What A Good Therapist Huh !

what a good therapist huh !

self portrayt

back on my bullshit 😐😐 heres literal crayon doodles of michael lmao

i keep thinking abt these two,,,

i need ppl who are starting or thinking of reconnecting to karelian culture to realize that we’re still facing racism, bc its becoming way too fuckin frequent for ppl to find out that karelians are indigenous n decide to reconnect to either feel ‘exotic’ or escape their white guilt, n then act surprised when they find out we face so much racism in our daily lives.

ever since i started reconnecting ive noticed ppl treating worse bc of it, like my interactions w my support person assigned to me by a social worker especially turned hostile the second i started being open abt it w them. ppl forgive them, ignore their racism towards me and even PRAISE their work in front of me, most of these ppl are school counselors, social workers, nurses and doctors, you know, ppl who white ppl expect to not Do That Shit or ppl who take pride in being anti-racist. its gotten to the point where im showing symptoms of selective mutism as a direct result of their treatment.

before i started reconnecting it felt like i had no emotions, now i feel like anger is my default state bc of all the shit ive experienced n watched others experience.

i know ppl whove been harassed, abused n assaulted for being karelian. i know ppl whove been yelled at n hurled slurs at in public for speaking karelian. ive seen so many finns say absolutely fucking vile shit abt us n not a single finn will stand up for us or even publically disagree. even self-proclaimed “anti-racist leftist activists” wont give a shit, actually theyre often the ones saying that shit. finns love giving posts spreading blatant misinformation n nationalist propaganda thousands of notes, while posts criticizing em or talking abt racist suomitumblrs get fucking nothing. at best they’ll like the post, but theyre too chickenshit to reblog to their finnish followers.

its so fucking tiring to watch suomitumblr refusing to deplatform popular racists in the community. its so fucking tiring to listen to finns brag abt how ‘everyone in finland has the equal chances of success despite ethnicity or skin color’, when youve seen your rroma friends be denied basic rights, when youre personally crushed by the knowledge that youll never as successful as finnish adult babies who ignore any and all accusations of racism or even just being told to do the bare minimum towards being actually a good ally, all bc your existense threatens their worldview.

its so fucking tiring when the amount of actual anti-racist finns youve met can be counted on a single hand.

ppl need to realize that existing as a karelian can be straight up traumatizing. its far from whatever Wannabe Exotic Free Opression Points bullshit ppl like to make it out to be.

actually make a fucking effort.

El-ahrairah Frith and one of the Elil