I Have This Thing For Taking Late-night Walks Around Campus (usually On Weekends). I Can't Rest With

I have this thing for taking late-night walks around campus (usually on weekends). I can't rest with a bunch of energy coursing through me, so going out for a walk helps me calm down and get to sleep. I've done this so much now that I know almost every inch of the campus.

I even did this back in my high school (which was a boarding school for gifties). Unfortunately my walk was limited to within the dorm, so I didn't have much to do except wander empty hallways hoping I didn't wake anyone.

Even so, I do it partly out of restlessness and partly for some reason I haven't quite figured out. I wouldn't keep going back out if I knew the lay of the land already... but it's like I'm searching for something.

Although I have no clue what I'm looking for.

What else is there to search for if I know what's out there? To find other people? They're all asleep. To make absolutely sure I know the area? I can draw a detailed map, no problem. Is it just pure curiosity? ...that's the only thing I can come up with.

So I keep going out there, trying to find the answer to an unknown question. I'm not insane, I promise

How do you take an already great song and make it better? Like this.

From the NiGHTS: Lucid Dreaming album.

Some days I forget that people are watching the things that I do.

Maybe I should start paying attention, because sometimes people are benefiting from it a lot more than I ever thought.

Is 2014 here yet?

I have mixed feelings about this past year.

There have been a lot of good things that happened over the year. I greatly appreciate those, and will look back on them with fondness as I go throughout my life. But I can't quite say that about the year in sum, as there have been so many bad things that happened; maybe they don't outweigh the scope of the good things, but they definitely outweigh the number of them. Even the good things have had strings attached...

Whatever the case, 2013 has been a long, stressful rollercoaster for me, and has well overstayed its welcome. At first I enjoyed the length that each day seemed to drag on for, as it meant I was getting more time out of each moment. I'm not feeling that way anymore... Everything is soooooo sloooooooowwww. I can't deal with the waiting game and the "wow it feels like ten but it's only six" anymore. Can't I have a normal day? Not incredibly short, not incredibly long, just a day where an hour actually feels like an hour. What makes all this worse is that most of the people I talk to say that the year flew by for them (except my dad, who's been having the same problem).

So I'm done with 2013. I'll treasure my few memories of the year like I would any other memory, but it can go away now.

2014 seems like it will be a good year. I can't really pinpoint anything to look forward to, but I have high hopes for some inexplicable reason. I've felt this way since the decade started. Let me don my psychic abilities for a second: something is going to happen that will rock my world (in a good way), and numerous other nice things will happen, but at the cost of one thing that I'll forever look back on with dissatisfaction.

Maybe that'll happen? I dunno. But I really want to figure out. And 2013 isn't going to go out politely, I bet.

People tell me a lot that I'm an intelligent person. I don't feel intelligent at all. So if I really am intelligent compared to others... then humankind is screwed.

Me, to my Economics teacher, after getting an 82 on the test

Modern tunes in an old-school style? Or is it the other way around? I'll take it either way.

From EDGE - Sweet Music from the Game.