Tw For Infant Mutilation If You Read The Metaphor Too Literally

tw for infant mutilation if you read the metaphor too literally

something came up and now i want to talk abt this - my relations with/as kar’niss. I use the term fictionhearted because it’s not quite that i AM kar’niss, but i also dont fit the typical -hearted definition. it’s almost like instead of wrong soul/wrong body, my soul was split and the other half is kar’niss’s half. or, like, we were born as one then cleaved apart and put into our respective universes. like, when i see kar’niss, it’s less “that’s me” and it’s not even a “that used to be me”, it’s more like “that was supposed to be me”. when i identify myself AS kar’niss it feels more like wishful thinking than a truth. not to say i’m lying, but it’s like how you’ll call your parent’s best friend “aunt”/“uncle”. it’s not true, but you also arent lying. when i have memories of kar’niss its less “wow i remember this” and more “wow he let me have this”. i feel like in the distant realm of my canon, he’s probably also experiencing this instead of it being one-sided.

i’m aware that this may fit into the definition of fictionkin but i just personally dont like identifying that way because it doesn’t communicate what i want it to. if anyone knows a term for this id love to hear it

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i love discovering the innate psychological reasons for my kintypes because yeah me being labelas is totally just the gifted kid talking

my hair is getting longer and i look exactly how i looked pre-godhood

(its 3rd person karniss vibes) just remembered how he was turned into a drider and . oogh warning for just generally depressing things?

definitely solidified my theory that kar’niss is MUCH MUCH younger than he looks, because he was turned into a drider as a late adolescent. he was (in simple terms) and albino drow in menzoberranzen, and therefore held in very high political regard, but he failed the trials of lolth because he was so socially isolated he had little to no drive to work hard. then got drider-ed and the rejection from his goddess combined with the madness made him a very easy target for the absolute cult. ooooogh

also off topic but something about being Labelas has made memories of my karnisss heart type easier to remember? something something archivist, probably, although im not sure if i was present for the events of BG3 or not. i dont particularly remember anything about a cult, which most gods seemed to at least know of the absolute, but theres also a non zero percent chance i just did not care because i had more pressing matters on hand. also, someone used that name to refer to me a day or so ago and i couldve ran up the wall i got so happy.

also mod note you dont have to tag labelas because theres literally nothing under that tag anyways lol. he’s a dnd god so please let me know if i shouldnt talk about that here but i think its fine since i only mentioned myself in relation to the events of bg3. i’ll stick to labelas posting on my main account dont worry lol

what a doozy of a confession. so many thought trains…. i blame the coffee

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Reblog this and say one nice thing about prev

Trying to inject some positivity

WoAH WOAH WOAH THATS THE GY!!!