Right Person Wrong Time? Maybe That's We Are.

Right person wrong time? Maybe that's we are.

Story time! The gathering. part 1

Hello girls, I'm here with the update! It is always difficult to write at these times because there is so much going on at these gatherings.

Let me start by saying that I arrived at the party 1 hour late. (I met a friend before that) At first I was sad, but then I didn't mind, because when I arrived the atmosphere was already great, everyone was in a good mood and people were drinking and laughing loudly. (there were a lot of us again) Of course, I didn't take off my coat, I was already looking where R could be. Obviously, I couldn't find him standing at the door, so I quickly started to take off my coat and in the meantime I adjusted my hair in the mirror to be perfect. After that comes the main point and why I didn't regret being late. "You're late dear" - said the voice that made my heart beat faster. R was leaning against the wall with a glass of champagne in his hand, watching me straighten my hair (very awkward situation) Girls, I can't even tell you how attractive he was, he was wearing a black short-sleeved shirt and black linen pants. (I almost tore it off) his hair was slicked back and a few strands hung forward. 😳

So, after that, I greeted him and quickly went through the people and of course, I caught dad in the living room with a big hug. <3 Then, before I even got to the kitchen, a couple of my father's friends caught me and made me drink two half-glass of vodka. bruh😭😭 Well, here comes the point, when I got to the kitchen, R was also standing there talking to a couple of men, and even though I decided not to be shy, somehow I still couldn't start a conversation, so I just poured myself a champagne... In the meantime, dad asked me to make the fruit salad if I was already late (oops) and UHH R came next to me and asked if he would help me cut them up. Of course, I immediately said yes, so we made the fruit salad together!! This part was so good because we talked a lot and it was a great feeling to make a salad together.

I knew from that that he had been drinking more, that he teases me a lot more and skins my face all the time. Even now, when I was about to put the apples in the bowl, he poked my side, causing half of them to fall to the ground, and then he even laughed. He seriously embarrassed me so much with that. But of course I didn't give up and threw a piece of blueberry in his face and we started fighting like five-year-olds. lol But then I stopped when one of the cold blueberries fell under my top and while I was grumpily trying to fish it out, R just grinned and then came closer to me and said.. (girls, don't die) "Can I help you take it out?" ???????!!!!!!!! EXCUSE ME It was a flirt that I couldn't handle, I was so embarrassed and I think he knew what he was doing because he just laughed and said he was just joking. 😭😭 Sir I'm going to die because of you!

So far it's very cute and I'm started to feel really good, but frankly there's always someone who spoils it all. A woman stole R's attention and they started talking, so I finished the fruit salad alone. :(((

But in the meantime I was also talking to people and R had his back to me, we were behind each other's backs the whole time and that's how I heard what they were talking about. In retrospect, maybe I didn't want to hear it... Because it was burned into my memory that R was asked about a woman, what was going on with her/them. ??? HUH? WHAT You can imagine that I was eating a fruit salad, but my fork stuck in my mouth when I heard this. I kind of guessed that R wasn't waiting for me and was goo and dating other women, but it was still very painful to face it.🤧 *crying* I rather filled another glass of champagne and maybe I shouldn't have done that because I could still feel the alcohol a little. (but idc)

I'll continue in another post soon because it would be very long. SORRY AHH Until then, process the events girls, because I haven't succeeded since then. lol 😫😫😫

I'm a loyal slut to him.

my ex texted me but I told him I don't play with little boys anymore. I mean excuse me but I have already committed to my teacher.

It's a small thing, but I have to write it down.

R was talking to a couple of teachers and students when I approached him, but I saw that they could be talking about something important, so I didn't want to disturb him. But while he was listening to his colleague, he grabbed the back of my neck and rested his hand on it the whole time they were talking, so I couldn't leave. (I didn't even want to leave)😭 Maybe it was nothing to him, but I could barely breathe when his warm hand was on the back of my neck and sometimes he even caressed it.😵 I felt like a puppy but i dont mind if he wants I bark for him. lol

This week has been a little weird, which is why I haven't been posting my nonsense to you girls. (sorry)

Things happened at the gathering that created an inexplicable closeness between the two of us. I thought that maybe our relationship reached a level and maybe he will get closer to me after that. But then this week came. I felt a distance between the two of us, we greeted each other in the corridor, but I missed the special attention that I always received from him. He was more distant and reserved all week and I was very sad about it. Did I screw something up?? Why does he always back away when we get closer emotionally?? What should I do?

We've been watching each other from a distance all week, and he's kept eye contact with me several times, but I can't tell what's on his mind. I saw both sadness and frustration in his beautiful eyes. However, in messages, (as you saw I posted), he sometimes flirted with me a little and there I feel a little closer, but now it's so strange there too, I don't know what's going on between the two of us.

But I miss him a lot and this week was suffering that he didn't care about me so much. I would like to write to him that I miss him. But I don't know what we are to each other anymore.