I Found Out I May Be Allergic To Oranges. And Then The Next Day Had A Mimosa Accidentally On Purpose.

I found out I may be allergic to oranges. And then the next day had a mimosa accidentally on purpose.

06/14/22

Today I couldn’t muster up to do anything. After going through a crisis episode of feeling like a complete failure yesterday, I couldn’t even sleep. I wasn’t even able to go to sleep until after 12 which is unusual for me as someone who goes to sleep around 9 or 10 at the latest. But, this happens every time that I get in a depressive episode, which is always strange to me because you would think that I would sleep more but I can’t. Anyways, this is one of the perks of me working from home because I can just have a chill day without calling out. At this point everything feels just so overwhelming but I do hope that I can keep this writing up. I think it will be good for me to be able to document how I feel more about things. On that note, I really want to get into more content creation. I am already a twitch streamer but I really want to get into making TikTok’s and fitness videos and expanding on my IG. But its like I always have ideas but I never expand on them. I am trying to change that about myself but like everything it is a process. I’m trying so much harder to be kinder to myself but its hard to express kindness to yourself when the voice in your head has always been negative. I think I lean on the fact that I had such a bad upbringing so much that its hard for me to move forward. I blame things that I can not change and don’t change the things that I can . I am not going to say that it stops now because its impossible for me to predict that for myself but I am going to try and be better. I deserve to be better for myself. I deserve happiness and peace. Anyways, we will see how things go tomorrow. If I can actually get up and go to the gym then I think that’s going to be a big start of me being able to change. But we shall see.

TTFN

The bimbo went on vacation

I told my man all I wanted for my birthday was a life size plush of him and he said that was weird. AITA if I hit him with my car?