Its Nice To Have A Friend

—it’s nice to have a friend

pairing: anthony lockwood x reader
warnings: mentions of blood and injury
note: I'm sorry this is so short ahhhh!! I had to re-do this post because it kept on disappearing, I hope everything's fixed now!!
"y/n?" his voice called from far away. you couldn't see anyone, it was so dark, but you could definitely make out his voice. Anthony Lockwood had found you.
the relief you felt was indescribable.
"Lockwood?" you muttered, still not able to open your eyes
"shit, y/n" Lockwood said
now you couldn't just hear him, but feel his touch too. he was holding your shoulders. you slowly opened your eyes and were met with the concerned Anthony Lockwood.
he helped you to sit up, your back leaning against the kitchen counter, while he took the glass of water from off the sink, you had filled, before you had passed out. he passed it to you, and helped you steady your hand while you drank
"what happened, y/n?" he put the glass down on the ground beside you and tried feeling your forehead.
the dried blood was all over your face. it reeked from a little cut right at your eyebrow. you thought it would be fine. but being awake all day and then taking a hit to the head seemed to have been enough to send your body to sleep
"oh" you said, touching the cut and noticing that the blood hadn't dried yet. you couldn't have been out for long. "just a little run in with a ghost. looks worse than it is"
"I found you passed out on the kitchen floor. blood everywhere, for a short second I thought you were-" he didn't finish his sentence. he just looked down ashamed
you leaned forward, knowing the story of his family's loss. "oh, Lockwood" you muttered, softly touching his cheeks.
he looked up and found your eyes. your smile was familiar, and his heartbeat rested upon your sight. he couldn't imagine life without you
"promise me to not ever go out alone when its dark"
"yes, I promise"
"good" Lockwood leaned forward and embraced you in a hug.
you spent a few more minutes sitting on the floor and talking about unimportant things, before he helped you to go to bed. spending the night sleeping on your couch, even aftr you had told him, that you'd be glad to share the bed. Lockwood was always a gentleman
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Enemies to lovers George Karim x reader PLEASE!!
—mastermind

pairing: george karim x reader
summary: the team has to work together with quill kipps, for George that means being stuck with the best friend of the blonde leader, y/n. the only person in the whole world that seemed to be smarter than him, that's why he hated her.
George Karim was not entirely the nicest person, at least not to his close friends. that usually differed with other people, with them he was nice and tried his best not to grow aggravated as them when they didnt know a simple fact
it was different with y/n l/n though. she had been in Kipps' team for the past two years and what Quill Kipps was to Lockwood, y/n was to George. it was mostly the concept that she seemed to be a bit more intelligent as him and literally succeed at anything she tried.
it wasn't hard for him to hate her. intelligence and knowledge had always been his thing. but to George's dismay, Barnes had gotten Lockwood to accept the helping hand of Kipps, which normally wouldn't have been a problem, if he hadn't decided to bring his best friend, y/n with him.
"look at this" George exclaimed, while Lockwood, Lucy, Kipps, y/n and him were sitting at the kitchen table, researching the case they were about to take on together "seems like the ghost has a connection to Heather Abbott"
"the actress?" Kipps asked confused
"precisely" George nodded "she received her second Oscar in 1977 and then, two weeks later, she disappeared suddenly. here, you can see it on the picture, they are standing together and it says it was taken on June 26 1980"
"oh bullshit" y/n exclaimed from behind the papers, without even looking up from what she was reading. all eyes turned to her, as she finally put the papers down "sorry to disappoint you, but Haeather Abbott wasn't the one that disappeared, it was her sister. Heather died through natural causes at the end of may 1982, so much for your theory. and to be exact, that isn't even her on the picture"
Lockwood's eyes turned big as he threw a look in George's direction, after y/n had picked up her papers again. normally his best friend would never make such mistakes, but in the presence of y/n, George always felt the need to be the smartest, so he often acted too quick without thinking it through. he wasn't much himself when she was near.
Kipps laughed into the hand he had put up in front of his mouth, trying to be discreet, but obviously failing, before he patted y/n's shoulder, his face showing the obvious triumph.
"oh" George exclaimed "I could've sworn I was right-"
"well, you weren't" y/n answered and in that very moment, George was about to jump over the table and close his hands around her neck. luckily for the girl, Lockwood had noticed George's growing interest in murder and held him down. the others not even noticing the outburst he had prevented.
about three hours later, the group was standing in a dark alley way, ready to start their mission. much to George's dismay, y/n had found the important information.
turns out the ghost they were hunting, an old singer, known as Gale Humphrey, had different connections to some more than just illegal organisations, which led to his death, when he was found murdered in his old london chalet. the house was huge and it was important to know their way, before they would walk inside blindly. y/n had made sure of that, to which even Lockwood had to praise her.
when they entered, they decided to part ways, so that they would cover as much ground as possible.
"Lucy, George and I will go upstairs, Kipps and y/n downstairs, alright?" Lockwood began ordering and Kipps raised his eyebrows
"so you can find everything important and get the whole fee? without y/n you would go in blindly, you wouldn't even have half the information you have now, thanks to your reasearcher being totally off the bat"
"hey!" George protested, but went ignored by both boys
"he's right" said Lucy. she was about the only one that was at least somewhat friendly to Kipps and actually liked y/n. probably because she was living with two boys and didn't get the chance often, to actually spend time with another girl. "you know he is, Lockwood"
"okay" Lockwood breathed "how would you do it?"
"you, Lucy and I go up. Karim and y/n down. it should mostly be safe downstairs. the talents would be parted evenly. Lucy and y/n are both listeners, you have the sight thing, George has touch. seems fair to me"
"alright" Lockwood breathed and George's eyes grew big.
"what?" he spat, like Lockwood had just traded him in "i'm not going down there with her. first chance she gets, she's probably trying to kill me" "like I would need to do that in a haunted mansion" y/n rolled her eyes "if I wanted you dead, you were, sweetheart"
George gulped in disbelief, sending another pleading look in Lockwoods direction. "please, Lockwood"
"I'm sorry, George" Lockwood breathed, before he turned around, closely followed by Kipps. Lucy waited a few seconds longer, before she had to give in. she send an apologetic look towards George, before she followed the boys up the stairs
"just you and me than" y/n smiled provocative "really romantic"
"just amazing" George smiled sarcastically "hopefully the ghost will be better company"
"oh come on, Karim" y/n threw her hands in the air, as she followed him down the stairs "you don't hate me that much"
"I would like you more if you weren't such a know-it-all, all the time" he rolled his eyes
"like you are any better" she shrugged
"try listening, will ya?" he instructed, ignoring her words from before. he wasn't as annoying about knowledge as y/n was. he definitely wasn't.
the girl closed her eyes, while George tried to gather anything from the walls. there wasn't much he could feel
he turned around when he heard y/n's sudden gasp. "what is it?" he asked, hand gliding to his rapier, as he watched the girl, who seemed to be in full distress.
"don't move" she muttered, while she gripped his arms and gently pulled him towards her
"is it him?" George wondered "the ghost? is he here?" he repeated quickly, because y/n's eyes were still fixated on something behind him. "y/n!" he tried again, calling her by her first name for the first time in a long while since they were introduced to each other
her face had lost all its colour and she was rapidly moving backwards, taking him with her. her eyes had spilled a few tears. obviously they were not used to being a team and going on missions together, but they had had their share of ghost fighting in each others company, and George had never seen her this scared. y/n always seemed to keep her cool, even at the most monstrous of ghosts.
he tried to gain her attention again, but it was to no use. he took her hand off of him and drew his rapier, turning around in a quick motion to be met with... nothing?
"it's on the ground" y/n muttered as she noticed his eyes dazing around the place
George looked down to the ground slowly, anticipating anything but what he was seeing. it wasn't a ghost, but an animal, a snake to be exact. a little green snake, he noticed as he held his flashlight on it, which was one of the most harmless beings put on earth.
"it's just a snake" he chuckled
"I-I know" y/n hissed and George noticed how she stumbled back even further, just now without him
"are you scared?" he asked bewildered
"ob-obviously" y/n answered, while she kept her eyes on the still forward stalking animal "would you mind stopping it?!"
"y-yeah" George bend down and took the short snake between his fingers, cautious that it wasn't too close to his skin to be able to bite him. the snake wasn't dangerous, but he didn't really need to be bitten tonight. he walked to the other room to open a window and set the animal free. "better?" he asked, when he came to a hold next to the girl
"yeah" she mumbled "thank you, that was nice"
"no problem. i'm just a bit surprised is all, I mean, you're the great l/n! you're not scared of anything"
"well, I am scared of some things. maybe not ghosts and darkness, but there are still some things"
"like not being the smartest person in the room?" he asked sarcastically, returning to his old self
"you don't get anything, do you?" y/n asked "I'm sorry you can't take a hit to your ego. and I'm sorry you were wrong, but that isn't really my fault, is it? someone had to correct what you were saying before our team would walk into another mission blindly, but I guess normally you're used to that, aren't you?"
"woah, hold up" George put up his hands in surrender "our team? the last I remember this was my team and you and kipps only added yourselves to it"
"like we had any choice" y/n mocked "the most prestigious agency, lockwood and co, just can't get away from burning houses down, killing people or angering DEPRAC, obviously Barnes had to get you lot a supervisor"
"yeah, maybe, but not you"
"do you think I like spending time with you either?" y/n voice grew louder and bounced off the walls, they were both full on screaming at each other now
"you wouldn't be so insufferable if you were less intelligent" George screamed right back
"do you think I like being like this?"
George's mouth had run dry had the answer she had screamed at the top of her lungs. now he was just simply staring at her.
for George intelligence had always been a gift, to be able to memorise as much as possible and understand complex connections. he loved learning new things and he liked to be the smartest person in the room. all his life he had been just that, the smartest person. well at least until he had met her.
"are you kidding me?" George laughed "you are always bragging about how smart you are"
"really? am I?"
now that he was really thinking about it, it seemed like most of that had been in his head. obviously she would correct him when he was being wrong and sometimes she would break into five minute rants, after which she had to slowly repeat herself, so everyone would be able to grasp the concept she had understood a long time before them.
she was cocky and confident and sometimes rude, but she hadn't always been like that, he suddenly noticed. he remembered at fittes, when they first met each other and trained together, she would mostly keep to herself. she would answer when she was asked and if he made a mistake, she would correct him privately, so he could redeem himself without a big huff.
he couldn't really remember when he had begun hating her, or why he did. maybe because in his eyes, intelligence was the only good quality he had, but when she was there, he didn't even have that.
maybe the hatred had begun when he began liking her too much. at least that's when he began talking to her, like she was no one to him. and after some time, she seemed to return that favour.
"you're right" he finally said, realising his mistake "but you were nicer about it when we first met"
"because i liked you, you idiot. at least until you began to go all rouge on me" she paused, sitting down on the steps and waiting until he did the same
"do you know what its like to work as a woman in just another male dominated industry? they don't take you seriously, because you're just a girl, what could you know? what you say is never right, because it isn't what they would say... for the longest time, being smart was like a curse to me. that's why I left the team and went to Kipps. he was the first one to make me feel good about it, about being the smartest one in the room, there isn't really any shame in that. he helped me to be more confident, to not hold back when I want to say something and to not feel bad when I know something better than others. when we first met I thought you could understand how I was feeling. I quickly realised you couldn't and at some other point I finally noticed how much I was annoying you"
"oh" George just said "I never knew you were feeling like that. I think I was just jealous of you, because I felt like you were taking something away from me by being smarter. now that I think about it, I wasn't any better than the other men, was I?"
"no" y/n shook her head chuckling
"I was really dumb, im sorry for that" George smiled at the girl "intelligence always seemed like a gift to me, I never thought about it being this bad for someone else."
"it's alright George, I should've just ask you what was going on"
"you are not responsible for my insecurities" George shook his head "and I shouldn't have acted like you were" he shrugged his shoulder "I think deep down I wanted to be like you, so effortlessly smart, and what was supposed to be admiration grew into anger, because I realised I could never be"
"somehow, that's kind of cute" y/n laughed "I didn't know I had an admirer"
"you confessed to liking me first, just for the record"
"yeah, i'll keep that in the protocol" y/n pointed at her head "photographic memory"
"oh, man!" George cried out "obviously I had no chance against you"
"no" y/n smiled
she leaned forward and softly, her lips found his. engulfing him into a sweet and gentle kiss. it didn't even feel weird, more like it was always meant to be, they just had taken too long to realise it.
"you never had"
"I'm fine with that, actually" George muttered and connected their lips once again.
Can you write a George Karim x reader fic with early morning cuddles? 🙏🙏
—daylight

pairing: george karim x reader
summary: early morning cuddles, mostly just fluff
you stretched you arms out, turning around in the bed and facing, what was meant to be your boyfriend. but to your worry, the side of the bed was empty, covers thrown away lazily and no trace of the boy you loved. there was a moment of hesitation, in which you considered just screaming his name, scared that something has happened, but before you could do anything, you heard the familiar scraping of a pen on paper.
as you looked up towards the desk, you could see the back of his head.
"Georgie?" you mumbled, voice still raspy, the tiredness not having left your body just now.
"oh!" he turned around to look at you "you're awake already" he had to snicker at the state of your hair, you always messed it up with your hands while you slept. not even his own hair was safe from it.
you threw a look towards the clock at your right and understood why George was questioning why you were already awake. it was only six.
"why are you up, baby?" you muttered and Georges cheek tinted pink by the nickname. but there was only so much you could see of his face, considering that it was so early and you were living in London. "come back to bed, so we can sleep some more"
George contemplated, before he finally shook his head "I'm sorry, y/n" he said "I really have to finish this"
"ugh" you replied "can't you continue working at like nine or something? if it's lockwood who's--"
"--it's not lockwood" George interrupted "I really want to finish this"
"do it later" you tried again "please, baby. come back to bed"
George had already turned around to his desk, when his head suddenly shot in the air at your words. the usage of the nickname seemed to absolutely confuse and flatter him at the same time. he threw a last look to the writings on the desk, before he got up and crossed the room.
as he came closer you could see how red his face had gotten. he took of his glasses and crawled into bed beside you.
"alright" he said, opening his arms, so you could lay on his chest "just promise me that lockwood won't ever find out about that nickname, okay?"
"you don't like it?" you pouted, turning your head so you could catch his eyes, he was already looking at you.
"of course I do" he took great offence to you thinking otherwise. "it's just-- I mean, you know lockwood. he wouldn't shut up about it"
"lockwood is a dick" you nodded, thinking back to that head size drawing you had done on the thinking cloth. you had never spent as much time fighting a ghost, then you had painting that picture of lockwood getting his head bitten off by a shark.
"I love you y/n" George muttered, while his eyes slowly closed. his hair was tickling your forehead and you smiled at the overworked boy, your overworked boy. glad that he was getting some sleep now, even if you practically had to flirt him back to back
is arms were draped around you, while you snuggled your head into the crouch of his neck, planting a kiss next to his collarbone, before you returned to your position on his chest.
"night, baby" you responded and watched as Georges cheeks grew flustered once again. then you closed your eyes. still wrapped up in the boy by your side.
it didn't even take a week, until lockwood heard of your new nickname for George, making fun of it the whole time the team was on a mission. later that day, you drew another piece of art, which featured lockwood being chased by a killer, holding an axe, while you and George stood next to them, getting married.
hopefully that scenery would come true some day. well at least half of it, you didn't really believe in weddings that much.
—gifts for little brothers

pairing: regulus Black x sirius black (platonic)
summary: regulus had never once in his life received a christmas present until this morning
warnings: none
authors note: I wrote this ages ago lol
regulus was rather sad as he awoke on the morning of the 25th december. normally, every boy would be impatient and looking forward to this special day all december long. but christmas was nothing special in the black family.
at least not special regarding the wishes of a nine year old boy, such as regulus was one. he was dreading to stand up and get dressed. he hated these days. days on which special guests would visit the black house and join the festivities.
but to regulus' misfortune his mother, walburga black, held these events in a really high course. so she always made sure everything, especially her family, would be perfect when their guests arrived.
so just a few seconds after his awakening, a house elf knocked on the black wooden door to regulus' room.
„kreacher was told to make sure master regulus would be awake by now", the rather ugly-looking house elf spoke, as he lifted the curtains of regulus big window.
„thank you, kreacher. would you please tell my mother that im getting ready now?", the boy lifted his blanket and climbed out of his giant bed. When he was younger (about a year or two) he would use a small ladder to get in and out of it.
„of course, master regulus."
the elf turned around and made his way out of the room, just as regulus opened the door to his closet, to reveal the neat suit that was hanging on the back side of its door.
regulus sighed, again, knowing how formal and unrelaxed this day would go for him.
as regulus made his way out of the closet (no pun intended), formely dressed and ready, at that, he heard a soft knock at his door.
"yes?", asked regulus as he watched the door expectively. in marched his brother, formely known as sirius black.
"sirius!", regulus grinned as his brother closed the door quietly and made his way to the bed to sit down comfortably.
"hello regulus", sirius spoke. "how are you feeling this fine morning?"
"bored"
"no wonder", sirius adjusted his position. "mother is more stressed than last year, because a few special guests will come this year". sirius rolled his eyes so high, that regulus could only see the white in them.
"more special than last year?", regulus asked, worriedly, still remebering the unexpected visit of the prime minister from the year before and his mothers not so relaxed reaction to that. the brothers had to hide under a table the whole evening long, in fear to fall into the aroused hands of their mother.
"apparently" sirius sighed and rubbed his temple. "i can't wait to go to hogwarts and get out of all of this"
"you know that she will still make you come, right?", regulus asked
"of course, but atleast i don't have to put up with this the whole year. i will get a tiny bit of freedom and only come on the day of the festivity so i don't have to be present when this woman throws one of her tantrums."
"if only i could come with you"
"dont worry, little brother. its only one more year and than you can join me at hogwarts. but now, i have a little surprise for you"
regulus raised his eyebrows at sirius and sat down next to him on the large bed. "a surprise? what do you mean?"
"i mean this"
sirius reached into the pocket of his suit and took out a little box, messily wrapped in paper.
"what is this?", regulus asked
"its a present, reg. i read about it in a muggle book. this is what other kids get on christmas morning"
regulus brought the box up to his eyes to inspect it further.
in his nine years living, regulus arcturus black had never received a present. because of that he never got to know, what the term actually meant. he admired his brother for knowing all this, because he always knew things that regulus didn't. it was sirius big interest of knowledge, of freedom and the thought of knowing things his mother wouldn't let the teacher inflict on them.
regulus, on the other hand, wasn't like that. he never had enough bravery to do the things his mother didn't want him to. so adapted to everything he was allowed to do and tried to like it.
as regulus finally unwrapped the present a small amulette fell into his hands. as he opened it he could saw a picture of him and his brother on the right side and his full name and a rather weird looking painting at the left side.
"that is the star that you're named after, regulus", sirius spoke after he noticed the confusion on regulus' face.
regulus smiled. "thank you sirius. i like it very much". the nine year old let his arms fall to the sides of his brother and hugged him messily.
after this, the brothers stood up and made their way out of the door to finally face their mother and get in position for the arrival of their guests.
quietly, just for himself, regulus swore he would never forget, how his heart felt warm and his eyes started to fill with light tears, as sirius black gave him the first and only present he had ever received...
—fix me up, my darling

pairing: tasm!peter x ill!reader
summary: while fighting against your illness, peter needs to learn, that he won't be able to save your life
warnings: mentions of illness and death, sad
authors note: based on the song “fix me up” by Zach Sobiech.
you hadn’t slept a full night since you couldn’t remember. something always kept you awake. sometimes it was the sickness itself, throwing up on hours end or not getting enough air and having to drive to the hospital. even in the worst situations you tried to be optimistic. kept going. you were always a positive and happy person. but as the cancer grew it only became harder.
you didn’t do it for yourself anymore. you did it for the people who you loved, people that you’d leave behind. your mom, your dad, your big sister and peter, your boyfriend.
you met peter in freshman year in highschool. he was into photography and pretty quite. you instanly took a liking to him. you personally, loved books, you had them placed everywhere around your room. it was years ago that you had a free space in your shelf so you had to keep them elsewhere. you would love the photos peter took and he decorated your whole room with them. sometimes he would buy you books or steal them from his aunt, so you could read them, before bringing them back.
On most evenings, or sometimes, in the middle of the night, when he couldn’t sleep, peter would knock on your window and climb into your room, so you could read something to him. he loved to listen to you, reading your favorite book. but when he became spiderman, he didn’t come by as often, atleast not at night. and then last year, when the cancer was first discovered, he only visited at day. he knew how little sleep you were getting and he didn’t want to keep you awake too.
so it became a rarity that he would visit at night. only when he really needed you. tonight was such a night.
when peter knocked on your window (at 3 am), you looked up from your book and grinned, you were more than happy to see him. the pain in you abondem kept you awake, you were happy that he could distract you from it a little. when you opened the window, you immediately noticed his tear stained cheeks and the dark circles under his eyes.
“hey” his voice was raspy. “i’m sorry, i just really needed to see you”
“no problem, come in, baby”
you sat down on your bed, holding up your blanket, so peter could crawl under. you both kept silent. originally you were on your way to healthiness, until you weren’t. you knew for some time now.
about seven months ago, when the treatment stopped working and your body didn’t respond to it anymore. it was hard. it was hard accepting it, it was hard telling your family but it was even harder to tell peter. not that it was easier for your family to take in. but peter wasn’t a relative, you were bound to your family, a part of them, but peter could’ve been saved from the pain, if only you had stayed away from him from the beginning. but how could you have known?
still, the guilt was eating you alive. suddenly you could relate to hazel grace from the fault in our stars. not wanting to hurt someone wasn’t easy.
“i couldn’t sleep” peter broke the silence.
“you know you don’t have to do this, pete. i don’t want to hurt you”
“please don’t say this, we´ve been over this before, y/n and you know how i feel. i could never leave you, never”
“i’m sor-”
“please don’t apoligise, let´s just talk about something else. tell me a secret”
tell me something you never told before
“okay.. let me think. i guess the first time i saw you i liked you immediately. i know it sounds silly saying this now, but i just kind of knew. you were sitting at your table and looking trough photos on your camera. you were the first person i saw when i walked into the classroom”
before i walk trough the door, i adore you, i adore you. i do, i do
peters eyes lid up as he watched you closely. a tear rolled down his cheeks, but he kept smiling. you laughed while thinking back to these happier days
“i promise i will keep your secret” peter laughed as he grabbed your hand and interwined your fingers. “promise”
smile with me and cry with me. i won’t ever tell a soul. hold my hand, I'll squeeze it back and i’ll never let go
“while we’re at promises, can you please promise me one more thing?”
peter hesitated. “...a promise if you die?” his voice cracked as he looked down to avoid your eyes
“when i die, pete”
peters head shot up and his eyes became even more filled with tears.
“when i die you have to promise me that you’ll keep going, don’t look back, just focus on your future, peter. don’t give up”
Never give up, never look back
“i can’t promise that, but i’ll try to keep going, i can’t promise you more than that”
I won’t give up, but keep on trying
“thats okay, Pete. as long as you really try. don’t cry too much over me, when i died”
“if, y/n, if” peter sounded desperate. his other hand reached to your hair and feel through the short lenght, that had grown for half a year now.
“you have to accept it, peter. nothing can cure me, not even you” your tear fell down on your interwined hands
Dry your tears up, all your crying, cannot fix me up, my darling
“i will never be able to accept it, i will never be able to live without you, to not hear your laugh, to not tell you every secret i have, to not be with you”
twisty, turning, winding paths. I could listen to your laugh, as we tiptoe on these humble truths. i don’t want to lose you
peter looked into your eyes. “and how i could i, you were the one that was always there for me and you showed me what it meant to love someone, deeply and unrationally but truly. and you teached me that it was a pretty good reason to always keep going”
show me how to love deeper than the surface, my friend and you can show me what it means to have purpose
“peter” you began, choking down sobs. “i don’t want to go, never. but eventually, i’ll have to. you know how much i regret bringing you into this, but as selfish as it sound, isn’t it amazing how i have people that make it so hard for me to say goodbye? you are the reason i look at my life and like what i see. these feelings i have for you, this doesn’t happen often. i love you and i will never forgive myself for leaving you, because its hard. it hurts and it will never be okay, but isn’t that something good too? this makes me remember how precious our love is. if it wasn’t hard, would it even be love?”
“this is not your fault. never think it is, okay love?” you shoke your head, yes, at his question. “and you’re right. it is hard and it hurts so so much. i understand what you mean. and i want you to know that you’re so so loved, deeply and to all ends.”
“thank you, peter”
peter pulled you closer to his chest. and you both drifted to sleep. with tear stained cheeks and red eyes but with a deep feeling of peace.
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peter stood next to your family. wearing a black suit and tie. all four looking towards the pastor. you passed a few days after your talk with peter. it happened at night, you were sleeping in your room. it was the first night since one year that you didn’t awake halfway trough. the last person you had talked to was peter. he had visited you, but was called away by a robbery. he looked deeply disappointed as he crawled out of your window. you laughed at his grimmace.
“cheer up, you have to save the city, spidey” you spoke.
“but i don’t want to leave you”
“i’ll still be here when you come back”
but you weren’t. when peter came back, he found your bed empty. sheets removed. he had sat there waiting for two hours. you didn’t answer your phone and no one was home. that was when he knew.
after the funeral, peter sat at your grave.
“hey, baby” he began. “i miss you, i hope its nice where you are.”
he paused. “i just came by to let you know, that i’ll promise to do what you wanted”
as he stood up to leave, he was held up by your mom.
“we found this under her pillow” she said. “it is for you”
she gave him a white piece of paper, which was folded. on it was written his name in bold letters.
he sighed as he thanked your mother and watched her leave. than he opened the paper.
you just promised, didn’t you?
although he had felt like crying he couldn’t help but laugh. you just knew him too well. he looked up at the sky and smiled, for the first time since your passing, as he would always smile at you.
peter went home and pinned the paper to his wall. next to all the pictures of you. this would stay in his room forever. he wouldn’t forget. and by that he made another promise...
“dry your tears up, all your crying, cannot fix me up my darling...”
TAYLOR SWIFT SONGS FOR FICS
these are all the songs I haven't done yet, if the one you want to request isn't here, please check my masterlist before requesting!
those in cursive are being written right now!!
TAYLOR SWIFT (12)
tim mcgraw, stay beautiful, picture to burn, teardrops on my guitar, cold as you, the outside, tied together with a smile, invisible, should've said no, a perfectly good heart, mary's song, a place in this world,
FEARLESS (14)
fifteen, breathe, white horse, jump then fall, come in with the rain, the other side of the door, you all over me, mr perfectly fine, that's when, don't you, bye bye baby, forever and always, tell me why, superstar,
SPEAK NOW (14)
sparks fly, speak now, long live, electric touch, when emma falls in love, i can see you, dear john, mean, the story of us, better than revenge, innocent, haunted, castles crumbling, foolish one,
RED (18)
state of grace, holy ground, message in a bottle, red, all too well, i almost do, the last time, sad beautiful tragic, the lucky one, begin again, come back...be here, girl at home, nothing new, babe, i bet you think about me, better man, run, everything has changed,
1989 (14)
new romantics, wildest dreams, wonderland, out of the woods, all you had to do was stay, i wish you would, bad blood, clean, say don't go, now that we don't talk, suburban legends, is it over now? welcome to new york, slut!,
REPUTATION (8)
...ready for it?, so it goes..., getaway car, dancing with our hands tied, this is why we can't have nice things, new year’s day, look what you made me do, dress,
LOVER (8)
all of the girls you loved before, cornelia street, death by a thousand cuts, me!, false god, the man, the archer, lover,
FOLKLORE (10)
the one, cardigan, the last great american dynasty, exile, mad woman, epiphany, betty, hoax, the lakes, this is me trying,
EVERMORE (10)
'tis the damn season, dorothea, cowboy like me, evermore, right where you left me, it's time to go, happiness, champagne problems, no body no crime, coney island,
MIDNIGHTS (13)
maroon, snow on the beach, paris, glitch, you're on your own kid, midnight rain, question...?, vigilante shit, bejeweled, the great war, dear reader, labyrinth, high infidelity,
THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT (27)
fortnight, the tortured poets department, down bad, so long london, but daddy i love him, florida!!!, guilty as sin?, who’s afraid of little old me?, i can do it with a broken heart, the smallest man who ever lived, clara bow, the albatross, chloe or sam or sophia or marcus, how did it end?, i hate it here, thank you aimee, i look in people’s windows, cassandra, the bolter, robin, the manuscript, fresh out the slammer!, peter, imgonnagetyouback, loml, my boy only breaks his favorite toys,
songs to write: 147