My Current TBR YIKES

My current TBR YIKES

So the pieces are all cut out but now I’m scared to sew them together 😭😭 help!

I always laugh when somebody declares James Potter on the verge of expulsion for his pranks in fic because Malfoy was literally a Death Eater trying to kill the Headmaster and Dumbledore was like “Let’s just see if we can gently guide him away from this” I’m pretty sure the only thing that gets you expelled at Hogwarts is if you have already straight up murdered someone

6/13/22

The more I learn about myself as a mentally ill person, the more I think I hate life. I have went my whole life having to deal with so many issues alone, that it just all feels pointless now that I have diagnosis for a lot of things. Being diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and depression has really just opened up my eyes to how much I have truly been suffering. I am 26 and I’m just now getting these diagnosis and help for this but it just all feels like it’s too late. I know people always tell me to be proud of myself for how far I have come in spite of everything but I’m just so tired. I’m tired of having anxiety, I’m tired of feeling like a failure, I’m tired of my brain not working. I am tired of having to fight. I don’t feel adequate. I want things to be easy for me and I don’t think it will ever be easy and that’s just so unfair. At a certain point, I just want to give up but I know I can’t and I hate it more and more. I know I should be more patient with myself and kinder to myself but it’s so hard when I want to do so much and my own brain won’t let me. I just don’t know what to do at this point.