Somebody Make This Oh My GOD Somebody Make This

Somebody make this oh my GOD somebody make this

AU where everything's the same but trickster Cat King charges Edwin the more problematic task of Counting All the Queers in Port Townsend and Edwin's gonna have a harder time ignoring thinking lgbt thoughts

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Edwin, with his little notebook, interviewing Tragic Mick: ... where would you say your romantic proclivities take you?

Mick: *silent stare, tons of ace cards crowning behind his head on the wall*

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Edwin: there are 122. queers. in port Townsend

Cat King: you forgot to count Charles

Mood

kinda wanna leave. kinda wanna ghost everyone. kinda wanna rot under a blanket. kinda wanna feel loved. kinda wanna feel wanted. kinda wanna

"There is no justice in the laws of nature, no term for fairness in the equations of motion. The universe is neither evil, nor good, it simply does not care. The stars don't care, or the sun, or the sky. But they don't have to. We care. There is light in the world, and it is us."

Thanks, Anon!

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It's kinda like how it scares me to see people trying to explain why since someone is a horrible person, they don't have to treat them with humanity. Like, yeah, the moment someone does enough bad things, their well-being becomes secondary to the need to make sure they won't do more harm... But why does it look like the end goal you're working towards is being allowed to drag a target to a point where we can kick it for daring to ask to be treated as human? That seems... Really dangerous, actually.

Okay so, like... I've been thinking a lot about how we societally treat ai. And, like... Don't get me wrong, there are definitely many legitimate arguments for why it shouldn't be used in creative contexts, but a lot of the rage I see against ai does often seem to kinda come down to "how dare this thing that isn't a person try and pretend to be a person deserving of human treatment", and, like... Can we just collectively try and think about this impulse critically, then try to place it in the context of any psychological, societal and historical mechanisms it might be related to? Why are you angry at a literal machine? The machine itself clearly can't be deserving of your anger, it's not sentient. You can argue for why it shouldn't be used in specific contexts... But then, again, why is the argument always phrased as if you're angry at the machine itself, and not at the people using it? Why do you hear "I fucking hate when people treat ai art like human art" more often than you hear "I fucking hate when rich people use ai to show how in their minds, creatives are nothing more than a tool"? Could it be that our instinctive urge to direct our rage at "a thing trying to claim a status of humanity that it doesn't deserve" is, em... Bad?

Just putting it out there.

I feel like what some of you guys don't understand about the whole discussion of what is and isn't a trauma response, is that, like... Different people understand different experiences to be traumatic to different extents. Most people's idea of trauma is literally just "you were abused as a child", but some people might develop severe dissociative symptoms from getting stuck in the middle of their parents' divorce, some people get C-PTSD from growing up with an undiagnosed condition that got them into the status of an alienated failure for their entire childhood, some people get their entire personality shaped by medical trauma! I was born with my throat fused in with itself in a way that made it impossible for me to eat and breath like a normal person, and that took a series of surgeries that kept going until I was six years old in order to solve. I have no memory of that, despite the fact I do have other memories from that time period. The doctors said I was "the most well-behaved child they've ever seen", because I was quiet and polite and didn't cry. In hindsight, the most likely explanation was just that I kinda left my body to get through that experience, which might explain why my relationship to physical pain nowadays is the way that it is- whenever my body starts getting pain signals, my mind kinda activates total shutdown, which is why I never felt like I was fully present while doing physically painful things (and I'm not just talking SH, everything from working out to pinching myself to stop a train of thought. One time when I was a kid, I saw a shattered sheet of glass on the sidewalk, and I started taking apart pieces from it with my hands because I thought it was cool that I could do that, and it hurt a bit, but only after my mom came and screamed in shock I realized my hands were actually completely covered in blood. Stuff like that). I've had one professional suggesting that the thing that's wrong with my brain is that the medical trauma from that basically caused symptoms parallel to BPD, except without the ones about fear of abandonment and unstable relationships, because the trauma that caused it wasn't an interpersonal one, which is what is usually expected. And if that happened to me, to how many other people could that have happened?

I guess what I'm trying to say is. Our idea of mental issues being cleanly sorted into neat little boxes is just really flawed. Different people react differently to being put in situations. And maybe it would be more useful to start thinking "what experience did I have, given the knowledge I have of my own mind, that could make my brain develop instincts that cause this behavior" (which is a line of logic that can usually be used to understand almost every human behavior, clinical or otherwise) instead of "x trauma leads to y trauma response".