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Listen. Abandoning the idea of what a proper pagan is was the most rewarding experience. Your intuition is stronger than you think.

This isn't a science. You don't have to treat it like one. Go with your heart, go with your intuition. It will help you grow more than you've ever dreamed of.

At work and my head hurts really bad and I'm unfocused and unable to refocus, everything is blurring and talking feels like molasses.

I'm sorry but fem cis people, need to leave masc afabs the fuck alone.

Yes, I don't think it's okay to put down women who like to dress up and wear make up.

Yes, It is very patriartical to associate femininity with weakness.

Yes, toxic masculinity is bad.

That doesn't mean it's okay to force femininity on afabs.

If a trans man or transmasc wishes not to be called "gurl" or "queen" ect. You fucking respect that.

If a cis girl doesn't want to dress up, leave her the fuck alone.

I don't care if you're a cis gay man who was forced to be hypermasc as a child, or a cis woman who was taught to be ashamed of her femininity. You leave masc afabs alone!

Feminity is not inherently oppressive, but FORCED feminity IS!

When your omniscient gatekeeper admits that since the system has started changing he can't see as well and is starting to be unable to look everywhere.

OCEAN THEMED ASK GAME FOR SYSTEMS!

Only rules are to have fun! You don't have to answer any questions you don't want to, and you can pick and choose which parts of the question you answer. We'd also highly recommend including the question along with the emote if sending an ask to someone participating! Also, yes, you can ask us these questions as well, we'll also be participating. :]

🦈 — Do you have a collective identity? If so, what is it?

🐋 — Do you have an inner world? If so, what is it like?

🦭 — Do you have any “hot takes” on any kind of syscourse topics?

🐧 — Do you have any subsystems?

🦀 — Who are your most frequent fronters?

🐬 — Do you have any collective interests? If so, what are they?

🐟 — Do you have any hosts or cohosts? If so, who are they?

🐠 — Besides Pluralkit, Simply Plural, or Octocon, is there any way you keep track of system information? If so, explain what you use. (Some examples are fronting bracelets, a notebook, etc., just to make the question more clear.)

🐡 — What's your preferred terminology? (Such as pwOSDDID, system, plural, alters, headmates, parts, etc.)

🦐 — Would you consider your headcount to be low, medium, high, or something else? Feel free to provide a number / estimate if you're comfortable.

🦞 — Do you have any experiences with the system community that you'd like to share, or anything you wish the system community understood better?

🦑 — Do you have any comorbid disorders besides OSDDID? If so, what are they? Feel free to share how the comorbidity between them effects your OSDDID.

🐙 — Do you have any advice for newly discovered / questioning systems?

🪼 — Funniest thing an alter has ever done?

🦦 — Which alter's name is your favorite?

🪸 — How do you think singlets could accommodate systems better?

🐚 — What was it like discovering you're a system?

🌊 — Is there a certain song you associate with your system / any of your alters? If so, what is it? Feel free to explain why you associate it.

🫧 — What is the most popular source you have introject(s) from, and what is the most obscure source you have introject(s) from?

🏖️ — Do you have any characters you headcanon as being a system, or any canonically system characters that you enjoy?

🌴 — Are you nonhuman, alterhuman, therian, otherkin, or anything similar? If so, what?

⚓ — Are there any inside jokes in your system? If so, what are they?

🛟 — How open are you about being a system?

🤿 — Do you prefer singular pronouns, plural pronouns, or a mix of the two / both?

⛵ — Do you have any recovery goals, such as final fusion, functional multiplicity, etc., or are there any recovery milestones you've completed that you're proud of?

🌀 — Do you have any partner systems, family systems, or system friends? Feel free to tag them if they have Tumblr!

👒 — What's being a system personally like for you?

🩴 — Do you have any favorite content creators, (artists, writers, musicians, YouTubers, etc.,) that're openly systems?

🦪 — How are you doing today? Anything interesting happen that you wanna share?

💙 — Free space! Share whatever you'd like here!

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It’s taken me a long time to realize and accept that it probably isn’t ever going to go away, and that there’s a way to live alongside it. (I wasn’t sure about posting this, because it’s pretty personal but screw it because I’m all about the destigmatization of mental illness) ❤

BSD communication cards

Pt: BSD communication cards

All the cards we've made are under the cut.

Rules of usage:

These cards were made by us, do not claim that you made them or reupload anywhere without explicit credit back to this post/account.

All of the art used in these are from official merch. Specifically: Nekozukin, Rabbit Cape, Flower, Christmas, STORM BRINGER, Sumokku Kitsui ne, Umbrella, and Haruusagi. Due to their limited character selection there is a lot of repeated characters featured in these.

Additional notes:

These were made for us, some of these cards may not apply to you so feel free to disregard any that don't. If you want specific cards with specific offical art, feel free to ask but keep in mind that we may take a while to make them.

We have not test printed these out, there may be errors with colors and size. This post will be updated with information once we do print them out.

Some of these cards have blank text to fill in, however you choose to do this is up to you (we just plan on laminating and using a whiteboard marker)

I'm in the process of mapping right now and honestly I'm thinking in a week I may have to remap it again entirely.

I don't feel unnerved by this but it is really weird how fast our system is changing. I might see if I can find actual literature on this I feel like I'm going crazy lol

Me seeing BSD spoilers: FUCK SHIT DONT MAKE ME READ THIS AHHHHHHH

I haven't caught up to recent chapters in a while and I'm afraid. But. It seems I must. Because holy fuck that spoiler shook me.

I'm sure it's already been pointed out before, but I love the fact that when Chuuya is 'fighting' Yosano and Kenji his arms are down the entire time. They might not be in his pockets, but not once in the entire exchange does he raise his fists to them.

Because he's not there to fight them, he's there to deliver a message. Now, they challenged him to a fight, so he's not going to turn it down but he's also very clearly toying with them here.

And he's so unserious about it all. Hanging upside down on the ceiling and twirling about just to irritate them. Then as soon as Fukuzawa starts talking to him, he's all smiles and pleasantries again because this fight was nothing to him, just a bit of playful back and forth before he completes his objective.

But then you get to the cannibalism arc, where Mori's life is on the line and Ranpo not only has the audacity to challenge him alone, but to also call out his losses to Dazai.

His coat flares up revealing his hands and he goes straight in for a punch.

It's a good job Ranpo had an ace up his sleeve (or in this case, a book under his cloak) because Chuuya went in for the kill here. Exactly like he did with Lovecraft.

full piece for @skkangstzine ^^ i was thinking perhaps dazai would've gotten chuuya a dog keychain as a joke, and possibly chuuya would've cherished it more than he'd ever admit.

zine leftover sales are open until sep 30!

figured out why i dislike the term non-man so much thanks random screenshot

If you post to syscringe or any cringe / faker call-out site / subreddit block me, or support that behavior, block me.

I could go on a full rant about why this is awful behavior, but I won't because I don't have the brainpower for it right now, so just. Block me. Fuck off.

I will say it once and I’ll say it as many times as people need to hear it. Trans men face a unique type of oppression that is the result of them being a minority of men and their voices and those issues are commonly ignored by allies and the trans community. Im so tired man.

Angry vent. TW swearing in an angry context

I would like my time and agency to be respected for what it is, rather than deriding my need for my own time and my need for me to save my own money, because "it's more important that I do this". Okay, if you have an upcoming appointment get your shit together way before the day you need it done.

I am a privilege not a fucking right and I'm sick and tired of you treating me like one. I am not just a resource, I am a person. I don't ever ask shit of you so why the hell do you ask for so many favors.

I'm tired of being treated like this. I can be nice and I like doing favors for people I like but it always ever turns out like this. It always ever becomes asking and asking and asking. No, go fend for yourself for once.

I can't tell if all of the female characters in WuWa are simping for the rover or if that's just normal platonic relationship stuff like huh.

I'm playing as the male rover so it honestly feels like I'm collecting a harem. Like Chixia? Normal. Yangyang? Bro is trying to hard not to say "I love you so much".

Us: we aren't working hard enough on our days off

Me: y'all we work for 40 hrs a week and we have two days to ourselves, one of which we dedicate to therapy. Let us have our break. We still work it's just not 24/7. Quit it. It's okay to chill.

I actually do not believe humans have a guiding moral system. That does not predict or explain human behavior very well at all. Most people's behavior is far more easily explained by their emotions, their needs, and what everyone around them considers it to be normal to do. Most people will instinctively stay alive, stay comfortable, and avoid social ostracism, and their actions flow clearly from that. the patterns of behavior are predictable, but not morally consistent or principled.

And in the absence of adhering to true "morals," most humans don't go around killing/maiming/assaulting people anyway. Because there is little reason to. it's rarely fun or enjoyable, and dealing with the fallout of it would be a real pain.

I always wonder why moral theorists assume we need some belief system to keep us from killing one another. What do you get out of killing someone? It is exhausting and messy. Animals do not have a moral system and they don't go around killing other animals for no good reason. Even predator animals are highly selective in what they try to kill, because killing consumes a huge amount of energy and attempting to kill is dangerous. no living being goes around recklessly doing violence because it's bad for it, the animal.

We do not have to worry about humans being wantonly "evil". Most behaviors that we label as evil are a huge pain in the ass to do, with zero clear gain. when humans do treat one another violently there is virtually always some intense overpowering need they are trying to meet, some survival stakes that make it the better option in that moment than doing nothing.

The acts of violence and abuse that happen in the world on a more global scale occur not because of someone lacking morals, but because people in power have a vested economic or political reason to do it, and face relatively low risk. It is easy for the leaders of imperial powers to genocide people, it does not place them in physical danger, and they stand to gain a lot from it. thats why it happens. thats what we gotta worry about. that some people have clear incentives to kill/maim/rape on a global scale, and doing so costs them nearly nothing. not that people are "evil"

"You would never think [cruel, judgmental thing] about your friends, so don't think those things about yourself!"

Some of us do experience cruel, negative thoughts reflexively though -- about others as well as ourselves. I'm certain that the above advice is useful for a lot of people, but I just want to speak directly right now to those of us whose minds bombard us with really judgmental ideas going in all directions virtually all of the time: those thoughts do not make you an inherently evil or unlovable person.

It is possible for you to lead an interconnected, worthwhile, and love-filled life, no matter the contents of your thoughts. It may not be possible for you to change your thoughts, and it might be causing you immense frustration to even try. You can live with cruel thoughts without taking cruel actions. You can feel impatient and angry with people you love and still make the choice to behave toward them in a loving way. And you can choose to treat yourself well while continually hating yourself.

It's a real bitch and a half to have to exert this kind of willpower and carry all these compulsive negative thoughts around, but it's a lot easier than going to war with your mind or internalizing that having negative thoughts inherently dooms you as a person. You're cool as fuck if you live with this barrage of bad stuff in your brain but you choose the nobler path in your actions instead.

Heyyy to anyone with any master docs of medical literature about DID... can I have a link? Notes or DMs are fine either way!!

Can I just say I love my therapist and I'm so glad I managed to find them. I'm getting better and I'm getting ready to taking some steps to some heavy trauma work now and I'm just so so so blessed to have made it this far and to feel okay working towards that.

My therapist congratulated me on my super big progress on Monday and I feel so proud and happy ughhhh. /pos