When I Tell You Im Obsessed With This Man

when i tell you im obsessed with this man…

(Star Wars: From a Certain Point of View: Return of the Jedi: "From a Certain Point of View")

"You left me! Don't leave me! You left me! Don't leave me. I'll kill you. I'll kill you. I'll kill you. I'll--!" Yes, yes, AND YES. This is Obi-Wan's perspective on that moment when he's thrown into the netherworld of the Force after his death, revisiting the moment that Vader killed him, hearing and feeling Anakin's thoughts--I hate you, how dare you still believe in me, you don't know what I've done, I hate you, you left me, don't leave me, I hate you, I love you, I'll kill you, don't leave me, I'll kill you, I'll kill you, I'll kill you, I'll--! This is what makes Anakin Skywalker such a tragic character, this is what makes his relationship with Obi-Wan hurt so much, why it's so perfectly tied in with the OWK series, where he's obsessed with Obi-Wan because he loved Obi-Wan and now he hates him and loves him and can't accept Obi-Wan's forgiveness or love, because he can't forgive himself, but he can't stand to be alone, that's always been Anakin's core fear--he can't stand being alone. But he can't tolerate having people love him anymore, either, so he can only reroute everything into hating Obi-Wan obsessively, because as long as he's hatefully obsessed with Obi-Wan--and trying to make Obi-Wan hate him back--if you really loved me, Obi-Wan, you would hate me like I hate you, because I really loved you and now I hate you--so that Obi-Wan will be tied to him forever, so Obi-Wan won't leave him. He can't accept Obi-Wan being with him out of love, because he doesn't believe that it could be true, not after what he's done, so the only way he can make Obi-Wan stay with him is by trying to force Obi-Wan to hate him back, but Obi-Wan won't hate him back, Obi-Wan won't stay in the dark here with him, so Anakin hates him, hates him for leaving again, for not being here in the pain and misery and suffering of the dark side with him, so he'll kill Obi-Wan, he'll kill him, kill him, kill him, even if it means: FROM A CERTAIN POINT OF VIEW:  THERE IS ANOTHER by Gary D. SchmidtAnd it was right at that moment–at that exact moment–that Yoda felt Obi-Wan grow suddenly stronger, and stronger, and stronger, and then move in a quick burst into the netherworld of the Force.  And Yoda felt Anakin fall even more deeply into painful loneliness.  A loneliness so terrible that Yoda almost felt pity for him.

i’m not crying, you are

not sure if i love it or hate it, but i tried

Dating Anakin Skywalker would include;

Warnings: jealousy, descriptions of smut, smut, fluff, angst, kinks, swearing, more badly written headcanons

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➪First things first; this man is jealous 99% of the time, let’s be real here.

➪Your relationship is forbidden, so Anakin isn’t able to show you off in all the ways he wants to.

➪All he’s allowed to do is train with you and sometimes is able to get away with pulling your back against his chest as he guides your saber down in a quick slash, but that is really it.

➪It’s nowhere near enough for him, but he puts up with it since he still gets to end most of his days with you in your secret shared room.

➪With that being said, even though he is a very jealous person, he is also very sweet.

➪When he wants to be.

➪But only with you.

➪You are the only person who gets to see his soft side.

➪You train together often since it’s really the only time you get to interact outside of your room, and he shamelessly admitted once that seeing you like that turns him on a lot.

➪Since you are a Jedi yourself, you and Anakin get to go on missions together and protect one another since you don’t really trust anyone else to do it.

➪It also allows for you to be around each other 24/7 without any suspicion being drawn to you.

➪And it usually allows Anakin to be all over you in the privacy of his ship/and or a separate room from the one at the temple.

➪Now....everyone says that he is a massive sub..not me.

➪I don’t buy it.

➪While he’s not a full blown dom (at least not until he turns to the dark side and then later becomes Vader), he’s also not a whiney sub who is just there for you to use.

➪He, of course, cares more about your pleasure than his own, but he also doesn’t act like he’s only a fucktoy for you.

➪Let’s be real, he is a lover, and therefore makes love to you in all the ways that leave you flustered and red in the face.

➪Now, that’s not to say he doesn’t have his full on dom moments.

➪When he gets super jealous, he’ll take you by the hand - and usually doesn’t care who sees, which is something he has to spend time later explaining - and take you back to his room to have his way with you.

➪He’ll say things like, “What were you doing with him, baby? Hm?” or “You think he can make you feel as good as I can? Does he really think that you’d let him?” while he’s railing you into an early grave.

➪With one hand gripping the headboard and the other covering your mouth so you’re not overheard, he is just completely letting out his jealousy and frustration of not being able to show you off like he wants to.

➪That being said, he’s not very quiet himself.

➪He usually has a swollen bottom lip by the time you’re both spent since he had to bite down on it hard to keep himself at least somewhat quiet.

➪His kinks are simple; marking, hair pulling and, you guessed it, choking.

➪He’s very careful with the way marks you, scattering love bites along your shoulders that are always covered by your robes, or on your inner thighs.

➪You’ve been with him for a long time, and saw the departure of his beloved braid, and when he decided to grow out his hair...oh boy.

➪His head had never been more sore.

➪You pull on it every time he takes you to bed, tugging the curls between your fingers with each thrust of his hips.

➪The headache he’d have afterwards was so worth it since he had been a bit nervous that you’d hate the new way he had begun styling his hair, and he was happy he couldn’t have been more wrong.

➪Choking....that should explain itself.

➪But the man loves wrapping his metal fingers gently around your throat, not nearly with enough pressure to block your airways but enough for you to feel it.

➪When he began to turn to the dark side, he definitely applied a bit more pressure, but still not enough to hurt you.

➪After all, you are the reason he lives and breathes, and he would never dream of causing you any type of harm.

➪His names for you are; sweet girl, angel, star and the occasional baby - but he usually saves that one for the bedroom.

➪You two eventually get married in the most lowkey wedding in the history of lowkey weddings, and exchange lightsabers as a way of showing your love.

➪Afterwards he took you away from Coruscant on a special mission - which was really just a fancy name for your honeymoon.

➪While it didn’t last long, Anakin did manage to get you pregnant, and that came with many problems.

➪Hiding it was a challenge, and hiding your son after giving birth was even harder, but you managed to do it for a while until you were able to get your own place in the city, where you and Anakin were able to raise him in peace and privacy.

➪Pick an AU; Anakin never turns to the dark side and gets to experience what it’s like to be a dad, or he does and you give up your son in order to protect him (and to keep him safe from his Sith father).

➪Either way, his love for you never falters and lives on through the memories you share together, whether or not he remains the loyal Jedi he was always meant to be.