I Feel Like The Only Option I Have Left Is To Give Up..

i feel like the only option i have left is to give up..

I don't know what you took from me when you disappeared from my life for no reason.

Since then, I feel an emptiness in me that gets bigger with every day and every breath.

When there was a We, you made me complete, I have never felt so strong and happy. And now I only consist of a pile full of rubble and ash that can no longer be repaired..

I only make mistakes, fall in love too quickly. I fall to pieces a little more everyday.

Before I met you, I swore to myself that I’d never let anyone into my life again. Of all the disappointments in the time before I’d you, I have brought myself back to my old strength. And then you suddenly showed up and I was happy. You brought me back from the hole I was stuck in, even if it was hard at the beginning. You showed me how happy a person can be, how calm the voices in my head can become when we‘re together. And then you let me fall deeper than I’ve could‘ve imagined. How do I get out of here? Will I ever be happy again?

Whenever you reach for me, I will do everything I can to further distance myself from you.

You have always been one of the strong people, grew up in good circumstances and yet a weakness has developed year after year. You don't know why, you thought it would pass and it was just a phase. Year after year, day after day and hour by hour. You are happy but somehow you feel an emptiness in you. You have a good job and a good life, can travel and should be happy. But you are alone. And then someone comes who catches you, you feel really safe for the first time and are satisfied with your life and then the person with whom everything felt right disappears from your life and you are at the end. You always break together when you are alone and no one notices it. You are alone.