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“i have so much love for her. and she doesn’t want it. and i can’t have it because it’s not mine, and I can’t give it to anyone or anything else because it’s not theirs. it’s hers, all hers and there’s no where else to put it. it’s so fucking heavy, and i have nowhere to put it.”
– allsska via x
{Words by José Olivarez from Citizen Illegal /@fatimaamerbilal , from even flesh eaters don't want me.}
in another universe, I stop dreaming of the closure I’m never going to get
Of lost chances, forbidden love and remorse.
It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Films in frame: Past lives, La la land, Fleabag, Normal People, In the mood for love, Atonement, Potrait of a lady on fire, Maurice, Blue Valentine, Her
Charles Lindbergh // Kirsten Corley
“It could’ve been worse.” It could’ve been BETTER. It could’e been EASIER. It could’ve been lovely. It could’ve been beautiful, it could’ve been fun. It could have been simple, it could’ve made you HAPPY.
You can drown in two feet of water just as simply as you can in an ocean. Stop downplaying what happened and neglecting your feelings. Kill that idea with fire. Or at least acknowledge that what happened was bad without immediately trying to justify or dismiss it.
Anaïs Nin, Delta of Venus, originally published: 1977
And what’s the point of being seen if it isn’t honest? What’s the point of being loved if your sadness and darkness can’t be apart of that love to? No those things don’t define you, but they stay and go at a home inside you. The act you put on is lovely but the way you are right before bed, in the midst of a heart break, in the car after work exhausted, after a fight with your mom, the you in those moments is lovable too yknow? You don’t have to hide them. To be known is to be loved.
tbh the more time you spend around open, wild bodies of water like rivers, lakes and seas the more you begin to understand why pretty much every culture in the world has a similar eerie, hypnotically beautiful yet terrifying temptress figure who lures people into the depths to drown them and/or eat them in its folklore representing the seductive call of the water. it really is just like that.
"you need to let it go" that would be really cool, unfortunately I'll take it with me to the grave
The Working Girl, Daniel Varoujan (translated by Alice Stone Blackwell)
grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.
Trying to remember the last time I played hide and seek. The last time I said hi to everyone on the street or saw the girls I spent every day of six years with. The last time my dad picked me up, or my mum brushed my hair. When was the last time I dressed without consideration? There is so much to think about now. I remember falling on the grass at school and making stories with the clouds. Hanging upside down from the swing and realising how big the world was. I wonder on the path of growing when we stop feeling big. I am taller now, smaller still.
Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vita Sackville-West dated 20 March 1928
-on alternate timelines and universes
everything everywhere all at once/ @inanotherunivrse/ complex- katie gregson-macleod/ @tiredbtw/ @loviely/ eternal sunshine of the spotless mind/ @death-born-aphrodite
You are young. You can dream. And for some time you let me into your dreams. And I want to thank you for that.
THE LUNCHBOX
Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again
Dexter and Emma + height difference ONE DAY (2024)
FLEABAG | S02E06 (2019) SUCCESSION | S04E10 (2023) A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN | S01E05 (2022) LADY BIRD (2017) ONE DAY (2011)