GHOST

GHOST

Javier Pena x Reader

Chapter 4

The day I got into the vehicle with those guys I thought it was my last day on earth. It was stupid to have Pena waiting incase they took me to some remote place to drop my body. I bang my head thinking about it in the car. Thankfully I was actually going back to my work place. I set up the phone I was speaking with a trusted member of the cartel. They told me Escobar would be traveling back to Colombia from Panama. To move some money around because they would have to pay people. I connected the dots knowing well enough that they would be coming back for war.

“He wouldn’t start a war now” Diego cleans his glasses and refills my cups. “He missed home, to soon to start something”

“Tell that to the money he is moving around. That is not the strategy of someone who is going to relax when he sets foot back home” I shake my head trying to figure out and put pieces together. “He is going to want to keep pushing extradication off.”

“They already denied their request. The ambassador and the military are focused on the police and military and some communist” He groans not hiding his dislike.

“Who gives a fuck about any of them” I roll my eyes wishing this shot was actually straight tequila. “Tell me something good”

“Murphy and Pena have an unknown informant and might lose their job for it” Now that is news. Before he could continue I got a notification on my phone. This is even greater news. “Haven’t seen that smile in a long time”

“You’re about to see more of it” I put my phone away downing the shot of water. “They siezed their accounts.”

“So you get to go home too” I shake my head. This will never be home but I am still happy to see a light at the end of the tunnel.

“I will be here tomorrow. Things are going to go down fast and I need more intel. Get a hold of Pena and tell him to meet me in the back. Escobar will have a plan by tonight” And I was right. Later that night Colombians hope was shot dead. A couple bullets below his bulletproof vest and in a couple minutes he was dead. The crowd mourned him and as they held a funeral his second hand fell into power. Galan promised to get rid of the narcos but Gaviria had another look in his eyes. I am not saying he is crooked but who knows nowadays.

“Going home late again?” One of my colleagues stopped at my desk. “You have been killing yourself these past weeks. Why don’t you come out with us friday?” I shake my head.

“Can’t” I motion to all the files I had to go through. It wasn’t for that certain client but for me. I need to find connections with the people I am looking for.

“Think about it. You have my number” She smiled, putting on her coat and walking out. As soon as she left I got back to work. Numbers don’t add up on the certain date I was looking at but what difference was that? None of them added up. That's why Pablo bought his people, so they would make it make sense. I should have been here at the beginning but I was following the wrong lead. Now I am doubting myself about Pablo, what if he has nothing to do with it? I close up the books and say goodbye to the rest who are working. It was sunset as I walked into the bar.

“Early tonight?” I smile at Miguel.

“Tomorrow is friday, I thought I would celebrate early” I thank him sitting in my regular spot with my drink already prepared.

“So not working late tomorrow?” Who knows. “Becuase I was thinking I could take the night off and-”

“Lola! You’re early today” Diego came from the back giving me a signal. “I am taking my break” He nudges Miguel with a small laugh then extends his hand towards me. “I need your help on my finance real quick”

“Thankfully I haven’t started drinking” I laugh along while walking around the bar and into the back.

“He is nice, are you going to accept?” I turned my head weirded out by that question. “What? Just test the waters or a stress reliever!” I shake my head with a smile. We got to the back room and Murphy was standing there.

“Y/N” It was nice to see him again. “Pena couldn’t make it. We are dealing with something” He looks back not wanting to say anything infront of Diego before he walks out.

“Let me guess, your informant” I grin, taking a seat on the couch.

“Yeah” He falls back spreading himself on the couch. “He is going to get us fired and all for a couple of nights of warming the bed”

“He slept with her?” I said it a little too fast causing a look from Steve.

“He hasn’t denied it but his reputation follows him” Of course. “He is getting her fake papers to protect her”

“Listen” I sit up trying to change the subject. “He has got 2 million dollars in a briefcase right now. They already took Galan out and more money like that in there hands they are going to take out many more”

“As you know he stepped back on home soil” I nod. “He sent a note to Gaviria, either leave them alone or go to war”

“Has your informat said anything?”

“She spoke about the M19. Pablo meeting up with him or talking. But she showed up at Connie’s job asking to be hidden. She fight for the people and not the help the narcos”

“Apparently” I whisper, shaking my head.

“Apparently” He repeats with a chuckle. “How are you doing?” I shrugg quickly before groaning. I stood up fixing my clothes.

“Could be better” I laughed before looking back. “I need you to look into something” I grab a paper from my bag and hand it over to him. “Keep it quiet. The ambassador knows about it but no one else should”

“Does this have to do with Pablo?” I shake my head forcefully before closing my eyes.

“I don’t know. That it what I am trying to figure out”

“How bad is it?” who knows.

“Crooked information. New labs overseas. Cartels working together. What's one druglord down if the others learn from their mistakes and become harder to catch?”

“Anything else?” He placed the paper in his pocket. I wanted to tell him what I had in mind. If everything goes down in a couple days or even tonight, there are a lot of ifs and whats and never a sure plan.

“No” I smile before turning around and leaving. Later that night I twist and turn. There wasn’t much to do tomorrow so I decided to call in sick. I needed to talk to Diego again. I walk into the bar and wave at Miguel. “Diego in?”

“In the back” The bar was empty and as I walked confidently towards the back all that went away quickly.

“I need more information than that” The sight wasn’t what I was prepared for this morning. I grab my gun from the holster I hand on my leg hidden by my dress. I pass by fast trying to look around. There seem to be only two men in there. Diego’s hands were tied together and his face bruised up. I looked around making sure no one else was back here. The only way was through the curtains so there was no way to surprise them.

“Diego?” I walk in with a hand behind my back. I act shocked by the men standing there.

“Miss” They were the same guys who stalked me outside my window. “You shouldn’t be here” He sets his gun down and walks forward in motion for me to get out. I wait until he is close enough to grab his hand and with a flip a gun is pointed at his head.

“Put the gun down” The man's eyes showed no mercy. He pulled on the safety but I took the first shot.

“You bitch!” He screamed holding on to his leg.

“You can still walk, untie him” I let go of the man and walked over to remove the guns away from them while pointing at them with mine.

“The boss will be after you when he hears you are working with the DEA agents that came in here” I look over to Diego who was massaging his wrist.

“More are coming. You need to leave” I nod quickly making sure he had the upper hand and ran out of there. I sent Miguel home and just as I was going to walk out I saw another group of men walking in.

“Wait. You need to come with us” One man warns, moving his hands slows towards his back. Two gunshots were heard and I took that as a chance to start running. I go around the corner to an alley and into an abandoned building. I take a moment to think before my feet continue without any direction. I don’t know if they were still following me but I continued on running. My lungs were burning and my legs didn’t feel like my own. I couldn’t be seen walking into the police station or the DEA.

“Fuck!” I scream looking inbetween streets. I don’t know any of these streets. “Can I use your phone?” I say casually walking into a store

“Of course it's in the back” I tell him thanks and move faster to pull the phone. “I need to talk to the ambassador” I tell whoever is on the other side not waiting for their introduction.

“You will need an appointment or-”

“This is Agent L/N. I don’t need an appointment because I will be dead! So if you would be so kind as to get me connected to the Ambassador I would really appreciate it.” I speak urgently.

“As I was saying, the Ambassador is out. You could leave-”

“Connect me to Agent Murphy or Pena!” I wanted to pull my arm through the phone and choke her.

“They are busy-”

“You know what they will be busy with? Finding a new secretary! Get me someone before I get a chance to personally get there and drag you by your stupid-”

“Woah” I hear a man's voice on the other side. “Is that how you say hello?”Murphy laughs

“I need your help Steve. Diego is in trouble and I need you to send someone to the bar” I hear papers fumble on the other side before he is back to the phone

“Are you okay?”

“I don’t know where I am. I need somewhere to hide”

“Wait. Give me a minute” Of course. Fucking hell. I look back hoping those men didn’t continue to follow me. I hear only static on the other side before 5 minutes go by. “Pablo took over the Supreme court with the help of M19. Burned everything we had on them” Another couple curse words follow before he continues talking. “I am going to give you an address. Grab the first taxi and someone will meet you there”

“Okay”

“I will be there as soon as I can” I know that means it would be hours.

Chapter 5

NOT A CHAPTER

Chapter 20:

“Are you sure about this?” I shake my head no. I am not sure about this or many other things but when I think of that one thing, it makes everything feel right. “You could always do it here at the ranch. I can tell all the workers to leave for as long as yall need” Rip bumped my shoulder with his and the glare I gave him set him back right again. “Sorry. Have to be careful with your state nowadays”

“Shut up or I am revoking your rights” he lifts his hands in defeat. “Plus it's still not set in stone until Kayce says yes” I turn around noticing Rip wasn’t following beside me anymore.

“So I am doing this for nothing?” I laugh looking at his stupid expression as he holds the last pieces I needed to finish what I had planned for Kayce.

“Your love for me should be enough” I continued walking knowing he would follow eventually. “It's not even that far away either” I roll my eyes looking at the distance. It is far but I wasn’t going to admit it knowing he would offer to ride the horse down to the water.

“You know what I just realized?” I don’t turn or respond knowing he would just continue talking. “Recently you have been letting yourself go” I stop at the remark, turning to look over at him.

“What is that supposed to mean?” My eyebrow rised and a hand on my hip.

“Not in a bad way” My head turns a little to the side still waiting for him to continue. “You came down here with a wardrobe and it has gradually changed and it's good on you” I was still waiting. “You looked great before and it was what you were used to, do you like what it is now? You used to say you would never get used to this and how it wouldn’t look good on you” ah.

“Things changed Rip” I shrug, turning around to continue walking. “I certainly never saw myself staying in a place like this. I was born in the country but my heart always belonged to the city. A place where people don’t sleep. As early as 5 in the morning people are already out and about. You don’t need cars because you turn a corner and everything you need is there. But things change. I was never afraid to get myself dirty. I had boundaries and now it has expanded. Kayce made me love this place even more and settling here is what I crave more than anything now”

“Love changes you” I burst out laughing shaking my head. “Yes, big guy. Love does change you” Beth has certainly done a number on him since they got officially together. Before he could ask I left him with a bigger question in his head. “When are you two going to get hitched?”

“That's personal” I rolled my eyes.

“Aww. Is Rip the big bad wolf getting nervous?” I chuckle setting down what I had on the floor.

“I pick my timing. It's not time yet” He lowered his voice and I nod understandingly. What Beth and Rip has gone through hasn’t been easy and now that they are together, they aren’t rushing it.

“Alright big guy. Last trip.” I smile walking back to the ranch. By the time we reached the ranch it was 10 past 6.

“I will go ahead and take the last thing there and I will be on my way”

“Thanks” I smiled heading to the main house. I walk in seeing Beth, Tate, and John sitting in the living room talking. “Hey” I smile at them before taking a seat.

“I heard you’re doing something special for my little brother” Tate stands in attendance curious when he hears his dad mentioned.

“Something like that” I smile leaning further into the seat. I didn’t tell them what I was doing purposely. “I felt like it was my turn to do something for him. I know I am no romantic but I better up my beat if I don’t want to lose him”

“Trust that boy won’t leave unless he is ripped away from you” We laugh hearing the front door open.

“Can we have a talk in my office for a minute?” I look over at John and nod. We both stand heading to his office. I look back noticing it was Kayce walkingt through the doors. I leave him with a smile before walking into John’s office and closing the door. I turn around and take a seat before eyeing the folder he was sliding across his desk.

“Can you talk to me?” When John found out about Kayce and I, it wasn’t a pretty ride. It took months before he could even turn to look at me. But of course like a true Dutton he came to find me when he needed a lawyer who knew how he liked things done. I didn’t deny him since I owned him for everything I was. I still wasn’t going to stay if he didn't do something bad against me because I am still a person. But since then we have been getting closer and closer. He leans forward resting his elbows on his desk.

“When I saw you on my land years ago I wanted to do what I do with everyone else” Get rid of them one way or another. “I wanted to, but that was until I looked into your eyes. Scared. Alone. Broken. I saw that look constantly in my kids” They have had their share of it. “When I decided to bring you in I was going to make you a cowboy but I knew with those clothes you wouldn’t last a minute” I laughed knowing he was right. “You gave so much prospect to someone who belongs in a place like this.” He stands up reaching around the desk to lean against it infront of me. “And one day when I saw you and Kayce speaking. I saw the conversation unfold and it was like seeing two old people '' I furrowed my brows unsure on where he was going with this. “I didn’t want anyone messing with his future since he left. I wanted him to learn when he decided to leave this land that he wasn’t going to get better.” Tingles in my legs start moving all over my body. “I knew you being here would change his mind” I stood up and was a little dumbfounded.

“So you paid for my schooling to teach Kayce a lesson?” This has to be a cruel skit. I don’t know why I was angry. I believe in things happening in the right time so I wasn’t angry at the missed opportunity to be with Kayce years ago, I was upset that I was part of a lesson.

“You have to understand that back then you were just a little girl who came into our lives. A chess piece” I let out a frustrated chuckle shaking my head. “Since that day I saw the attraction between you two and my eyes were blinded with anger to see Kayce just give up”

“Wasn’t that what you wanted years ago? It would have made him come to his knees and beg you to come back” I sigh letting the upsetness defuse. I go to take a seat again. “What is your point in telling me all of this?” He takes the folder and places it on my lap as he kneels infront of me.

“I wanted you to know everything. You are about to be family although I considered you family for a long time "I look up in disbelief. “I was telling the truth when I told you, you are better than this place. You were already broken and this place would finish breaking you but when I saw how Kayce helped you and how you helped him I realized you two are strong enough for eachother to stay together.” He moves to open the file and reveal papers that needed signatures. “And for it to work properly with no further headaches I need you not to be attached to us professionally.”

“You’re firing me?” I was shocked.

“I need you to make your own choice. If you want to continue with the Dutton Ranch you are more welcome but if you decide not to, you are still part of this family regardless” I smile nodding my head.

“Either way I am here to stay” I close the folder and throw it on the desk. “You will be receiving an updated contract in a couple of days. I can’t let my number 1 client go” I smile standing up.

“Send it to my lawyer” He smiled gently, motioning me to follow him to the door. He stopped me by my arm as soon as I tried to open the door. “Thank you” I only smiled at his words, nodding before I left towards the living room.

“Is everything okay?” I nod going over towards Kayce and wrapping my arms around him.

“Everything is fine.” I look outside seeing the sun setting. “But nothing will be for what I have planned if we don’t leave right now” It was already past 6 so I was running behind schedule.

“You know you can’t get rid of me right?” I nudged him a bit as we walked down the path.

“Not like I have an option now” He furrowed his brows looking confused at my comment. I hold up my hand. “I would have to return the ring and it's too pretty” I smile, grabbing onto his forearm.

“So all it took was a pretty ring” I shrug

“Yeah! You put a ring that sparkles in front of a girl and a man with pretty eyes and they would fall to their knees in a second”

“I didn’t have to put a ring in front of you to get you on your knees those other times” I turned around shocked.

“Shut up” I slap his arm pushing him away. “And for your information I wasn’t as happy those other times” I cross my arms and speed walk to get to the destination faster.

“You seemed pretty eager” I try my best not to chuckle as I feel him wrap his arms around me making us tumble a bit until he caught balance.

“Yeah well, I was pretending. It helps the moment” I look away. I hear his low chuckle and his head falls inbetween my neck. I almost melt to the touch of his lips placing careful kisses.

“Baby,We both know that is a lie but.” He grabs on to my jaw making me look at him. “If you don’t like it, I am more than happy to be the one on my knees all the time” I held on to what I could but my legs were functioning less and less as he pulled me closer.

“If you don’t stop we won’t get to the surprise” I whisper as he hover over my lips. I want him to kiss me. Just like a couple hours ago.

“Alright” He sighs. I cursed at myself. I wanted him to see the surprise I had for him but the feeling for him was stronger. “Ready?” I nodded with my eyes closed trying to take a deep breath in and suddenly those strong feelings slowly started turning to sadness. “Are you okay?” He cups my face as I try my hardest to hold in the tears. “My love, talk to me” I shake my head as I tried to speak but no words came out. I feel his arms pull me into a hug and that is when the tears start to spill. “Whatever it is we promised to talk about it and figure it out together” I feel a kiss on my head before he pulls me in closer. “If you are not up for it can we go back? I won’t be disappointed” I lift up my head to look at him shaking my head no. He goes to remove the hair that was now sticking to my face due to the tears. “You sure?” I worked too hard on this and it was something important to not due today because if I wait any longer I will die.

“Am sure” I grabbed his hand and removed myself from him and continued on walking. “Am okay” I say, feeling his eyes on me. “I don’t understand my emotions right now but I can tell you that showing you your surprise will make me feel much better” I look back sending him a smile and pull him closer so I could wrap myself in his arm.

“Baby-”

“Shh” I quickly quieted him seeing the lights lit up. Fairy light hanging around the closest trees. A blanket on the floor with pillows just like he set up for me. But with the exception of something big in the middle of the set up.

“You got me a horse?” I laugh seeing his expression. His small smile with confusion trying to be nice to me. I grab on to his hand and pull him forward. “Baby?-” I roll my eyes walking around the young horse and pull the rag around his neck so Kayce would see it. I lift my eyebrows trying to give him a hint to go on and read what it said. As he walks forward I walk around to move behind him. I wait and I wait for a good 5 minutes.

“Kayce?” The humor in his reaction soon became anxiousness. I was worried to look at what reaction he had to the words. I took a step forward but soon froze as he turned to look at me.

“You are not joking with me right?” I shake my head quickly. “Because if this is a joke, it’s one cruel one” Soon I was on the verge of crying again.

“It's not a joke Kayce” I walk forward taking his hands and placing it on my stomach. “This is real”

“A baby?” A smile finally appeared in his face allowing the stress and fear to slip right off my shoulders.

“Our baby” I smiled bigger, pulling his eyes to look at me.

“Our baby” He connects our lips for a short second before wrapping his arms around me. “You are having our baby” I laugh feeling even happier than when I found out. “A baby,” He whispers, still holding on to me. “Really?” He pushes me back carefully to look at my face.

“Yes Kayce. I confirmed it with the doctors last week”

“You went to the doctor without me?” I roll my eyes laughing at his sadness.

“I just went to confirm there was a baby. I promise, you didn’t miss anything that important. You will be invited to further doctors appointment when it really counts”

“I better be. That's my baby in there.”

“Sure is Cowboy.” I smile grabbing onto his face to pull himin for a kiss but he takes them off but doesn’t let go. He only pulls me around so my back is now leaning against his chest.

“How are you feeling about it?” I sigh. I was content. There was nobody else I would rather do this with. He is caring and respected my wishes to wait until I was ready. Truthfully when the positive test came I forgot how to breathe. Tears came and I fell to the floor crying. It felt like hours before I could stand up and take another test to make sure. Once that one came out positive too, that was when the tears were happy tears. Saying I wanted to have a baby was one thing. Knowing it actually is happening and now it's a reality, it stomps you. “I can’t lie and say I was 100 percent ready. My heart stopped and all the confusion and uncertainty came to mind.” He rubs my hands and arms listening to me. “But then I came to feel happy. I realized that I wouldn’t be doing this alone. This baby is going to have a wonderful father” I look up smiling at Kayce. “A crazy family”

“Yeah they can count on that” I laugh.

“You forgot to mention me!” We looked out to the darkness as now the sun had gone down and the only light was from the fairy lights.

“Tate?! What are you doing out here?” We looked left and right and didn’t see any small figure.

“Oops” I hold in my giggle looking over to Kayce. “Forget I am here!” That was when I lost it.

“He is part of this. I felt it wouldn’t be right without him here” I whisper. “But he was supposed to come way later when the food arrived” Kayce smiles. “You can come out bud” We turn our heads hearing footsteps.

“Did I mess it up?” He came out shyly towards us.

“Of course not” I motioned him to come closer. “Do you want to tell him about that” I point at the horse.

“Yeah!” He takes Kayces hand and starts pulling him. “I picked it all by myself for my baby!” I smiled hearing him call the baby his. Of course I had to tell Tate about the baby. Well truthfully I had no other choice. I was in the bathroom for too long. He came to check on me. He wasn’t oblivious when I told him the test was a thermostat. Since that day he has been calling the baby his baby and I couldn’t be more happy about his reaction. I smiled at Kayce who looked back as Tate ran around the horse telling him how he is going to prepare and train the horse for the baby. As Kayce turns his attention to Tate again I tell myself this is what I needed. I needed someone like Kayce to come into my life. So I could love and be loved and getting Tate is a bonus.

GHOST

Chapter 19

I can feel it in my bones that it was too early. It should be illegal to wake up this early. Those animals out there should have a shut off button or atleast be gracicious enough to let me sleep until the afternoon. “Javi?” I looked over hoping to snuggle into him for some warmth but his side of the bed was cold. The bathroom door is wide open with the lights turned off. I look over to the balcony and find him leaning against the railings and of course, with a cigarette in hand. I get up throwing on my clothes quickly on knowing it was colder in the mornings. “Have you ever tried quitting?” He turns with a smile and a shake of his head follows.

“Goodmorning sunshine” He pulls me against him giving me a side hug. I snuggle up against him, wrapping my arms around his waist. “Does it bother you?” He simply asks after placing a kiss on my head.

“Yes. It's a love and hate thing. Everytime I smell it, it reminds me of my father or the fairs in my childhood” It probably wasn’t good inhaling or loving the smell but whatever. “He never smoked infront of us but the smell always lingered, even after a shower” I feel Javiers tighten. “Although I wouldn’t see it I knew he would smoke atleast 2 everyday and so sometimes hearing my mother argue about how it wasn’t good for your health well,” That meant I could have a short time with my father. “I couldn’t say anything to him, thankfully he is still alive and well” I didn’t see Javier dispose of the cigarette but I knew he didn’t have it in hand when both hands moved to cup my face.

“This will be my last one” He places a small kiss on my lips.

“Javier I didn’t-”

“I know” He gives me another kiss. I couldn’t help but smile a bit. “Mi princesa shouldn’t have to ask” I roll my eyes with a laugh.

“That's so stupid” I hit his chest jokenly.

“It's not stupid” He pulls me closer to my face. “Either way I was planning to quit” His face inches closer, hovering over mine. “You were my incentive”

“Yeah?” I whisper, holding on to his shirt.

“Mhm” He nods. We probably looked stupid with a grin on our face looking at eachother in such a way.

“How about we play a game” I pull my face an inch away so I don’t get tempted to just give into those brown puppy dog eyes. I move my hands and down his chest.

“Listening” He smiles.

“If I smell a cigarette on you,” I pause as one hand makes its way under his shirt. “If I see you with one,” The other hand moves under. “If I see you near one,” I unbuckle his belt. His grasp on my face loosened. “If I hear you snuck one,” His belt loose and his zipper down I sneak my hand in.

“Fuck” He hissed. His head falls against my shoulder. His body twisted a bit to cover my actions from who? I don’t know, it was an empty field with animals. My hand starts to tease his tip already spilling with precum. His hand grip my hips pulling me closer.

“No more fun time” He quiets his moan as my grip lowers. “No more kisses” His whines sounded like he was a teenager getting touched for the first time. Like he didn’t wet his dick less than 12 hours ago. “But if you hold out” My hands come out and I lick my palm going straight back to give him attention.

“y/n” His voice low, barely above a whisper. I cradle his head with my other hand, playing with his hair in the process. My hands moving with speed his pants allowed me to, but it seemed to be enough for Javier.

“You don’t even have to ask for my promission” He grunts. His grip on my hips trying to crush me. I knew I was teasing him but I wasn’t joking. I would allow Javier to do unimaginable things to me whenever he wanted to but that's because I trust him and he would never do anything I wouldn’t be okay with. My hands speed up. His pants against my ear.

“I don’t want to cum in my jeans like a 14 year old kid” He kisses my neck. “I want to know what your tongue feels like choking on my cock” He made my knees buckle in 2 seconds. He continued to kiss me but his breath got caught when I felt him twitch in my hand. “No wait” He groans. I smile, pulling him into a kiss. He desperately held on to me, pouring all his noises into my mouth.

“Javier?” Our bodies move away in a hurry. Thankfully like I said, his body covered our actions. If people were looking up to the balcony they would see just two people kissing with their hands wrapped around eachother. I hear Javier clear his throat and I could start feeling my cheeks turn red. I look over and see an older guy.

“Goodmorning Pops” Javiers looks over to me and smiles. “This is y/n” He says softly. I wave over.

“Nice to meet you” A big smile appears on his face from down below.

“Canijo” The older gentleman whispers, shaking his head. “Nice to meet you mija” He sends a smile before looking over to Javier. “You and I will have a talk later, I taught you better than this” I look over seeing Javier with slump shoulders. “Come have breakfast” He smiled at both of us. “It's his teenage years all over again” It seemed he wanted to keep that to himself as he made his way into the house but we heard that. I turn to look at Javier whose smile disappeared.

“Do you think we have 5 minutes?” I look up hopeful, which I respond with an eyeroll and walk into his room again. “Come on! I am going to die if-” I shook my head and decided to cut him off.

“So what did he mean by, his teenage years all over again?. Were you the one who sneaked girls into his room and paraded them in the mornings?” I was praying for a no. When I didn’t hear an answer I turned to look over at Javier. I raised my brows seeing him only staring back at me.

“Are you jealous?” Of course he would try to turn the conversation to favor him. I roll my eyes once more and turn to finish looking presentable.

“That was years ago, unless you plan on sneaking another girl here-” A hand grips my waist turning me around to be pushed between his dresser and him.

“It wasn’t as many girls you may be picturing” My head twisted a bit wondering if he would continue. He softly exhaled and continued, “It was only one and it wasn’t a one time thing” Now I was beyond intrigued. “She became my fiance at one point” Shocked. It was the only words I could think of to describe my state. “We were young and things got in the way” He spoke like it was instructions on how to cook an egg, quick and simple.

“You can’t just spill something like that and just leave me hanging” I hit his chest. “What was her name? How old were you guys? How did she look?” I see him close his eyes trying to fight himself. “How many times did yall do it on the bed? Wait!, did yall do it in the bathroom?” I gasp jokenly, “Against this dresser?” I pushed myself off but I was against it in a quick second. His grasp on my hip pushed me harsher.

“Her name was Lorraine,” He whispered. I look up, his eyes intensely looking at mine. “I can’t remember where we did it” His tone lowered. “The only thing I remember is you on my bed” His face moves closer but to the side of my face. He places a kiss and another moving lower towards my neck. “How I want to remember you in the shower” I close my eyes. His breath was hot,traveling further down. “On the countertop” He moves my shirt to reveal my shoulder. “On this dresser” Slowly I came back to life. I felt his hand circling my back. His pelvis rubbing against my stomach and his lips which already left marks on my neck was currently leaving some on my shoulder.

“Javi” I pull on his shirt trying to grip something for stability.

“Mi amor?” He pulls back and I groan, already missing his attention. “Years ago my horny teenage self would stop at nothing to have you in his bed” I chuckle.

“I can always count on you being romantic” I laugh, shaking my head. My laugh quiets down as a small smile is on his face.

“I just want you to know that it was the past” He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into a hug. “My whole existence is stained with you. My past nor my future matters to me because I am stuck in the present with you” That tugged on my heart strings.

“Javier Pena” I smile looking up. “I don’t care what happened back then” I move my hands to grip his face. “As long as you stay here with me” Before he could answer a soft knock interrupted us.

“Breakfast is ready! Hurry up you two” We looked at eachother and smiled.

“Coming Pops!” Javier answers. He looks down, stealing a kiss before enterwining our hand and making our way out his room to the kitchen. I was always able to control myself, but that was when I was in charge of a minimal situation. This was not the case here. This was huge, I had never met someone's parents. We didn’t even know what we were. I know I'm not a little kid but having been caught in someone's bedroom by their parents as an adult is worse. I have never done such a thing.

“I have coffee and conchitas in that bag” he points out to the table. “Bacon and sausages will be out in a second” I thank him before he heads back into the kitchen. I guess Javier read my body and noticed I was stressing.

“Baby?” I felt a tug on my hand which guided me towards the table to sit down. “Do you feel okay?” I look over trying to calm myself down

“Yeah” I cleared my throat making sure I was okay in the chair. “I just havent’ been in this situation before” It was his turn for his eyebrows to furrow.

“What? Like having breakfast with someone?” I look over and roll my eyes.

“No, I havent met someone's parents or have had breakfast or any kind of meal with one. I have been caught with someone's son in their bedroom! What could he be thinking of me” I looked over freaked out but a stupid grin appeared on his face.

“You’ve never met a boyfriend’s parents before? Never sneaked into their bedrooms?” I give him an, are you stupid look? Do I look like the kind of girl who would? Well now it was a different story, I was older but that still didn’t make it okay.

“I’ve never had a boyfriend before let alone try to do these sort of things” I hear a gasp from Javier.

“So?” I look over to see him scooting closer. “You mean am your-?” His stupid grin was just waiting for my answer to grow bigger. Like a medal of ownership.

“Technically no” Grin disappeared. “You haven’t asked me properly or even taken me on a date” I shrug, turning my attention to the older gentleman who walked with a plate of bacon and sausage.

“So tell me,” He starts to speak as he settles down. “Javier told me about you but I still have questions” I give him a gentle smile. I look over to Javier who looks embarrassed. I held back the big smile, Javier spoke to me to his father.

“What do you want to know Mr. Pena?”

“Please, call me Chucho” He smiles as he passes me a cup of coffee. “So you are mexican?” I nod

“From Veracruz”

“Beautiful place” I agree. After my other grandmother died there was no use to visit

anymore but as a child I remember the bright pink roses in her garden and how wonderful the people were there. “But your family lives here?”

“Yes. I don’t have a huge family so most of them stay in a communal farm made up of a couple houses”

“Where?”

“Pops” Javier shakes his head.

“Right, I am sorry I asked” I gave him a smile. “Javier tells me you have many talents” I heard a sneaker from Javier who covered it with a slight cough. “Do you mind sharing?”

“Not at all” We spoke a while about my job and what I did for college. He embarrassed Javier with stories of his childhood. I enjoyed talking with someone and enjoyed it even more seeing the relationship Javier had with his dad.

“Well I better get started on my day” He stood up grabbing his hat. “Will you be staying for lunch?” I turn to Javier who slightly nods. Under the table he takes hold of my hand reassuring me it was okay.

“I have to go back to town-” I had to tell Javier why I was here and who knows how that is going to end.

“Well we would love to have you.” Chucho smiles as he excuses himself to go outside.

“What's wrong?” Javier makes me nervous hearing him acknowledge my discomfort.

“I am just going to come out and say it” I took a deep breath. “You have been called into the embassy” Javier nods

“For an evaluation, I think I can explain it to them so there's nothing to worry about” I shake my head

“It's not an evaluation. The ambassador sent me out to talk to you first.” I didn’t even know what details to give him to make it make sense without hurting his pride. “You are not going to continue with the Escobar case” Jaiver straightens up. His nose flaring trying to take it in.

“I expected that” He simply says leaning back against the chair. I grab his other hand making him look at me again.

“That's not it.” I know how much Escobar’s case took a toll on him, would he be willing to put himself in that situation? “The USA counsel wants to place you on another case”

“What? What case?”

“Once Escobar is captured, which could be any day now, they want you to lead a team to capture the Cali Cartel” His eyes fall to the ground. He was searching for an answer. “Javi?” When he dropped my hands I knew he was having a difficult time taking in the news. I took a chance and decided to invade his space. I got up and moved to sit on his lap which he surprisingly took with open arms. His arms moved slowly around me and I engulfed him in a hug around his shoulders.

“I need you to talk to me about what I am going to tell you next” His head fell against my chest. He nods without looking up from his spot. “I made a deal with the Mexican embassy who helped get to that decision” Now his eyes were plastered on mine. I nervously played with his hair. “As an agreement whether you take the position or not I have to take mine”

“What position?”

“Before I worked for the Embassy directly looking for people I had another job.” How do I even start? “I started off as an intel person. I went into bars, clubs, and even joined girls on the street to get information.” His eyes widened. “I never had to do anything else other than listen” I grab his face hoping to ease the thought that may be forming in his mind. “It got to the point where I was in deep in the Cartel”

“How deep?” He took my hands knowing it was a defense machinism.

“Deep enough to be considered family” Of course that wasn’t the worst part. “I was young so it was easy to lead the guy I was involved with into a trap and when he fell, the rest fell with him”

“So you are going to go undercover again?” Kind of.

“I can’t tell you much about it other than that I will be using an old member to create a new group. That group will infiltrate a cartel,”

“And then?” He spoke harsher

“I don’t know Javi. The goal is to capture or threaten them enough to weaken them”

“What happened to moving to Colombia together?”

“Javi” I cup his face pulling him into a kiss. “I think we are in the right time to do this” It pained me to say but it was the best for us both. “I think you are going to take the job and I have to take mine. Either way I have to do it and I know you wouldn’t move with me because you are a man who can’t stay still and would hate seeing the Cali Cartel winning”

“We made it work before” I smiled knowing that was not true. He took it hasrsher than I did at the time. I opened my mouth to talk but was interrupted with Javiers father walking in. Javiers face was filled with thoughts. Like millions of dots were trying to connect to make it work.

“Javier, I need you to-” Javier suddenly removes me from his lap to stand. He takes hold of my hand and walks over to the door.

“Sorry Pops, I have to do something important first” I tried to hold myself back knowing he wasn’t thinking straight.

“Wha?” Chucho asked as he walked after us. I was asking the same thing, what was Javier doing?

“I need the keys to the truck” Javier stops turning to his father.

“Javier?” I moved infront of him before he took another step. He looked down at me and then at his father.

“I am taking her on a date” He announced. He lifted his arm catching the keys in a quick move. I look over to Chucho who had a smile filled with pride. I didn’t have time to think when Javier pulled me to the truck and into the passenger seat. “Do you have your passport?”

“What do I need-?”

“Answer me woman?” He closes the door pulling my head closer to his through the window. I looked for answers in his eyes since he wasn’t going to tell me anything even if I ask. His eyes were soft. No anger nor confusion. I think about the man infront of me, it was a man I could trust, my Javi.

“Yes” He plants a kiss on my lips before running around the truck to get in. He put the vehicle in drive and we were on our way. I looked over to him and I couldn’t help but smile. “Javi?” I grip his hand to make him aware I wanted to talk. “Are you okay?” A smile appeared as he shook his head. He moved our hands to place a kiss on mine.

“I am taking you on a forever date” I laugh a bit. I have never seen Javier this way. “A date you will definitely say yes too” I looked into his eyes and knew I would definitely say yes to the date.

Chapter 20

NOT A CHAPTER

This will be insert of storylines that happens in the future if Yn and Kayce

Chapter 18:

Chapter 17:

Trying to have a baby was difficult if the man you wanted to be the father seemed to be avoiding you at all cost. When Tate was gone with Monica I would come home ready to spend the night with him but he was never home. He would come late and by that time I was already in bed sleeping peacefully. When Tate was here he always wanted him present, which was unusual because when he was over he would send him with John atleast one night. One time I tried going over to his office. A coat robe ready to slip off and available to him but nothing. He had a “Meeting” to get too. I was becoming frustrated but not because I needed all of the pent up feelings to go away but because he is making it seem like he doesn’t want me anymore. “You are being paranoid” I shake my head at the liquor being offered by Beth.

“Stop. That is what they say to women who’s husband are cheating on them” I roll my eyes and start pacing the floor.

“Well it's a good thing he is not your husband then” I look over annoyed at her words. “Kidding. Well not” She smiles getting up to take my arm. “Kayce loves you and you know how busy this world can get you” I hated talking about the ranch. Call me crazy but after leaving the ranch and only taking care of it legally, I didn’t want to be involved with anything else. I hated Kayce was involved but I understood where he was coming from when he told me he couldn’t just leave. We had a huge argument one night when he came beat up so badly it kept him in bed for days. I cried non stop but showed how angry he was with what he was involved with. It took days before I came to terms with it. It took weeks to look at him and finally come up with a solution. He wanted to give up everything so we could be together but I told him it was okay. I knew what I got myself into even before we were together. She pulls me to take a seat.

“It's hard to believe when he doesn’t even kiss me atleast a goodbye!” I stomp my feet seeting back into the couch like a littel girl who is being denied candy.

“How about we go out tonight?” I close my eyes thinking about it. Tate was with Monica until Tuesday and it was currently Saturday. It was enough time to get blasted, like I am sure Beth will try to get me.

“Sure” I threw my hands up in defeat. I will just have to talk with Kayce before I get to the point where I get my frustration out some other way. “I’ll see you at 7?” I get up grabbing my things

“5” I turned over looking at her. We never go out that early. “You need to relax your mind and I know this wonderful place but it's far. '' I shake my head not caring aslong as my mind is not thinking of Kayce for as long as possible. “I will pick you up”

“At the office” I say walking out the door. I was going to spend the rest of the day in the office. Being at home with it being still 11 in the morning wasn’t wise. I would be pacing around the whole house probably eventually crying until I am balled up on the floor. Trying to unlock my door I hear my phone ring. “Hello?” I answer without looking at the caller ID.

“Hey are you busy?” I hear Monica’s voice on the other side of the phone.

“No. I was going into the office to have somthing to do but it can wait. Do you need something?” I pull out my key setting in my purse and put my attention to the phone call.

“Tate has been talking about this restuarant all day when you took him to once. And since it's almost lunch time he was thinking maybe you wanted to join us?” I look over to my office. Being here with only my thoughts might be the same as being stuck at home. Maybe going to lunch with Monica and Tate would be better.

“Of course. I will see you there in 5” We hang up and I go back into my car. I drive up and park waiting for them to show up. “Hey buddy” I smile seeing Tate run up to me and give me a hug.

“He has not stopped talking about this place” She looked up, not really sure about the place.

“It's great!” He pulls away running inside.

“They are good. One of my favorites” I smile waiting for her to walk in behind Tate.

“Welcome” The host smiles as we walk inside. “Table for 3? The gentleman is waiting for you” We turn as we see Tate talking to the waitress already.

“Thank you.” We say walking to the table.

“I will have that in a second” The waitress made sure what Tate had ordered was correct before she left.

“Grandpa said I can come over today for a fishing day!” He said excitily. “Do you want to come too?” How can I tell him no? I don’t mess with horses more than I did the last time I was near one.

“Kid she doesn’t know how to ride a horse” I thank Monica with an uneasy smile.

“But last time you rode with dad. You can ride with me or grandpa this time”

“Thanks buddy but I am not dressed up for the occasion” Yeah a pencil skirt and heels isn’t proper for riding a horse or even fishing.

“Aunt Beth can let you borrow something”

“Okay but if the horse tries anything I will have to skip the fishing trip”

“Deal” He smiles. The food came soon after that.

“So how is the house going?” Monica spoke as we were digging into our food.

“Good. Hard to compermise but it's getting there.”

“Dad doesn’t like the couch” I laugh nodding my head. I didn’t want a leather couch. My parents always had dark brown leather couches in the house but I always liked the large cloth couches.

“And it's a cream color so his fear of keeping it clean is worse” Monica laughs along. “It's not like we have 20 people living at home”

“And what did you have to agree on?” I smile knowing she has been in the same place as me so she knows how annoying it can be to deal with Kayce.

“Having a bathtub” I didn’t like bathtubs. I preferred showers. I wanted a vanity or something more useful in that corner but I agreed to have my couch.

“I love the bathtub!” Tate says with a mouth full.

“That's why I don’t regret the decision. He doesn’t fight taking a bath anymore” Monica turns over with a smile.

“So all it takes is a bathtub to keep you clean?” Tate nods with a big smile. “Have to get one at home because I can’t keep him clean” We were exaggerating but Tate had a difficult time wanting to take a shower but now we have a difficult time getting him out the tub.

“Can you get one with the jets?” He saw the cataloug where we were picking them out and was angry at the fact we didn’t choose one with jets

“I will see” We smiled at Tate who had finished his first plate and went on to the next. Once our food was done we met again in the ranch. Thankfully Rip called Tate over to work on his horse and that took most of the day until I looked down and checked the time.

“It's okay if you have plans, Tate will understand” I looked over to Monica who was standing next to me with a smile.

“No” I shake my head. It was almost 5 and I had texted Beth that I was going to the ranch so she would find me and honestly if she didn’t I don’t really feel like going anywhere right now. “Beth invited me for drinks tonight but I think it's best if I don’t go”

“What?” I look over to her, confused. “I wasn’t going to say anything but you have not been in a good mood for a couple of days.” Gee thanks. “I think you need this,” I was about to say something like no I don’t and going out with Beth will only get me in a worse mood but she wraps her arms around mine and leads me inside the house. “To prove it I will be going too” I smiled a little allowing her to lead me upstairs and into Beth's room. I was forced, which says nothing since I didn’t fight Monica on changing into different clothes. Beth soon came in trying to get ready for the night before she spent getting me ready.

“Alright I think we are ready to go, '' Beth says, looking infront of the mirror before turning to us. “Lets go” We go downstairs and wait in the car so Monica can say goodbye to Tate as she leaves him with Rip until John comes home.

“Come on. We were going to have fun” Monica says from the back seat.

“She is having troubles with my little brother”

“Oh so that's why you have been pissy all day” I look over annoyed.

“I have not!” I argue. I have not, I didn’t even believe myself

“He has been busy and to make it worse she hasn’t gotten some for,? How long has it been” She looks over quickly at me with a grin.

“Shut up” I groan slidding down more into the seat. I fold my arms together looking over to the window. “Almost 2 months” I whisper. I hear them chuckle at my responds.

“I can’t go a week without it,I can’t imagine 2 months” Beth says laughing.

“I am going to throw myself out the car”

“Don’t be pissy. We are going to make you feel better, you will see” Monica said as she laid a gentle hand on my shoulder. I take a deep breath, I don’t know what is going to happen but I need to get this tension out before it drives me crazy. We have been driving for about 10 minutes and I am beginning to think they are going to ditch me in some ditch since I have not stopped frowning since we got in the car. There is nothing 10 minutes away from town that is interesting enough to take this ride.

“Alright we are going off road a little” Beth says turning into a dirt road. Now I truly believe they are going to kill me off somewhere.

“If this is your idea of fun and distracting, I don’t like it” I hear a low chuckle from both of them. I sit up leaning forward when I notice a faint light ahead. The sun was going down on the other side of us so it was dark enough to see light coming from torches? “Are we going there?” I pointed and turned to look at Beth who only nodded. “You know I hate the outside right? If this is supposed to make me feel better than you don’t know me at all” I didn’t have time to take a full glance at what was infront of us since it was still feet away but also because I almost went throught the windshield. Always wear your seatbelts kids!. “What the hell Beth?” I look over as she puts the car in reverse.

“Get out,” She says dryly. “Y/N” She unlocks the car and points outside. “Get out” I roll my eyes a bit. “I need to back up and I don’t want to hear anymore of your whining” It should have pissed me off but it didn’t. Beth was like that. I opened the door and as soon as the door slammed shut she was backing up at a fast pace.

“What the fuck Beth?!” They did ditch me. Not in a ditch dead but ditched me non the less. I will probably be dead before the sun hides away. I gave up looking at the direction they went hoping they would show up. I turn around and walk toward the lights. As I came up you could see torches around the set of multiple pillows and blankets. A middle platter with drinks and what I am guessing is covered up food. “I have totally pissed them off when Beth took her time to do all of this” I lift my hands up in frustration. I have let Kayce’s absence get to me. Usually I didn’t need his attention but lately it was all I was craving. Not sexually but emotionally. I haven’t been attached to someone as I have gotten with him. It's not like I needed him every second of the day but lately since I feel like we have spent less and less time together, I have missed him so much.

“She only did part of this” I looked up frightened at the voice until I saw it was Kayce popping up out of nowhere. It was an open field. It was a field of some sort of grain but it was short so it didn’t even reach my knees.

“What are you doing here?” in the distance you could see a faint building but nothing after that. When did he get here?

“I heard you have been pissy all day?” I see a slight grin on his face as he walks around the pillow and blankets.

“I have not” I roll my eyes not wanting to look at him right now. How dare he show up right now? If he did all of this, what was it for? For the amount of time he has been neglecting me?

“Hey, come back to me” He uses one hand to grab my chin so I have no choice but to look at him, which I didn’t mind. The other wraps around my waist to pull me closer. I guess I was so engulfed in my mind that I didn’t notice the faint music playing until he started swaying. “I need you to stay with me until I finish the speech I have prepared” I furrowed my brow, curious about what he was doing.

“I can do that” I smile, moving my hand up to grab a hold of each side of his face to pull him closer.

“I need to get throught the speech before any of this goes on” I close my eyes, feeling his nose rub against mine before he pulls apart. He puts some space between us holding onto both my hands. “I am not for speeches so don’t give me hell for it” I smile faintly nervous about what is to come. He takes a deep breath before continuing, “Years ago I was so stupid to let you go. I was scared and when I heard about your dreams and goal I knew I couldn’t get inbetween that. Well also back then I didn’t think I deserve someone like you so I held myself back from trying. But the past is the past and now that I have you I will never be that stupid again. I still think I don’t deserve someone like you. So smart and witty. Beautiful and kind to even the ones who don’t deserve it. You accepted me with my whole crazy family but most importantly Tate. He loves you and he was actually the one who pushed me to do this, not that I didn’t want to do it but was procrastinating at the right time.” I wanted to laugh and hug him but his movement stopped me. I always see these in movies. How the guy gets on one knee then he has a hard time finding the ring but finally he extends his hands and opens the little black box and says, “Will you marry me?” I usualy would roll my eyes and smile because even if it was annoying it was their moment. Their piece of heaven and this one was mine.

“Yes” I nod my head wrapping my arms around him once I fall onto my knees. He was my piece of heaven.

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Chapter 20

Chapter 19:

A month has passed since Kayce asked me to marry him and ever since it has been like a new honeymoon phase. Everytime I saw him my heart sped up and I forget how to breath. I blush as every kiss and smile he sends my way like I was 16 years old again. And let me not mention the sex. If people thought we couldn’t keep our hands from eachother, I need to ask them what they think of us now. “Remember they need to be at school before lunch”

“I know Tate. I am on my way to pick them up after this” I smile motioning him away. “Now go, you are already late” I had to drop off Tate this morning to school and I may be 10,15 minutes late. “Love you!” He waved back with a smile, mouth something before heading inside. I reach for my phone and dial the only number I had on speeddial.

“I just picked them up. I am on my way to the office. In 15 minutes you have the meeting with the Townsends”

“Thanks. I am heading that way now. Don’t forget she was supposed to give you a smaller package too”

“Got it” I thanked Jennifer before hanging up the phone. I rush into the office hoping to get enough time to settle in. “Jamie?” I questined surprised to see him standing outside the office.

“Goodmorning, I need your help” he says as I come closer to him. His eyes averted to our surroundings every chance he got.

“Okay” I look around and see no other car other than his and mine. I guess we have a couple minutes before my clients show up. I unlock the doors and walk into my office with Jamie trailing close behind. I heard the door shut so I tooke liberty to start the conversation first. “Does this involve the Duttons?”

“In a way” I furrow my brow letting out a deep sigh. I take a seat pushing it close to my desk so I can lean against my hands. “I have a baby” Well that is a surprise

“How?” I said quickly. And just as quickly I tried to rephrase my question. “I mean I know how but like, how?” I lead back and stare at him. He was fidgeting with his hands as he took a seat infront of me.

“Christine. You remember her right?”

“Yeah. She worked with you when you were running against Reid” I nod now understanding. It was a hard time for Jamie and he departed from her when he went back to the Dutton ranch. But that has been a while back.

“Yes, exactly. I know I don’t have to explain to you how he came to be”

“Right. I know how that happens” I smile hoping to get he awkardness out of the way.

“Yeah well months ago she contacted me and told me about our son. She gave me a decision which will affect whether she allowed me to see him or not” Okay, “She wanted me to leave everything behind and not be involved with the ranch” Smart. “If I didn’t make that choice she would move on and not allow me to see my son”

“So what do you need me for? You want to fight for custody?” He shakes his head quickly.

“I want to ensure his future. Beth has made a promise when she found out and I don’t want anything happening to him”

“So you are thinking of a restraining order?”

“That would alert her. I need you to be my lawyer, My son and Christine need to be protected. She is not going to get to them if I can help it” I nod. There's more than a couple of ways to ensure that and he knows it. Being related to them doesn’t help so I know why he is asking me. I hear the door ring letting me know someone is in the lobby.

“I will make sure of it. I have clients out there but I will keep in contact to let you know every step of the procedure” He stands up walking towards the door.

“Thank you y/n” I sent him a smile. “One last favor” I nod. “Don’t tell Kayce any of this, for now”

“Don’t worry” I walk over to send him off. “Goodmorning Mr.Townsend” I smile leading him into my office. I watched as Jamie got in his car. How the hell am I supposed to keep such a thing from Kayce? I guess if it doesn’t come up I technically wouldn’t be hiding or lying about it right? I finished with my meeting with enough time to get to Tate’s school with the baked goods.

“You were late” Tate says with his arms folded

“Actually” I go down on my heels to meet his eyes. “I am right on the dot” I showed him my watch that marked 11:30.

“According to James’s mom, you are late” He points over to the tall women setting up things around the main table.

“Well she was wrong. The flyer said to be here at this time and I was. Can’t argue with the facts now can we?” Tate smiles, shaking his head.

“No go enjoy the party” His class was having a party to celebrate Valentine's day. Sweets filled two tables. His classroom is decorated with pink and red hearts. Everything on theme including most mom’s outfits. I quickly got Tate’s attention and waved at him as he had fun with his friends.

“So you are Tate’s mother?” I don’t know why Monica and Kayce agreed to change him to this school. I get that education is important and a school where you pay tuition too just has to be the best which it may be but it doesn’t mean the same for the parents.

“Yes I am” I stand up straight reaching out my hand to her. “And you are James’s mother?” I already knew the answer. Tate and James try to be friends but it has its bumps.

“Yes,Amanda” She gives me a small laugh and she takes her hand back to smooth out her dress. “You seem very young to be his mother”

“22” I say looking at her expression in her face made giving her my time worth it. “But unfortunately I am not the one who birthed that angel. Am just the seconded mom” Now that totally got her. I saw her face, she was trying to find something to say.

“Well” She huffed out trying to still be nice. “You seem pretty decent. You can uphold the reputation it takes to be here” My eyebrow lifts up trying to acknowledge her words.

“Right” I fake smile drinking out of the drink Tate got me earlier.

“Can’t say the same about other people” I looked over to see what she was referring to. Monica steps up looking around. She is in her usual outfit. “How is it that they get the good ones?” I wanted to laugh knowing she was now referring to Kayce. “I want to take a ride” I took that chance to wave over to them.

“Hey where is Tate?” Monica asks, still trying to scan the room for the boy.

“I will go look for him but first I would like to introduce you to Amanda, James’s mom.” I give her a slight wink before turning towards Amanda. “Amanda this is Tate’s other mom” She shakes smiles extending her hand to shake Monica’s.

“Oh” She smiles awkwardly. “I didn’t mean anything about my comment” she tries to whisper but I shake my hand.

“Oh don’t worry about it” I fake laugh turning over to Kayce. “This right here is his father. Got the right sperm wouldn’t you agree?” Kayce’s eyes widened a bit. “Would you be in love and find Tate?” A push him on to start walking which he thankfully does.

“So when you meant you were his other mom, you meant he mainly had two moms?” She steps back unknowingly.

“Yes, is that a problem? I thought you meant that it would uphold the reputation of this school?”

“I didn’t mean” She looks around, frightened from the sudden information. “I would need to speak to the principal,” She says holding her head up and walking out the room.

“What was that about?” Monica looks over at me.

“Just trying to set some knowledge about acceptance” I shruggs. I see Tate and Kayce coming over. “Did you know James keeps stealing Tates things? He says he is borrowing it but always seems to lose them when he tries to give them back?”

“I wouldn’t blame the parents but its hard when she acts like that” Monica laughs a little as the boys come closer we stop.

“Mom!” Tate wraps his arms excitedly, grabbing her hand. “I need to show you something”

“Alright kid, am coming” She smiles back at us who stay right in the same spot. When we are alone separated from any kid or adult I feel Kayce leaning in to rest his head on my shoulder and his arms around me.

“So I was the right sperm?” I grin feeling his smile widen.

“Wouldn’t you think? Look at him” I point over to Tate. Truly not really focusing on him since Kayce’s warm breath is all I can focus on right now. “Why do you think I want a kid from you so bad?”

“Just one?” He whispered. It was so hard not to close my eyes and just feel him.

“We can fill a whole classroom if you allow me too” I know it's bad to have the thought I am having right now with kids present so god forgive me but would it be so bad to want him to take me against the wall? Or just lean me against one of these tables? Maybe even just right here. In this spot. He could lift me up with his strong arms and push into me. Over and over and over again. He's a cowboy he can do it standing up, we’ve done it before.

“Honey I would allow you to do unspeakable things to me. Anything your little heart desires. If you can take it?” I smile. I come back to my sense noticing we were feeling eachother up. That went unnoticed it seems like so I stopped before someone could notice us.

“I need to get going. I need to be away from you for a bit” I smile, going up to plant a quick kiss on his lips. “Rememeber to meet me at the ranch at 6” I point back to him grabbing my things

“Yes ma’am” God why are you making it so hard on me? The only things I had the courage to do was turn around and leave. I didn’t trust myself with telling him I love you or giving him a goodbye kiss. God knows I wouldn’t have made it. I would have scarred all those kids forever. I just needed to wait 6 more hours.

GHOST

Chapter 14

For the last couple days in Argentina I have been wandering around. Mostly tourist attractions during the day and bars at night. Alone, but that doesn't matter when you are practically tipsy every hour of the day. One time I swore I almost got something mixed in my drink. That and the fact that my visa was expiring, it told me it was time to leave. When I woke up in the hotel after sleeping off my drunkenness I took a look at the clock and it read 10. “Stupid headaches” I’ve always been prone to but that didn’t mean it made it any easier with every hangover. I cradle my head before gaining enough strength to stand up and make my way to a cold shower. Of course that was before I noticed a dark figure in the middle of the room. I pull out my gun aiming it at the unknown figure. “I really don’t feel like dealing with you right now” I groaned. The figure didn’t move or respond. My breathing started to get shaky, it's been a while since I had to harm anyone.

“You’re not going to shoot me, are you, mi amor?” His stupid proud voice sent anger to my body

“What the fuck Javier” I huffed letting the gun fall to my side. I feel his presence get closer as all I can still make out is his figure. There is a light cast of the moon coming through the window onto the bed. He leans forwards to see the papers laying there."Again, you are just leaving without a word? No explanation, no nothing?"

I shrugged, trying to appear nonchalant. "I don’t owe you any explanation Peña.” I come closer, removing the plane ticket from his hand. “It was just a fling, Javier. Don't make it more than it was."His jaw clenched, his voice low and menacing.

"A fling? You think I'd risk everything for a fling?" Suddenly, he pinned me against the wall, his body pressed against mine. "I care for you, damn it. And I won't let you just walk away."His lips crashed onto mine, aggressive and possessive. I tried to push him away, but he held me firm. As we kissed, his hands roamed my body, claiming me as his own. I felt a thrill of excitement mixed with fear. He broke away, his eyes burning with intensity. "You're staying with me. Tonight, and every night after that."With that, he swept me into his arms, carrying me to bed.As we crashed into the bed, Javier's lips devoured mine, his hands roaming my body with a fierce possessiveness. I felt his erection, hard and insistent, and I knew I was done for. his eyes burning with intensity as he tore off his clothes. I followed suit, my heart racing with anticipation.His body covering mine, his lips claiming me as his own. I felt his fingers tracing my curves, his touch setting me ablaze. There was no time to think as his hand moved downwards.He entered me with a fierce cry, his thrusts powerful and demanding. “Tell me this isn’t more than just a fling?” I wrapped my legs around him, pulling him deeper, our bodies moving in perfect sync. The room was a blur of passion and desire,it was intense and all-consuming. Biting my lips to hold on the moans he was causing me. Nails clawing his back. His hands were everywhere, his lips burning my skin.As we reached the peak, Javier's eyes locked onto mine, his gaze burning with possession. "You're mine," he growled, his voice low and husky.

I nodded, my body shuddering with release. "I'm yours," I whispered, my voice barely audible.

As we collapsed, exhausted and spent, Javier's arms wrapped around me, holding me close. "You're not leaving me again," he whispered, his voice filled with a fierce determination as he left a trail of kisses on my neck until he reached my lips again.

I smiled, feeling a sense of belonging. "I'm not going anywhere," I replied, my heart filled with a newfound love, at least that's what it felt like at the moment. As we lay there, the silence between us grew thicker, like a fog that refused to lift. The sex haze had worn off, and reality came crashing back.Javier was the first to break the silence, his voice low and hesitant.

"We need to talk."I nodded, knowing he was right.

"Yeah, we do." He turned to face me, his eyes searching mine.

"What's going on with us? One minute we're at each other's throats, the next...this." I took a deep breath, trying to gather my thoughts.

"I don't know. I just know I can't keep doing this, Javier. The push and pull, the anger and the passion...it's exhausting." Javier's expression softened, his eyes filling with a warmth that made my heart skip a beat.

"I know. Me neither. I want us to work, but we need to find a way to communicate without tearing each other apart."I nodded, feeling a glimmer of hope but it came crashing down just as fast. I took a long breath knowing I had to speak my mind. I shook my head, feeling a pang of sadness.

"Javier, I can't be with you. I have a life, a life where I can't put anyone in harm's way. And your life...it's not exactly safe, is it? And it includes partying, the girls...it's a life I can't be a part of."

Javier's expression darkened, his eyes flashing with frustration. "So you're saying I'm not good enough for you? That my life is too much for you to handle?"I reached out, placing a gentle hand on his arm.

"No, Javier, that's not what I'm saying. It's just...I have responsibilities, people who depend on me. And your lifestyle...it's not compatible with mine." Javier's face twisted in a scowl.

"You're just like all the others, judging me without even trying to understand me.” his arm

slid away from under my head. He sits up running his hands through his hair. "What's really driving you away? Is it me? Something I did?" I sighed, feeling a deep sorrow.

"Javier, that's not fair. I do understand you, and that's why I know we can't be together. You deserve someone who can keep up with your lifestyle, someone who can be a part of your world without worrying about the consequences. Everything you did we made the choice together.” Javier's eyes narrowed, his voice cold.

"So you're saying I'm not capable of change? That I'm stuck in this life forever?" I hesitated, knowing I had to be honest.

"I'm saying that I don't know if you can change,and I don’t want you too Javier. And even if you could, I don't know if I'm the right person to help you.” Javier's eyes flashed with anger.

"You're so quick to judge me, but what about you? You're not exactly perfect, are you? You've got your own issues, your own secrets."I felt a sting from his words, knowing he was right.

"What are you talking about?"

"Don't play dumb," Javier sneered. "I know all about your family, how you've cut them out of your life. And it's not just because you want to keep them safe, is it? It's because you've got commitment issues, because you can't bear to let anyone get close to you." That's too stupid. I felt a surge of defensiveness, but deep down, I knew he was right.

"That's not true," I lied.Javier laughed, a harsh sound.

"Don't lie to me. I've seen the way you push people away, the way you refuse to let anyone in. You're afraid of getting hurt, afraid of caring too much."His words hit too close to home, and I felt a lump form in my throat.

"Shut up," I whispered, trying to keep my emotions in check. Javier's expression softened, his eyes filling with a deep sadness. "I'm just telling the truth," he said quietly. "You're so afraid of getting hurt that you're willing to push away anyone who tries to get close to you. Including me." The words he used would usually get a rise out of me and I would end up screaming but his calm tone allowed me to think about what I was going to say.

“I care a lot” His head snaps at me. “I don’t show it because that is my nature, I can’t help it” I pushed my back against the headboard and took a deep breath. “Having my family away due to my work was probably one of the reasons I decided on this field. I wanted to be a teacher” A sad chuckle came out as tears started swelling up my eyes. “I guess it was a way to separate myself from everyone knowing they would be better off.” I turn to look at him. When I got the job opening I wanted to let it go. But that was before someone close to me got killed” Javier grabs a hold of me hand, giving it a slight squeeze. “The only survivor was his young son. Using the power I had in the FBI I placed myself in the search. Soon enough I found him and I couldn’t stop”

“Was it?” I nod my head.

“That family member was a politician in Mexico, you know how quickly they can go” Javier nods. “I felt a pain seeing him lose who he loved so I promised myself that it wouldn’t happen to anybody else I loved or anyone for that matter” I took a deep breath, trying to explain. "Javier, I've seen what happens when people get close to people in our line of work. They get hurt. Family, friends... all can be affected by this job, by the danger that follows it. I can't bear the thought of anything happening to someone close to me.” Javier's expression changed, his eyes filling with understanding and regret.

"Oh, mi amor...I had no idea. I'm so sorry." I shook my head, feeling a lump form in my

throat.

"Don't be sorry, Javier. Just understand why I have to push you away." But Javier shook his head, his eyes burning with intensity.

"No, I won't accept that. I care about you, deeply. And I was willing to give up my old life for you, to be with you and only you." My heart skipped a beat at his words.

"What do you mean?" Javier took my hands, his touch sending shivers down my spine.

"I mean that I was ready to leave the partying, the girls...all of it. I wanted to be with you, to build a life with you. But you pushed me away before I could even try." I felt a pang of regret, realizing what I had done. “We always start with a disagreement and then we sleep together than you leave”

"Javier, I...I didn't know." Javier's eyes filled with sadness.

"I know. And now...now I don't know if I can ever go back to that place again." Javier's eyes locked onto mine, his gaze burning with determination. "But I have to go back to Colombia, Pablo Escobar escaped, and I won't rest until he's brought to justice."I nodded, understanding. "But I don't want to do it without you," he said, his voice softening. "You quit the DEA, but I know you still have a passion for the work. And I need you, mi amor. I need your skills, your expertise...and your love." My heart skipped a beat as he took my hands. "Will you come with me? Will you be my partner, in every sense of the word?" I felt a rush of excitement mixed with fear. Going back to Colombia, facing the dangers and uncertainties...it was a daunting prospect.

"I'll go back to Colombia with you, but not to work with the DEA. I'm done with that life." Javier's eyes sparkled with amusement.

"Okay, mi amor. But what do you say about us? What about our relationship?" I took a deep breath, trying to sound calm.

"I want to take things slow. I want to get to know you better, without the danger and adrenaline of our jobs. And...no sex until we've had a proper date." Javier burst out laughing, his eyes crinkling at the corners.

"A date? You want me to take you on a date?" I nodded, feeling a sense of determination.

"Yes, I do. I want to see if we can connect without the intensity of our past encounters." Javier's grin faltered, and he looked at me with a newfound respect.

"Okay, mi amor. I agree. We'll take things slow, and I'll take you on a proper date. But can I at least try to” he hinted with a grin I rolled my eyes, smiling.

"You can try, but I'm not promising anything." Javier chuckled, his eyes glinting with amusement.

"Fair enough. But I'm warning you, mi amor...I'm very persuasive." I raised an eyebrow, feeling a thrill of excitement.

"I'm shaking in my boots."Javier turned to me, his eyes sparkling with mischief.

"Oh yeah? Don't believe me?" he whispered, his voice low and husky.I shook my head, trying to maintain my resolve.

"No, Javier. I mean it. No sex until we've had a proper date."Javier chuckled, his eyes glinting with amusement. He reached out, his fingers brushing against my skin, sending shivers down my spine.

"Let me show you just how persuasive I can be," he said, his breath hot against my ear.I felt my heart racing, my resolve weakening. But I stood firm, trying to resist his charms.

"No, Javier. I'm serious."Javier sighed, his shoulders sagging in mock defeat.

"Okay, mi amor. I'll behave. For now." He turned to face me, his eyes locking onto mine.

"But don't think you're off the hook that easily. I'll plan the perfect date, and then...we'll see." I smiled, feeling a sense of anticipation.

"I'm looking forward to it." We sat there for a moment, the tension between us palpable. Then Javier spoke up, his voice soft.

"You know, mi amor...I really like you. Not just your body, but you. Your strength, your courage...your determination." My heart skipped a beat at his words. No one had ever looked at me like that before. No one had ever made me feel so seen.

"I like you too, Javier," I said, my voice barely above a whisper. Javier smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners.

"Good," he said. "Because I'm not going anywhere.”As we sat there, the tension between us dissipated, Javier leaned in, his eyes locked onto mine. I could feel the warmth of his breath on my skin, and my heart skipped a beat in anticipation.His lips brushed against mine, soft and gentle, like a whisper. It was a tender kiss, one that spoke of promise and possibility. I felt my lips respond, opening to his, allowing him to deepen the kiss.But he didn't. Instead, he pulled back, his eyes still locked onto mine. "I promised I'd behave," he whispered, a sly smile spreading across his face.I smiled back, feeling a sense of wonder.

"You're a man of your word," I said, my voice barely above a whisper.Javier nodded, his eyes still sparkling with mischief.

"Always," he said. "Now, let's get some sleep. We have a big day ahead of us tomorrow." I nodded, feeling a sense of excitement. What did tomorrow hold? And what did the future hold for us? Only time would tell.

———

I woke up early enough to sneak out the bedroom to finish packing my things. Once I finished packing, and as I zipped up my last bag, Javier walked up to me, still rubbing the sleep from his eyes. "Hey, what's going on?" he mumbled. I cut to the point,

"I need to make a pit stop before heading to Colombia." Javier's eyes narrowed,

"What's going on? You're being secretive again." He walks closer, narrowing his eyes. I sighed, feeling frustrated, and moved him to sit on the couch beside me.

"Javier, listen. My grandmother is in Mexico. She's been alone for a long time, by her own choice. But now that she's getting older, she needs someone to take care of her." Javier's expression softened, but he still looked concerned.

"What does this have to do with us?" I took a deep breath,

"Not us, me. I want to bring her to the United States, to be with the rest of my family. My job is no longer a risk, and I want to give her a better life." She shouldn’t be alone waiting for me to return after every job. And now that I am no longer doing those kinds of jobs, she will be waiting even longer for me to visit. Javier's eyes widened in understanding, but then his face fell,

"And you didn't think to tell me about this? You could’ve asked me for help"I shook

my head,

"I didn't want to burden you with more secrets, Javier. But I promise, this is the last one."

Javier's face fell, his eyes clouding with hurt.

"You didn't think to ask for my help? I'm here, I'm with you, and you didn't think to include me in this?" I reached out, taking his hand.

"Javier, I knew you'd want to get to Colombia as soon as possible, to keep chasing Pablo. I didn't want to hold you back." He shook his head, his voice low.

"That's not the point. The point is, you didn't trust me enough to ask for my help." I sighed,

trying to explain.

"Transporting my grandmother will only take a couple of days, and then I'll meet you in Colombia. I promise." Javier's expression turned skeptical.

"And what if something happens? What if you need my help?" I squeezed his hand.

"I'll be fine, Javier. I promise. And I'll meet you soon." Javier nodded slowly, his eyes still clouded with hurt, but he seemed to understand.

"Okay, mi amor. But next time, ask for my help. I'm here for you." I smiled, feeling a sense of vulnerability.

"Having someone there for me is new, Javier. I've had to take care of myself my whole life. But as we grow together, I'll learn to let you help me." Javier nodded understandingly, his eyes softening.

"I get it, mi amor. I'm patient." I playfully rolled my eyes.

"Good, because we're not even dating, remember?" Javier's face lit up with a mischievous

grin.

"Oh, really?” I chuckled, trying to maintain the charade.

"Yeah, I'm just using you for your skills, Javier. You're a means to an end." Javier laughed, pulling me into a gentle embrace.

"Sure, mi amor. Keep telling yourself that." As we hugged, I couldn't help but feel a sense of comfort and belonging. Maybe, just maybe, I was starting to let him in.

“So does that mean I can talk to other girls?” Javier's question was met with an immediate eye roll from me.

"Ugh, really? You're going to try to push my buttons like that?" I shook my head, laughing.

"No, Javier, that doesn't mean you can talk to other girls. Don't even think about it." Javier chuckled, holding up his hands in mock defense.

"Okay, okay, I get it. No other girls. I'm all yours...even if we're not dating." I playfully hit him on the arm, smiling.

"Shut up, Javier." Javier's eyes sparkled with mischief.

"Hey, you never said we couldn't kiss before our first date. So, how about it?" I feigned innocence, batting my eyelashes.

"Whatever are you talking about, Javier?" Javier chuckled, pulling me closer.

"Don't play coy, mi amor. I know you want to." I giggled, trying to maintain the act.

"I do not! You're just trying to trick me into kissing you." Javier's face was inches from mine, his voice low and persuasive.

"Maybe a little. But come on, just one kiss. It's not like we're committing to marriage." I couldn't resist his charming smile, and eventually, I gave in, leaning in for a soft, sweet kiss. Javier's lips curved into a triumphant smile as he wrapped his arms around me, deepening the kiss. As Javier's arms wrapped around my waist, I felt a rush of excitement. He gently pulled me onto his lap, and I settled in, feeling the warmth of his body beneath me. His hands rested on my hips, and I could feel his fingers tracing gentle patterns on my skin. I leaned into him, my head on his shoulder, and felt a sense of comfort and security. Javier's lips brushed against my ear, sending shivers down my spine. "I'm glad we're doing this," he whispered, his breath sending tingles through my body. I smiled, feeling happy and content.

"Me too," I replied, my voice barely above a whisper. We sat there for a moment, wrapped in each other's arms, enjoying the warmth and closeness. It felt like time had stood still, and all that mattered was this moment, this feeling. As I sat on Javier's lap, he began to rub my back, his hands moving in gentle circles. His touch was soothing, and I felt my muscles relax, letting go of all the tension and stress. I closed my eyes, savoring the feeling, and let out a soft sigh. Javier's hands moved up to my shoulders, kneading out the knots and kinks.

"Feel good?" he whispered, his breath warm against my ear. I nodded, my eyes still closed, and murmured,

"Mmm-hmm." Javier continued to rub my back, his touch sending waves of relaxation through my body. I felt myself melting into his lap, feeling safe and protected in his arms. As he rubbed, he leaned in closer, his cheek brushing against mine. I could feel his warmth, his presence. Javier's hands paused on my back, and I could sense a subtle tension in his body. I opened my eyes, looking up at him with a playful smile.

"Trying to behave, Javier?" I teased, my voice barely above a whisper. Javier's eyes locked onto mine, and I saw a flicker of desire before he looked away, clearing his throat.

"Trying to be a gentleman," he said, his voice low and husky. I chuckled, leaning in closer.

"I think you're doing a great job," I whispered, my breath brushing against his ear. Javier's hands tightened on my back, and for a moment, I thought he might give in to the tension between us. But then he took a deep breath and gently lifted me off his lap, setting me beside him.

"I think that's enough for now," he said, his voice firm but playful. I grinned, teasing him.

"Spoilsport." As I sat beside Javier, I glanced down at my watch and my heart skipped a beat. I was running late for my flight! I had completely lost track of time, caught up in the moment with Javier."Oh no, I'm late!" I exclaimed, jumping up from the couch. "My flight is supposed to leave in 20 minutes!" Javier's eyes widened in surprise.

"Already? I didn't realize it was so late." I grabbed my bag and started to rush out the door, but Javier caught my arm.

"Wait, mi amor. Let me drive you to the airport." I hesitated for a moment, but then nodded.

"Okay, thank you. I don't have time to argue." Javier smiled and grabbed his keys.

"Let's go. We'll make it." We sped to the airport, Javier's skilled driving getting us there just in the nick of time. As we pulled up to the terminal, I could see the flight attendants preparing to close the doors.

"Thank you, Javier!" I exclaimed, grabbing my bag and jumping out of the car. Javier followed me, his eyes locked on mine.

"Anytime, mi amor. Be safe, okay?" We reached the gate just as they were about to close it. I turned to Javier, my heart racing with excitement and a hint of sadness at leaving him behind. Javier took my face in his hands, his eyes burning with intensity. "I'll miss you," he whispered, his lips brushing against mine in a soft, sweet kiss. I melted into the kiss, feeling a rush of emotions.

"I'll miss you too," I replied, my voice barely audible. With one last look, I turned and

rushed through the gate, making it onto the plane just as the doors closed behind me. I found my seat, buckled in, and gazed out the window, watching as Javier stood there, his eyes fixed on me until the plane took off.

Chapter 15