water as he flicked some back to you. He shook his head no.

“Not unless you tell me you shit yourself once,” Jungkook jokes, “Then yeah I might take us both in the shower before I eat you out.”

You scoffed, “I did not shit myself, you dick.”

“How would I know if you don’t tell me an embarrassing story?” Jungkook asked as he flicked water into your face.

“Okay fine, I’ll tell you one,” you groaned despite him applauding you, “In high school I went to this party with some guy I was seeing. I blacked out and puked on him, he was so mad that he never talked to me again.”

“Now that guy seems like a dick,” Jungkook said, “And maybe it’s because I’m a romantic but personally I would’ve held your hair back for you while you puked on my shoes. I don’t know, I guess not every guy could be a gentleman like me.”

You laughed, “Yeah okay, tell me an embarrassing school moment.”

“I don’t really have any,” Jungkook shrugged, “I was in high school but I was also a trainee so I didn’t have much free time. I did get to have fun and go out with my hyungs but not big parties or anything like that.”

You didn’t say anything for a moment just trying to wrap your mind around how hard it must’ve been to be a trainee. He smiled, “But I’ll tell you a semi embarrassing story. I can’t remember if I farted or burped on live but it definitely wasn’t quiet and everyone heard it.”

“That’s not that embarrassing,” you rolled your eyes. He laughed softly as he closed the small gap between you. He set his glass down on the ledge and took yours from you too. You watched him as he moved in front of you now, right between your legs. You ran your fingers through his curly hair as his hands found your naked waist underwater.

“Your hair is getting longer,” you said as he looked at you with bedroom eyes. It was bound to happen, you enjoyed your cute moment but at the end of the day it was like a switch that you two went through when you were together. You just wanted to get your hands on each other.

“You like it?” He asked dipping his head lower to be against yours, lips softly brushing against yours, “I haven’t cut it because you like it long.”

His arms tightening around your waist as he pulled you into him. Your hands found their way to the back of his neck trying to get him closer to you before taking the lead. He met you halfway and you fully succumbed to the kiss.

His lips pulled away from yours so they could attach themselves to your neck, placing soft kisses along your jaw and down your jugular. You craned your neck to the side to give him more access as you delved your fingers into his dark locks. The Jets of the jacuzzi were the only sounds heard aside from your little gasps and water splashing against your skin. His hands traveled from your waist up toward your stomach and then breasts. He held them both in his hands as his lips found their way back to yours and slipped his tongue inside your mouth.

You reached your hands over his chest feeling every ridge of abdomen muscle, nails lightly scratching against his skin. You ran your hands down him feeling every muscle tighten as you explored the ink on his arms and shoulders. You were full on making out and his thumbs were circling around your hardening nipples as he gave them a few squeezes.

Jungkook's kisses started moving lower again, kissing along your jaw and then collarbone. His tongue licked down to the valley of your breasts making you gasp and push him back. It took him a second to move but when he did his hands stayed fondling your boobs. He looked at you with furrowed brows as you looked around.

“Let’s go inside,” you said nervously and he looked around too. You were high up that nobody from the street would see but that didn’t mean other hotel goers couldn’t. Licking his lips as he looked down at where his hands were he nodded. He finally released you to reach for your robes which had just been thrown to the side. He helped you into the side of the jacuzzi making sure to block you as he helped you slip the robe on. You thanked him, handing him his and watching him stand in his naked glory to slip his on too. It was hard for you to ignore his hard member that pointed upwards.

The second you made it back inside Jungkook picked you up from your thighs and wrapped them around himself. You squealed at the cold from having your bodies wet but he carried you with ease toward the king sized bed. You began to slip off the silk again making sure to slide it off your shoulders and bud before he even set you back down. Like that your mouths connected again while he helped tug the robe off before letting you down on the bed.

Jungkook didn’t hesitate to start where he left off, mouth licking at the mounds of your breasts before tracing circles around your hardened nipple, bringing one into his mouth and kissing. The tip of his tongue flicked at your bud before capturing the whole thing in his mouth and sucking. The sensation of his mouth around you and his tongue flicking at your nipple made your back arch into his mouth, hands tangled in his wet hair with want. Jungkook pulled away with a pop, his own drool dribbling out the corners of his mouth as the heat radiating off your body became too much for him.

He took his time kissing down your stomach toward your legs which had goosebumps from the sensation and the cold. Soon, he was licking and nibbling every single exposed part of your body: Your collarbones, stomach, belly button, your sides and the area around your breast. The inner part of your thighs got a lot of attention from his mouth as his hands spread them further around himself. He was inching closer to your wet heat.

It’s like he was trying to get every single thing he couldn’t do the last time you were together. All he’s been able to think about was to feel your pussy around him when he was deprived of it. He began teasing your inner thighs, so close to your core but not yet there and you wanted to feel his tongue between your folds so badly.

His brows knitted together in pleasure, an almost angry expression on his face as he let out a groan. You were so fucking wet, he's never seen a pussy get as wet as yours did. It was always such a damn treat. He ran a finger through your folds gathering slick on his fingertips before bringing them back out and examining them and the way they shined.

A sudden thought crossed his mind making him ask, “Who else makes you this wet?” His lips part allowing his fingers to slip inside his mouth and pet his tongue. His eyes rolled back loving the sweetness, even your insides smelled good.

You sighed, “Nobody, that’s the bad thing.”

You were being honest. No guy you fuck brings the kind of pleasure Jungkook does and he knows it. His hands went to your thighs hoisting your legs up and spreading them as far out as they could go before finally burying his face in your cunt. A moan left your mouth as he pressed his lips to your clit. He brushed his thumb gently over the hardened bud not having time to tease before he did it again and again. You could hear the slurping sound of his mouth swallowing your clit into his mouth and sucking while flicking his tongue over it. He was a messy, a goddamn messy, pussy pleaser but you didn’t know he only got like this with you. He only ever makes you with your little cunt like this because he lives for your reactions, your tastes, the way your legs shake around him.

Jungkook slid in a finger listening for your loud moans because you were always so vocal for him even if you didn’t use your words. He didn’t need to do much talking as he let his tongue do it for him, licking up whatever slosh his finger pushed out of you, sliding a second in to join the first.

“Oh fuck,” you whined as he back to bump into your clit with the tip of his big nose, “Just—ngh—fuck me already.”

"Can’t you just enjoy what I’m giving you like a good girl?" He asked, pulling away ignoring the line of arousal connecting his chin to your drenched pussy. You rolled your eyes, sliding a hand down toward your pelvis, fingers just barely touching your clit to try and speed up the pleasure before his hand smacked yours. You hissed in a mixture of pleasure and pain as he smacked your clit softly, “Y/n.”

His tone was in warning but you ignored him, “You want me to beg to have you inside me?”

He released a scoff with a laugh as he sat up with his arms hooked around your thighs and yanking you toward his angry cock until your pussy touched it directly. The length of his thick member was longer than your slit and he took pleasure in grinding against your fold letting his cock bump against your clit coating himself in your arousal. He licked his lips looking down at the way your fat pussy lips hugged his dick.

“Dirty fucking girl,” Jungkook hisses in pleasure when he feels your hand curl around his cock pumping him twice covering him in your slick. Protection was never something the two of you ever thought about simply because you never let him finish inside you and you regularly tested yourselves for other things. So without a second thought you lined him up with your entrance.

Jungkook's head fell forward, lip tugged between his teeth, an almost pained expression as he tried to concentrate on the way you pushed his fat cock inside your tight cunt. The image was absolutely desirable. Jungkook worked hard on his body, every muscle had a purpose and right now they were all flexing in wet pleasure due to the way your walls constricted around him. Your hips gripped tightly by Jungkook's hands finally sinking all the way down and without another thought he moved them to the back of your legs forcing them up to your chest being held down by his arms.

Jungkook slides almost completely out before slamming back in. He was nearly in a push up position as he folded your body to his content as he drew his hips back and once more sank back in with his full length.

“Yes,” you moaned loudly despite a pain in your legs from the stretch. Your eyes met as he pulled back, letting his mushroom tip circle around your entrance before diving back in full thrust. Unable to stand the small space between your bodies, you slid a hand toward his neck tightening just enough to make him groan and his hips stutter, before yanking him down into a makeout.

You squeezed your walls around him on purpose, pulling his bottom lip out with your teeth, hand still on his neck as he fucked you hard. One of his hands released your legs to take a breast in hand and groped it, making your hips begin to fuck back onto his cock as you hooked the leg he released around his back.

“Y/n,” he growled, “Look at me.”

You did as told completely unaware of how unbelievably sexy he looked with his glute muscles flexing with each stroke of his thick length inside your wet cunt, muscles in his thighs tightening showing veins protruding on his happy trail that all led toward his cock.

With a new angle he reached a deeper point and his hand was able to grope at your tits more freely while the other kept your hips down on the mattress. He licked his lips, “You talking to anyone right now?”

You were too gone to pay attention as his cock hit a new angle where he pleasure your pussy lips every time he pulled out. With the hand on your hips he moved it to your butt, drawing back and smacking lightly, “Y/n.”

You moaned at the slap, still refusing to look at him making him do it again, harder this time as he thrust deeply into your cunt. He smacked his lips in annoyance as he did it again, “I’m talking to you.”

When you refused to acknowledge him he nearly growled as he yanked you off the bed to sit back on his haunches and bring you down on his thighs with his cock still buried to the hilt. He pinched your ass before smacking it again, “Y/n—“

His words were cut off as his head whipped to the side when your hand connected with his cheek giving him the same sexual treatment he’d been giving you. You ground your hips onto him, “No, you asshole, I’m not.”

His jaw clenched as he looked at you, unable to stop fucking you as you sat on his lap. You’re lying right to his face yet when your raised your hand to slap him once more he couldn’t stop the animalistic growl that slipped past his lips as he took a boob into his mouth fucking up into you

He groped at your ass, spreading the soft cheeks apart and rammed into you when you threw your head back in a moan, "So fucking good."

A hand on your ass and another on your tit letting you pull his face into you. Your already erect buds tightening as he pinched and pulled at them. He left wet, sloppy kisses over your throat, moving his hands to grip your waist harshly. Jungkook's nail dug into your soft flesh as he lifted your hips up and down on his cock.

"Just like that," he groaned, “Cum on my cock.”

You never needed permission to orgasm but his words had you falling apart. His eyes locked on yours as he felt your warm walls begin to tighten around him. A familiar ring of nerves clenching around his member as it sucked him into your folds. He wasn't going to last much longer either. Just like that you were releasing, biting back a euphoric moan as Jungkook held your side tightly to keep his cock buried inside of you relishing in the warmth of your release as he forced himself not to cum.

“So good,” you gasped, hugging him with shaky legs as he let you come down from your high.

Once you calmed down Jungkook helped lift you off his achingly hard dock and he watched you move onto your hands and knees before him.

Neither one of you needed to voice what would happen next and he released a pleased sigh when you laid down on your stomach and took his cock in your mouth. Your hands slid down the length of his cock with a small twist of your wrist around him as you made out with his tip moving some of his foreskin back. He squeezed his eyes shut and released a groan, hand going to your damp hair as you flattened your tongue down his length and began to bob your head.

"Fucking hell," he licked his dried lips, head thrown back as his body heaved trying to catch his breath, “I’m gonna cum.”

He was so close due to everything you’ve done and you weren’t surprised at all to feel his hot cum shoot into your mouth with a twitch of his hips.

He released a breathy laugh as he helped you off him and looked down at your fucked out state. He dropped down to the bed trying to catch his breath, “Fuck that was good.”

“Mhm,” you hummed in agreement as you laid over him letting him hug you, “Even though you were a little mean.”

“Me?!” He asked as he brought a hand toward his neck that was still a little red. Rolling his eyes he brushed your hair out of your face, “Yeah okay.”

By morning you finished at least two more rounds of horny sex and you were both physically drained.

He knew that now wouldn’t be the time to bring it up but he didn’t know when else to do it. You spent all night having sex and today you both would be flying back home since it was only a short weekend trip from Saturday to Sunday. He needed to bring it up now before he missed his chance.

“So… I heard you on the phone last night …” Jungkook finally said as he did the buttons up on his black shirt sitting on the edge of the bed not facing you, “With your friend? She mentioned this guy… who is he?”

“Huh?” You asked, barely listening as you scrolled through your phone lying comfortably in your bed. You weren’t fully paying attention. It was early, you were tired, and you just wanted to enjoy some relaxing time before you had to go to the airport. When you processed what he asked you said, “Oh uh, just some guy we met.”

You were trying not to seem nervous because technically you’ve done nothing wrong, right? “We went out for drinks.”

“Like on a date?” Jungkook asked, forcing his eyes to stare at the window just a few feet in front of him. He didn’t want you to see his face if he reacted in a way he wasn’t supposed to. If he could see the way you shrugged casually it would probably just annoy him a little more.

“Um, well, I don’t know if it would count as a date,” you said and that had his head turning back to face you. His lips parted in what seemed like a soon approaching smile but it wasn’t out of joy, it was disbelief.

“Really? Because from what I heard it wasn’t just one time you went out with him,” Jungkook said as he quit buttoning his shirt up leaving the top two undone so he could focus on you instead.

“What?” You asked looking back at him, “Were you listening on my call?”

He scoffed, “It was on speaker and your friend was yelling. So, just be honest, have you slept with him?”

He wasn’t shaming you or anything, he just wants to understand the extent of your relationship with that guy. He’s been thinking about it all night even when he was inside you moaning out your name and making you cum.

Your eyes narrowed, testing him, “Does it matter?”

“Does it matter? Yes it does, Y/n, to me. We’ve been talking and I just flew you out to see me for a weekend and you’re asking me if you potentially fucking another guy matters or not?” He couldn’t hold back the bitterness in his voice, feeling the way it deepened with a small hint of annoyance.

You sat up now letting your phone drop to your bed, “Why are you getting mad? Didn’t you tell me you went out with some girls?”

“Yes but I didn’t know them. I didn’t go out with them alone nor did I go out with them more than once,” Jungkook said honestly, “And I damn sure didn’t sleep with any of them.”

“I didn’t have sex with him,” you cut him off making his words stop, “But either way don’t worry about what I do when you’re not around.”

“Y/n…”

“No Jungkook, you don’t hear me asking you when the last time you fucked someone else was,” you told him feeling annoyed, “What do you expect? Am I just supposed to wait around and see when the next time you want to catch a flight is?”

“I’m not…” he took a deep breath to calm his nerves, “I’m not asking you to do that. I don’t care who you see when I’m not around but don’t… —I’m not gonna be some guy fighting for your attention, Y/n.”

He couldn’t even make full sentences at times because he didn’t know how to say what he wanted to say. He couldn’t articulate it without sounding misleading. He was not looking for a relationship but he also can’t stand the idea of wondering when you’ll be taken by someone else. He just… he can’t have a relationship.

You were facing each other on the bed now but not once did your eyes stray to each other's bodies. This was a conversation, nothing more, nothing less.

“Oh but I can be one of those girls who has to fight for yours? Why? Because you’re famous? Because I'm nobody? You’re the one who made it clear since the beginning that this was always going to be casual so why bother even asking about who I might be seeing now?” You asked and Jungkook hated that what you said was right no matter how cruel you sounded saying it.

“Okay but don’t act like what you and I have is… it’s different. Maybe before it wasn’t my place to ask you who you’re seeing but come on, we both know this isn’t just casual,” Jungkook said as he looked down, catching sight of your phone facing up with the time displayed.

“You could’ve fooled me,” you scoffed, “You take me out for the first time ever this weekend and suddenly it’s not just about casual sex? Cut me some fucking slack if I can’t read your mind on if you just want me for a quick fuck or if you just want me for yourself.”

“Fine, I’m sorry,” he muttered under his breath, biting down on his bottom lip to stop himself from saying anything more. He’s got no place to do so anyway. You weren’t dating, this was just casual, and he had someone in his hotel room just three weeks ago. It makes him seem hypocritical. But the thing is, he knows you have sex with others when he’s not around and he does too but that’s all it is. It’s not three dates like your friend Lia said you had with Eric.

Now that’s an attempt at a real relationship away from him. That’s him possibly losing you and that’s what’s bothering him.

You looked at the time again, both of you very aware of the fact that he needed to leave for the airport sooner. The edge to your voice quickly dissipated as you asked, “You’ve got to go already?”

The mood changed so fast at the realization of the time and that he was leaving again. It was hard to stay hostile toward the other when you both knew your time was up and you didn’t know the next time you can see each other again is.

Jungkook nodded his head as he finally stood up. It didn’t take him long to pack up since he traveled lightly but there was still a stretch of awkward silence when he did have to put his things away.

“Are you mad?” You finally asked as he stood in front of you now. You stood up from the bed to walk him out but he didn’t move back. Instead he took your hand in his, placing a small kiss on your knuckles, “No. You?”

“No,” you told him and it was the truth. You knew from the beginning what it would mean to sneak around with Jungkook like this. You didn’t beg him for a relationship because you didn’t expect one. He’s made it clear that a relationship would be hard for him with all his work and fans. You don't have a single problem with that, you’re such a big fan but… he can’t get annoyed if you see other people in the meantime.

Jungkook’s hold was gentle but firm and he pulled you into a hug, “I should go.”

“I know,” you sighed hugging him back, “You’ve got a busy schedule this week.”

Jungkook scoffed at the reminder but he wasn't annoyed by you but by how much of an understatement that sentence was. Despite their break starting his schedule is still just so hectic he had to move so much around just to come see you.

“Call me when you land?” You asked as you followed him to the front door. He nodded yes, twisting the handle to leave your apartment. He was dressed in dark clothing and a driver would be picking him up from your private parking garage so he wasn’t worried about being seen. So he let his mask fall for a moment to press a kiss to your lips.

“I’ll call.”

“Bye.”

“Bye.”

When Jungkook made it onto his plane he couldn’t stop himself from taking his phone out to text you. He didn’t even think about what he was doing till he sent the message.

jungkook: what if we give us a try?

jungkook: I shouldn’t have gotten mad. it’s not my place. ik.

jungkook: but i'm tired of acting like we’re not more than just a hook up

jungkook: I dont want either of us worried so should we give dating a try?

When he landed back home thirteen hours later, he finally saw your text.

you: I don’t think so

That following week he appeared at your doorstep looking absolutely hurt even days after he ignored your texts. He couldn’t message you after that day but that didn’t mean he could go to you in person for a real conversation.

“I just don’t see it working out, I rather not waste my time,” you told him honestly. You hated being cruel but it was for the better. Soon he’ll realize that he was better off without you and that you were just doing him a favor. Of course he didn’t see it that way because he just didn’t understand.

“How do you know that when you can’t even try?” Jungkook was getting flustered. He hates every second of this. It’s not his first time attempting to start a relationship with someone, he’s gets that but he just doesn't get why you won’t even give him a try. He understands his life is hectic and it comes with a lot of attention but it’s you that he’ll really want. You’re the one he'd like to call at night after a show or fly in to see when your schedules matched. It’s the only way you can both save yourselves from losing each other if someone else comes along.

“I don’t want to try Jungkook, I just… I just want to stop now,” you told him and you were looking him in the eye as you said it so he couldn’t even tell if there was a part of you that thinks you don’t want to stop. How could you want to stop seeing him? You used to be at their shows watching as a fan and now you’re trying to throw him away as if he didn’t give himself to you. Just last weekend you were joking, taking pictures together, having round after round of sex but now it’s like that never happened. Maybe it was his fault for bringing up Eric but he needed to know at the time because he didn’t want you to leave him.

You felt horrible saying that to him but you needed to. If you weren’t honest right now then you’ll regret it later on when you’re getting sent thousands of hate comments that you just can’t handle mentally. You would honestly give everything to be with him in a normal relationship but you can’t have that. That’s why you went on more than one date with Eric, he made you feel normal.

You understand that other people have happily dated a celebrity knowing all that came with it but you just don’t see yourself as one of those. Call yourself pessimistic but you’re just thinking logically. Jungkook tours so many cities, so many countries with thousands of fans everywhere BTS goes. Fans who have dedicated themselves fully to the group and others who’ll defend them over anything. It’s not that it’s bad but when it comes to their love life not all are happy. You don’t want it to someday leak and now you’re Enemy No.1. Now they’re spamming you with hate, finding out where you work, who your family is, where you come from. They’re outing everything about you, sending threats and nasty comments all about how you didn’t deserve Jungkook. You could not handle that, and obviously not all fans are like that but it would also be a lie to say that none were like that.

“You don’t mean that,” Jungkook said as he sat on the edge of your couch looking dejected, “You want to be with me, I know you do. I want to be with you too and you’re being so fucking unfair right now.”

“I’m being unfair?” You asked with a scoff, “What isn’t fair is that you won’t listen to where I’m coming from but you expect me to listen and agree with everything you say?”

“Because I’ll be there for you!” Jungkook said, raising his voice a little, “I know it’s hard. I know my life isn’t easy but come on… isn't this what you wanted in the first place?”

Your face dropped at what he just said. Of course he would think that is all it would take to make you want to be with him. Oh, he’s Jeon Jungkook of BTS, who wouldn’t want to be with him? And yeah, okay, you thought that at one point too but you realized that it just doesn’t seem like something you actually want. You cleared your throat awkwardly, as you stood up from the couch.

Jungkook looked at you waiting to see if you would say anything but instead he was met with silence as you began to walk to the front door and he’ll be lying if he said that didn’t hurt. You didn’t even have to say anything right now for him to understand what you wanted. You were done talking and you wanted him out. You knew he would be leaving in the morning and you couldn’t even handle another minute with him here and that fucking hurt. He pushed off the couch letting you know he was upset as he grabbed his things, putting on his hat and mask and anything that would disguise him.

He walked to the door with all his things standing in front of you waiting to see what you would say but you wouldn’t even look at him. Even as he stood not even a foot away from him you refused to look at him and he knew it was because you were lying to him. You wanted him to think you didn’t want to be with him when you clearly do. Jungkook’s lips parted as they came close to calling your name but his phone began to ring. One look down and he knew it was his manager probably wondering why he wasn’t back at the hotel yet. He didn’t miss the way you glanced down at his phone too but you went back to staring off when he looked at you. He ignored the call just so he could try and talk to you again, “Y/n—“

Ring. Ring.

He needed to leave, he was being summoned and you knew he had to go. If you didn’t say something that’ll hurt him then he’ll try and stay to talk this out but there was nothing to talk about. You two weren’t ever supposed to be anything more than just casual but this past weekend complicated things.

He just needs to see that he’s in over his head. He doesn’t actually want to be with you, he just doesn’t want you with anyone else. That’s why this whole argument started anyway, he was mad you went on three dates with the same guy so you need to say something to help him clear his head and think logically.

“You can’t give me the normal I want,” you finally said and he felt the ache in his chest expand, “That’s why I’m saying no. That’s why I went out with that other guy.”

Jungkook’s body went rigid as he let you push him away, words cutting deep. The door closed shut behind him and he was alone in the empty hall of your apartment building.

Jungkook got into the back of the black G-wagon that had been sitting in the parking garage for hours with the driver up front. He looked back at Jungkook and casually asked, “Any other stops tonight?”

It was a usual question to ask and Jungkook hated it because it was his fault. He’s the one who was insatiable for the attention, for the affection. Everyone’s used to his ways and there’s a reason why there’s a new rumored girlfriend of his every other week. He knew why you were rejecting him but he just wished it was different, that he was different. He was scared to lose you to someone else but he can’t even give you what you want.

“Not tonight.”

He knew it was obvious on every live he did that he was not feeling himself. With some of the others already enlisted and time to himself where he could relax and talk to ARMY, he felt alone. Then he felt bad for feeling alone because he was always flooded with love and support but that’s the problem. He knows he’s loved but he doesn’t feel it on his skin. He hears it and sees it but he can’t touch their affection. He can’t lay in bed and feel it because it’s not there. It just can’t replace the intimacy that came with having someone when he felt alone.

He couldn’t even call you because you wouldn’t answer. He can’t DM you or text you, especially not see you. There’s other people on his phone eager to get another night with them and yet he’s stuck on you and what you said to him.

It’s not like he expected it to be easy. He knew that just asking for a real relationship was asking for a lot but he just doesn’t get it. He spent so much time wondering what it was about you that made him want to stay every time he was with you. Maybe it was your crass way of speaking, not caring who he was or if you were a fan. You were blunt and honest and refreshing. You made him crazy when you would go months without talking yet he never even noticed at first.

Jungkook would be with some girl from some nameless city and then he would be in bed with her. He would lay there after only for a second before he was rushing out the door not bothering to look back.

He would go home or back to the hotel and maybe contemplate being alone or find someone else to keep him company before he got bored of them.

If it isn’t clear that he’s not that good of a guy to be with, then he must be good at hiding it—especially from his fans who had absolutely no idea that he wishes you were there for him.

He could tell you that you’re the only one he never wants to leave. That if he could he would stay in bed with you even if he didn’t realize that’s what he wanted. He would say that waking up beside you the next day was comforting even if he didn’t know why.

But he knew now and for some reason he thought you would be overjoyed to be with him. Then he felt stupid because why would he expect you to react that way? As if he didn’t know you and the way you were. As if he didn’t know how crazy and unconvincing he sounded offering you words of security and reassurance if you went out with him.

He was so utterly stupid to think he could just ask you out of the blue to be with him and only him—even when he was thousands of miles away.

“Aish,” he cursed as he looked down at his phone, the comments and gifts flying in and out of his screen. His usual gravity LED lights in the background and a song that made him laugh bitterly playing quietly.

Call Out My Name by The Weeknd and he just thought, how fitting.

Comments flooded in asking what was wrong, why he was laughing, if this song meant something and it made him laugh again.

What was wrong? He’s been cut off by the person who was his comfort and they wanted nothing to do with him anymore.

Why was he laughing? Because it’s crazy that he expected you to ever want to do this with him, if you wanted to you would’ve proposed the idea sooner, right?

Did the song mean anything? Not necessarily, it just happened to be playing but he was so in his head that he didn’t realize how fitting it actually was until he heard it.

No, he shook his head, he’s just being dramatic.

He forced a smile on his face, “I do miss seeing all of ARMY, I hope to go back on tour when the break is over, I would like to see you all.”

He read some comments off the screen trying his best to focus on this instead of you.

Then he saw it right there as he was trying to distract himself from you. Like usual, you read his mind and knew he was thinking about you again. Why else would you join the live now of all times?

You just wanted to see him because even if you ended things harshly that didn’t mean you couldn’t miss him. You missed him so much but you were just in two totally different worlds. Pretending was fun while it lasted but when things got serious you couldn’t do it like a coward.

You’re not sure if he noticed you but there was no denying the stutter in his voice as he stared at the screen intently. It felt like he was looking right at you and the thought made you squirm and ready to leave but you stayed instead. You watched him listen to music, chat like nothing was wrong and laugh every now and then, but you can tell it wasn’t real. You can tell it’s all strained.

“So,” Jungkook cleared his throat as he prepared himself to speak next. He’s been thinking about this since you joined the live and he figured now is the time to just go for it. If he doesn’t just do it then he’ll wonder if this is his last time to have you interact with him in some way. He doesn’t even know if you’re still watching but he at least needs to try.

“I wrote and produced this song last night,” he finished as he reached for his laptop immediately looking for the track, “I’m gonna sing it for you… all.”

He didn’t have to look at the comments to know everyone was going crazy over the thought of him singing something new. He grabbed his mic and plugged it in playing the back track and asking if everyone can hear it right. You didn’t comment or anything but for some reason you knew this was for you. He looked into the camera one more time as he began a soft melody of ‘Still With You’ in Korean.

You could really only make out a couple lines from what he taught you but it was easy to tell the song and what it meant to him if you went based off the way he sang it so intently.

‘That faint voice of yours that grazed me

Please call my name one more time

I’m standing still under the frozen light, but

I will walk towards you, step by step

Still with you

A pitch dark room

I shouldn’t get used to it

But I’m used to it again

The low-pitched sound of the air conditioner

If I don’t have this, I might just fall apart

We laugh together, we cry together

These simple feelings were everything I had

When will it be?

If I see you again

I will look into your eyes

And say, "I missed you"

In a rapturous memory

The rain pours even when I dance alone

By the time this mist clears

I'll run with my feet wet

So hug me then

Behind the faint smile that looked at me

I will draw a beautiful purple shade

Though our footsteps may be out of step

I want to walk this path with you

Still with you

In a rapturous memory

The rain pours even when I dance alone

By the time this mist clears

I'll run with my feet wet

So hug me then

The moon looks lonely

Like it's crying in the bright night sky

Even though I always know the morning will come

I want to stay in your sky like a star

Every day, every moment

If I knew this was gonna happen

I would have remembered more of them

When will it be?

If I see you again

I will look into your eyes

And say, "I missed you"’

You didn’t know what to feel right now nor what to say. It’s not like you could comment how you miss him too without thousands of other people saying the same thing. You didn’t even know if you wanted to address this so like a coward, you left.

Jungkook knew he didn’t want to reach out to you. He didn’t want to know if you heard the song or not because if you don’t reach out to him it either means that you didn’t or you don’t care. He’s not strong enough to find out which one it is, he is just thankful he got it off his chest.

You were hectic, running around your house looking for things you wouldn’t specify. You shoved things into your suitcase that you weren’t sure you would even need and ignored all the questions being thrown at you.

“You’re not making any sense Y/n,” your friend said as she sat on your bed, “How are you just going to go on a trip so suddenly? Where are you even going? What about work?”

“I’m using my PTO,” you told her as you checked the time one last time to make sure you wouldn’t miss check in.

“Alright but where are you going? Where’d you even get the money?” She asked as she organized your suitcase for you since you were going crazy shoving things in there.

“I can’t really explain everything right now I’m going to South Korea,” you told her and even you agreed that you sounded absolutely ridiculous.

“Okay well now you have to tell me what the fuck is going on. That’s not just some short trip and back, Y/n. You don’t just go there suddenly because you’re bored,” she said.

You took a deep breath as you brushed your messy hair out of your face, “It’s complicated. I promise I’ll tell you everything when I come back but I have to go now.”

Before I change my mind, you thought.

Your friend looked at you with worry, she’s never seen you this unorganized and that’s why she said, “Okay. I’ll drive you to the airport then.”

It was crazy, you were crazy for this but it’s been on your mind for days. For all you knew Jungkook is completely over you and the song he wrote but you wouldn’t know unless you talked to him [at least tried to]. He might not want anything to do with you, hell you’re not even sure how you plan on even seeing him but you had to do this.

If you didn’t act now then you’ll never do it and you’ll regret not even trying. You want to write an apology to his amazing fans for possibly hurting Jungkook and for going after him like this to make him yours but you had to. If he wants you then you’ll find a way to fit into his life and fame.

A lot of people say that idol’s understand them or saved them and yes, that’s true for a lot but this is different. This is such a once in a lifetime occasion where you actually got to know Jungkook as a person and not just a member of BTS. You got to know when he looked like waking up beside him. You learned how he likes his eggs in the mornings and what songs he sings in the shower.

You experienced his hands washing your hair or massaging your shoulders. You laughed at inside jokes in hotel rooms or your apartment at that. You couldn’t just throw this away because you’re scared to face millions who could possibly hate everything about you if he genuinely makes you happy to be with him.

Jungkook just got home from seeing off Hoseok for his service. He was tired and sad because yet another person was leaving him for a while.

You never reached out to him. He waited for days but you never did and he realized that it was over.

He kept thinking about that as he got in the car. His driver and manager looked at him as the driver asked, “Where to?”

“Home,” he muttered tiredly as he stared out the window.

“Jungkook, cheer up,” his manager said with a warm smile, “Things might look up soon.”

Jungkook didn’t respond as he tuned out the car ride entirely.

When he got to his apartment building he went to his floor not noticing the way the lobbyist looked at him or how his staff did too. He left alone and unlocked his front door alone.

He didn’t even bother to turn on the light as he slipped his shoes off and sullenly walked around aimlessly.

“Jungkook?”

Great, he thought, he’s imagining you now too.

“Jungkook.”

His entire body froze, it went rigid as he looked up from his feet and around his dark apartment.

There you were holding the extra house key to his place that he gave you a while ago even though you both knew there would never be a chance for you to come. He dropped the things he had in his hands as he looked you over from head to toe. You were completely disguised from head to toe in black like he usually did when he would leave your place.

A million questions ran through his head but he couldn’t voice a single one of them as you took a hesitant step closer to him.

He crumpled to the floor, face in his hands as he forced himself to not act so emotionally.

“Y—you’re here,” Jungkook said, “You’re actually here?”

You dropped to your knees in front of him and hesitantly brought your arms up to reach for him, “I’m sorry.”

He didn’t say anything as he let you pull him into a hug, both sitting on the floor. You rubbed soothing strokes into his back, “I’m sorry.”

“You just… you just ended things between us, Y/n,” he said looking up at you, “You said you couldn’t do a relationship with me and now you're here. Why? How? How are you here right now? Why didn’t you tell me? Who let you through?”

“I dipped into my savings,” you confessed, “And I called your manager. I know I shouldn’t have but I had his number because of that one time your phone broke when you were with me. I didn’t think about telling you, I just booked a flight and came.”

He didn’t say anything as you crawled into the space of his lap letting your legs wrap around his back as you sat on the floor. He let his arms encircle your waist, “I missed you.”

“I missed you too.”

“Did you?” He asked cautiously, feeling his fingertips slip under your shirt to feel your skin directly.

“I did, and I’m sorry Jungkook,” you told him honestly as your arms wrapped around his neck, “I’m sorry that I was so cold last time. I know I hurt you but I thought that it was too hard. I didn’t think I could handle a relationship with you and that was really fucked up of me. No other guy has meant to me what you do and I just got defensive because I just wanted to live a normal life if I couldn’t have that with you. So when you said you wanted a relationship, I just flipped.”

“It’s not like what you said isn’t true,” Jungkook admitted. He’s had time to think about why you rejected him and he gets it, he really does but it just doesn’t change the fact that he wants to be with you. It might be selfish for him to ask you to be with him but he wants to be selfish. He wants to have someone for himself, he wants to belong to someone who fully understands him.

It’s just taken him too long to notice. All those drunken nights with random women in his bed.

All those fans and adoration that got to his head, made him feel bigger than he actually was. Made him less apologetic and cold. His Jin hyung was right, he didn’t want to be owned at the time. He didn’t want to be tied down because he knew he would someday hurt the other person because of his lifestyle.

He’s been in the fame game since he was just a kid. He’s had the money, the girls, the fans, everything he’s ever wanted. He thought that’s what his life was.

He thought that was everything until he spent too many nights alone. None of it meant anything compared to having that one person who could hold him in their arms at night.

“You’re right, I won’t always be able to see you, even now you know how hard it is with my schedule and that’s that I’m on break, Y/n,” he said as he stroked your back, “And I don’t want you to leave me but I’m scared I’ll let you down.”

“I don’t know what I’m supposed to say,” you said as you thought what he was saying. Did you fly here for no reason? Was he just going to reject you now that he’s thought things through? Wasn’t this what he had wanted? Isn’t this why he would get mad if you were with another guy?

He shook his head as if reading your thoughts, “I guess what I’m saying is I still want to try even if I can’t do it perfectly. I want to be with you however I can.”

“Jungkook, I think I know what I’m getting myself into if I want to be with you,” you told him honestly, “I know there’s going to be things I expect of you that you won’t be able to do and that’s okay. We’ll work aroun—“

“But I don’t want to hide my relationship with you, Y/n. I want to be able to take you on real dates, be out in public, show you off, and I won’t be able to do that. Are you okay with that?” Jungkook asked, “I won’t even be in the same country as you most of the time.”

He was contradicting himself, he knows. He wants to be with you, but at the same time he can’t. He wants to give you more than possible and he’s scared to let you down.

You moved to get off his lap, “So what now then? Did I make a mistake coming here?”

“No. No! Y/n,” he reached out for you again but you moved back, “I just… I don’t want to let you down.”

“You won’t.”

“I will, Y/n, we both know it and I want to be selfish and be with you but it’s unfair to you,” Jungkook said honestly and you had to hold his face in your hands to look at you, “And you were right. The second I thought of you having a normal life with some other guy it fucking killed me. I know I rushed things with you and tried getting you into a relationship neither of us were in a place to be in but I don’t want to lose you because I can’t give you what you want.”

“Listen to me,” you said as his eyes met yours, “This is what I want. You are what I want and I know I said a lot of things but I’m willing to figure it out if you are. If you don’t even want to try then let me know right now and I’ll leave.”

“No, I don’t want you to,” at that he pulled you back into his arms, “I want to be with you.”

“So please Y/n, let’s figure this out?” He asked seriously. He’s been in relationships before but they were so short lived, so temporary and shallow. What he felt for you wasn’t. He can’t just let you go.

“Okay,” you said, pressing a kiss to his lips gently.

This life wasn’t for everyone but as long as you both were willing to try there was nothing else he can ask for. All he can do is enjoy the time he’s given right now with you.

“So do you want to be together, then?” He asked for final confirmation and when you nodded your head he couldn’t help but release a breath of relief.

He was going to find a way to stay for you, to stay with you.

BREAKING NEWS: JUNGKOOK OF BTS DATING A NON-IDOL?

FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS, a secret source has followed the life of Jeon Jungkook and his travels in and out of the country.

He’s made frequent visits to a ‘friend’, our source says. It was hard to find information on this friend until just last week when the two were spotted at an Illusion museum in __ kissing.

Now, this special friend has been identified as 22 year old, Y/n L/n, a Brand Strategy Manager for a national eCommerce company in her area. Her earlier education was spent at __ where she then went to the University of __ for her degree in marketing. Her family consists of __ and her closest friends are __.

It is unclear as to when exactly their relationship started but it’s to be noted that BTS did a two-day show in the city L/n resided in exactly two years ago when speculation first started.

It is also unknown if the pair are dating despite being photographed holding hands, kissing, sneaking into cars and most recently video footage of the pair staying at a hotel. The reason for the lack of clarity is due to pictures of L/n joined by another man recently at bars and restaurants between visits from BTS’s Jungkook. The question arises: is Y/n two-timing the world’s biggest heartthrob?

ARMY across the world, don’t worry DISPATCH will look closely into the extent of their relationship and bring you the truth. We have been gathering evidence over the past two years to make sure what we bring you is factual.

It was all over the news the next day.

Pictures upon pictures of you and Jungkook.

Pictures of him leaving your apartment building.

Pictures of him flying into your city.

Pictures of you two from the damn window of your own home.

Pictures at the restaurant, the airport, cars, etc. but it wasn’t all.

Pictures of flying into Korea.

Pictures of you doing everyday tasks, seeing your friends, meeting your family, meeting Eric.

For fuck’s sake, even pictures of you at work wearing a bracelets he got you last year for your birthday.

Jungkook has been on the phone all morning calling every single executive from HYBE threatening their jobs to those who didn’t take the articles that were flooding every news outlet down. He's making sure everyone knows that he’s not going to sit around and watch his girlfriend be completely bullied by the news for the sake of a good story.

The label is going crazy filing lawsuits over the pictures in the jacuzzi or the ones in your own home which were clearly taken by saesangs.

All along you both thought it was hidden but the entire time Dispatch was just waiting for the right moment to expose the greatest scandal in BTS history. It should’ve even be a scandal but just like that…

Your hopes at living as a nobody were completely crushed as you became somebody a lot of people are growing to hate.

“It’s going to be okay,” Jungkook tried saying to you as he stayed on the phone with Namjoon who was trying to do damage control on his end, “I’m not going let anyone hurt you, Y/n.”

It was too late. You’ve been painted as a two-timer, they found out where you live, who your family is and you just have so much explaining to do.

But Jungkook swears he’s going to be here for you. He’s going to stay when other times he’d run away. He’s going to stay and protect you and protect his loving and supportive fans because he has a right to be happy too. He’s chosen to stay.

::.

NO PART TWO

a/n omg she’s a long one. also I hate idol aus but idk 💀💀I always see Twitter and Tiktok going crazy over dating rumors and I was like… woah, let me make delulus either mad or happy?????anyways obviously just a piece of fiction by a bitch from nebraska so don’t take it to heart.

and I don’t want no y/n slander bc idk about you but dating an idol seems so stressful and ik for a fact I wouldn’t be able to handle hate lol.

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ISTG YALL THESE BOOKS ARE TRYING TO KILL ME. i literally cannot right now every story i read of theirs always does smth to me 😣. this story was PHENOMENAL i’m not even joking. the way the express their love for each other makes me sick bc of how cute it is. i will never understand how oc waited for so long bc i could NEVER. she a strong one ✊🏼. i couldn’t stand the way this made me feel like i literally felt what they felt. another i can’t understand is how someone can make and come up with such great stories bc again i could literally never come up with something as good as this. i spent my whole night reading this. it’s 9am n i’m in tears. this was honestly so amazing read this RIGHT NOW.

a thousand reasons why | jjk (m)

Summary: “And if all of this experience was indeed a dream, you chose to stay just a little longer.”

After leaving to work towards his dream rather than the bonds that shackle him to home, you didn’t expect to see Jungkook again years later at your best friend’s wedding. And even less, for love to rekindle at second glance.

pairing: Jungkook x reader

genre: f2l; fluff, angst, smut, crack

warnings: a whole laundry list tf: (past) minor character death, somewhat toxic parents, (mentions of) gambling, blond & then 5th muster pied piper (fuckboy) jk lol, this jimin, jealousy, alcohol consumption, unrequited love (not between jk & oc), friends fighting; explicit multiple (2) sex scenes that include: dom & big dick!jk, light hair pulling, marking, tiddie sucking/breast play, clit pinching, pussy slapping, soft & rough sex, praising, biting, some spit ig, oral (f. & m.), fingering, handjob, consent <3, cockwarming, squirting, oversensitivity, multiple orgasms, mouth fucking,… uhh, consensual drunk sex, protected & unprotected sex…. yeah

word count: 43.1k (i sincerely apologise <3)

credits: such a beautiful banner by my lovely @taemaknae​​ <3 !! beta’d by @bangtanhome​​​ @hobiandsprite​​ & @missgeniality​​ - your brains are exquisite and this fic would be NOTHING without you !! & parts read by @hantaev​​ ILY ALL <3

a/n: i’m honestly SORRY for the wc lol pls still read tho, i worked so so hard on it :’) based on the 2013 movie YJHD! and a belated love letter to one of my favourite people in this world - happy birthday, jeon jungkook. i’ll always be inspired by your words and admire you forever <3

uploaded to AO3, too (for those who prefer pdfs or mobile readings!) + the fic is split in ‘Before’ & ‘Now’ - that way, you can read it in 2 sittings if you’d like <3

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MASTERLIST | WIPs

The slowly vanishing light of the sun bathes the room in a golden glow when you close the door to your apartment behind you.

Coming home feels different today. With the boxes under your arms, you feel the weight of the postcards and invitations heavier than usual. After letting Dia ramble about the plans for the next few days, dreamy eyes drifting off now and then, you’ve grown increasingly tired this evening. And yet, you can’t wait to send off the cards that remain before the big day breaks in.

You lift the sunglasses from your eyes and place them on your head, not bothering to change your clothes before you sit down at your desk and start putting the invitations into envelopes. You wait and read with a thumping heart, fingers working through the pile quickly until you finally see it.

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colour me in | jjk (m) | masterlist

Jungkook’s door only opens for you when there’s a barter: a trade of lust and haze. But today you knock for something more, as intriguing as it is frightening – and you hope it doesn’t close his door forever.

➳ pairing: Jungkook x reader

➳ genre: fwb, fake dating, college!au; fluff, angst, smut

➳ contents & warnings: artist/fuckboy!JK, annoying parents, endearing friends, lots of smut and fluff, misunderstandings; and more chapter specific warnings! | 18+

➳ current word count: 207.7k

➳ status: ongoing

➳ cmi’s mood: still with you and my you by Jungkook | collaborative playlist 🎶

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begin | jjk (m)

Summary: “Being a human isn’t that bad when he gets to be one with you by his side.”

Before everything shatters like a mirage of an impossible dream, you teach Jungkook how to live a fulfilling life far from Heaven. His numb heart starts to gradually light up again; you make him begin believing in love and hope when not even starting afresh could. But then… everything shatters.

pairing: Jungkook x reader

genre: s2f2l, fallen angel / fantasy!au; fluff, angst, smut

warnings: major and minor character death (but the fic has a happy ending nw !!), themes of death / rebirth / illness, bad childhood / foster parents, not exactly biblically correct - i took some liberty with these themes (no insults or anything offending tho), jk is mean at first but softens up and becomes the sweetest guy ever, swearing, unrequited love for like… 5 seconds; explicit sexual content: outdoor foreplay, handjob, oral (f. receiving), groping, fingering, soft dom!jk, lots of kissing, unprotected sex (reader is on pill just for him, be careful guys), praise kink, marking, some manhandling, dirty talk, jk’s goddamn muscles and moans gawd

word count: 26.6k

a/n: first of all, look at this banner by @ddaechwita​, I’M SO IN LOVE, TYSM !!!!! T_T this fic was written for the wings collab hosted by @missgeniality​ who also beta’d this fic and listened to me ramble about it for months, along with @jimilter​, my talented lil goofball !! thank you for making fallen angel jk (and the summary smh) so much better <3 PLUS, ash and @ressjeon​​, i love you babies for lending me your beautiful names for some of the scenes *cries* !!

uploaded to AO3, too (for those who prefer pdfs or mobile readings!)

MASTERLIST | WIPs

Angels fall with a dull thump and the flash of a light.

A human ear registers the sound as a small whimper, a soft wind blowing and howling in a somewhat strange way for only moments before normality returns. But differently from mere mortals, Heaven and Hell shake at the disturbance, the rare happening indicating the failure of another superior creature.

Jungkook doesn’t remember the thump and the fall, but he remembers the brightness vividly - a striking and blinding light before he entered the life he’s gotten used to now. The punishment he’s wandered into would certainly be less frightening if he knew how he’d gotten to suffer through it and how he can fight it.

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