Being In Public Spaces - Just A Random Piece Of Writing Based On Experiences.

Being in public spaces - just a random piece of writing based on experiences.

I’ll constantly lift and turn my head to see if I recognise anyone, to check if people are looking at me, when it’s only just my thoughts. I’ll turn my music up louder as if that’ll drown my surrounding environment; the wirr of the escalators, people talking with their friends, their shoes hitting off of the floor, the overused songs playing through the speakers. I’ll aimlessly stare at the phone in front of my face, not looking at anything - yet acting as if it’ll make me invisible. Nobody’s looking at me. Nobody is judging me. Yet my head is telling me a different story. The unease not going away from my stomach.

They’re looking at me.

They’re looking at me.

They’re looking at me.

They’re looking at me.

And I’ll check once more as an attempt to put myself at ease. Very quickly the cycle repeats. 

Suddenly the voice will disappear when I’m on my own, away from strangers.

Away from friends.

Away from family.

Found this drawing from March last year, so I decided to re-draw it nearly an entire year later :)

Re-watching ESMP Season 1 last year was what got me back into drawing, and since then I haven’t slowed down. I think I’ve filled around ten sketchbooks since January last year.

Sometimes this is what Kaveh x Alhaitham reminds me of and I simply adore it

Yes this is my Alhaitham birthday post.

My honest opinion about Valentine’s Day:

Have I really sent this to all of my friends to let them know? Yes. Yes I have.

Version without text:

Finally did that trend, it’s just a bit late- but I’ve done it

I guess this is apart of the ice skater albedo and ballet dancer Kaeya AU. Which I swear I’m still working on-

Version without the lighting layer:

Damn there’s ten of you now seeing my spiral into insanity