To My Nonexistent Audience Here, Recently Ive Been Doing Fine. I Thought This Weekend Away Wasnt The

To my nonexistent audience here, recently I’ve been doing fine. I thought this weekend away wasn’t the best idea considering how bad I am with socializing among their kind. Drank good and took care of my man.

No matter what color or tone is it, I would always help you if you wanna throw up - S

Maybe a great way to finish this horrible break, but I just can’t find a way to see how good some things are. I’ve thought about the easy way to finish it all, a lot.

Food was good and the charcuterie board was perfect, water was cold and my nose crying as I was too. -S

Thinking about ending my life , but I can’t leave my cat alone

A day before my birthday and it was so special, but sadly couldn’t stop the tradition and cried all night long . Beer was so strong omg and that water looked so delicious I wanted to OceanGate myself in there. A fight in the middle of downtown…chef kiss.

I’m so happy I drank all night long having the best life -S

I think I was meant to feel like this trip was in my control , like if I had any idea of what I was doing but I just get so disassociated from everything. Nothing felt in my control other than my mind and that’s the last place I’d rather be . I hate being the subject of a fantasy I’m not aware of , I hate when people expect me to feel or react a certain way . I hate when I don’t feel the way I expect to feel. It’s just all wrong , and the worst thing is…even going to that beautiful country I still feel terrible and I doubt it changed my life . It was just a reminder , everything is just a reminder

Everything is a reminder , you’re a disappointment, you’re an embarrassment, you’re a watcher , you’re an angel - Sadly still Sænger

I was recently in Europe…and by that I mean I went to Europe last December. And I wish I could say that in a better and less confusing sense but now I feel different, like if it didn’t matter at all . I know it’s supposed to feel like it was the greatest trip of my life but I just didn’t allow myself to feel so. I know I’m wrong but at least I met new places I guess. I don’t think I’m returning anytime soon

Feels nice to post again. I’ve officially moved on from social media (this place doesn’t feel like it anymore) and getting a low profile life now - officially Sænger