Dear Namjoon | 11

Dear Namjoon | 11

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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Once we got home, jimin wasn't there yet. They had practice today. After having my dad question me over and over if I was alright, I finally got away and went upstairs to shower.

My ass had a hand mark and it irritated me, now I had to avoid having sex with namjoon until it went away. Or else he'll end up fighting jungkook. way I was gonna have my period soon. Laying in bed I check my phone, there was over 50 messages from jimin and missed calls too. His last message told me to call him the moment I got home. Namjoon also called and texted me.

I was planning to call, but I fell asleep.

once jimin got home he asked his dad where they went and he didn't say anything in response. but there was a shell on his desk.

he walked into her room, right away hearing her little snores as she slept. Jimin didn't know what to say to you, he did the only thing he could think of and it was to just get into the bed and snuggle with you. he felt like this was more than just you missing your mom. maybe he has been a bit harsh with you lately about the whole boyfriend situation. He wanted you to know that he didn't care who you dated as long as you were happy, even if he didn't like the guy he'd shut up and smile.

he knew you weren't the best at making friends, so maybe you might have trouble with kids but since your his sister everyone would want to be your friend. he couldn't think of anyone who'd bully you, I mean who would have that death wish. Jimin and his six friends would beat them into a pulp.

Like taehyung says, his hands are bisexual. he'll beat a girl if he had to. jimin chuckles at his own thoughts, as he brushes his hand against your hair.

"don't be so sad, please" he whispers, giving y/n a kiss to your forehead.

I woke up to a huge muscular man hugging me, aka jimin.

I wanted to kick him off the bed, cause his body is a walking heater and i hate when it's hot like this. But I knew he came here because I cried earlier.

instead I licked my index finger and stuck it in his ear just as he did to me the other day. His eyes shot open and he grabbed my hand "Really? thats the first thing you do when you wake up" He was totally judging me with that stupid look on his face

"oh shut up, you did that to me first" he chuckles

"how are you feeling?"

"better"

"i'm surprised you called dad"

"I just didn't wanna be at school, and well you had stuff to do anyways"

"you know i'd stop anything if it was fo-"

"i don't wanna put you in a situation like that, anyways there's also dad so" i shrug, he just stared at me. but another reason I didn't tell him anything was because I didn't wanna put more in the hot plate with jungkook and me. I knew that had practice today, me making him leave would only make jungkook more annoyed.

"do you wanna call mom?" I he picks up the covers, looking for his phone that got lost in the bed

"she's probably still sleeping, we shouldn't....i'll talk to her this weekend anyways" he looks at his phone.

"i may have told the guys you left and they were all worried" he shows me his phone, I looked at the chat and I see a lot of messages from the three youngest but namjoon who of course like always tried to seem uninterested

even jungkook was asking how was, fucking hypocrite.

"wanna eat something?"

"like what?"

"what do you want?"

"whatever you make"

"alright, i'll go make something. i'll call you when it's ready"

he gets off the bed and walks towards the door but I call out his name, making him look at me again , smiling brightly.

I wanted to tell him, right there and then. About Namjoon and even about what happened with Jungkook.

he'd be more pissed at jungkook for hitting me, than namjoon for dating me.

but that fucking smile, I couldn't do it

"nothing never mind" I smile back at him.

"ok, i'll call you soon"

Once he left, I knew how deep I was in this shit.

Namjoon texted me saying If I didn't call him he was gonna come to the house. So I had no choice but to call him.

"Look who finally decides to answer" he was mad at me, I could hear it in his voice.

"I was asleep"

"jimin said that, but why didn't you answer me at all"

"I was with my dad"

"what's with all the dry answers, did something happened when you left with jungkook?" his voice hinted as if he knew something. Did jungkook tell him?

"what do you mean?" I hear him sigh "Jungkook heard us the day we came over" Namjoon knew that jungkook heard and he didn't even tell me....Do it tell him what happened today?

"did he say anything rude to you?" forget what he fucking said, he fucking touched me...

"what did he tell you? about that day" I ask him

"he told me I needed to tell jimin about us, or he would"

Fucking dick, he told me to break up with you.

"y/n? something happened didn't it. fucking jungkook I told him not to fucking say nothing to you"

I kept silent, I couldn't tell him what he said or what he did. I was scared.

"y/n, what did he say?"

what if I just told him? he'd Probably just go to Jungkook's place to hit him.

"he didn't say anything...just that we needed to tell jimin" I bite my inner cheek

"that's it?"

"yea.."

"ok" he sighs in relief "If he bothers you about it again, just tell me"

I guess the bitch got a hold on me, cause I couldn't tell jimin or namjoon about what happened today. I felt like crying again.

"namjoon..."

"yeah?"

I wanna see you but I can't..not right now.

I was saved by jimin calling out my name, telling me to come down to eat

"i'm sorry, I have to go eat"

"wait y/n, what if I come over"

"jimin and my dad are home"

"i'll sneak in"

but the hand mark...

"no sex, i'm serious" I tell him with a stern voice

"ok"

"promise?"

"i promise" he laughs

"I don't like having sex when I can't hear you call out my name so I don't mind"

"your annoying" I laugh at his answer

"but you love it"

"yeah yeah, i'm gonna go now"

jimin was already in bed when namjoon got here. he parked his bike away from our house, so jimin wouldn't see it.

my dad was in his office when I went to open the door.

"hey" he smiles

"shhh" i pinch his arm "my dad is in his office, shut up" his brow raises as he looks at me "pinch me again and i'll go back on my promise" holding onto his shoes we walk up to my room, locking the door behind us.

namjoon places his shoes and bag down, pulling his shirt over his head.

"what the fuck are you doing" i yell quietly, covering my eyes. I hear him chuckle "babe, why are you covering your eyes. you've seen way more" he grabs your hands putting them down

"namjoon i'm serious no sex!"

"alright alright, i wasn't planning on making a move on you. calm down"

"then put your shirt back on" i smack his chest

"i sleep without a shirt, and keep touching me i dare you" he grabs my hands.

there he stood in front of me with just grey joggers on "fine, lets go to sleep" I walk past him turning off the lights. I could hear him getting into the bed, as I make my way to the bed in the dark.

As I cover myself with the blanket he pulls me into a hug. we lay there silently for a good three minutes before he speaks up "this is nice, just laying here with you in my arms" he smiles

"I was actually planning to punish you for ignoring my calls all day, but you spent the day with your dad so i'll let it go" he palms your ass, making you flinch.

"namjoon"

"yeah?" If I tell him, will he leave and go beat up jungkook? or will he tell me to just ignore him. this is my fault for wanting him.

namjoon starts to give me multiple kisses on my face "you really thinking of something else while i'm in front of you" he pouts, making me smile "sorry, i just had a bad day"

"what made you upset" I shrug as if I didn't have an answer but I did. Just not a the answer that would do any good for him.

"it's fine, we all have those types of days"

I nod as he talked, I didn't know how I was gonna act in front of jungkook tomorrow. Honestly it bothered me the idea of being near him.

"namjoon, can we meet at the room tomorrow?"

"sure" he mumbles, already dozing off.

"namjoon.." he hums as I call his name

"good night"

"good night babe"

He fell asleep before me, I stared at his resting face as he slept. trying to see memorize everything. I was thinking of jungkook's threat. I have till the end of the month to break up with namjoon or he'll tell jimin.

for it to not get bad, it'll be better if I tell jimin. sitting him down and talking to him.

moving the hair from namjoon's eyes, I knew I couldn't break up with him. I would miss him too much, I don't know what i'd do without him.

once morning came, namjoon was holding me hostage in the bed. telling me he didn't wanna get up.

"namjoon we have school" I pinch his arms "but it's so comfortable being here with you" he whines

"come on, we have to leave before jimin notices" I try to get out of his embrace, only to fail when he hovers over me. his hands on my thighs, he pulls me closer to him "i'll get up after you help me with something" he rubs his erection against my clothed heat "you've got to be kidding me" he has a smug look on his face "no namjoon, i said no sex" i whine, his hands caressing my thighs "are you sure" he grinds against me once more, making me bite my bottom lip "yes"

he hums, his hands going from my thighs to the hem of my shorts, he brushes his thumb on my skin "namjo-"

"y/n?" jimin knocks on the door, "why is your door locked"

namjoon looks at the door and then you, still having his stupid smug look "I'm getting dressed" I say loudly

smacking namjoon's hands away i try to get up but he pushes me down, kissing my neck. I place my hands on his shoulders "namjoon don't you dare" i whisper

"what's taking you so long" jimin says annoyed, he knocks on the door once more

"your brother is very impatient, lets have a quickie" he whispers next to my ear before he continues to leave kisses on my neck

"sorry" i say to jimin, namjoon begins to suck on my skin.

"are you gonna want me to take you to school?" jimin speaks once again

"no., i'll go on my own"

"are you ok?" he says concerned

"jimin, i'm on my period. i'm in pain, i'll be going a bit late today"

"oh...i can't do anything for you? want me to get you anything?" namjoon slides his hand into your shorts and rubs his fingers against your heat "your a little liar, you aren't on your period" he makes you gasp as he pinches your folds

"no, i'm alright. you should go or you'll be late" i hold onto namjoon's hand, trying to stop him from moving it "namjoon please stop" i whisper

"alright then, ill see you at school" he walks away, heading down stairs

"namjoon what the fuck, what if he caught us" he raises his brow, slipping one of his fingers into my entrance making me gasp

"namjoon..no"

"i don't know why your cursing at me. but i don't like it"

"i'm sorry, i'm sorry" i whine, he takes out his finger only to thrust it into me again "i don't like how you gave up so quickly

"you keep saying no sex but yet you get wet so easily, look at how your pussy takes my finger so easily"

I cover my mouth trying to stop myself from making any noise, he smirks at the view underneath him "but i'll do as you said" he smiles, slipping out his finger from inside me making me whine at the emptiness

"namjoon" i pout

"what babe, you said no sex" he licks his fingers before wiping them on his joggers "get up we have to go to school don't we" he smirks, as he gets off of you.

what a bitch you thought, you were horny and he knew it. this was his revenge. two can play this game.

so i've been gone for a LONGG time and I just want to say that I am trying to get a update out by the end of the month. No promises for now but this is the deadline i'm working with right now :))

We miss you ❤️❤️

I'll post soon promise! just that it's finals this week and next so I'm busy and left all my projects last minuteeee

My first confession pt.2 | drabble

A part of DEEP series

✧ Pairing:Min Yoongi x reader

✧ warning(s): explicit language, hinting of underage drinking, drunk kiss

✧ word count: 1.6k

a/n: part two to this drabble and the ending.

index | Part One

MIN YOONGI

she blew out the candles, jihye picked out her cake after I insisted on doing it myself but she wouldn't shut up so I had no choice. she smiled brightly as they took turns taking photos of her, going in pairs to take photos with her. It irked my soul when he stood next to her, his arm wrapped around her as he rested it on her arm tugging her closer to him.

"hey! smile!" taehyung yells refusing to take the photo without causing some sort of scene. I glared at him as he suggested them to get closer but how closer could they get. taehyung laughs as namjoon yells at him to take the photo, he glances my way which I mouthed "do you wanna die" and he frowned right away, turning to the pair and taking the photo. handing the phone to junho but the bastard didn't stop there, instead he leaned down and began whispering who knows what to her, I stared at her to read her reaction but all she did was smile and nod giving his arm a small squeeze as he moves on letting jihye step in his spot as she hugs y/n tightly for a photo.

"alright last but not least" taehyung pushes me towards the table, indicating it was my turn for a photo. "happy birthday" she automatically hugs me, kissing her forehead I squeeze her as I hug her back.

this is it, no matter what he does. he can't have this, our relationship. 

my eyes glanced to him, he was sitting at the table taking a sip of what ever he was drinking, eyes on us. "smile" she says softly, my eyes tracing back to her as she gives me her bright smile "you don't have to tell me that" I smile, turning to the camera my arm wraps around her waist, holding her closely to me.

"we're finally 21" she whispers

"and? just another year" I shrug

"yeah but we can drink now, legally" she drags out the last word which i roll my eyes. "I'm still older than you" I pinch her waist which she slaps my hand "shut up, by what? two days? oh grow up already" rolling her eyes she pushes me away but I don't let her sit down as I grab her arm and pull her into a hug "still, happy birthday sweetheart"

"give her one more I fucking dare you" I grip his collar, leaning over the table. Y/n and jihye grabbing onto both my shoulders as they try to pull me back but couldn't. "alright alright, it was just joke" he yells back but was not terrified at all of my outburst.

"yoongi!" she yells, giggling like the rest of them but I knew she was starting to get tipsy and maybe this sensitive outburst is also cause I was getting tipsy too. namjoon finally gets in, gripping my fist as he tries to undo my grip on taehyung's shirt

"I wanna know my limit" releasing my shoulders she hugs me from my waist, releasing his collar I sit back looking down at y/n who was still hugging me almost crawling into my lap " later don't be telling me nothing" I grab her arms, prying her off of me as she sits back on her seat emptying her cup once more.

I sit back, cross my arms and just watch her. two bottles later she was starting to talk gibberish and glare at me intensely as she whispered something to jihye who decided to stay sober to not miss the chance of seeing her drunk.

it didn't last long, this stare off she was trying to have with me as her head ended up against my arm. I chuckle as I watch her, little mumbles coming from her lips every now and then.

"she's gone" jihye laughs, taking photos of the both of you with her phone. As a good friend I should've stopped her, save you some dignity but you didn't listen to me to stop drinking, these were you're consequences. typing into my phone I let them have their fun as I called for a Uber. "alright alright that's enough of that" I lift her head of my shoulder, turning my body as I called your name trying to wake you up but instead you face fell flat on my chest as I was holding your shoulders.

"yeah I think it's time to go home" I tried to hold back my laugh, but the smile creeping on my lips was unavoidable. sitting her up once more I called her name gently trying to get her to react and she looked up at me slightly but she was drowsy and definitely gone.

My smile disappearing instantly as he grabs onto your arm pulling you towards him as he gives me a cold stare "isn't jihye taking her home" my body reacting before I could think I wrap my around around your waist, pulling you towards me as I stand "and why the fuck would she" i scowl at him, I was close to losing my patience with this man, who the fuck did he think he was to tell me what I can and can't do with you.

"she's drunk" he stands, my brow arches as I scoff as his attempt to intimidate me. "junho" jihye chuckles awkwardly "sit down, they live next to each other...and they've known each other way longer" tugging on his shirt as she looks around at my friends as if telling them to do something but all they did was watch.

junho stared at me with daggers in his eyes as I stood smugly there your face was resting on my chest as I was holding you up with my arm around your waist. "alright alright, cut it out" namjoon finally steps in, putting his arm between the two of us from across the table. "yoongi just take her home, we'll explain to junho how shit runs here" I couldn't help but smirk as his hands clench into fists.

"i wasn't asking for permission anyways" crouching down a bit I wrap my arm under you as I lift you up into my arms, jihye quickly hands me your purse. moving in my arms your small eyes look at me for a split second before wrapping your arms around my neck. licking my lips I grin as I look at him one last time before turning on my heel and leaving.

she finally woke up once we entered her apartment, she'd stare at me as I was crouched down trying to undo her heals. "yoongi" she mumbles my name which I hum in response but instead of her talking I just hear her sniffle.

I stand quickly, tugging her hair behind her ear as I try to make her look at me but she kept looking down instead "hey..why are you crying" I couldn't help but almost laugh, so she's the type to get emotional.

I should've never talked, the moment she looked up at me. rivers of tears began to trickle down her cheeks and I lost it.

I began to laugh, which didn't help as it caused her to hit my arm with her small purse as she just cried "come on, lets get you cleaned up" I decided it would be best to just get her into bed.

she would stumble over her own feet but I held onto her as she walked down the hall towards the bathroom. "yoongi" she cries, tears in her eyes as I pat her back "stop crying" I held back another laugh.

"you just don't get it" she continues to hit me with her small fists. "then explain it to me, but stay still" I close the toilet cover and make her sit. If I didn't clean off her make up and make her brush her teeth she would be pissed the next day. she kept leaning on me as I tried to take out a make up wipe from the bag. putting it down I push her back slightly, finally being able to get one I wasted no time to wipe her face gently.

"do me a favor and keep crying so I can make sure to get all the mascara" I snort as she slaps my arm away "ouch" I exaggerate

"you're mean"

I caress her knee my thumb brushing circles against her skin, looking into her teary eyes that glared at me"babe, i'm trying to listen to you but all you're doing is crying. take a deep breath and talk"

"I love you"

"I really really love you" my hand freezes, my eyes meeting hers as she stares at me with anticipation in hers. I felt like kissing her, the way her eyes shimmered as the tears fell down her perfect cheeks.

fuck, i'm drunk too

pinching her cheek I smile at her "I love you too kid"

"yoongi" she whined, stomping her feet annoyed.

"okay, I understand alright. I love you too, we've known each other before we could even walk. I adore you, alright?" throwing the wipe away I get up from my crouch position "now brush your teeth cause you know you can't sleep without brushing your teeth"

grabbing her tooth brush I add toothpaste, placing it in her hand I make sure she grips the handle before I let go "i'll go look for something comfortable to wear, where did you put my clothes I brought over here? I don't wanna leave you alone just to find you dead cause you fell or something" I laugh walking down the hall towards her room as I hear her say "in the closet" slowly. entering her room I stop, leaning against the wall "holy shit" I whisper.

placing one of my shirts she had taken and her shorts on the bed I quickly change into joggers and one of my shirts. I step out of the room once she's back to give her space to change as I get her a cup of water.

I could feel myself getting drowsy and just wanted to sleep. getting back to the room I found her giving my side her back as she just hugged the blanket hiding her face. "you're sleeping" I still ask.

getting on my side I poke her back "come here" I say to her which makes her shift in her spot but she didn't avoid me and turned towards me, cuddling into my chest as I rub her back. 

"yoongi" she mumbles"

"yeah"

"I said I loved you" swallowing I lick my lips "and I said I love you too" I give her a tight squeeze. "but you don't seem to understand" she props herself on her elbow as she looks at me, my arm still on her waist "what?" I mumble, enchanted by her. 

She brushes my bangs aside as her hand then caresses my cheek. "y/n" my voice shakes, my mind in shambles and the alcohol in my system not helping me. 

and what happened next I couldn't control. 

she closed the distance between us, her lips pressed against mine. my heart did a somersault and reason was long gone. leaning against my elbows I held her nape, kissing her roughly as she moaned against my lips. nibbling on her bottom lip she couldn't get the hint which irritated me. quickly I lifted my hand to her lips, pressing my thumb against her lips as they part slowly I stick my thumb into her mouth "fuck" I curse as I shove my tongue into her mouth, our tongues tangling as I press her down on the bed. 

her legs wrap around my waist, my hands on either side of her head as I hold myself up to stop me from crushing her. "yoongi" she whines, and it made my heart jitter. 

she had my heart at her palm, she had me at her fucking palm. 

I couldn't think, my tongue wandering every nook and corner of her mouth as I sucked on her tongue. slowly kissing her chin as my hands roamed under her shirt, inching closer to her breast as they itched to grope them. her hips grinding against my hard cock that was dying to be inside her. 

"fuck--please y/n" I groaned against her neck as I groped her breast, pulling her bra down as I sucked her hard nipple over the shirt. "yoongi" she cried out, sitting up I pull my shirt over my head looking down at her disheveled hair, fast panting and her shirt was half way up her stomach. I could feel my dick throbbing against her clothed area. taking a deep breath I hook my fingers on the hem of her shorts, lifting her hips I was just about to pull down her shorts but she grips my hand. 

my eyes jolt to her, I wanted to be selfish. I wanted to just have her but her grip was hard.

her other hand was covering her mouth "I feel like i'm gonna throw up" my breathing was fast as i stared at her holding her mouth. letting go of her shorts I sit her up "let's go to the bathroom" I tell her slowly, trying to calm myself down. "false alarm" she giggles against my chest

I shut my eyes, inhaling. 

before I could say anything to her I began to hear her small snores. it's fine, this is good. I was about to do something crazy. 

laying her down on her side I fix her bra and pull her shirt down. never ever ever drink and lay with her, I told myself. 

"Fuck" she curses, my eyes open slowly as I feel her body jerk back from my chest. jumping out the bed as her hand covers her mouth she runs down the hall. automatically I go after her, picking up the cover seat she empties her stomach into the toilet, I quickly reach for her hair, pulling it back into a pony tail but not having anything to tie her hair with so I just held onto it. 

"I fucking hate him" she  cries

"I told you not to over do it, now you know what will happen" I chuckle, patting her back slowly.

"i'ma kill him" she throws up some more, 

"I tried to stop him and you still didn't listen" I shake my head as she sits back. I hand her a hand towel as she wipes her mouth "all better?" she glares at me clearly caught that I was trying to hold back my laughter "fuck you" hovering over the toilet she throws up again and  i couldn't help but laugh. 

when she finally finished I took her to sit while I fixed her something to eat. "here drink this, it'll help you" I said slowly. she nods, taking sips of the honey water. 

"yesterday" she says slowly

my hands freeze at the ends of the container "yeah" I say 

"thank you for rubbing my back as I slept" she mumbles, taking another sip of the drink

"thats all you remember?" I turn to look at her

her eyes widening quickly "did something happen?" she sits up.

"well you almost barfed in the bed" i lick my lips, grinning. it wasn't a lie, she almost did. 

"oh shut up please, I don't remember anything after you got in the bed" she rubs her temple "I really don't remember anything" she whines 

letting out a bitter chuckle, I smiled at her "not even when all you did was cry" 

"wait, I do remember the bathroom..a little" she shuts her eyes as if trying to recall "you made me brush my teeth" she says 

"oh shut up already" I laughed 

handing her the food she ate slowly and occasionally cursed at taehyung. but never mentioned what had happened last night, and I really hoped it was just that; that she simply can't remember and isn't choosing to just forget. 

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Hi hope you’re doing well!! 🥰 I’m new to your page and wish to know how often you update a story? Deep is really good and it’s getting so much more intense 😱😱 and I need more 🫣🫣. No pressure at all just wanted to ask ❤️❤️

I try to update every month but lately that's not been the case. honestly I take time writing, usually when I get inspiration or just have time. I'm glad you like deep and I have already started the next chapter. just not sure when i'll be finishing it. but I do hope to have it out before the month ends :)

pleaseee tell me yoongi and oc get a happy ending in deep. I don't understnad why doesn't he just confess why does he have to be such a man-whore and not just be with oc? if he's "loved" her for so long then why is he being such a prick?

now what would be the fun in spoiling the ending? he doesn't confess cause she isn't allowed to date until after college.