Drew Was Screaming Again, But Jakes Expression Didnt Change. He Took A Few Steps Forward, Closing The

“…Drew was screaming again, but Jake’s expression didn’t change. He took a few steps forward, closing the distance between them before resting a hand against Drew’s cheek.”

This piece is actually a redraw of a piece I made almost a year ago, just before I started this Tumblr. It’s also a scene from the next fanfic I have in store, which is probably one of my favorites so I’m really excited to share it!

Anyways heres the before and after:

(Sorry for all the fanfic-related content I’ve been producing recently. I’m not really sure if that’s what a majority of people are interested in, but I’m just really proud of where my writing is, and it’s something I want to share. Also I want to see how much I can get right about TMF S2 before it releases lol. I have a few more fic-related posts, but I promise I get back to posting more art and headcanons too. And I also gotta few things in store for pride month, I just need more time on them.)

🖤Sleep💙

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Synopsis: Drew finds himself caught in the rain, and ends up running into possibly the last person he wants to see.

A/N: This takes place after the events in Episode 11. I gave the Drake fans a little treat with this one. (Side note, one of the scenes was heavily inspired by an edit on Youtube, but I don’t remember who the creator since the original video has since been made private.)

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Drew couldn’t remember how he ended up here.

His surroundings were obscured by darkness; he could feel raindrops falling down around him, along with a cool wind which only seemed to send the rain in his direction. Within moments, Drew was already soaked.

He could hear the sound of thunder approaching, but there was no flash of light. No sign of where he could be, or where he could go.

Letting out a small sigh, Drew threw his hood over his head, and began to move forward as he shoved his trembling hands in his pocket. He didn’t know where he was going, but hopefully, he could find somewhere to escape the rain.

However, the longer he walked, the more he realized he wasn’t getting anywhere. It was impossible to see, and he was only growing colder by the second.

Drew blinked when a light began to flicker in the distance, and he was quick to realize it was an old streetlamp.

A familiar one, too…

Just underneath was a small bench, big enough to fit about two people. A dirt path led up to it, and surrounding it was nothing but grass and a few small trees. He knew where he was now.

Him, Liam, Henry, and… Jake, would sometimes come here after school. It was along the way to Liam and Henry’s neighborhood, so they’d usually rest here for a few minutes just to get Henry to stop complaining about having to walk.

Drew stopped when he grew closer to the wooden bench, resting his hand on the backrest and noticing a few initials carved into it.

An H and an L were carved along the first plank, and the second…

A D and a J, with a heart around the letters.

Henry was the one who’d drawn the heart, and while Jake had simply laughed it off, Drew could recall going off on a tangent about how he’d rather die than date Jake. Or something along those lines.

Jake had teasingly wrapped his arm around him, acting all hurt about the fact Drew wouldn’t ever go out with him. He’d gone on about how charming he was after that, but… Drew couldn’t remember what he’d said.

What he did remember was the scent of Jake’s cologne. The way his eyes glistened in the sunlight. His smile, his playful and confident tone…

The soft pink of his lips…

The idea of…

Drew shook his head, reminding himself that it was all a lie. Jake never cared about him. He never cared about any of them.

All those little moments of laughter. All those late night calls. All those gifts Drew had gotten him. All those memories. All lies.

…He was a damn good liar, that was for sure.

Letting out a shaky breath, Drew sat down on the bench, forgetting his original mission of getting out of the rain. He was already soaked, regardless.

Instead, he placed his elbows on his knees, burying his face in the palms of his hands.

God… why did it hurt so badly? Why did he still want him back? Jake never cared about them, so… why did Drew still care about him?

Drew’s hands began to tug at his hair, biting down on his lip as he remembered the way Jake would smile. The way he’d laugh. The look in his eyes when got all smug…

God, what was wrong with him?

“Enjoying the rain?” Drew jumped at the sudden voice, looking over his shoulder to see-

He swallowed. Standing behind him was a man with peach-blonde hair, and a navy blue jacket.

Jake.

He held a black umbrella over his head, and leaned a bit closer to cover Drew’s as well. Drew, however, inched away from him, putting himself back in the rain.

“The hell are you doing here?” Drew snapped, his voice laced with hostility. Jake shrugged.

“Could ask the same for you,” He answered casually, sitting down on the bench beside him. Drew stiffened.

“Doesn’t matter.” He answered. “Just shove off, I don’t need you here.”

“I didn’t know I needed your permission.” Jake commented, showing no sign of moving. Drew wanted to get up and leave, go anywhere else that wasn’t there. But his legs wouldn’t move.

“What do you want?” Drew asked, dropping his gaze to the ground. Jake was quiet for a moment, before he shook his head.

“You have a lot you want to say to me, don’t you?” Drew paused for a moment, only for a short laugh to escape him. Was Jake being serious right now?

“Oh, oh yeah, just a little bit,” Drew forced himself from the bench, running a hand through his hair. He took a deep breath. “What the fuck is wrong with you?!” Drew suddenly yelled. “How can you just sit here and talk to me so easily? Do you expect me to just forget the fact that you spent 3 years just using us?!” He took a step closer.

“3 fucking years, Jake! Did you even bother to think about how we’d feel?! We cared about you, dammit! I cared about you! And the second you found someone better, you left me for dead! You selfish bastard, did I mean nothing to you?!” Drew could feel tears welling up in his eyes, coming dangerously close to spilling over. His chest was heaving. Jake only stared at him, showing no sign of answering.

“Was it all a lie, Jake?” He asked, his voice beginning to waver. “Were you just using me because you thought I was safe?!” He paused for a moment, taking in a breath before continuing. “Did… you even like me at all?”

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“ANSWER ME, DAMMIT!!” Drew screamed.

“I think we both know the answer to that.” Jake finally said. Drew paused, his breath caught in his throat. But… what did he expect?

“I hate you, Jake. I hate you so fucking much.”

“So then why do you still need me?” Drew could feel his throat tighten, but despite that, he laughed.

“Did you not just hear a word I said?” Drew huffed. “I never needed you! You were the one who needed me because you were too weak to stand on your own!” Drew was screaming again, but Jake’s expression didn’t change. He took a few steps forward, closing the distance between them before resting a hand against Drew’s cheek.

“Then why aren’t you pushing me away?” Jake whispered, and Drew could feel his breath hitch, the words he wanted to say caught in his throat.

“From the very start, you thought I was different.” Jake started. “You thought I saw past what you could offer. You thought I valued you for… being you.”

“And you were so desperate for someone to care about you. You revolved your whole world around me. I became your Sun. I became your light in the darkness. Your warmth on cold days. Without me… you were lost…”

“But now… you’ve learned how badly a Sun can burn. Yet… you refuse to let me go. At least… not here.”

Drew’s glanced to the side, taking in their surroundings as he wondered what Jake could’ve meant. But the blonde tilted his head back, forcing their eyes to meet.

“Despite everything I’ve done, you’re still drawn to me. You still need me…”

Drew’s mouth felt dry, and he could feel his heart skip a beat when Jake’s eyes trailed down to his lips.

…What was happening?

“Otherwise, I don’t think you’d let me do this…”

Without warning, Jake pressed his lips against Drew’s, and the magenta-haired man let out a small noise, his eyes widening.

This shouldn’t be happening. This was wrong. Jake lied to him. Jake hurt him.

And yet, Drew couldn’t bring himself to push him away.

He… didn't realize how long he'd been craving this… How desperately he yearned for this…

The tears slipped from Drew's eyes as he kissed him back, his arms wrapping around the blonde’s waist as he pressed himself closer.

This was wrong, this was all wrong…

But it felt so good… he never wanted it to stop.

Everything just felt so… warm. His body felt weak, his head was light.

But eventually, Jake broke away, leaving Drew stumbling forward and leaning against the blonde’s chest. His lips were parted slightly, his breaths coming out short and quick.

He blinked, and without thinking, he spoke.

“Can… we do that again..?” Drew voice was barely above a whisper, he could barely hear it over the sound of his own heartbeat.

“Please...”

Jake smirked, his hands resting on Drew’s shoulders as he leaned closer, his lips brushing against Drew’s ear. Drew held his breath.

“See? You still need me…” Drew swallowed, blinking tears from his eyes. He… he was right…

“But I don’t need you anymore…”

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Drew’s eyes flew open, letting out a small gasp as his gaze met his bedroom ceiling.

It was just a dream…

Drew slowly sat up, staring down at his hands.

…What kind of dream was that?

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His gradual emotional decline throughout the series hasn’t left my brain since the release of Episode 11.

💚Zoey + Maria Canon: Zoey is a total bitch who treats her friends poorly. Maria mildly tolerates her.

🩷Zoey + Maria TO ME: Bickering is their love language. Maria's the only girl Zoey doesn't view as incompetent or annoying or beneath her. They're best friends. Maria's absolutely smitten for Zoey. And Zoey would be the same if Maria wasn't a girl. Zoey's never once considered them as anything more than best friends. Maria thinks about Zoey constantly. The two snuck a few drinks one time during a sleepover, kissed, and refused to unpack it the next day.

🩷ANYWAYS ZOEY/MARIA HEADCANONS!💚

💚Zoey spends about half an hour on just her makeup every morning, and consistently touches it up throughout the day.

🩷Maria hates when people call her emo.

💚Zoey often helps Maria with her makeup.

🩷Maria meanwhile loves straightening and styling Zoey’s hair. (And Maria’s own hair is definitely suffering from burn damage from how much she straightens it.)

💚Zoey is always inviting Maria over for sleepovers.

🩷Maria and Zoey share clothes all the time as well.

💚Zoey’s incredibly two-faced. She acts sweet with everyone, but has a habit of back-talking almost everyone she encounters.

🩷Maria, meanwhile, is much more laid-back. She won’t say anything herself, but she has no problem listening to Zoey complain about everyone.

💚Zoey knows almost everyone in the school, and keeps note of everyone’s gossip.

🩷Maria’s gotten very good at listening to Zoey ramble on and on about all of her problems. She doesn’t talk about much of her own, though.

💚Pretty much the only people Zoey genuinely tolerates is Maria and Lia. Everyone else she finds mildly annoying at best.

🩷Maria was very jealous of how close Lia and Zoey got. (In a perfectly normal and hetero way of course.)

💚Both Zoey and Maria are known for always having a stash of gum on them. (Zoey prefers mint gum, Maria likes bubble gum.)

🩷Maria almost always has iced coffee in the mornings.

💚Zoey’s always stealing Maria’s food and drinks.

🩷Maria and Zoey go shopping together and helps her plan outfits.

💚Zoey definitely tried out for the cheer team at one point, failed to make it in and cried.

🩷Maria has been Zoey’s shoulder to cry on countless times.

💚The two can argue for hours about their ships in shows. (And Zoey won’t shut up until Maria admits she’s correct.)

🩷Maria’s always finding new shows for the two to watch.

💚Zoey showers Maria with compliments. (And may or may not have platonically kissed Maria’s cheek several times.)

🩷Maria has a very good poker face. (For no reason in particular.)

💚Extremely fruity with Maria, but means absolutely nothing by it.

🩷And Maria is absolutely down BAD for Zoey. (And was SUPER jealous of Drew lol.)

(I know these two will never be canon but please just hear me out they’d be so cute I love them I love me some sapphic relationships.)

Hello I need to talk about these stinkers again.

Specifically, I need to talk about the fact that they are BULLIES. Because I feel like a lot of people (including myself) fall into the trap of ONLY focusing on either their dynamic with each other, or their dynamic with others in a world where everyone’s friends. Nothing’s wrong with that, I love focusing on those aspects as much as the next, but I also feel like the fact these 4 are bullies gets kinda glossed over, and it’s something I want to talk about. Because they’re stinky little shits. Who do stinky little things.

(FYI I do not condone these boys’ actions, but I will analyze the hell out of them because character studies are my favorite thing.)

Anyways with that out of the way I am now going to break down how they bully others, and why they bully others.

First, these losers. Their actions can be summarized in a single sentence: They act like Freshmen.

Anyone who’s gone to a public high school can hopefully understand what I mean. Freshmen boys tend to be the one’s who cause the most trouble. The ones who mess with people purely for shits and giggles. And despite Liam and Henry being Juniors, they’re so Freshmen coded it’s not even funny.

I feel these two lack the self-awareness to truly understand how their actions affect other people, so they’re constantly finding new ways to mess with people and get on their nerves. They don’t care if someone gets upset or uncomfortable. They don’t care about invading people’s privacy. They don’t care how their words affect others. Because it’s not hurting them. And as long as it’s not hurting them, it’s funny.

Drawing from my own experiences with Freshmen, I feel these two would follow behind strangers uncomfortably close. They’re the type to go up to random people and say ‘Hey, rate my friend.’ Or ‘Hey, my friend thinks you’re cute.’ But do not mean it in the slightest. They’re the type to throw random snack bags at kids purely for how they dress or act. Because they think it’s funny. And they don’t care what other’s think.

Now for Jake, the victim of bullying himself. Hot take: He’d be the WORST out of the four.

Because Jake knows what hurts the most. He knows how to cut deep, because other’s have cut him deep. He draws from his experience. He says stuff that he remembers other’s saying to him. And he’s does this all for the sake of his friends approval.

Because these are his first real friends. And without them, he’d go back to being a pathetic loner no one else wanted. He’s so desperate for the approval of his new friends he’s willing to abandon his own morals for them. But I do believe he has a limit. He’d never actively invade someone’s privacy. (Considering how he prevented Liam from doing so in the Comic Episode.) And I also cannot see him harming someone in any form. But other than that, Jake’s arguably the scariest out of the four.

I feel like this aspect combined with his charming playboy persona kinda gives him this ‘illusive bad boy’ reputation, even if that’s not who he truly is. So he’s essentially trapped parading around as someone he’s not.

Finally, Drew. Infamous for his ability to turn the word ‘freak’ into a slur.

I don’t view Drew as the meanest of the bunch, nor do I view him as some intimidating final boss either. To me, he’s more of a ringleader. Someone who controls the others, while doing very little himself.

He’s typically the one to instigate, then sit back and laugh as he watches the others do the rest. He’s eggs the others on occasionally, but ultimately, he’s more like an amused bystander. Consider the way he sat back and watched as Liam and Henry messed around in the clubroom in Episode 8, and consider the way he essentially did nothing but laugh as he watched Henry and Liam throw Hailey’s book around in the Comic Episode. Both times, he set the target on Hailey, only to sit back and watch as Henry and Liam did the rest.

However, Drew can absolutely be ruthless when he wants to, at least verbally. Because I believe what Zander said in Episode 2 holds a lot of truth to it: “They’re a walking reflection of their insecurities.”

I’ve already made several posts about Drew’s family issues, his codependency, and his overall lack of self-worth and loneliness, so I won’t be repeating them but my goodness is this boy an insecure mess.

He calls Hailey a control freak, yet is constantly shown trying to control Jake by pushing him away from the club. He tells Hailey to ‘get lost and know where she’s not wanted’ likely because he struggles feeling unwanted. He calls Hailey’s whole music concert worthless without Jake, because he feels worthless without Jake.

Drew and Jake are actually rather similar if you really think about it. Both are implied to have low self-esteem and abandonment issues, and both mask it by pretending to be more confident. But how they deal with their issues is where they begin differ, and this further reflects in their reasons for picking on others.

Jake is always changing himself for others, because he doesn’t know if he’ll truly be accepted for being himself. And the only reason he bullies others is because he feels he has to. Drew, meanwhile, finds ways to make himself seem like the best option. He’s constantly buying his friends expensive gifts, and talks down others to make himself look better by comparison. He does nothing to change himself, unlike Jake.

TLDR: Henry and Liam are Freshmen, Jake’s scary and I clearly cannot talk about Drew without spreading my Druffering propaganda. Have a good day. :3

Anyways Jomies shit-posts I made in 10 minutes featuring my ✨traditional art✨ wowwwww