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I hate it when mfs say "what's going on upstairs" like idk bro, sometimes I think of the cute guy who works at chipotle?

HELP I GOT MY TOE STUCK IN MY CATS NAIL CLIPPERS SOMEHOW OW OW IM BLEEDING

back in my chewing spitting arc

its so sweet knowing that you love me

famous last words (an ode to eaters) Ethel Cain

im th1n but not

“im worried about you”

th1n

chat does it count as sh if I smash my skull into a hard object till the point I nearly pass out? (Genuinely asking cuz I wanna stop doing it but idk what this behaviour is called and I dont want to offend anyone if it's not!)

why am I used to functioning on 2-3 hours of sleep is this healthy?

what happened to the use of "shawdy" in songs I swear one day it stopped being used

why is fall 2022 nostalgia hitting me so hard rn. literally listening to my fave song playlist from that time and omggg

reasons to keep restricting

to gain and keep control

to prove everyone wrong

for the visible collarbones

visible ribs

tiny wrists

to see the bruising

to be petite

to float when you walk

to be the thinnest one in the room

to have a clear view on priorities

to gain a routine

to be able to get picked up by him

to be able to sit on his lap

to be fragile like a flower

for the clothes

to have control over something

to have control over something

to have control over something

to have control over something

to be the thinnest

to be the thinnest

to be the thinnest

to be the thinnest

to hit and keep hitting your goals

to prove yourself wrong

to be the prettiest

to become perfect

rexie rant

im literally done hiding my behaviours from people I dont give a FUCK that people know I dont like eating/wanna be as small as possible idgaf ive been dancing around people asking me how much I eat/if im ok for my whole life. im so done with pretending its not like the people in my life are stupid, they know people dont just randomly lose over 10lbs a month out of the blue and stop eating any time we hang out luckily my friends understand kinda and all they ask me is that im getting vitamins in best harm reducers frfr, they convinced me to just have high water content fruits bc im always dehydrated. I honestly would be dead without my friends help they helped me stay healthy when my parents didnt believe that I had celiac symptoms

cigarettes after sex I remember when I first noticed that you liked me back We were sitting down in a restaurant waiting for the check We had made love earlier that day with no strings attached But I could tell that something had changed how you looked at me then Kristen, come right back I've been waiting for you To slip back in bed When you light the candle And on the Lower East Side, you're dancing with me now And I'm taking pictures of you with flowers on the wall Think I like you best when you're dressed in black from head to toe Think I like you best when you're just with me And no one else Kristen, come right back I've been waiting for you To slip back in bed When you light the candle And I'm kissing you lying in my room Holding you until you fall asleep And it's just as good as I knew it would be Stay with me, I don't want you to leave Kristen, come right back I've been waiting for you To slip back in bed When you light the candle

back to the basics

back to my diet of when I was in the deepest depression pit of my life one serving of fruit a day with a side of walking everywhere

Harsh reality? You don't get these results by restricting for just a couple weeks and then giving up, no, you have to be consistent, you have to stick with it at all times. Why give up and lose all your progress for nothing? You didn't suffer for nothing, you didn't resist those cravings, feel the pain in your stomach, and cry for nothing. You know what you want and you need to fight for it. Nobody said it was an easy route to take, it's not easy, it's never going to be easy but don't throw away what you want the most for a taste of what you want right now. Every bite counts, just keep going and you will be where you want to be sooner rather than later...

You can do it...

me after dodging the bulimic & drug addict allegations for the 19th time this week (my mom has nothing else better to do than speculate on the shit I get up to)

silly September is over time for on lock October

what if my heart just gave up (emotionally and physically)

its just me and my heart murmurs against the world