Just Came Back From Vacation And I Absolutely Loved It

just came back from vacation and I absolutely loved it

every summer night without fail is like . i should be in love right now but instead this loneliness envelopes me like a second skin

I’m so indecisive.

i want to get a master's degree i want to take a cake decorating class i want to dance i want to sing i want to write and remember how to think i want to swim i want to be free

god what is it about summer nights making you feel like the loneliest person in the world

lived my whole life in guilt bc i thought i was responsible for people's feelings. newly realizing that other people are responsible for their feelings and reactions, even if they make it seem like i'm the problem. a lot of the time it really has to do w them and their own emotional regulation. i can't keep thinking i'm not allowed to have space bc of other people's insecurities. like i literally refuse to dim myself. other people are responsible for their feelings just as i'm responsible for mine.