Message To You Pt.2 | Dear Namjoon

Message to you pt.2 | Dear Namjoon

Part of Dear Namjoon Series ✧ Y/n sits at the airport, phone in hand as she writes a farewell message to namjoon. but can't seem to know what to write.

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She wastes no times to start typing once more, this time determined to not overthink it and press send. 

Dear Namjoon, 

I wish things were different. Loving you has been the one thing that felt right, but now it's causing so much pain for you and jimin and I don't want to be in the middle. I don't know what to do anymore. 

I hate leaving like this. But I can't be the cause of things going wrong with the group or anything in your life in general. I'm going to live with my mom, maybe things will calm down and then we can talk again. 

Please take care of yourself. 

cursing she erases the message, she knew that jimin and him will be at each others throat, she couldn't let him blame jimin. 

Message to you pt. 3 | Dear Namjoon

Part of Dear Namjoon Series ✧ Y/n sits at the airport, phone in hand as she writes a farewell message to namjoon. but can't seem to know what to write.

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Namjoon,

I know you’ll probably hate me for this, but I can’t keep pretending that this will work out. I’ve caused too much trouble between you and Jimin, and it’s all my fault. If I hadn’t gotten involved, things wouldn’t have ended up like this. It’s better if I just leave now before it gets worse.

she turns the screen off from her phone and leans back on the seat. there were twenty minutes left before she had to board the plane. gathering all the courage she could muster she picks up her phone one last time. erasing what she had written she begins to type, determined  to make this the final message. 

not jimin slut shaming his own sister, namjoon was right to hit him. the ending had me shocked, like if she leaves? how will I sleep without knowing 😩 thank you for updating!

thank you for reading! 🫶🏼

No Drabble for DEEP today

Picnic In The Rain

A part of DEEP series ✧ Pairing: Yoongi x reader ✧ warning(s): bad driving ?

✧ genre: fluff? (idk just got home from work and i'm tired) ✧ word count: a/n: just got home and right away started editing the chapter. I hope you all like it! I reread this over and over, if there are any mistakes...my bad.

Yoongi's 21st birthday

"Don't peek!" y/n says as she quickly glances to see if he had pulled down the blindfold off his face. Yoongi on the other hand was just laying back on the passenger seat taking in the breeze. His senses sharpened, smelling the subtle hint of her perfume mixed with the earthy smell that proved he was right and that it will rain soon. "yeah yeah" he can't help but smile, it was his birthday and she begged him to spend the day with her.

Amused he teased her, saying he had made plans with his friends, she pouted and hid the very visible picnic basket behind her “alright” she gave him a forced smile. Not able to hold back his laughter he breaks character instantly pulling her into a hug.

The car pulls to a sloppy stop making his body jolt forward, his hand reaching for his blindfold but she quickly grabs his arms, pushing them down “No don’t! Sorry I'm still getting used to driving” sighing he doesn’t fight back “I’ll help you out, I’m serious don’t take it off!” running out the car she quickly goes to his side, helping him out.

After walking for what felt like forever, she finally lets go of his arms. Yoongi heard her run off but he stood still and waited. “Ok you can look now!” “Are you sure?” he grins.

“Yes!” Asking again in a teasing tone “Are you really really sure?” groaning she runs back to him, “you’re so childish” without giving him a chance to retort she pulls down his blindfold. As his eyes adjusted to the sudden exposure to light he looked at his very excited friend, her lips curved up into a warm smile as she stared into his eyes. She had set up a rather large picnic blanket, his favorite food spread along with a cake.

The open field with wild flowers surrounding them made him chuckle, it was everything she loved. “Let’s do this quickly, it’s going to rain soon” taking her hand in his he walks towards the blanket.

“Shut up, you’ll jinx it”

After eating the food and a slice of cake he watched her as she stared at the photos in her hand which she had just taken. He stared at the clear sky thinking his sixth sense failed him and it truly wasn’t going to rain. His attention was pulled from her as his phone ringed, taking it out of his pocket and he frowned. Wasting no time he hangs up, “was it your friends? I bet they’re mad right? Since you had plans with them” he grinned, there was a hint of guilt in her eyes but she didn’t know he lied. His friends planned nothing because he told them that the day was yours before you asked.

But before he could tease her, it began to pour. “Oh my god I told you not to jinx it!” she shrills as the two quickly stand up. Running towards the large tree for cover yoongi turns to find her picking up some of the items “are you serious” he yells running back, he grabs her arm.

Under the tree. Both drenched, they look at one another before laughing. "happy birthday" she says for the millionth time, giving her a small smile he pulls her into a hug, gently kissing her forehead "thank you" he felt how she held her breath before giggling as he pinched her ear. "is there something you want?" she suddenly asks, wrapping her arms around his waist. her chin rested on his chest as her eyes looked up at him. 

"more?" he chuckles looking back at the destroyed picnic arrangement she had done for him. "this is not a gift, just...what would we call this"

"a mess" 

"hey!" she pushes him away, rolling her eyes jokingly. 

"i'm serious is there anything you want?" he hums as if thinking, but the anticipation she was feeling broke as he shrugged. annoyed she crosses her arms and looks away.  "how can it rain and be sunny at the same time" she mutters.

The sudden wind made her shiver but he stood firm as his eyes never left her. For he did not feel cold at all, her carefree, cheerful, lovely spirit was like a fire. Which attracted a lot of people and even if that did bother him, he never wanted to try and control that fire.

All he needed was to be near it. That was his wish. 

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Dear Namjoon | 24

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language ✧ genre: angst, fluff, smut, slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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you paced around the room, since you ended up staying late jimin asked you to stay at the dorm. you're eyes glanced at namjoon as he gave you a slight nod. There were things you wanted to talk to him about as well so you agreed. Jimin bunked with taehyung and jungkook  who had taken the biggest room, giving you his room to stay in.  namjoon messages you saying he was going to sneak into the room, you looked around the room. Seeing all of jimin's things you purse your lips,

no, ill come to your room - you message him. sending you a thumbs up you waited for about 30 minutes before slowly opening jimin's door, your heart falling to your ass when the hinges began to creek. you walk down the dark hall, knowing which one was his room saved you the trouble of accidentally walking into the wrong room. opening his door was less trouble than jimin's, you were greeted with darkness, did he fall asleep? you thought, turning to leave the room before you could take another step his arm wraps around your waist as another covers your mouth to stop you from screaming. "shhh, it's me" he whispers to your ear. shutting the door you turn and hit his chest "what the hell was that" you say in a whisper but loud enough to voice your annoyance. 

His wide smile revealed his dimples and you couldn't help but smile. You hadn't seen him for months, yet here he was in front of you. A sudden urge came as you pulled him by the nape, your lips against his. taken back he freezes for a split second, his skin burning where she touched him. hoisting her up he presses her against the wall and began to kiss her passionately. gripping his shoulders as he deepens the kiss you know that starting this was a bad idea. 

as he breaks the kiss, both of your chests heaving as you try and gather air "we need to tal-" forgetting to whisper, instead of reminding you his lips ravage yours. pushing at his chest he groans and leans back "we need to talk" you say in a whisper, quickly. "can we talk later" he whines "I haven't seen you in forever, why can't we just lose our selfs in each other for now" his voice sounding like a plea. feigning resistance you sigh giving him a small nod. grinning he holds you tightly, walking to his bed while your grip tightens around him.

 maybe just maybe it was only you who was hoping for more to happen, you're cheeks blushed, warm as you lay on top of him, you chin against his chest as you look up at him. "what" he says softly, twirling a strand of your hair around his finger. you just smile, pecking his lips which initiate another passionate kiss. that's all he was giving you, long passionate kisses. as if sensing you're frustration he caresses your cheek "don't worry no one walks into my room"

"oh..that's good"

"is that not what got's you- wait were you-" covering his mouth you sit up, straddling him "stop, I just thought..."you could feel his lips curve into a grin as he sits up hugging you. "babe, as much as I would want to we can't. not here at least" he tried to look at your face but you hid in the crook of his neck. "what did you want to talk about" he rubs your back, trying to change the conversation for his sake. "jimin" you mutter 

the mood in the room completely changed, he chuckles "what is there to talk about" bitting on your lip you face him "I think we should...take a break from each other...have you focus on you're caree-" letting go of you he crosses his arms "we aren't doing this again y/n, why don't we just tell him. he'll get over it. this is getting annoying at how we have to walk on egg shells around him. if we want to be together he should just let us" namjoon speaks loudly, your hands automatically trying to cover his mouth but fail as he pulls them away.

"okay" you repeat till he calms down, not wanting him to be angry you peck his cheeks, chin, and forehead making him smile. "i'm sorry, i just don't know what to do.." the two of you sat on the bed in each others arms kissing or talking as your head laid against chest you drifted to sleep. 

"what the fuck" your body jolts as you wake up to someone's else's voice. someone's voice you recognized immediately, namjoon and you were laying in each others arms. Jimin's eyes widen as he stands at the door way. 

"jimin" you say, pulling the sheets off yourself, namjoon sits up quickly. cursing under his breath as he also gets out of the bed "since when" jimin says, staring at you with eyes filled of a rage of emotions "jimin, let me explain" your voice cracks as you get near him but he steps back "I asked since when" he says sternly "since I met her" namjoon speaks up, he was now standing behind you, he too had a serious look on his face. "namjoon, let me talk to hi-"

"fucking asshole did I not tell you not to approach my sister" his eyes glaring at namjoon as he raises his voice "she can do what ever she wants" namjoon answers. you try to talk to jimin but he ignores you, taking a few steps towards namjoon. "you're the bastard she's been dating?" he laughs with a cynical smile. "I can't fucking believe it, this whole time. I was talking to you!" he was now yelling, only two feet away from namjoon "all that time I kept complaining about the dick she was dating and you" scoffing he pulls at his hair "you must've thought I was a fucking idiot" he wasn't even talking to you, but yet there you were with tears in your eyes. 

"and you" he turns to face you "my friend?" your lips part but no words came out. "I told you that he doesn't take relationships serious-"

"it's different with me" you cry out "jimin do you know how hard it was for me not being able to tell you!" snickering at your words he raises a brow "not that hard since you still fucked my friend behind my back, throwing yourself at him like all the other sluts" namjoon moves faster than you could react, gripping the collar of his shirt "don't disrespect her" he says through clenched teeth "don't you fucking dare disrespect her" 

"and you're no better, you just needed to get a hand on my sister as well. can't help but get your dick wet as long as the other person is willi-" jimin stumbles back as namjoon's fist makes contact with his cheek. you hear gasps that weren't your own, your eyes connecting with jungkook's who along with taehyung and yoongi were watching. you try to walk to him, but namjoon pushes you back, giving you a stern look. Jimin doesn't let it slide, swinging his fist at namjoon face catching him off guard. you begin to yell, telling them to stop as namjoon tries to hold him down but jimin doesn't give him the satisfaction. jungkook and taehyung run into the room pulling them apart "fucking bastard" jimin spats, "you can say what ever you want about me but respect your sister!" namjoon yells, jungkook holding him back. "fuck this" jimin says, pushing taehyung's hands of him. 

there was a silence before jimin laughed "taehyung did you know?" you were looking at namjoon when he said this, your eyes snapping at the two friends. taehyung had a hint of guilt in his eyes that gave him away right away. in disbelief he looked at jungkook, but he received no response from him as he lowered his head. turning he looks at yoongi who was not in the hallway but inside the room "don't look at me like that" yoongi says "you're sister isn't my problem" as if trying to clean his hands from this mess. jimin glanced at everyone in the room before pushing past yoongi. you try to run after him but namjoon grabs your arm "leave him, if you go now all he's going to do is yell and insult you" 

"That's better than not talking to me at all!" you yell but his grip didn't loosen no matter how much you pulled "this is why I told you that we-"

"what?! we what?! we can't date because your brother-"

"because my brother was looking out for me when it came to assholes like you!" you yell, regretting your words as he scoffs "assholes like me?"

"I meant-"

"I know what you meant" letting go he crosses his arms "if that's what you think, and not that he's possessive then go."

"you didn't have to hit him!" 

"even if that was your father standing there disrespecting you I would've done the same thing" he says sternly "not only because he's you're brother means he can run his mouth how ever he likes" wiping your tears you shake your head "this is all wrong" you don't let him respond, rushing past yoongi as you run out the apartment. it was raining, you looked around but didn't see him anywhere. you remember there was a park near by and started running. You didn't care that your clothes were drenched but it was in vain. 

you waited at the dorm for him to return but a day passed and he was not back. namjoon tried to get you to sleep in jimin's room or his but you insisted in staying in the living room. you had to go back soon, and you somehow knew that he was waiting for you to leave before returning. "don't beat yourself over this" taehyung hands you a cup of tea, worried you might catch a cold from running in the rain the day before. "I made things.." you didn't know what to say, you made things hard for them? you ruined everything? 

it was all true, no one talked to you but taehyung and namjoon. everyone else went about their day as if you weren't there. making you want to yell at them that they knew too, but you couldn't, they we're dragged into this by your carelessness. They chose not to pick sides and minded their own business. 

"eat" namjoon says, placing a plate of food in front of you. reluctantly you take a few bites before putting down the plate. "he's fine, our manager called..it's all taken care of" he reassures you. you give him a slight nod fidgeting with your hands. "y/n, things will get better now" you scoff "please, don't say things like that. I need to talk to him. or else nothing will get better" groaning he grabs your hand "i'm sorry ok, I should've held myself back and let you talk to him but he just kept running his mouth and I..I just acted before thinking"

"you shouldn't have to apologize" both your heads lift to find yoongi displeased "he shouldn't have said what he said. you weren't in the wrong, although there were better ways to approach the situation..." glancing at you he sighs "stop feeling sorry for yourself, aren't you suppose to leave today?" 

shaking your head you wipe the tears from your cheeks "I know he's waiting for me to leave, he'll be back tonight" shrugging he walks away. "are you gonna wait for him?" 

"i have to...we have to talk" you could see the reluctance on namjoon's face. he was uncomfortable with leaving the two of you alone but didn't say anything on the matter. 

Moving from the living room to his room you waited all day until night fell. your assumptions were right, he came back. standing from the bed as he opens the door you call his name "jimin" , he looked up at you and you could tell he wasn't suprised.

"I don't have anything to say to you" his tone gave you goosebumps "we have to talk" 

"y/n" he shuts the door, rubbing his temples "please...leave" 

"jimin I know you told me that I shouldn't get near him but it happened before you even sai-" his face scrunches in confusion "hold on, you're telling me the day you met. you had already-" inhaling he walks past you sitting on his desk "get out" 

"we are in a serious relationship" you say, which makes him purse his lips as he looks away "if that's the type of relationship you want then that's your business" he says. "jimin don't be like thi-"

"Y/n I'm begging you. please leave!" he pleas "all my friends knew, do you understand? Everyone knew but me. and you" he scoffs, standing from his seat as he walks towards you "my little sister didn't even think it was important to let me know" you shudder under his glaring stare.

"you dating isn't the problem, it's the person you're dating. I've seen how the girls who have involved themself with him cried and how he treated them. but if that's what you want...I'm done" 

"it's not like that with me"

"whatever"

"jimin listen to me, he's chang-"

"leave y/n, and i don't want to see you back here. date him, do what ever you want"

"but i-"

"mom should've never sent you here" your eyes widen, he didn't look as if he would take his words back "I never wanted to come here either" holding back a sob you walk out the room, taking your luggage with you. ignoring the rest of the guys sitting in the living room you leave the apartment. 

When you  finally arrived home, you had to deal with a rather upset father who was not happy with you arriving later than you had promised. after hearing his lecture you leave to your room, lay in your bed in total darkness. 

wiping your tear stained cheek you dial a number on your phone. 

"what's wrong?" her voice alerted as she heard you sniffle. your silence causing her to step out of the crowded room she was in "y/n, what's going on?" but you couldn't bring yourself to say anything and started crying, flustered she walks into the crowded room and asks for another phone from a friend "I'm calling your dad" she says. 

"No..I'm sorry I just needed to let it out" she tries to ask once more what had happened. but you didn't know where to start nor what you should and shouldn't tell her. So you said the one thing that you had been thinking about for a long time. 

"Mom can't I just go live with you? please?"

END OF PART ONE: The Siblings

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