You Have To Understand; Complaining Wont Get You Anywhere But To Misery. THE PROBLEM HAS A SOLUTION,

you have to understand; complaining won’t get you anywhere but to misery. THE PROBLEM HAS A SOLUTION, and you have the power to connect to that solution. make that happen! go, tiger.

i believe in you

The history of corporate propaganda.

'Nobody wants to work' fails to mention the poverty wages and horrible workplaces.

Reframe the narrative: Capitalists refuse to pay thriving wages.

"So what did you sacrifice for yours?"

My nail technician asked me with a smile.

Traditional witches — those who inherited it — can recognize each other at first glance.

And I could tell she was from Samar, one of the most notoriously supernatural places in the Philippines. 

You see, while witchcraft in the Western world in 2022 is all about cute tarot cards and cheap crystals on Amazon, witchcraft in the purest parts of the Philippines is still the way it always has been. Pain and retribution. Magical healing and definite fortunetelling.

Some say it’s bullshit. But if you haven’t gone there yourself and truly witnessed it, you have no right to speak.

And those of you who aren’t just pretending will know this: A witch’s powers come at a price. You have to sacrifice something in order to secure it.

“You first,” I told her.

“My beauty,” Bertha said. That’s what we’ll call her.

“Nah, you still have it.” She does.

“Then why do you think I’m a manicurist?” she asked. “I could’ve been Miss Universe. You have no idea.”

“How was your initiation like?” I asked her.

She said it was her grandfather who had it. He surrounded his house with wax apple and mango trees. Whenever his neighbors would ask for permission to take some fruits, he would always gladly give it. But one time, a bunch of travelers passed by and didn’t think to ask first. One died on the spot, the other’s mouth rotted for days before he too died, and the third was left alive as a warning to others.

“Was it your grandpa’s pet entities living in the trees, or…?” I clarified.

“Orisons planted with the trees. The strongest kind of witchcraft.”

“Yes. When you can hurt, heal and help with just words and nothing more, you’re among the most powerful,” I added.

When her grandpa was in his late 90s, and his shoulders were almost touching his knees, he still wouldn’t die. Because it — his power — wouldn’t let him. Not until he’s passed it on. But his son, Bertha’s dad, was a devout Catholic and wanted nothing to do with this “evil”. His daughter, Bertha’s aunt, failed the inheritance ritual when she ran away screaming from a snake in the forest.

Bertha, then still really just a girl, had always been in awe of how everyone feared her grandfather. Unwealthy though they were, no one ever did them harm. They were afraid to. People had more respect for them than they did for the Mayor, the Chief of Police and the old-money families in their province. So she asked her grandpa to pass it on to her.

In the dead of night, Bertha’s grandpa took her to the forest, which was only nearby. When they came to a gigantic tree, he spoke a foreign incantation, and a cave opened underneath it.

“Always look straight ahead. No matter what you hear, never turn even the slightest,” his grandpa instructed. “And follow my exact footsteps, even if there seems to be a hole where I stepped.”

And so she did. Even when an enormous snake slithered to where her grandfather stood just a moment before, she stepped on it. Not fearlessly, but bravely.

“It was very anticlimactic,” she told me. “There was no fearsome fairy waiting at the end of the path. Nor a well of shining diamonds, or a gathering of my ancestors’ ghosts. There was just darkness and quiet. The purest kind of both.”

Her grandfather started speaking. “She has no child to give up. She is only a child herself. She has no wealth to sacrifice. We neither have nor desire it. She has no talent to offer. She can neither sing nor recite poetry. But by gods, is she beautiful.”

“Bertha, are you willing to give it up?” he asked.

“Yes,” she answered.

Bertha started screaming. As if boiling water was devouring her skin. Her chest felt like it was on fire. She was being burned alive. She fainted.

Her grandfather told her the sacrifice lasted about 10 seconds. She said it felt like it took years. Her body remains scarred to this day.

“Why is it worth it?” I asked. A loaded question. Of course it’s worth it.

“Some people train their whole lives to be able to defend themselves. Others spend millions of money on a cure for their illnesses. I only have to utter a word, and all harm sent towards me will ricochet. I may get COVID, but I will never die, unless I’m ready.”

“Awesome,” I said.

“Your turn,” she reminded me.

“Would you rather have my answer, or that?” I asked, pointing to the iconic green box of Patchi beside my Palm Springs Mini.

She laughed. “I’ll have the chocolate. You keep your secrets.”

so accurate 💕

i chose alexa

𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐈𝐕𝐀   ઉ   intuitive reading.

hello my lovelies! today's intuitive reading will serve as a bit of a confidence boost, as well as some advice + encouragement for you to embrace your inner diva as i like to call it, which is a more empowered version of yourself and your most feminine traits, but it applies to all genders! if you enjoyed this reading, please consider tipping me via paypal @ [email protected]!

♡ ♡ ♡     pick a card masterlist & information.

how to choose your pile.  take deep breaths for a few minutes & look at each one of the piles separately. which one sparks a feeling inside you? which pile gives you a strong memory or calls out to you the most? take your time and feel free to come back to it later.

the piles.

1 → 2 3 → 4

disclaimer. this reading is for entertainment purposes only. it is not a substitute for medical and professional advice, nor is it meant to be taken as such. i do not take responsibility for any choice(s) made by you or others regarding my readings. please remember you are responsible for life and in power of it, no one else! ♡

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pile one. jisoo & jennie.

♡ ♡ ♡ who is your inner diva? Your inner diva is someone who’s very sassy - sometimes even a bit rude to the people who disrespect you. Honestly, it’s a bit cliché even, it even reminds me of RuPaul’s drag race, because it’s someone who doesn’t hold their truth back and doesn’t accept any unsolicited opinions from their peers. I sense a tongue-in-cheek behavior, someone who always has a clapback ready for any occasion. Your inner diva is protective of the people around you, especially yourself and the old versions of you. Someone who’s very in touch with their more masculine traits & has extremely high standards for their relationships, especially friendships. This inner diva is someone your child self would look up to because there is a very unapologetic side to it. It’s a very self-controlled version of you, someone whose anger is channeled into a healthy manner and isn’t used to hurt yourself or manipulate others, although the temptation is there. At this moment, you may be intimidated to embrace this inner diva side of yours - I sensed some fear as I typed, because this inner diva is not afraid of their shadow side at all. It can be an off-putting presence and come off as arrogant, but that is only the surface. This inner diva is very balanced in terms of being both feminine and masculine traits - unafraid to embrace all sides of themselves. Putting it in more concrete terms, it’s someone who does no harm and takes no bullshit either. 

♡ ♡ ♡ how can you embrace it better? Currently, you could be stuck in people-pleasing, which is understandable. There might be many childhood traumas holding you back (especially bullying, for this pile) and a lot of issues with rejection. Your family or past friends could’ve been judgemental and pushed you into a box that wasn’t quite what you wanted. I also see many questions and fears regarding your sexuality or gender identity - many of you might belong to the LGBTQIA+ community and have not come out to yourselves entirely. I think there are deeply rooted insecurities when it comes to relationships & how you’ll be perceived, so the first suggestion is to turn inwards. You may have been too focused on the outward effects or expression of your confidence - such as seeming confident, faking it or hoping people will see you as confident even when you’re not. While that may work for some, your spirit guides are heavily encouraging you to look inside with gentle curiosity. Your shadow side is not there to harm you - your insecurities, the resentment and anger you harbor against who’s hurt you and the things you perceive as “negative” are in dire need of your care and your love. It’s like you’re wearing sunglasses to prevent the world from harming you, when in reality what you need is to take them off and look into the mirror - as lovingly as you can. It may seem counterproductive to embrace your hurt and pain, like it’ll swallow you whole, but the more we understand our triggers and our “unacceptable” aspects, the more we can work with them. For this pile, it may feel as if you’re as further away from your inner diva as you could be, but transforming is always a lifelong process. You don’t have to fake these traits or become them overnight. There’ll be mistakes along the way - I think you’re afraid that this confident version of you will disappoint or harm the people around you, but you’ve been trapped in fear for so long that even when you’ve outgrown this “perfect good child” box, you’re afraid of getting out of it. Frankly - you might not even know if you want or can get out of it, because exploring your identity might be the most terrifying thing your brain can register. And I think you must remember there is joy in setting yourself free, even in the smallest ways possible, such as finding out your favorite songs, your favorite color, the way you like your coffee or tea, so on and so forth.

♡ ♡ ♡ steps you can take. journaling about your feelings, creating a pinterest board for inspiration, manifesting through visualization (if you are into it!), exploring your triggers & boundaries, taking counseling or starting therapy, curating a playlist that is entirely yours, writing a letter to your past self and/or the people who’ve hurt you, expressing your anger through writing, exercising or singing, exploring your fashion style and what you want to wear, picturing your future through vision boards or script writing.

♡ ♡ ♡ your inner diva theme song. for this pile, i got two songs: nunu nana by jessi & you can't sit with us by sunmi.

pile two. zendaya.

♡ ♡ ♡ who is your inner diva? Someone who knows their worth, essentially. There’s a much admired quiet confidence from your inner diva, a mysterious aura which leaves people hanging a little bit. A sense of power, something mystical and even ethereal about your inner diva. It’s someone who doesn’t necessarily intend to take the spotlight because they know they don’t need to. Your inner diva has a strong sense of self and is very emotionally independent, which is not to say it’s a lonely thing. Your inner diva simply knows when to walk away and work from a rational place in order to make decisions, but it’s a part of you that never shuns your emotions. If anything, your inner diva is someone who honors their intuition and emotions so much that it is able to work with these messy feelings in a practical way. Your inner diva is someone highly accomplished and admired in their field - a very Venusian energy (Taurus & Libra), someone who walks with poise and grace. There’s a quote by Shakespeare which demonstrates this energy, which says “look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent underneath.” It’s a very complex and dual inner diva, someone who’s extremely polite but has firm boundaries as well. Emotionally balanced and competent with their own goals. Someone who’s very self-aware and accepting of their flaws, does not make any sort of excuses for them, is both humble and confident because they know they’re just as important as every other being in this world.

♡ ♡ ♡ how can you embrace it better? By working on your self-worth, especially by discarding what other people have told you or made you feel. There is a lot of restlessness hidden inside fo you - a feeling of “what if?” that may constantly haunt you. You could be stuck trying to choose between a career or a major, maybe wondering if you’re intellectually capable of pursuing it. You have ignored your intuition for so long that the only way out seems to be logic and common sense, but common sense is for common people. I can picture a little kid in my mind’s eye who’s looking at their grades in disappointment and has never felt good enough for their family’s expectations. Kind of like “gifted kid syndrome” which has led you to burnout and indecision. Even loneliness, for some. There’s a huge wall between you and other people because you could fear being seen for your vulnerabilities, your fears and your missteps as well. Even as many people may look up to you, your impostor’s syndrome is debilitating and you may be overcommitting or overworking yourself in order to avoid feeling like a failure. But you’ll never be a failure. Even on your worst days, your anxiety or any other mental health condition do not define you. There’s a lot of shame coming from this pile, like someone’s crying themselves to sleep, but they’re muffling their sobs under their pillow so that no one knows how bad it feels to always strive for so much. Your perfectionism may seem high-functioning, but it is leading you down this place of burnout and dissatisfaction, because you are pointing out to yourself all of the things you’ve done “wrong.” A lot of Virgo and Capricorn energy, someone who’s taken a heavy burden of responsibilities to prove to themselves they’re worthy, when you already are worthy of every ounce of love, respect and joy.

♡ ♡ ♡ steps you can take. writing affirmations or reminders for yourself, finding ways to become more motivated, tapping into your spirituality, redefine your concept of discipline instead of punishing yourself, dressing comfortably and nourishing your body through good sleep, meditating and grounding yourself. 

♡ ♡ ♡ your inner diva theme song. just like magic by ariana grande.

pile three. alexa.

♡ ♡ ♡ who is your inner diva? A siren. Someone who’s highly magnetic - inside and out, very connected to their sensuality, their body and connected to their feelings. Your inner diva is almost goddess-like, a very alluring person who attracts wealth, good fortune and incredible people. I think your inner diva is also someone who cheers people up, gives them advice and has a very wise “big sister” energy. You could literally be an older sibling or some kind of figure that younger people look up to - whether you know it or not. Your inner diva is angelic, there is so much purity and strength in it that you bask in the glory and you are blessed with opportunities. There’s an urgent sense of abundance here, reminding me of The Empress card in tarot. I love the strength, how your inner diva truly operates from the heart and openly embraces this warmth, this softness that should never be mistaken for weakness. It gives me “empowered empath/giver” energy. I’m very careful not to throw the word “empath” around, so let me explain the concept here: after many years of overgiving, your inner diva is the one whose cup is overflowing. A lot of water energy - I saw the ace of cups in my mind’s eye. Your inner diva has immense depth and wisdom, someone who’s so ethereal and dreamlike that they might truly seem out of a novel or a fantasy movie. Your inner diva is creative and uses this nurturing, Empress energy to create anything they might desire, knowing they will never have to chase anything that is not meant for themselves.

♡ ♡ ♡ how can you embrace it better? By allowing your emotions to flow - there is a wounded child inside of you who’s absorbed everyone else’s opinions. You may have been told creativity leads you nowhere, or that it doesn’t make you any money. It’s interesting, because your creativity will lead you exactly where you want to be. I don’t sense any sort of “heavy” energy from you at this moment, but you might want to tap more into your emotional and soft side. You may even have a bit of mom friend energy to others, which is incredibly inspiring, but you must know when to give to yourself. Where or when have you been neglecting yourself and your dreams? When did you restrict yourself to the realms of material reality? Where did your impossible dreams go? Ditch the useless rules - you are the absolute creator here. Maybe a strict or conservative household has led you to believe there is nothing much out there for you, or that love, kindness and warmth are simply wasted concepts, but your softness is incredibly soothing and alluring to most. Even then, this dreamy, magnetic side of yours has never died. I think you might feel suffocated by this world and have the need to escape reality, but you haven’t found any outlets or may be stuck with a creative block at this time. You’re being urged not to judge yourself through other people’s lenses, to tap into that childlike curiosity you once had, that imagination that made everything magical and possible. You must keep alive the flame of optimism, the side of you who knows a better life is possible and indeed out there. Love and hope exist, still. 

♡ ♡ ♡ steps you can take. complimenting yourself in the mirror, cultivating your hobbies and creativity, working on your sacral chakra, repeating certain mantras, connecting to the universe (fairies or magical beings might be significant), getting in touch with your childlike side, engaging with authentic & loving people, setting boundaries, communicating your needs, allowing yourself to wear whatever you want, being as unique as you are, painting or drawing, learning about something new.

♡ ♡ ♡ your inner diva theme song. ring by selena gomez.

pile four. ariana.

♡ ♡ ♡ who is your inner diva? A person who exudes a je ne sais quois kind of energy. Someone who’s detached and nonchalant - not in a non-caring sense, but as someone who protects their energy very heavily. It’s hard to access this energy. Your inner diva is someone who has this precious, Queen kind of energy, someone who treats & spoils themselves not just necessarily in a material way, but in a very loving way. There is so much self-love here, someone who’s so comfortable with the spotlight that they have paid no mind to any haters or destructive comments. I get a bit of an “Ice Queen” energy - the kind of person who does not give access to just anyone who wants to enter their lives. Despite being in the spotlight, your inner diva treats themselves as a “high value person.” I keep hearing “high value woman” as someone who adorns their body with only good things, someone who’s mindful of the quality of their work, their social circle and their words. Selective, which makes people desire this access to you even more, but your inner diva is someone who’s still completely shielded from any sort of evil eye or toxicity from others. It’s someone who calmly has no issues with saying no and honors their ambitions, but keeps their own business quiet so that other people never know what you’d be up to. It reminds me a little bit of Audrey Hepburn mixed with Jennie Kim - both of whom are considered fashionable and it girls. It’s the kind of “it girl” energy that sets trends instead of following them. It gives me a feeling of someone who naturally becomes or embodies the qualities of a leader without ever imposing their thoughts or opinions on others. Someone who leads by example and never allows anyone to take advantage of their resources or their good heart, no matter how misunderstood they may be to others, your inner diva marchs to the beat of their own drum and few people are truly gifted to be in the presence of this exclusive, enchanting energy.

♡ ♡ ♡ how can you embrace it better? By honoring your values, your time and resources, by prioritizing yourself and the people who value you. Not everyone has our best interests at heart and their betrayal will be their own karma. You have nothing to prove to anyone - that’s how you can embrace your inner diva. Know that not everything or everyone deserves a reaction or access to you, remember how precious your existence is. Many of you already embody many of these traits, but you may have a fear of missing out or even the desire to impress others, which never ever mattered at all. You don’t have to try, period. It’s also important to never beg for love or for attention from others - that it should come freely and lovingly or not at all. There may be relationships that are quite unbalanced in your life that need to be reevaluated, especially one or two friendships in your life at this moment. You may also want to reconsider the people you talk to, especially what you talk about. If you find that people take the credit for your ideas or your essence, it’s time to withdraw. You may approach people with pure intentions and ignore certain red flags because you want badly to believe that they’re not that bad, but your gut feeling is worth honoring! I think you must be mindful of the people who’re around you - it seems the most important message for you here. Reconsider whether people are draining or lifting you up, whether you want to keep them in your life. Sometimes, our self-respect has to be greater than the love we have for someone. It’s not shameful to see the goodness in others, but it’s your responsibility to protect your own goodness when they don’t do the same.

♡ ♡ ♡ steps you can take. blocking people on social media, protecting your privacy, keeping certain things or goals secret until they become a reality, being your own best friend, seeking new company, deleting certain contacts, cleansing your space and getting rid of old habits or objects, walking away from anyone who breadcrumbs or gaslights you, learning to appreciate your company, working on your financial life, cherishing silence, respecting your feelings.

♡ ♡ ♡ your inner diva theme song. that don't impress me much by shania twain.

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your body is always talking to you. sometimes saying slow down hun or forcing you to take the rest you crave so much.

if everyone were like my imaginary friends,

the world would be so much happier, you know?

-8 y.o me