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GHOST

Javier Pena X Reader

Chapter 10

On my way my mind was blank. As Javier spoke I only nodded and smiled. “We are working with the CIA, those son of b-”

“Great you’re here” The ambassador stopped as she was walking across from us. “In my office” I nod. “And you” She points at Javier. “Leave her alone and go find Murphy” I chuckle. I turned the opposite direction and headed into her office.

“Everything you need is on my desk” I look over and a file is there. “Hopefully I don’t get the need to do a personal call again” I laugh a bit, grabbing hold of the file. “You will arrive at the office and from there on recieve instructions from Luna” I nod knowing the obvious spill. “And everytime per the agreement I have to say.” I stood up ready to leave after the obvious second spill. “If you wish to terminate your agreement, you have 2 days to turn in a letter of resignation” I nod.

“Thank you ambassador Noonan” I shake her head.

“You know I could have a spot for you here in the Escobar case. All you have to do is ask” Hell no.

“Is it your spot?” Noonan chuckles, shaking her head.

“I would give it up in a second if I had that option” She sat on her chair pulling it forward. “Of course you have the power to do that” It was my turn to laugh.

“I think I will stick to my job” Another few shared words and a goodbye. I walked out of her office. I turned the corner and found myself infront of my office.

“Y/n?” I turn around and see my old assistant. “How are you?” With a big smile she jumps on me, giving me a hug. “It's been what? Almost 3 months?”

“Yeah, something like that. How have you been?” I always had a hard time focusing when the conversation didn’t interest me one bit. Nora was great but I had only known her for 2 short weeks and although it was spent hearing her talk all day, that didn’t make us close.

“Great! Are you back to work? Why did you disappear all of a sudden? The ambassador said you had to travel back to the states but it sounded too weird considering you had just arrived” I chuckled alongside her. My eyes searched the place trying to think of some way to get out of the conversation.

“When duty calls you have to go” She nods with an even bigger smile.

“So how long are you staying now?”

“Yeah I also would like to know” I jumped a bit, turning around to find Murphy there with a cup of coffee in hand.

“Nora,” I say with a smile. “I need to have a word with agent Murphy alone, we will catch up later”

“Ok” She said cheerfully and turned her heel to walk away. I took this time to grab Murphy's empty hand and pull him to my office. I go around my desk and throw the file on the table. “Why didn’t you tell me?” My emotions didn’t pop up until I saw his face. Murphy's questionable look gave me the go ahead to explain what he obviously forgot. I open the file to the page and move it closer to him to see. “You showed me the picture and you let me assume she was dead” I pointed at the information. Active. When I finish a job I get sent back with paperwork of course. It will tell every detail of the person I was sent out to look for and in my recent search she was finalized as active. She was still alive and in the captor's hands.

“I knew that if you found out you would want to go in search of her and with Escobar look-”

“That wasn’t you call!” I pointed at him slamming my hands on my desk. “I get that you are worried about me and I thank you for helping me these days but you had no right to intervene in my work”

“Oh like you did in mine?!”

“That was different! I didn’t run around behind Escobar or keep information from you”

“I was just trying to keep you safe” Frustrated, I threw his cup to the wall. I didn’t want to be ungrateful because he helped me but it wasn’t his decision to make.

“I am not going to apologise” I say more quietly. “I thank you for lending a hand but not telling me about her was the wrong decision since it was up to you at all” I gather my things and close up the file.

“Where are you going, you can’t go out there-” I turned around coming so close to his face I could see the surprise in his eyes.

“Thank you Murphy” I opened the door, putting some distance on us. “Hope to work with you again. Tell Connie she has been good and I’ll miss her” I shut the door leaving him standing alone in my office. I know what he was thinking. That I was going to pursue the case again but he was wrong. I grab the file tighter, setting the course in my mind. I had a destination and it wasn’t one I could take on foot. Each step I took I couldn’t help but think of the girl's parents. How I have to go back and let them know I haven’t brought her back with me. How I put a hold on her search. I couldn’t let that happen, right?

And that is how I spent my time back in my hometown, Mexico. I got on the plane Noonan had scheduled me for. I did what the protocol is and went straight to the office but I didn’t settle. The first couple of days were talking on the phone with a trusted agent. Told him every detail of the case and with the help of the ambassador, he went out to capture and rescue the girl. It took him a couple of weeks but as I turned in the folder I let my shoulder rest knowing that was the end of that. “As soon as I can I will see you back in the states”

“I think I am going to take a break from the states” I sat down in my apartment's kitchen chair. “Place my focus on helping more people, maybe even-”

“What you need to do is relax. Take a vacation”

“You really did take to heart helping people at the bar didn’t you Diego?” Marcus. He survived and I didn’t feel relieved until I got the news 2 days after arriving in Mexico.

“Am serious” He groans

“As am I. I don’t need a vacation, I need to work”

“Whatever you say. I will contact you if anything happens” I mumble an ok before hanging up. Maybe I should take a vacation, I think I need some piece of what is the closest to being a home. I can’t remember the last time I visited Monterrey. I left after studying criminology and psychology. Moved and started in Quantico but later was transferred to the DEA. In the span of almost a decade I have been on the move, never once looked back. This is not a sad thing. I never dreamed of staying there forever, but now was certainly the time to go back.

Chapter 11

GHOST

Javier Pena x Reader

Chapter 11

“Mija! Someone is here to see you” I get up in a hurry and move my hand to hold on to my gun. I don’t know anyone around and my grandmother isn’t expecting anyone. “This kind gentleman-” I came around to see a tall figure dressed in a suit standing there. “Do you know him?” She was questioning the whole thing too but I couldn’t get her worried.

“Yes. I will be right outside” With a nod she sends me off. “Who sent you?” I continued moving until I knew it was far away for my grandmother to see or hear anything.

“Noonan. You have been assigned a new case” He pulls out a folder and hands it to me. “She wants you on the earliest flight out” I nod.

“Tell her something for me?” The guy nods. “Tell Noonan the next time she sends someone to my grandmother's house, it will be the last time she hears of me” The guy nods again. “You know what?” I examine the file to see the location. “I will go and tell her myself” With a smile I motion for him to go ahead and leave. I make sure he does too.

“Is anything wrong?” I shake my head throwing the file in a drawer. I turn around to see my grandmother standing in the doorway with her arms crossed. I gave an annoyed sigh knowing she wasn’t going to let it go. “There are different ways to get in contact with me and she chose to send someone to your house” She doesn’t seem angry, she never was. It would be hard to read her at first but living with her from the age of 3 made her expressions obvious.

“He was cute” I shake my head with a smile.

“I can get you their number” I say jokenly which earned me a hit on my arm

“I mean’t for you, have to leave some for you right?” I roll my eyes laughing. “But you don’t want any of them do you?” She came closer grabbing onto my hands.

“I am not underestimating their true value but for now, men are useless” I didn’t need a pause on my life

“Honey” We both sit on the edge of the bed. “Building a big farm with a bunch of animals. The beautiful brick house with four pairs of feet running around will not happen with you moping.”

“Yeah, but I don’t need it right now. Plus the men I have met are just not it” I didn’t want to be descriptive but the only men I meet are on my travels and at work. They both have the same priority and that's hook up and disappear. Dine and Ditch. Seduce and then reduce.

“What about the guy from your last trip?”

“Ehh” I try to defer her question, which I have successfully done for a couple of days that I’ve been back. “What's for dinner?” But no good. She grabs my arm and pulls me back when I try to stand up.

“Mija” She says calmly at first but gets louder and annoyed with every word after that. “You are going to turn old and sour and no one will put up with you! You will be the crazy lady on the block and I will die before I get affiliated to that!” I wanted to mumble something along the lines of, You will be dead before that happens anyways, but it will be like passing down the crown. “You’re a good kid. Always so nice even when you have your father's temper and some other qualities that have to be genetics” She chuckles a bit. “Stubborn like your mother but I know I raised you to be better than all of that. I want you to find that someone who is right for you and I know you have to feel ready but you have to put some work into it too” I nod knowing she was right.

“I just haven’t felt the right thing. I want to be right” She nods slowly before getting up. I look up only to be hit on the side of the head. Not hard of course.

“Mija, get off your high horse. Nothing is going to be perfect, you just have to go for it. You don’t find the right person, it just happens and you can’t let fear of them not being the one kill that for you.If you allow it too, you will searching your whole life”

“Abuela?”

“Yes?” She says sweetly

“I think my problems are all caused by the hits you give me to my head” My grandma shake her head with a smile

“I should have sent you back a long time ago” I hold my laugh. “Let's go eat before it gets cold” The rest of the evening was spent enjoying the food and then it moved outside to see the sun go down behind the mountains. It felt safe staying here. I always thought in a couple of years I would move back for certain. I look over to my grandmother who has no one here most of the time and I think of doing it for her, it makes the decision feel better. But then I try to look past the mountains at what could be.

“You were always an overthinker” I turned to face her again as she was on her rocking chair. “But when things came to a decision point even if it was sudden, you always figure it out”

“Half of the time am praying it's not the wrong one”

“You are always doubting yourself too. You do for the people and you don’t seem to understand how grateful they are for you” I think helping is a normal thing, not something someone should be praised about. Its natural human decency. “You help families come together, have closure.” She stops rocking her chair to turn towards me. “Even if it's not publicized to the whole world, you continue to help the less known. People without a big voice. You just turn around and don’t truly take in what it means to them, you think of yourself as someone who just simply picked up something they dropped.” I look anywhere but her eyes. I didn’t feel like being lectured about another thing. “All I am saying is, you don’t have to change. You are already doing bigger things and becoming a better person. I just want you to be happy” I look over nodding my head.

“I am happy. It's just some rough patches I go through, but I am okay”

“Okay” She nods, leaning back in her chair to continue rocking. I can't help but roll my eyes. “If you continue to roll your eyes it will get stuck” Of course she would know. I swear she actually has eyes in the back of her head. I look back at the scenery and start praying for this time to last. But it didn’t, soon enough I was on my way back to Bogota, Colombia.

Chapter 12

GHOST

Javier Pena x Reader

Chapter 12

It was the perfect time to head into the office. Mid morning and am sure the ambassador was in. “Carmen is she in?” I ask, walking straight to the secretary's desk.

“Yes but-” She stood up trying to stop me from walking in.

“Thanks” I say, closing the door behind me. I walk towards her desk and throw a file ontop of the map she was looking at. “This is my resignation. After I am finished with the case, it will be the last one”

“L/N!” I heard a stomp as I was already halfway to the door. “You can't just barge in like this. Take a seat outside and I will be right with you to speak about this” I turned around confused and she took my silence as an understanding. “I apologise” She looks back to the men sitting around her. It included Wysession,Murphy,Pena, and a CIA officer who I've only seen around a couple times. I took a deep breath in and decided to take a seat on her office’s couch. Staring at her I calmed down a bit. Everything I wanted to say disappeared, I was trying to be nice. As the conversation ends I stand up saying goodbye to the guys.

“How long are you staying for this time?” My eyes rapidly looked back to Pena who stopped at the door. I walk closer seeing Noonan react to us. He sounded annoyed?

“Not for long.” I say dryly, turning my heel and walking to Noonan’s desk. I push the file forward. “I told you to never come and find me in that place. It was one of the rules and you broke it. After this case is over, so is my agreement”

“I needed to get ahold of you as quick as possible”

“I don’t care. You violated the agreement so I must turn in my resignation” She was shocked. “I made sure to not put this in the file because I know you are having the time of your life searching for Escobar again.”

“I will keep it here until you return. Just to give you time-” I shake my head

“I don’t need time. I had enough time to think about it while I was with my grandmother and on the plane”

“Look, I apologise-”

“I know it's important” I cut her off. “But you know it's not as important as keeping her safe or the people I love. So file it or not, I will not be working for you anymore” I stood up and walked out the door. My body was feeling flames all around. My eye sight narrowed at the exit.

“Y/N?” I didn’t stop until a hand wrapped around my arm to turn me around and pull me towards another room. I look over to find Pena standing there.

“What?”

“What?” He looked shocked. He walked closer to make sure my eyes were fixed on him too. “First of all I wanted to make sure you were okay. What does it mean you are quitting? And second, I want to know why you left all of a sudden without another word?” Did I seriously have to give him an explanation? Who was he to grab me and demand answers? I wanted to turn around and leave but I stood my ground. It was time to deal with this.

“First of all, I don’t need to be giving you an explanation for either of those things. Second of all, if you decide to do this again I will have your resignation on her desk next”

“You love power don’t you?” I took a step back knowing I couldn’t stop him from pushing back. “To have something hanging over people's head to get your way or just make them scared of you?

“Don’t act like you don’t like it either. When you are integrating people? When you grab an informat and make them scream out information?” I place my hands on his leather jacket. “Don’t tell me it doesn’t feel good?” I rake my hand up until it settles on both his cheeks. “Power is meant to be used. Do you want a refresher?” I push my body against his. My face goes in the crook of his shoulder. I place a kiss and another until his head is thrown back with eyes closed. His hands find my hips pushing us against the wall. “Remember?” I whisper as I remove my hands and unbuckle his pants.

“Mhm” He looks down seeing me slide my hand into his pants and grab his cock. “Baby” He groans as my hold tightens.

“I remember how good and big this is” His eyes quickly flashes towards mine. “How you stretched me out that day” I began to plam him as best I could in his tight pants. “I can still feel you” I was trying to tease him but my legs buckled and that was it. His lips took dominance over mine and his hand pulled mine out his pants to be held behind my back. With one hand holding both of mine hostage behind me and the other forcing my chin to look up as he kisses me desperately. His tongue crosses to the other side exploring every inch. I couldn’t explain how much I needed this but the tear coming out of my eye because of just one kiss could. I struggle to push my hands away wanting nothing more than to pull him closer and deepen the kiss.

“I’ll show you the power you crave and how it might not be as fun for the other person” I groan as he pulls away from my lips. It was quickly replaced with a grunt. He turned my body around, still using my hands as leverage.

“Javi” I whined trying to break loose again but only earning me a slap on the ass.

“The only thing you have to do is say please” He dragged out the last word teasing me. I roll my eyes, shaking my head. “Okay” My arms tightened behind me and a cold metal layed on my wrist. Handcuffs?!. I didn’t give it any reaction knowing it would only encourage him more. “My princessa lost her manners” He straightens up, pushing up against my back. “Have to teach you some manners?” He hummed as he took my face and pulled me into another kiss. Fucking hell, my body starts moving against his clear erection in his pants. The friction easily causes an arisal in my lower body. I wanted to touch him. Pull him closer. Have him underneath me fucking fast and hard like last time, I need him. “Think you can be a good enough girl to keep quiet?”

“No,” I pout. I hear a low chuckle as I look over my shoulder to see his pants on the floor. His big strong hands pulled his boxers down to reveal such a pretty view.

“No?” He teases as his hand wraps around his cock and slowly starts moving up and down. His tip red and precum was smearing. I was like an animal on hit unconsciously backing up my rear trying to get closer. “It's okay,” He whisper. He takes hold of my hair with one hand as the other is still teasing his cock. “I have the power here” Seconds go by of him grinning against me and his groans and grunts are all I can hear in my ear. The pain in my scalp of him pulling me only adds to the explosion I can no longer bear.

“Fuck me” I whisper unable to whine. “Javi, I need you” I close my eyes pushing up harder against him not caring how desprate I look right now.

“All you have to say is a simple word”

“No” I groaned again. He releases my hair and his body is no longer flushed against mine. I was about to cry out what he wanted until my pants were pulled down along with my panties. “Gonna fuck me?” I feel one hand move under my shirt circling my back. My sense was clear to him, teasing my clit with his cock. “Mi amor” I moaned, pushing more to get some pressure release but he continued to tease me.

“So wet” I could hear his breath caught in his throat but I disgared it. All I wanted was him inside of me. “So wet you don’t need any preparation”

“No” I shake my head. “I just need you” I look back at him, his eyes fixed on me.

“Look so pretty like this” I groaned, feeling him lay his chest on my back slowly sliding into me but only the tip. His strong hands groped my hip forbidding me from pushing back all the way. I can feel he needs it too. The way there is already sweat forming on his forehead and how his breathing has quickened. The force on my hips tells me he is desprate to be inside me. One of my hands twisted to lay flat against his front lower half. It caresses his skin, unable to move further down but it would have to do.

“So stubborn my love” I whisper seeing how his eyes shut. “I want this” I wiggle my ass feeling how his cock twiches to some movement. “I need you” I moan as his head falls on my shoulder taking a bit to hold on to his moan. “But fuck do you need this more”

“Fuck this” He grunts straighting up. Gripping my hips with more force and slamming into me. I let out a loud moan.

“Shit” I tried to hold on to something but with my hands restrained I couldn’t. My face is cold against the wall. My body arched to accommodate him. On hand slide up to my chest to pull me against him and the other continues to force my pelvis to be positioned just right as he fucks me.

“I don’t care being wrong as long as I get to be fucking you” He hand moves to my throat and with a tight hold my pussy clenches on to him, not wanting to let go. “To ge to fuck this pussy” I try to say something smart but with the fast pace he is going and the air he is not letting go through my throat, all I can do is let out a moan. “How I missed this” My wrists were surly red by this point as I was tugging for a release as was my pussy. “Now I am going to cum in you to remind you how well this feels” He groans. His hand is removed from my throat to push me down on a desk.

The change of position as he lifts my leg on the desk is what gets me begging. He is going in deeper and deeper, reaching places no one has been able to.

“Javi, please baby” My croaked voice was not sexy but he didn’t seem to mind. “Cum in me” I grunt, tightening against him. “I need your cum in me please” I beg again and it was like a fuel to him as his pace quickens

“Fuck yeah baby. Begging so nicely” Fucking hells. His cock throbs and twitches knowing he was not going to last long. “Now I know how to get you to behave like a good girl” My pussy tighten, fucking him dry as I cum along with him. The sound of bodies slapping against each other slowly fades. The breathing starts to normalise. The heat in our bodies beging to cool down. The mixture of us was running down my leg. The slow caress on my back calms me down. But the slow hip thrust he is still doing is going to make me sore when he pulls out.

“Javi” I whine trying to stand up but with the same hand that is caressing my back he pushes me down. “You need to pull out” I of course didn’t mean it like that, it was too late to test his pull out game.

“I like it here” His low chuckle earns an eye roll from me but I would be lying if I said I wanted him to stop. “I like the view and the warmth you give my cock” I hold in my moan. “Plus you have no option” He was referring to the hand cuffs still around my wrist.

“Javi please” I whine, pulling on the cuffs.

“See what improvement we are making?” He slowly pulls out and my pussy clenches on the feeling of him. “You learned some manners” Still laying on the desk I feel him start to clean our cum up my leg. “I will save this view for later” I feel a kiss on my ass as he stands. “Until I can replace it with your cum dripping out after I feast on you” He pulls me up and removes the hand cuffs. “Legs over my shoulder” He takes my hips and flips me around. “Tongue exploration every undiscovered inch of you” He goes down but only to pull up my panties and pants. “And every inch of my fingers playing and fucking your sweet pussy” The feeling my chest was back. How the hell did he make my want to suck him off right here and let him fuck me again until I am a ragdoll.

“Next time?” Was all I could gather to say to him. His eyes open in surprise to hear those words. At this point I didn’t know what I was saying but the feeling of hope gave me a reason to smile. He buttons up my pants with a nod.

“How’s tonight?”

Chapter 13

GHOST

Chapter 13

After agreeing a set time to meet tonight I turned around to open the door but was pulled back. He convinced me to sit down and talk to him about what was going on. I wasn’t stupid. Not just because he gave me a good time, it doesn’t mean I am willing to open up to him.

“You got assigned another job? Why would you resign? Why-”

“Woah there agent” I hold my hand stopping him mid sentence. “One question at a time.” I fix myself on the chair preparing myself for this conversation. “I can’t tell you every detail but yes” Javier leans back in his seat ready to listen. “Noonan assigned me to Argentina. A form of undercover work”

“For Pablo or another narco organization?”

“No, I don’t know” His eyes shot daggers. It said, No? I don’t know? Then who the hell does? Aren’t you supposed to know before throwing yourself in those kinds of situations? To be honest it was the truth. I didn’t ask questions and it was dangerous but that's how it has always been. But in this case, I couldn’t tell him what it was about. “I don’t get the full run down for my safety”

“Bullshit!” He rolls his eyes. “They don’t give you everything because they don’t want you to say no”

“Javier” He looks back at me. “It's part of my job. I know enough to do it, plus it is my last job with them” It's my turn to relax back on the chair. It finally hit me that I would be able to do whatever I want after this.

“Why?” I shrug trying to get on his nerves and it worked. As he rubs his face he lets out a sigh.

“Noonan broke the agreement and it was a major screw up I couldn’t take lightly” Our heads turned to the door opening and it revealed an agent Murphy.

“Were you two here talking the whole time?” I gave Javier a glare knowing his stupid smirk would follow a snarky response. “Can we talk for a minute?” I find Murphy's eyes.

“No” I shake my head. I stand up grabbing my things.

“Care to put this on hold for Connie?” He whispered as I got closer to the door. I furrowed my brows confused

“She needs someone to talk to and heard you were here so she invited you for lunch” I rolled my eyes but I knew it would be harsh to say no to Connie when she wasn’t involved.

“Fine” With that I push myself out the door.

“I’ll drive you” Murphy lifted his keys. I look back to Javier who was just standing behind him.

“Food? Am coming too” Javier snatched the keys from Steve’s hand, getting a head start towards the car. It was the least amusing situation. We got to the car and I moved straight to the back seat. The driver who I recently got fucked by, was locking eyes with me every other minute in the rear view mirror. But can you blame me? He had pretty eyes. The passenger cost me a job and could’ve cost me a life. He put in jeopardy my work ethic and he had no right to get himself involved like that. The drive down to their house was silent so when Javier put the car in park I was out like a flash. Connie opened the door with a big smile and open arms.

“Hey!” She engulfed me to her side. When I noticed what she was carrying it was too late, it was in my arms now. “Her name is Olivia” She screamed back as she ran back into her house towards the kitchen.

“We are adopting her,” Steve said, moving into the house aswell but not before kissing her forehead hello. I looked down and it was obviously a Colombian baby. Not older than 1. Dark hair and eyes. She was beautiful.

“Come on” I felt a slight push on my lower back and I turned to see Javier there. I slowly move in and hear the door close behind me. The babygirl was wide-eyed looking at my unfamiliar face.

“She’s beautiful” I say walking over to the kitchen to sit on the island chairs. “Her parents-?”

“Yeah” Connie nodded. “She is a pretty little girl who needed a home and I was so happy to be able to give her one” By the middle of that sentence her voice turned mushy and baby-like as she was caressing her face now.

“Being a mom suits you” She whispered a thank you before hurriedly moving to the stove again.

“What are you doing in Bogota?” I turn my head to the boys watching tv but still ear shot away. I stood up, placing Oliva on my hip. I walked over to Connie as she was finishing up the food.

“Came to resign”

“What!” She yelped a little loud for my liking. It made Javier and Steve turn to look at us. “So you are not staying? What are your plans?”

“Yeah, you got the whole parent act down” We chuckle. I look down at Olivia bouncing her as she is starting to get fussy. “Problems at work made me realize it was time for something new”

“So you are thinking of traveling?” She looked over at Olivia and I. “Start a family? Or even settle down?” I shake my head quickly.

“No” I look over and try to find something to settle Oliva down with. “Bottle?” Connie turned and pointed at the cabinet next to the fridge. “I meant a new start to a new career” I pull down a bottle and start making it for Olivia. “Never saw myself as a parent or with someone, atleast not for a couple of years”

“Well I’d say with how easy you are handling an uneasy baby while preparing her bottle without a drop, I think you are ready when you decide to have one of your own” I start shaking her bottle and it's like no one has ever fed this baby before. Her small hands trying to reach for her bottle. Pouting and fussing because the bottle can’t be done soon enough.

“Had a lot of practice. Siblings. Nephews,Nieces, and a lot of family friends kids” I settle Olivia on my lap and handle her strong hands pulling on the bottle.

“You have never mentioned your family?” I look up as she serves the plates.

“Isn’t safe to do so in this line of work” She gives me a sympathetic look coming over to set the food on the table.

“How long has it been?” Since I've seen my grandmother?, a couple days. But the rest of my immediate family?

“6 years”

“Communicated?”

“Once in a while through a trusted contact” She nods understanding there wasn’t much to say about the topic.

“Food is ready boys!” She didn’t even have to wait another second because they were rushing to the table.

“Thanks honey” Steve kisses her cheek and sits down to start eating. I look down, noticing Olivia still with her eyes open.

“Let me settle her in her crib for her nap” Connie comes over but I wave her off.

“Don’t worry I can do it, eat” I can see the exhaustion in her eyes and how tense she was.

“Okay” she smiled, moving to sit beside Steve. “She doesn’t go down easy!” She screamed as I walked over to Olivia’s room. Her room still needs to be decorated but she has her dresser and crib equipted.

“Ready to go night night?” I put her on my chest and pat her back gently trying to burp her. “You have wonderful parents,” I whisper. “ But they choose this pair just for you” I can feel her stir less and her quiet goo’s slowly respond to me. “I know that they will bring you up wonderfully. Loved and treasured for as long as you let them” she responded with a burp but I wasn’t mad, my hand was getting kind of tired. “Ready to sleep?” I cradle her in my arms and start to sway her. She began to shake her head fighting the sleep that wanted to take over her. Surely over the next five minutes she fought strong but allowed sleep to win once again. “Beauty sleep is important, you know?” I whisper as I move over her crib and settle her down. “I’ll see you soon” With one last glance at her I turn around and head down to the kitchen.

“That was quick,” Steve announced, surprised.

“Always been good with kids. They love me”

“Sounds like the opposite to me. She probably fell asleep because it was better than having you hold her” Javier with a stuffed mouth turned to say. I know he was joking but it earned a punch to his arm.

“Shut up and eat your food. You probably spend more time shoving things in you face than actually working”

“I prefer to shove something else in my face but food will do it for now” I didn’t even want to look at him but his hand slipped to lay on my upper thigh and gave it a squeeze.

“Javier! Not in my house with that foul mouth” I chuckle at the scolding Javier was getting as I enjoyed a fresh meal. “So, Y/n?” I look over to Connie as she starts her question. “Change of career? Like what?”

“Teacher” I say noncholant. Not crazy about the kids but I like the idea of teaching

“College?” I can feel the shocked eyes Steve and Javier were giving me.

“Kindergarden” Now their eyes were popping out their sockets.

“Analyst to agent to accountanted to teacher, are you going to tell us your a doctor too”

“Maybe a lawyer?” Steve chuckles when Javiers reponds to his comment.

“Scared to take the bar. I have a doctorate degree in pyscology, so not technically a medical doctor if that's what you mean” Steve’s jaw fell open.

“Dr. Agent. Miss, y/l/n” Javier said trying to piece it all together

“Actually, SSA Dr. y/l/n” I look over with now his jaw on the floor. “But it's too technical, don’t worry your pretty head about it honey” I patted his cheek before continuing eating. The whole lunch we spent talking and laughing like friends who come together every weekend to share their lives. In this time I spent it thinking how it would actually feel. When I was younger as a teen I thought of myself married and traveling the world. Buying a home and enjoying my job. Coming home after a long day and talking to my husband. On a gateway weekend or go hiking with friends. It didn’t involve living a made uo life. Not seeing or having anyone that personal you can go and talk too. Can plan for the future because there is no guarantee there will be one.

“Have somewhere to be or can you stay awhile?” Connie asks as we walk towards the living room and leave the boys to clean up the table.

“I can stay awhile” I send a smile towards her.

“I’ll be back” She quickly says, running to Olivias aid.

“Am going to say goodbye then we can leave” Steve tells Javier as he dries his hand and runs behind Connie. I walk over to the book stand they had by the door and scan my eyes through the pictures.

“Ever see yourself in a white dress” I jump a bit hearing Javiers voice hoovering beside me.

“No” I cross my arms trying to not give into the feeling he always causes me whenever he is near.

“What about with a baby?” He moves closer pressing up against me. One hand falls to grip my hip to pull me flat against him while the other hand points at the picture of Steve’s little family.

“No” I grunt. His loose hand grabs my chin and makes my head turn to look at him.

“I do” I swore there was no stopping my next move. I twisted my body, grabbing fist full of his jacket and pulling him in for a kiss. His hands wrap around me settling themselves on my back to give us stability. Mouth fighting for dominance. “You would look so pretty” He pulled away.

“Shut up” I whisper, pulling him back in. He tasted so sweet. His tongue asked for entrance and I gladly gave in.

“We should go Javier” I turned around in embarrassment to fix myself.

“Thank you for the food Connie” Javier smiles before following Steve out the door. I cooled myself down before sitting alongside Connie on the couch.

“I need your opinion” my mind is still in a haze. I tried my darnest to focus on the words coming out of her mouth. “You are the only one who understands english and knows the kind of work my husband is in” She let out a sigh trying to gather words up.

“Connie,” I whisper, taking hold of her hands. “Is everything alright?” She shakes her head and that's when I notice tears rolling down her face.

“I want to leave this godamn place. Steve is stubborn on catching Pablo but I just can’t do this anymore” She sobs, leaning her head against me. “I wanted to leave before Olivia arrived and now with her, it's all I can think about” She wanted her safe. She wanted her whole family safe.

“You just have to talk to Steve about it. Colombia is not a safe place for a DEA agent’s family. Like it or not if it comes down to it, the narcos are willing to kill anybody” I didn’t know what to say, it wasn’t my place to say anything. But I could tell Connie needed it. “The reason I haven’t talked to my family or seen them is because of my job. It's a lonely job but I prefer to keep them safe. It is also the reason why I don’t plan to start a family anytime soon” Connie sits up wiping her nose and tears. “I see how the work falls on Steve and you being here is the only thing keeping sane and not running towards the bullets like a mad man” I smile hearing a slight chuckle coming from her.

“I know he needs me and being here before knowing he was coming home everyday was all I needed too, but now we have Olivia” We spoke more about her worries and discovered she was scared and anxious. This life gets you that way. She decided to have a talk with Steve as things have started to cool down with Escobar in prison. “So how long are you planning to stay down here for?”

“Am leaving tonight” I took a look down at my purse and saw the plane ticket.

Chapter 14

GHOST

Chapter 14

For the last couple days in Argentina I have been wandering around. Mostly tourist attractions during the day and bars at night. Alone, but that doesn't matter when you are practically tipsy every hour of the day. One time I swore I almost got something mixed in my drink. That and the fact that my visa was expiring, it told me it was time to leave. When I woke up in the hotel after sleeping off my drunkenness I took a look at the clock and it read 10. “Stupid headaches” I’ve always been prone to but that didn’t mean it made it any easier with every hangover. I cradle my head before gaining enough strength to stand up and make my way to a cold shower. Of course that was before I noticed a dark figure in the middle of the room. I pull out my gun aiming it at the unknown figure. “I really don’t feel like dealing with you right now” I groaned. The figure didn’t move or respond. My breathing started to get shaky, it's been a while since I had to harm anyone.

“You’re not going to shoot me, are you, mi amor?” His stupid proud voice sent anger to my body

“What the fuck Javier” I huffed letting the gun fall to my side. I feel his presence get closer as all I can still make out is his figure. There is a light cast of the moon coming through the window onto the bed. He leans forwards to see the papers laying there."Again, you are just leaving without a word? No explanation, no nothing?"

I shrugged, trying to appear nonchalant. "I don’t owe you any explanation Peña.” I come closer, removing the plane ticket from his hand. “It was just a fling, Javier. Don't make it more than it was."His jaw clenched, his voice low and menacing.

"A fling? You think I'd risk everything for a fling?" Suddenly, he pinned me against the wall, his body pressed against mine. "I care for you, damn it. And I won't let you just walk away."His lips crashed onto mine, aggressive and possessive. I tried to push him away, but he held me firm. As we kissed, his hands roamed my body, claiming me as his own. I felt a thrill of excitement mixed with fear. He broke away, his eyes burning with intensity. "You're staying with me. Tonight, and every night after that."With that, he swept me into his arms, carrying me to bed.As we crashed into the bed, Javier's lips devoured mine, his hands roaming my body with a fierce possessiveness. I felt his erection, hard and insistent, and I knew I was done for. his eyes burning with intensity as he tore off his clothes. I followed suit, my heart racing with anticipation.His body covering mine, his lips claiming me as his own. I felt his fingers tracing my curves, his touch setting me ablaze. There was no time to think as his hand moved downwards.He entered me with a fierce cry, his thrusts powerful and demanding. “Tell me this isn’t more than just a fling?” I wrapped my legs around him, pulling him deeper, our bodies moving in perfect sync. The room was a blur of passion and desire,it was intense and all-consuming. Biting my lips to hold on the moans he was causing me. Nails clawing his back. His hands were everywhere, his lips burning my skin.As we reached the peak, Javier's eyes locked onto mine, his gaze burning with possession. "You're mine," he growled, his voice low and husky.

I nodded, my body shuddering with release. "I'm yours," I whispered, my voice barely audible.

As we collapsed, exhausted and spent, Javier's arms wrapped around me, holding me close. "You're not leaving me again," he whispered, his voice filled with a fierce determination as he left a trail of kisses on my neck until he reached my lips again.

I smiled, feeling a sense of belonging. "I'm not going anywhere," I replied, my heart filled with a newfound love, at least that's what it felt like at the moment. As we lay there, the silence between us grew thicker, like a fog that refused to lift. The sex haze had worn off, and reality came crashing back.Javier was the first to break the silence, his voice low and hesitant.

"We need to talk."I nodded, knowing he was right.

"Yeah, we do." He turned to face me, his eyes searching mine.

"What's going on with us? One minute we're at each other's throats, the next...this." I took a deep breath, trying to gather my thoughts.

"I don't know. I just know I can't keep doing this, Javier. The push and pull, the anger and the passion...it's exhausting." Javier's expression softened, his eyes filling with a warmth that made my heart skip a beat.

"I know. Me neither. I want us to work, but we need to find a way to communicate without tearing each other apart."I nodded, feeling a glimmer of hope but it came crashing down just as fast. I took a long breath knowing I had to speak my mind. I shook my head, feeling a pang of sadness.

"Javier, I can't be with you. I have a life, a life where I can't put anyone in harm's way. And your life...it's not exactly safe, is it? And it includes partying, the girls...it's a life I can't be a part of."

Javier's expression darkened, his eyes flashing with frustration. "So you're saying I'm not good enough for you? That my life is too much for you to handle?"I reached out, placing a gentle hand on his arm.

"No, Javier, that's not what I'm saying. It's just...I have responsibilities, people who depend on me. And your lifestyle...it's not compatible with mine." Javier's face twisted in a scowl.

"You're just like all the others, judging me without even trying to understand me.” his arm

slid away from under my head. He sits up running his hands through his hair. "What's really driving you away? Is it me? Something I did?" I sighed, feeling a deep sorrow.

"Javier, that's not fair. I do understand you, and that's why I know we can't be together. You deserve someone who can keep up with your lifestyle, someone who can be a part of your world without worrying about the consequences. Everything you did we made the choice together.” Javier's eyes narrowed, his voice cold.

"So you're saying I'm not capable of change? That I'm stuck in this life forever?" I hesitated, knowing I had to be honest.

"I'm saying that I don't know if you can change,and I don’t want you too Javier. And even if you could, I don't know if I'm the right person to help you.” Javier's eyes flashed with anger.

"You're so quick to judge me, but what about you? You're not exactly perfect, are you? You've got your own issues, your own secrets."I felt a sting from his words, knowing he was right.

"What are you talking about?"

"Don't play dumb," Javier sneered. "I know all about your family, how you've cut them out of your life. And it's not just because you want to keep them safe, is it? It's because you've got commitment issues, because you can't bear to let anyone get close to you." That's too stupid. I felt a surge of defensiveness, but deep down, I knew he was right.

"That's not true," I lied.Javier laughed, a harsh sound.

"Don't lie to me. I've seen the way you push people away, the way you refuse to let anyone in. You're afraid of getting hurt, afraid of caring too much."His words hit too close to home, and I felt a lump form in my throat.

"Shut up," I whispered, trying to keep my emotions in check. Javier's expression softened, his eyes filling with a deep sadness. "I'm just telling the truth," he said quietly. "You're so afraid of getting hurt that you're willing to push away anyone who tries to get close to you. Including me." The words he used would usually get a rise out of me and I would end up screaming but his calm tone allowed me to think about what I was going to say.

“I care a lot” His head snaps at me. “I don’t show it because that is my nature, I can’t help it” I pushed my back against the headboard and took a deep breath. “Having my family away due to my work was probably one of the reasons I decided on this field. I wanted to be a teacher” A sad chuckle came out as tears started swelling up my eyes. “I guess it was a way to separate myself from everyone knowing they would be better off.” I turn to look at him. When I got the job opening I wanted to let it go. But that was before someone close to me got killed” Javier grabs a hold of me hand, giving it a slight squeeze. “The only survivor was his young son. Using the power I had in the FBI I placed myself in the search. Soon enough I found him and I couldn’t stop”

“Was it?” I nod my head.

“That family member was a politician in Mexico, you know how quickly they can go” Javier nods. “I felt a pain seeing him lose who he loved so I promised myself that it wouldn’t happen to anybody else I loved or anyone for that matter” I took a deep breath, trying to explain. "Javier, I've seen what happens when people get close to people in our line of work. They get hurt. Family, friends... all can be affected by this job, by the danger that follows it. I can't bear the thought of anything happening to someone close to me.” Javier's expression changed, his eyes filling with understanding and regret.

"Oh, mi amor...I had no idea. I'm so sorry." I shook my head, feeling a lump form in my

throat.

"Don't be sorry, Javier. Just understand why I have to push you away." But Javier shook his head, his eyes burning with intensity.

"No, I won't accept that. I care about you, deeply. And I was willing to give up my old life for you, to be with you and only you." My heart skipped a beat at his words.

"What do you mean?" Javier took my hands, his touch sending shivers down my spine.

"I mean that I was ready to leave the partying, the girls...all of it. I wanted to be with you, to build a life with you. But you pushed me away before I could even try." I felt a pang of regret, realizing what I had done. “We always start with a disagreement and then we sleep together than you leave”

"Javier, I...I didn't know." Javier's eyes filled with sadness.

"I know. And now...now I don't know if I can ever go back to that place again." Javier's eyes locked onto mine, his gaze burning with determination. "But I have to go back to Colombia, Pablo Escobar escaped, and I won't rest until he's brought to justice."I nodded, understanding. "But I don't want to do it without you," he said, his voice softening. "You quit the DEA, but I know you still have a passion for the work. And I need you, mi amor. I need your skills, your expertise...and your love." My heart skipped a beat as he took my hands. "Will you come with me? Will you be my partner, in every sense of the word?" I felt a rush of excitement mixed with fear. Going back to Colombia, facing the dangers and uncertainties...it was a daunting prospect.

"I'll go back to Colombia with you, but not to work with the DEA. I'm done with that life." Javier's eyes sparkled with amusement.

"Okay, mi amor. But what do you say about us? What about our relationship?" I took a deep breath, trying to sound calm.

"I want to take things slow. I want to get to know you better, without the danger and adrenaline of our jobs. And...no sex until we've had a proper date." Javier burst out laughing, his eyes crinkling at the corners.

"A date? You want me to take you on a date?" I nodded, feeling a sense of determination.

"Yes, I do. I want to see if we can connect without the intensity of our past encounters." Javier's grin faltered, and he looked at me with a newfound respect.

"Okay, mi amor. I agree. We'll take things slow, and I'll take you on a proper date. But can I at least try to” he hinted with a grin I rolled my eyes, smiling.

"You can try, but I'm not promising anything." Javier chuckled, his eyes glinting with amusement.

"Fair enough. But I'm warning you, mi amor...I'm very persuasive." I raised an eyebrow, feeling a thrill of excitement.

"I'm shaking in my boots."Javier turned to me, his eyes sparkling with mischief.

"Oh yeah? Don't believe me?" he whispered, his voice low and husky.I shook my head, trying to maintain my resolve.

"No, Javier. I mean it. No sex until we've had a proper date."Javier chuckled, his eyes glinting with amusement. He reached out, his fingers brushing against my skin, sending shivers down my spine.

"Let me show you just how persuasive I can be," he said, his breath hot against my ear.I felt my heart racing, my resolve weakening. But I stood firm, trying to resist his charms.

"No, Javier. I'm serious."Javier sighed, his shoulders sagging in mock defeat.

"Okay, mi amor. I'll behave. For now." He turned to face me, his eyes locking onto mine.

"But don't think you're off the hook that easily. I'll plan the perfect date, and then...we'll see." I smiled, feeling a sense of anticipation.

"I'm looking forward to it." We sat there for a moment, the tension between us palpable. Then Javier spoke up, his voice soft.

"You know, mi amor...I really like you. Not just your body, but you. Your strength, your courage...your determination." My heart skipped a beat at his words. No one had ever looked at me like that before. No one had ever made me feel so seen.

"I like you too, Javier," I said, my voice barely above a whisper. Javier smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners.

"Good," he said. "Because I'm not going anywhere.”As we sat there, the tension between us dissipated, Javier leaned in, his eyes locked onto mine. I could feel the warmth of his breath on my skin, and my heart skipped a beat in anticipation.His lips brushed against mine, soft and gentle, like a whisper. It was a tender kiss, one that spoke of promise and possibility. I felt my lips respond, opening to his, allowing him to deepen the kiss.But he didn't. Instead, he pulled back, his eyes still locked onto mine. "I promised I'd behave," he whispered, a sly smile spreading across his face.I smiled back, feeling a sense of wonder.

"You're a man of your word," I said, my voice barely above a whisper.Javier nodded, his eyes still sparkling with mischief.

"Always," he said. "Now, let's get some sleep. We have a big day ahead of us tomorrow." I nodded, feeling a sense of excitement. What did tomorrow hold? And what did the future hold for us? Only time would tell.

———

I woke up early enough to sneak out the bedroom to finish packing my things. Once I finished packing, and as I zipped up my last bag, Javier walked up to me, still rubbing the sleep from his eyes. "Hey, what's going on?" he mumbled. I cut to the point,

"I need to make a pit stop before heading to Colombia." Javier's eyes narrowed,

"What's going on? You're being secretive again." He walks closer, narrowing his eyes. I sighed, feeling frustrated, and moved him to sit on the couch beside me.

"Javier, listen. My grandmother is in Mexico. She's been alone for a long time, by her own choice. But now that she's getting older, she needs someone to take care of her." Javier's expression softened, but he still looked concerned.

"What does this have to do with us?" I took a deep breath,

"Not us, me. I want to bring her to the United States, to be with the rest of my family. My job is no longer a risk, and I want to give her a better life." She shouldn’t be alone waiting for me to return after every job. And now that I am no longer doing those kinds of jobs, she will be waiting even longer for me to visit. Javier's eyes widened in understanding, but then his face fell,

"And you didn't think to tell me about this? You could’ve asked me for help"I shook

my head,

"I didn't want to burden you with more secrets, Javier. But I promise, this is the last one."

Javier's face fell, his eyes clouding with hurt.

"You didn't think to ask for my help? I'm here, I'm with you, and you didn't think to include me in this?" I reached out, taking his hand.

"Javier, I knew you'd want to get to Colombia as soon as possible, to keep chasing Pablo. I didn't want to hold you back." He shook his head, his voice low.

"That's not the point. The point is, you didn't trust me enough to ask for my help." I sighed,

trying to explain.

"Transporting my grandmother will only take a couple of days, and then I'll meet you in Colombia. I promise." Javier's expression turned skeptical.

"And what if something happens? What if you need my help?" I squeezed his hand.

"I'll be fine, Javier. I promise. And I'll meet you soon." Javier nodded slowly, his eyes still clouded with hurt, but he seemed to understand.

"Okay, mi amor. But next time, ask for my help. I'm here for you." I smiled, feeling a sense of vulnerability.

"Having someone there for me is new, Javier. I've had to take care of myself my whole life. But as we grow together, I'll learn to let you help me." Javier nodded understandingly, his eyes softening.

"I get it, mi amor. I'm patient." I playfully rolled my eyes.

"Good, because we're not even dating, remember?" Javier's face lit up with a mischievous

grin.

"Oh, really?” I chuckled, trying to maintain the charade.

"Yeah, I'm just using you for your skills, Javier. You're a means to an end." Javier laughed, pulling me into a gentle embrace.

"Sure, mi amor. Keep telling yourself that." As we hugged, I couldn't help but feel a sense of comfort and belonging. Maybe, just maybe, I was starting to let him in.

“So does that mean I can talk to other girls?” Javier's question was met with an immediate eye roll from me.

"Ugh, really? You're going to try to push my buttons like that?" I shook my head, laughing.

"No, Javier, that doesn't mean you can talk to other girls. Don't even think about it." Javier chuckled, holding up his hands in mock defense.

"Okay, okay, I get it. No other girls. I'm all yours...even if we're not dating." I playfully hit him on the arm, smiling.

"Shut up, Javier." Javier's eyes sparkled with mischief.

"Hey, you never said we couldn't kiss before our first date. So, how about it?" I feigned innocence, batting my eyelashes.

"Whatever are you talking about, Javier?" Javier chuckled, pulling me closer.

"Don't play coy, mi amor. I know you want to." I giggled, trying to maintain the act.

"I do not! You're just trying to trick me into kissing you." Javier's face was inches from mine, his voice low and persuasive.

"Maybe a little. But come on, just one kiss. It's not like we're committing to marriage." I couldn't resist his charming smile, and eventually, I gave in, leaning in for a soft, sweet kiss. Javier's lips curved into a triumphant smile as he wrapped his arms around me, deepening the kiss. As Javier's arms wrapped around my waist, I felt a rush of excitement. He gently pulled me onto his lap, and I settled in, feeling the warmth of his body beneath me. His hands rested on my hips, and I could feel his fingers tracing gentle patterns on my skin. I leaned into him, my head on his shoulder, and felt a sense of comfort and security. Javier's lips brushed against my ear, sending shivers down my spine. "I'm glad we're doing this," he whispered, his breath sending tingles through my body. I smiled, feeling happy and content.

"Me too," I replied, my voice barely above a whisper. We sat there for a moment, wrapped in each other's arms, enjoying the warmth and closeness. It felt like time had stood still, and all that mattered was this moment, this feeling. As I sat on Javier's lap, he began to rub my back, his hands moving in gentle circles. His touch was soothing, and I felt my muscles relax, letting go of all the tension and stress. I closed my eyes, savoring the feeling, and let out a soft sigh. Javier's hands moved up to my shoulders, kneading out the knots and kinks.

"Feel good?" he whispered, his breath warm against my ear. I nodded, my eyes still closed, and murmured,

"Mmm-hmm." Javier continued to rub my back, his touch sending waves of relaxation through my body. I felt myself melting into his lap, feeling safe and protected in his arms. As he rubbed, he leaned in closer, his cheek brushing against mine. I could feel his warmth, his presence. Javier's hands paused on my back, and I could sense a subtle tension in his body. I opened my eyes, looking up at him with a playful smile.

"Trying to behave, Javier?" I teased, my voice barely above a whisper. Javier's eyes locked onto mine, and I saw a flicker of desire before he looked away, clearing his throat.

"Trying to be a gentleman," he said, his voice low and husky. I chuckled, leaning in closer.

"I think you're doing a great job," I whispered, my breath brushing against his ear. Javier's hands tightened on my back, and for a moment, I thought he might give in to the tension between us. But then he took a deep breath and gently lifted me off his lap, setting me beside him.

"I think that's enough for now," he said, his voice firm but playful. I grinned, teasing him.

"Spoilsport." As I sat beside Javier, I glanced down at my watch and my heart skipped a beat. I was running late for my flight! I had completely lost track of time, caught up in the moment with Javier."Oh no, I'm late!" I exclaimed, jumping up from the couch. "My flight is supposed to leave in 20 minutes!" Javier's eyes widened in surprise.

"Already? I didn't realize it was so late." I grabbed my bag and started to rush out the door, but Javier caught my arm.

"Wait, mi amor. Let me drive you to the airport." I hesitated for a moment, but then nodded.

"Okay, thank you. I don't have time to argue." Javier smiled and grabbed his keys.

"Let's go. We'll make it." We sped to the airport, Javier's skilled driving getting us there just in the nick of time. As we pulled up to the terminal, I could see the flight attendants preparing to close the doors.

"Thank you, Javier!" I exclaimed, grabbing my bag and jumping out of the car. Javier followed me, his eyes locked on mine.

"Anytime, mi amor. Be safe, okay?" We reached the gate just as they were about to close it. I turned to Javier, my heart racing with excitement and a hint of sadness at leaving him behind. Javier took my face in his hands, his eyes burning with intensity. "I'll miss you," he whispered, his lips brushing against mine in a soft, sweet kiss. I melted into the kiss, feeling a rush of emotions.

"I'll miss you too," I replied, my voice barely audible. With one last look, I turned and

rushed through the gate, making it onto the plane just as the doors closed behind me. I found my seat, buckled in, and gazed out the window, watching as Javier stood there, his eyes fixed on me until the plane took off.

Chapter 15

GHOST

Chapter 15

Every minute and every second was filled with questions and concerns. My grandmother said it was not a good thing to get stuck in my head while making a decision. It's best to make it at the moment because then I start to think about everything that could go wrong and then I get afraid or worried and I back off. That is what is currently happening right now. Since I got on the plane and all the way to Mexico. While in Mexico helping my grandmother pack and now on the plane about to land in the United states. “After many flights, don’t tell me you are afraid of flying?” I narrow my eyes at my grandmother who is calmly sitting beside me. I took in my senses and my body does feel warm. I bet if I touch my forehead there will be some sweat. My leg always shakes but it's like it wants to go on its own. “Wanna hold my hand?” She speaks again

“No” I shake my head, turning it to see the plane preparing for landing. I could hear a slight chuckle but didn’t turn to give it any attention.

“I feel like there is more bothering you than you let on. And I know it's not being jobless because I have not seen such happiness before you left for Argentina” I wanted to blurt out everything. Tell her what was going on but it was a decision I could only make and knowing her, that was exactly what she would tell me.

“You know I hate change and this brings major changes in my life. It's not the uncerntanity but the stress of making the wrong decision from now on” My eyes are still focused on the window as the plane descends on the ground.

“You have always had a good compass guiding you. Whether it's job wise or personal things, I know everything will turn out okay” I nod this time turning to look at her with a smile. Our attention turned when the flight attendant announced we were going to begin our exit. I took a big inhale and calmed down more. As we got out of the plane and walked out the airport I felt more content.

“Where is he?” My grandmother spoke a little irritated. I only smiled while checking my phone for the time.

“There he is,” I pointed at a known vehicle that was pulling up just in time before my grandmother got more annoyed. That is certainly where my mother gets her patience. I took hold of her suitcase as she climbed right into the passenger seat of the truck.

“I’ve missed you too grandma” I laugh helping him put our suitcase in the back. “Prima!” He finally turns and wraps me into a hug.

“Primo” I say really missing the only person my age I grew up with in this family. “How's Holly?”

“Pregnant as ever” He sighs. “I know we planned not to have kids but you took it too seriously, when's your turn?” I rolled my eyes shaking my head

“Once I see how well you adapt I will start thinking about it” He laughs, throwing his head back.

“I wouldn’t relay that on me” Our laughs were quite down. “So glad you are here. I know you are keeping this a secret from the rest but don’t you want to see them atleast for a while?” I looked over to my grandmother who was currently rolling down her window.

“I have been on a plane for hours! Can we get moving?” We both respond with a yes. I look back and nod my head.

“I think it would do me good seeing and interacting with some else for a while” I laugh walking over to get in the car

“For a while?” He raises his eyebrow.

“Do you mind?” I ask before getting into the car.

“Not at all” He smiled, pulling the driver doors open and getting in. “So? Abuela how have you been?” As we are still a way out from our small town they stay talking for a bit.

“Great.” I have not seen my grandmother respond so harshly. Before I could settle the situation down my phone started ringing.

“Hello?” I answer unknowingly because I still have an unmarked phone. There were only a couple people who could contact me and none of whom I wanted to talk to right now.

“Hey” My brows lowered while my heart beat started to rise. I look over to the front and how quiet it got, great. “We haven’t spoken since you left, I wanted to know how things were going” I had lost all my knowledge of the english or spanish language. “Is everything okay?” I could hear on the other side of the phone a chair scraping the floor along with chatter but soon the slam of a door closing. I was punching myself in the gut right now. I mean I have been trained to carry out a negotiation or any type of interrogation and I can’t even make up some words.

“We will be home soon” I look up to my cousin's words. I look past the windshield and notice us turning to a dirt road.

“Who was that?” I didn’t know why my whole body was failing right now. I don’t know if it was the Javier part. Not knowing if to let my family know about him now or the part where I was nervous and on the verge of throwing up because this is the first time in years I would see them again. I shake my head, focusing on what was happening right now.

“Javi” My voice was low and until I spoke I didn't notice my hands shaking. I looked down at my feet trying to focus on the sound of his voice.

“Mi amor?” I took a deep breath knowing I wasn’t prepared to speak freely infront of my family.

“Yeah?” I cleared my throat trying to sound better.

“On your way to see your family?” I unconsciously nod my head. But like always, Javier seemed to know me best and knew what my silence meant. “It will all be okay. They never stopped loving you and would never question your decision because I know without knowing them that they are beyond proud of you” The sting in my nose began as tears welled up my eyes. My mind wanted to scream to him. I couldn't do it but he was one step ahead of me. “You owe them no explanation, don’t be afraid to tell them how much you missed them. Trust me, once you are with them all the nerves and stress would look silly to you” I nod my head again with a small and quiet laugh I couldn’t help but let out. “There’s my girl” My eyes closed as my smile grew bigger. I need to remind myself to go to a priest as soon as I can. Having such a word turn all my senses into wanting, is not normal. My voice was held up now for totally different reasons now. “Feel better?” I could sense a grin on his face. One of those grins I dream about most nights.

“Much” I straighten up in my seat as the truck does another turn.

“Okay” I hear a sigh from his end. “Now are you going to tell me who that male voice belonged to?”

“No” I bet my voice sounded giddy at this point. I couldn’t help it every time I spoke to Javier.

“Do I have to make another trip?”

“You wouldn’t know where to start” I whisper, noticing somehow the ambiance getting quieter.

“I just have to follow one thing”

“Yeah? What is that?”

“My heart” My head falls down as one hand stops what would be an obnoxious laugh to be let out.

“I am going to hang up now” I tease obviously without a single inch of truth in that statement.

“Yeah” He chuckles. “I will reel it in a bit” Another pause. I started to wonder where he was and what he was doing. In Colombia it is early morning so he probably just got to work. “How long?”

“I don’t know” I speak a little louder not wanting to attract the wrong question from my grandmother later on.

“That's okay. Just tell me one thing?” My hand was clammy against my skin as I tried to calm myself down. “I will see you again?” A slight weight had been removed. I don’t think I could take another worry on my shoulder.

“Yes” I hear an okay on the other side.

“Give me a second” I hear him say before speaking to another person who entered the room he was in. “What?” I smile remembering how he was at work. He would walk around with such a stare on his face. Full of thought or just hating the world but I could never tell with him before. “Tell her I will be right there” Her? Maybe Noonan? I try to hear a little closer.

“Messina has asked me to escort you to her office sir” Messina? Not Noonan? Who was this lady? Must be important if she has an office.

“Give me 5 minutes” Javier grunts getting back on the phone. “Mi-” He gets cut off by a slam of the door.

“I am not going to put up with your shit too Peña! I ask for your presence and you will come as soon as I say jump” It probably should make me a little angry hearing someone talk to him like that without reason. But then again I know how Peña acts and am sure he has given her reasons to talk to him like that. A small smile appears on my face. “You should be out there with Murphy and I explaining the sting operation on capturing President Bush!” Bush? Now that made me laugh.

“We are here Prima” I looked up not noticing when the truck came to a full stop as my grandmother was already out the truck.

“I will be right out” He nods, closing the door behind him. I go back to hearing the conversation and it hasn’t turned pretty.

“We don’t need supervision! We were fine without it”

“Really? Remind me how many times you have let Escober escape through your hand?” Bam. “How many times have you made the wrong decisions? Cost us men and made you and your team look like fools?” That was definitely not needed. Who was this lady?. I could hear footsteps getting closer and it was confirmed when I could literally feel like she was on the phone with me. “In my office in 1 minute or I will have you on a plane straight to Miami since something else seems to be more important than your job” I was going to hell for laughing at someone being screamed at. The door slammed and I heard his voice.

“I apologise” I was about to ask when he continued talking. “Such a bitch” He sighs. I hear the door open and his footsteps heavier and heavier. “She comes in here and tries to act like such a-”

“Javi” His words stop. “I need you to be calm and sensisable although that would be foreign for you” I hear a small laugh on the other side. “I will call you later so you can tell me all about who that lady is” It sounded like I was spitting posion.

“Jealous?” I laugh

“Not even a little.” I changed the topic real quick knowing he was probably standing outside her door right now. “Be nice. I will call you in an hour”

“Okay. Pray for me mi angel” I laugh again opening the door.

“I always do.” With that we hang up. I close the truck door and I am welcomed with the scene of something I have very much missed. The beige walls. The brown clay roofing. The wind shaped entrances and columns. The sound of the wind running throught the familiar trees. The animals and birds singing, it's like I never left. I walk around the side and notice no one in there through the big windows. I walk around back and from a distance I freeze. My grandmother is surrounded by her family. My family. It stayed the same, like I never left.

Chapter 16

GHOST

Chapter 16

I was currently taking my morning walk admiring the place this once was for me. I look down at my watch and pull out my phone. Yesterday I didn’t get a chance to call Javier back. “Hello?”

“Steve?” I was surprised.

“Hey, How are you?” One of the things I took time thinking about was Steve. On the flight I decided not to forget but to forgive him.

“Good. How are you and Connie?”

“We have been better” I could hear a sadness in his voice. “Connie moved back home with Olivia” I felt speechless. “She was having a hard time here,” The only words I was going to say are, I'm sorry, but I know that wouldn’t be enough. “Javier passed out on his desk, we have been working all night”

“I can feel the exhaustion in your voice” I chuckle a bit.

“Good to hear from you, I’ll pass the phone to Javier” I whisper okay. “Javi” I hear a groan from far. A groan I remember lively from that one night. “Your phone” Steve grunts

“Tell them I'm dead” I let out a laugh this time.

“Y/N, he will call-” A loud screech and a stuffled noise cut Steve’s words off.

“You could have started with who was calling!” Then the muffled voice started to sound better. “Hey” He was panting. “Y/N?”

“Good morning Javi” I whisper, taking in a deep breath. It was so nice to hear his voice again.

“Goodmorning angel,Is everything alright?” He still sounded worried. I could hear how he shuts a door behind him and sits Lays? Down somewhere.

“Yes Javi, everything is okay. You were right?” he scoffs laughing at my words.

“See what happens when you listen to me sweetheart?” I smile not wanting to give in more into his cockines

“Yes Javi, you know what's best for me”It was low and seductive. I couldn’t have him getting adjusted to having an upper hand here.

“My god woman” He grunts. “Oh what you do to me?” He speaks it like a prayer.

“Miss me?” I find a spot in the shade and lean against a big tree not far from the house. I could hear a low mm-hmm. “I miss you” I slowly sat down trying to be careful to don’t dirty myself. “More at night. Sometimes I wake up or get to my room hoping you will be waiting for me like you used too”

“You know it was all fun and all when you were here because I could do something about that mouth but since you are far, I won’t hesitate to get on a plane”Javier whispered, his voice low and husky. He could make my heart drop with only his tone and my legs struggle to stay firm.

“Yeah but you won’t” I continue to tease

“Oh yeah?” I bet he could hear the slight chuckle I was trying to hide.

“Yeah, because you are too busy with work. By the way, who was that lady screaming at you yesterday?” The moment was over. The tone was serious but soft.

“Messina. Noonan is gone so the new ambassador assigned us a babysitter” he was angry. Most of his tone was exhaustion, like Steves. “We followed a tip line and it led us to a Bush dummy” Now that I couldn’t help but laugh. “The worst part is they expect us to capture Escobar but before doing anything we have to tell our boss to tell her boss”

“Weird” I say.

“What is?”

“Javier Peña doesn’t like following procedures” He groans

“Not everybody can be a goody two shoes, princesa” Javier said, his tone playful but laced with longing.

“Not even with me?”

“I behave enough with you but thats because I can fuck it out on you” He said it too nonchalant. Without a second thought. Flowed so easily out of his mouth. “And if you were here I could fuck all this frustration out on you too”

“So romantic Javi” I rolled my eyes but a small smile lingered on my face.

“Always aim to please” He laughs. “God it's so hard” He groans louder.

“Everything will be okay, Javi. Capturing a guy like Escobar isn’t easy. But I know you and Steve will find a way”

“That's not what I meant” I could hear a shuffle in his posture. His voice turned lower and somehow animalistic. “It's hard having you far. All I dream and think is you. I could have you home right now so things like last night wouldn’t happen. I wouldn’t be satisfied with sleeping on my desk knowing you were home. I would happily and tirelessly drive home to you.” I let out an unsteady breath. It pained me to hear those words from him. “Get wrapped into your arms so I can forget about this place for atleast a couple hours”

“Javi” My voice is barely audible. I hide my head between my hands. Wanting nothing more than to be there for him right now.

“I never needed anyone like I need you” fuck. “To have you under me. Or riding me” There he is. “I can close my eyes and still hear you screaming,begging, and speaking my name like a prayer” A smile appears again on my face. “ How tight you held me. How sweet you taste and how merciless you can be”

“Keep it in your pants Javi, you are still at work” I whisper looking at the distance to make sure no one was sneaking around.

“You have me so unattended I don’t know what else I can do” I chuckle, shaking my head at the nonsense he says.

“Give me a couple of days?” I asked but of course his sweet responses didn’t make it seem like a sort of question I was hoping he would be okay with.

“I will be waiting here for you”

“Promise?” I am hopeful. Like in any minute he could change his mind and find someone else. I am putting too much hope on someone who I barely know.

“Promise mi amor” But he makes me feel sure, like he is the only one for me. We said our goodbye and soon I was walking into the house to get ready for the day.

“You are never awake this early. I guess being away did some good” I held back rolling my eyes to my mother but I imagined it. “Do you eat breakfast?” I look over to her menu. Coffee. Bread. Fruit. I shake my head leaning against the island. “Who were you on the phone with so early?” I searched for a lie she would fall for. “You have no friends and I know you don’t want to tell the rest of the family about your return too soon so my best guest is, work?” I sit up straight. I was never afraid to tell her the truth, I just wanted to avoid the lectures she always started.

“No. Not directly” She sets her cutting board infront of me and continues to slice fruit up.

“When is your flight?” She didn’t even have to look up at me. I was always the kid to never beat around the bush when wanting to tell her something.

“Haven’t bought a ticket yet” That doesn’t mean she believes me.

“But you are planning to travel?” Everytime I was unsure of something, with her questions she called me a liar. Like I wasn’t telling her the whole truth. Truthfully I avoided the question but never told her a lie.

“Yes” I look down but quickly glance up when I hear her set the knife a little too harshly on the counter.

“Listen” She looks up. “I will never tell you what to do because you are a grown adult” I didn’t like this kind of discussion. She will usually start with telling me something long and loving. “You have always known deep down what you wanted in life” Then it will follow with a blow. “But since you’ve come back and what your grandmother has been telling me, you have been miserable” Then it will contine with even harsher words that got me against the wall. “You decided to leave and go into whatever you called your job and leave us here worrying. You quit and come back but for the love of god can never tell us where you are going next. If you are going to leave tell us again tell us, it's not like we are not used to you being gone” She lets go of a heavy breath. Scooping up the fruit and setting it on their separate bowls.

“You want to know the truth?” Whenever we have a conversation like this it ends with an okay. I say okay, she nods and then we go our separate ways. But not this time.

“You’re scared?” She looks up. My eyes are on the verge of crying but I hold it in. It stings but I blink the tears away and feel nothing more than anger, towards myself.

“No. I’m terrified” It took me a second to look back at her eyes. “I was terrified to leave. I love my job and what I choose but I was terrified to take the leap because it meant leaving everyone behind. I took it because once in my life I wanted to be selfish. You know how I fitted into this family and I hope you know I love you all of you to the point that I cried each night in bed” I see her shoulders fall wanting to interrupt but I didn’t allow her to. “But then I was terrified to return. Terrified to come back and bring my life with me. Terrified to put you all in danger and now that I am done with that part of my life, now I am terrified for me.” It was words spilling out everything. Like I was reaching for fresh air. “I have always loved the idea of being a teacher but not at this age. Not when my heart craves another thing. I want to keep being selfish but I need to know you guys are with me. That there is no hard feeling on me leaving again. Because if I stay am afraid I will be further away than me being in Mexico, or Colombia, or some other place across the world”

“The school-”

“You are not listening mother” I stood up throwing my hand in the air in frustration. “That is not what I want right now and I don’t know if that is where life is going to take me at the end”

“If you go back to your old life it is going to take you to a quicker end!”

“Good!” Fuck. Our breaths were quicken. I could see her eyes full of hate and sadness. My hand itches to punch the nearest wall and for my feet run away until they are exhausted. “I’d rather it do so because then I will die doing what my heart wanted” A slap. She moved quicker than ever before. I didn’t fight it or argued. She had the right to be angry. I look up with a death stare. My hands clenched as she held in her tears.

“You have nothing to go back on. Are you going to plead your last job back? Because if you are, don’t mind coming back this time” She turns to go back to her chopping board.

“I have plenty to go back on and don’t worry, you won’t have to hear about it”

“Y/N” My feet took one step but soon it was placed back. I look at her face, waiting for her next words. “There is no use of searching for him anymore” She might have been right, but I made a promise.

“Goodbye Mother”

It felt easier to leave this time. This time I didn’t cry in bed and slip through the morning dew so I wouldn’t have to face them one last time and regret my decision. This time I slip through every loved one I had with a sympathatic smile so I wouldn’t have to explain that I don’t regret my decision. I took one last glance at my mother and although everyone around us saw us stand tall and proud, we both knew we were broken. Stubborn to admit defeat, even if it meant we both wanted nothing more than to mend our relationship. I let out a sigh and continued walking and walking until my feet finally stopped, allowing my mind to process where I was.

“Ma’am, you need to tighten your seatbelt” I nod at the flight attendant. The sun was setting by the time I got to the plane. I took my glance away from the window so I could get comfortable in my seat. It was going to be a long ride.

Chapter 17

GHOST

Chapter 17

I didn’t have a plan when I got to the airport. I took my passport to the front desk and when the lady spoke I looked up at the plane's boarding and I chose one. Choose the one boarding in 20 minutes. The lady warned me I should hurry so I could catch it or that maybe I could get on the next one going out but I shoke my head. I needed to keep moving. Keep moving so I wouldn’t get a chance to think. I wouldn’t get a chance to sit and start thinking about what I did wrong. What could I have changed? Is this how I really wanted to end things?. Sitting on that plane, I did get a chance to think. I didn’t want to end things like that with my mother. Not when I could die. But it was too late. I knew if I went back I would stay. Stay although my heart belonged to the air. It was blowing as hard as possible and if I stayed it would fill my lungs. Fill it until I explode. I couldn’t go back, not yet. “Mija do you need anything else?” I look up at the vendor and shake my head.

“Thank you” I walk out to the street and make my way down to the hotel I was staying at. It was currently dark out and the weather was not nice. It wasn’t snowing or wind, it was just plain cold and I don’t do cold. December was just next door and I had a feeling it was going to be a long holiday.

“Miss l/n. You got a message” I stopped by the front desk reaching for the small paper in the man's hand. “I couldn’t understand so I just wrote the number down”

“Don’t worry, thank you” I send him a smile and run up to my room. Setting my things down I pick up my phone and dial. “Hello?” I speak first.

“Y/N?” fucking hell.

“Murphy?” How the hell did he get my number?

“I need a favor”

“Give me a minute” I throw the phone on the bed without waiting for a response. I had to prepare myself before hearing what Steve wanted. If he was asking for help then it must be important. I throw my coat on the bed and take out my shoes. Before returning to the phone I took a deep breath and sat down on the small chair beside the window overlooking the town. “Am all ears”

“Okay” I hear him let out a groan before mumbling to himself.

“Murphy” I warn not really wanting to play a game with him. I hate silence.

“You need to hear me out before interrupting me” I nod unconsioulsy. “Y/N?”

“Okay” I whisper, switching the phone to the other hand. “Speak Murphy”

“I don’t know if you have been keeping up with the news but I will give you a summary. The Search Bloc was put in place again with Carrillo leading but it took one wrong tip off for Escbor to place a bullet in him” Right. “Martinez made a pretty good strategy narrowing down on him but somehow Los Pepes was always one step above. They are a group who have let us know that their clear message was killing everyone involved or who helped or is helping Escobar. Escobar’s message back was bombing places with innocent people. Lately his family has been trying to flee to another country but the government hasn’t allowed them and his response is more bombs”

“Where is this going Murphy” Of course I have read the news. It was everywhere. The newspaper, the tv, hell even if you step outside you would hear gossip from your own neighboor,

“You know how this works.” I hear another sigh. “Giving federal information is not exactly a good thing and even worse if you are giving it to other criminals” My mind ran through different scenerios. Was he the person? Was he asking help to cover it up? “The ambassador found out after Judy let out a statement”

“It was Pena wasn’t it?” My heart sank a bit. While I have been away I have barely spoken to him. The difference in time made it difficult to connect. When I told him I would be on my way he told me that it wasn't safe. That he would prefer I stay where I knew I was would be okay. He barely spoke and I had nothing to say so our conversation cut short until it got to the point where it went weeks without talking to him.

“The ambassador took him out of the search and sent him back home” His home?

“Where do I come from in all of this?”

“You told us you were able to take him out of the case, can you put him back?” I closed my eyes, leaning my forehead in my hand. “y/n?. We intercepted his calls with his wife, we are so close to catching him and I think he should be here. He gave up so much and he is most of the reason we are so close” I took in a deep breath and spoke.

“I would want nothing more than to help but I can’t” I let out my breath slowly. I feel my head getting a slight headache.

“Y/N if this is about what I did-”

“No” I quickly blurted out. I don’t want him to think that. “I quit my job Steve and it was for a good reason” Although the reason for me leaving my family was because I wanted it back.

“You don’t have any contacts? Anyone who can go on behalf of Pena and let him explain himself?” I lean back as my head falls tirelessly to rest on the chair.

“I can make some phone calls but I can’t promise it will be quick” Or just in time to catch Escobar.

“Thank you” I remove the phone from my ear and hang up. I push my chair back and take a second looking at the phone as it lays on the table. I wanted nothing more than to call Pena. I don’t know what I would say. Get upset he wasn’t telling me about what happened? Tell him I feel sorry because of it? Then again I wasn’t telling him my side of the story. How I have left my family after an argument with my mother. How I was technically hiding in a hotel. How I have come close to calling the embassy to get my job back. Lately I feel that breathing doesn’t help anymore. I pick up the phone and dial a number that was tattooed in my brain.

“Hello? Senor Rodriguez’s office” Here goes nothing

“Christina, I need to speak with Rodriguez”

“Niña l/n, so nice to hear your voice” I smile. I always liked her. A sweet voice always welcomed me back each time I returned to the embassy.

“I will come see you soon, can you get him on the phone?” She agreed and soon enough I was transferred.

“Calling to beg for your job back?” I hear a soft laugh

“We will see how the conversation goes”

“Y/N” His tone changes. It was slow and steady. I know what followed and somehow I was ready. I spoke to him about Javier Pena. One of the agent who have proritize Escobar over his damn life. How he was supposed to be in the case with Murphy and there when they catch Escobar. But what I heard wasn’t what I wanted. “I can’t make that happen mija” There’s always a but. “But if you were to go down at the american embassy and put a plea-”

“I am not begging to the gringos” I had nothing against them. I just didn’t want to practically beg the new ambassador. I would if it were Noonan. “Or you can take your position back” I say no knowing it wasn’t my latest old job.

“No, atleast not for now. I am still fresh out of their radar, I can’t put my family in danger” Before moving myself to my own operation of searching for missing people I was part of the FBI in Mexico. Helped with kingpins, crooked poloticians, and any criminal you can think of. I was not in any of their nice lists and if you haven’t connected the dots, they are all somehow connected to one another.

“You want Crosby’s job?”

“Rodriguez, help me get Pena back to Colombia and I will return to work for you” Those were the magic words. It could follow a bunch of other rude and ugly words that would describe someone I was pissed with but he wouldn’t take them to heart. I had said what he wanted to hear a long time ago.

“You have made yourself a deal” I hear paper shuffling on his end. “I will buy you a ticket to Texas and as soon as you are done you will have a ticket straight to Mexico”

“What's in Texas?” I hold the phone in the crook of my neck as I walk to pull out my empty suitcase.

“Dear Agent Pena” My hands drop. “I will keep my word and get him back to Colombia, mark my words. You should be there to tell him the news.”

“Okay” That was the last word I said for the rest of the night.

“I will call you with the details as soon as I can. Stay safe Mija” Along with my heart the phone line ended. Now I had to face him. Tell him how I might have gotten his job back. Tell him how I got a job I swore never to take, well technically I didn't. As I watched my uncle die his eyes told me everything. He held onto my hand and choked on his blood before I noticed the last tear rolling down his cheek. I knew the man who caused him such pain, and soon I will come face to face with them once again.

Chapter 18

GHOST

Chapter 18

I had everything I needed to find Pena. The address of the house he was staying in and what time he usually leaves and comes back. The name and ages of everyone around him. Rodrigez didn’t mess around when it came to details. I was currently standing outside the house. It was getting dark and I didn’t know if to come now or later but then I saw a figure on a window.

Tall figure leaning on the balcony railings. The only light in view was the faint light of the cigarette in hand. It had to be Javier. I felt like a stalker but I couldn’t help the slight amusement it caused me to sneak up to the door. I carefully hold myself up and start climbing once I see him walk inside. I start to think about what I should say to him. I haven’t spoken to Murphy in about a week and I got news from Rodriguez he probably would have a hard time with. Maybe I should have waited until morning, called him and set a time and place to meet. I look inside once I settle myself on the balcony floor. The faint light from the bathroom lights his tan skin as he walks around taking off his shirt and grabbing some other clothing from his dresser. I wait until he walks into the bathroom before messing around with his door. “Have to show you how to use a lock Pena” I whispered to myself when I realized the door was unlocked. I don’t close it all the way as I make my way inside since it was already making too much noise opening it. I hear the sound of the water running from the sink. A quick cough before footsteps become louder. I stay near a corner hoping the light from outside wouldn’t give me away. I wonder as I see him turn off the bathroom light and fall back to his bed how he became an agent. I waste no time taking quiet steps towards his bed. I could make his figure out. He was spread out in the middle of the bed. Arms under his head and his legs are intertwined with another. His eyes must be closed because his head doesn’t move as I walk around to the other side of the bed. I can call myself a creep now. I loved to watch him like this. The only noise being the faint sound of his breathing. It calmed me down to now he was okay and safe. I lean over his figure and make out his face in the darkness. Unable to hold enough strength to just hoover I place a kiss onto his lips.

“What the he-”

“Javier!” I groan. The first thing I felt was the heavy weight ontop of me. “It's me” I roll him off.

“How did you get in here?!” He turned on his light and my eyes were slow to adjust. I lift my head a bit not really wanting or having the strength to get up. “Shit” Javier's eyes turn to the soft sound of knocking on his bedroom door.

“Javier is everything alright? I heard a loud thump” It was a man's voice.

“Yeah, tripped” He looks over quickly coming to my aid and lifting me up. He places me on my feet, still holding me tight. “Are you okay?” He whispers, removing the hair from my face. A slight smile placed on his face so how can I not be okay?

“Son, I know it was difficult for you today, do you want to talk about it?” It was seeing him in a new light. Here he wasn’t Agent Javier Pena from the DEA chasing around Escobar, he was Javier Pena, somebody’s son. I smile wrapping my arms around his neck.

“Am alright. Can we talk tomorrow?” I carres his face pulling my close but only to move my attention to his jaw and all the way to his neck I leave a trail of kisses.

“Okay, goodnight”

“Good-night” I pull back biting my lip. His response was shaky but I decided not to tease him about it, atleast not yet. “How are you here?” he pulls me close, grabbing onto my cheeks. His eyes scanned my face like he didn't believe it was actually me.

“Had to see you” I tried to pull him into a kiss knowing my body coouldn’t go another second without it but he pulled away from it.

“How did you know I was here?” Guessed?

“Steve” I was unsure if he would believe me. Technically it started with Steve.

“Okay, so you heard” His hands drop and he walks over to sit on his bed. I turn around nodding my head. He goes to speak but I shake my head. I come forward lifting his gaze to mine. I position myself between his legs. I couldn’t tell what he was feeling but I knew he would talk if he wanted to. Then, in a sudden movement, he reaches out and pulls me into a tight hug. I wrap my arms around his head and shoulders, holding him close as he buried his face into my chest. His shoulder slowly drifted down. As I stroke his hair, I try to comfort him with words which I am not the best in.

“I know you had your reasons Javi” I whisper. His grip tightened like if I was a sort of lifeline, an unyielding grip. “I came with some news, if you are up to it” I continued to play with his hair but the moment fell silent. Was it so hard to hold him like this forever? A moment that felt like forever, our own little world was not enough.

“No” His voice was soft. As they spoke, Javier's grip on me relaxed, his body language calming. He looks up, moving my body to turn and make my back lean against his chest. Adjust on his lap he embraces me again.

“Javi?” I grip one hand but the other is loosely trailing up and down my thigh.

“Yes amor?” He looked into my eyes once more and I decided I couldn’t ruin such a night with news that could be the worst thing he could hear or a sigh of relief. I wasn’t going to take the risk tonight.

“I need to know you are okay” I fiddled with his hand. Then I hear a low chuckle. He romoves his hand and grabs my face to pull me close.

“You don’t need to worry, I am okay” My lips part wanting to tell him, how can I not worry I-, my thoughts were cut short as his lips meet mine. It was soft and romantic. His lips moved so in sync with mine. He tightens his hold on my thigh running his fingers closer and closer to my core.

“Javi?” I moan. One hand pulling me forward to rest my forehead on his as the other one continues to roam until it slips into my pants. I close my eyes as it sends shivers down my spine.

"I've missed you so much, mi amor," he whispers, his lips tracing a fiery path up her neck. "I've missed your touch, your taste, your scent..." Is it a surprise my heart starts to race as Javier's kisses grow more insistent, his hands exploring every curve of her body. I feel myself melting into his embrace, my own desire igniting like a flame.

"Javier, we should..." she starts to say, but he silences her with a deep, passionate kiss. At the same time his fingers work my panties to the side and slips in. I moaned against his lip not remembering there was somebody in the house too.

“We should" talk, he whispers, his breath hot against her skin. "But first, I need to take care of something more pressing..." And with that, he deepens the kiss, his hand pulls me closer and without warning the other adds another finger and starts moving. My mind was screaming as my mouth held in the moans and any other noise. “You need to keep quiet baby, don’t want my dad walking in on this” His kiss trails down as I nod. Holding on but not for much longer. One hand goes to grip his neck as the other wraps around his wrist. “Fuck, I love hearing how wet you are” He moans. Fuck you Javier Pena. I throw my head back trying to grab hold of his movement.

“Javi, I can’t” My head falls to his shoulder. I bite the flesh provided and it helps muffle my scream. His fingers, although restricted by my jeans, moved perfectly without any trouble in and out of me.

“Almost there?” He teases. I shake my head, getting all the strength I had to pull away. The last experssesion on his face was shock as I stood up and walked over to turn off his lights. “Corazon?” I smile. I undress as I walk back to his bed. I stood infront of him once again as he tried to help but only roamed my exposed body until I had no clothing left. I snatch his hands away and move to lay against the headboard.

“I want to cum with your dick in me” I demand.

“Yes ma’am” I couldn’t help but giggle hearing his bed creak as he jumped on top of me. He hovers over me as he takes my legs and pulls me down to lay flat on his bed. He starts to leave kisses on my leg and slowly trails up my thigh. It felt nice but I didn’t want any role play.

“Pena if you don’t fuck me I will leave and find someone who will” I whisper scream. Suddenly his dark figure was on me again. With a swift move he pulls my legs apart and settles between them. One arm holding him up while the other moves down to remove his night pants.

“I know everyone in Laredo, If you do I will find them” He leans down to whisper in my ear. “And it won’t be pretty where they end up” Fuck, I didn’t know if it was his words are the fact that he was coating his tip with my juices, but I lost my ability to talk. My body moves against him wanting to come closer.

“My Javi” I moaned unexpectedly. His movement stopped. I can feel his gaze on me.

“Fuck” he groans and in a second he was in me. “Tell me again” He grunt pushed harder against me. “Please me amor? I need to hear your voice as I feel you cum” He whispers. How can I deny such pleas? More when he is fucking me so lovely.

“Javi, my Javi” My hands move to caress his chest until they move around his neck. I wanted him close so I pulled him down until his body was flushed against mine and my legs wrapped around his torso. His hips slow down his pace but the intensity increases. I tighten around him wanting to feel every inch, every vein, everything he was giving me. “My sweet Javi” I groan, feeling my lower stomach tighten. His face fell on the crook of my neck. Heavy breathing and panting against my ear was my new favorite melody. My hand gripped his skin trying to make the moment last. “Mine” I could hold on anylonger. His pace was death but it felt damn good. Sweet kisses on my shoulder as I came around him.

“Mi amor” He grunts as I feel him cumming. His grip tightens as he fucks me throught our orgasms.

“Holy shit! Javi” His hand quickly covers my mouth. My chest lifts, unable to contain the ecstasy feeling. My body was tingling and it continued until Javier slowly slowed down his thrust. With one last kiss on my shoulder he pulls back taking me in his arms. I lay on his chest as my hand traces circles on it. When our breath regulates is when he speaks first.

“If I am yours?,” He whispered, moving to look down at me. “Does that mean you belong to me?”I smile. One of his hands moves intertwined with mine.

“No,” I say quickly. “Not yet, but you do belong to me” I shrug like it was nothing. I was waiting to hear a smart remark but he only nodded.

“I’m okay with that” He grips my jaw and makes me look up. “You are mine in so many other ways, and you may not admit it yet but, I know the most important part is mine” He points at my chest, where my heart is. I laugh quietly.

“So corny” I pushed his hand. I try to leave to clean myself up but he pulls me back into his embrace. “Javi we made a mess” I rub my legs, unable to be comfortable.

“Fine,” he grunt, getting out of the bed. “Hurry because I need som y/n time” He stomps to the bathroom and I let out a quiet chuckle. As I hear him soak a rag I remove the bedsheets.

“Next time can you get better sheets?” I throw the percale fabric to the grown next to me. “Something like polyester or cotton. Heavy and soft” I groaned, putting on the new sheets he threw on the bed. “It's too freaking cold to be sleeping in that” I grunt.

“Yes mi amor” I didn’t notice him kneeling infront of me until he grabbed my hips and turned me to face him. “May I?” With your tongue, yes. He smiles as he guides his hand to clean my inner thigh until he is at my core. “So pretty” He whispers and I can’t help but laugh. “What? She's beautiful” He places a kiss and that was my cue to walk away.

“Can I borrow a shirt?” I continue to set the bed on the other side.

“No” I roll my eyes. I finish the bed by throwing the pillows on top. “Javi!”

“Shh-, lets go to sleep” My hands wrap around his head and start to stroke his hair. Brown and wavy. He was beautiful. He pulled us to settle in the middle of his bed. He covers us and pulls me in tighter once we settle comfortably. I look over to the balcony door that I know is still opened.

“Javi” I remove his hair from his eyes but he doesn’t make a noise to acknowledge me. “Amor” I tried to see his reaction but it was too dark. “Javier” I tried to shake him. “Pena!” I groan really trying to push him away. I know he was awake, truly ignoring me at this point. He held me tighter and his response was to hook himself on my boob. “Javi” I grip on his hair. “Fuck..” I moan trying to move for some friction. “We already broke the rule” It was a stupid rule too. Who would have thought we would last until we had a date? “Stop” I throw my head back pushing my chest closer to his mouth. His tongue moved skillfully across one to the other. Licking and tugging until he latched on and started to suck. “Javi, the door” That was my last attempt before I gave all my strength up. I grip harder and wrap my legs around him. At this point I was grinding, wanting him inside of me once more.

“It's open,” He says, pulling away.

“What the fuck Javier?!” I sit up in horror. How dare he just quit and get out of bed? I know that stupid face has a smirk. His dark figure walks and closes the door and then walks over to lock the bedroom door. He was taking his sweet time. I decide to turn around and close my eyes. How dare he do that? I was angry and upset but of course it was hard when his naked body was flushed against my back. His smooth hands creep around me pulling me close. His warm and beautiful face falling in the crook of my neck.

“Darling?” Oh and his voice. Jesus help me. I close my eyes tight not wanting to give in so quickly. “Are you mad?” No. “Want me to continue?” Yes, you piece of shit. “Are you going to keep acting like a brat?” His hand finds my breasts and starts to massage them, pinching them to finally get a reaction out of me. “Mi nina, I don’t want to go to be angry” He whispers as he places a kiss on my cheek. I move my hand to intertwine them with his.

“You had your chance now it's over” I wasn't angry. I turn my head over to capture his lips for a simple longing kiss. “Tomorrow you can make it up to me” I smile, pushing against him more.

“Yeah?” He groans, settling back behind me.

“If I give you the chance” A faint chuckle comes from him. He and I know deep down that I will surely give him a chance but we also know it won’t come easy for him.

“Am very persistent” Javier Peña sure was.

Chapter 19

GHOST

Chapter 19

I can feel it in my bones that it was too early. It should be illegal to wake up this early. Those animals out there should have a shut off button or atleast be gracicious enough to let me sleep until the afternoon. “Javi?” I looked over hoping to snuggle into him for some warmth but his side of the bed was cold. The bathroom door is wide open with the lights turned off. I look over to the balcony and find him leaning against the railings and of course, with a cigarette in hand. I get up throwing on my clothes quickly on knowing it was colder in the mornings. “Have you ever tried quitting?” He turns with a smile and a shake of his head follows.

“Goodmorning sunshine” He pulls me against him giving me a side hug. I snuggle up against him, wrapping my arms around his waist. “Does it bother you?” He simply asks after placing a kiss on my head.

“Yes. It's a love and hate thing. Everytime I smell it, it reminds me of my father or the fairs in my childhood” It probably wasn’t good inhaling or loving the smell but whatever. “He never smoked infront of us but the smell always lingered, even after a shower” I feel Javiers tighten. “Although I wouldn’t see it I knew he would smoke atleast 2 everyday and so sometimes hearing my mother argue about how it wasn’t good for your health well,” That meant I could have a short time with my father. “I couldn’t say anything to him, thankfully he is still alive and well” I didn’t see Javier dispose of the cigarette but I knew he didn’t have it in hand when both hands moved to cup my face.

“This will be my last one” He places a small kiss on my lips.

“Javier I didn’t-”

“I know” He gives me another kiss. I couldn’t help but smile a bit. “Mi princesa shouldn’t have to ask” I roll my eyes with a laugh.

“That's so stupid” I hit his chest jokenly.

“It's not stupid” He pulls me closer to my face. “Either way I was planning to quit” His face inches closer, hovering over mine. “You were my incentive”

“Yeah?” I whisper, holding on to his shirt.

“Mhm” He nods. We probably looked stupid with a grin on our face looking at eachother in such a way.

“How about we play a game” I pull my face an inch away so I don’t get tempted to just give into those brown puppy dog eyes. I move my hands and down his chest.

“Listening” He smiles.

“If I smell a cigarette on you,” I pause as one hand makes its way under his shirt. “If I see you with one,” The other hand moves under. “If I see you near one,” I unbuckle his belt. His grasp on my face loosened. “If I hear you snuck one,” His belt loose and his zipper down I sneak my hand in.

“Fuck” He hissed. His head falls against my shoulder. His body twisted a bit to cover my actions from who? I don’t know, it was an empty field with animals. My hand starts to tease his tip already spilling with precum. His hand grip my hips pulling me closer.

“No more fun time” He quiets his moan as my grip lowers. “No more kisses” His whines sounded like he was a teenager getting touched for the first time. Like he didn’t wet his dick less than 12 hours ago. “But if you hold out” My hands come out and I lick my palm going straight back to give him attention.

“y/n” His voice low, barely above a whisper. I cradle his head with my other hand, playing with his hair in the process. My hands moving with speed his pants allowed me to, but it seemed to be enough for Javier.

“You don’t even have to ask for my promission” He grunts. His grip on my hips trying to crush me. I knew I was teasing him but I wasn’t joking. I would allow Javier to do unimaginable things to me whenever he wanted to but that's because I trust him and he would never do anything I wouldn’t be okay with. My hands speed up. His pants against my ear.

“I don’t want to cum in my jeans like a 14 year old kid” He kisses my neck. “I want to know what your tongue feels like choking on my cock” He made my knees buckle in 2 seconds. He continued to kiss me but his breath got caught when I felt him twitch in my hand. “No wait” He groans. I smile, pulling him into a kiss. He desperately held on to me, pouring all his noises into my mouth.

“Javier?” Our bodies move away in a hurry. Thankfully like I said, his body covered our actions. If people were looking up to the balcony they would see just two people kissing with their hands wrapped around eachother. I hear Javier clear his throat and I could start feeling my cheeks turn red. I look over and see an older guy.

“Goodmorning Pops” Javiers looks over to me and smiles. “This is y/n” He says softly. I wave over.

“Nice to meet you” A big smile appears on his face from down below.

“Canijo” The older gentleman whispers, shaking his head. “Nice to meet you mija” He sends a smile before looking over to Javier. “You and I will have a talk later, I taught you better than this” I look over seeing Javier with slump shoulders. “Come have breakfast” He smiled at both of us. “It's his teenage years all over again” It seemed he wanted to keep that to himself as he made his way into the house but we heard that. I turn to look at Javier whose smile disappeared.

“Do you think we have 5 minutes?” I look up hopeful, which I respond with an eyeroll and walk into his room again. “Come on! I am going to die if-” I shook my head and decided to cut him off.

“So what did he mean by, his teenage years all over again?. Were you the one who sneaked girls into his room and paraded them in the mornings?” I was praying for a no. When I didn’t hear an answer I turned to look over at Javier. I raised my brows seeing him only staring back at me.

“Are you jealous?” Of course he would try to turn the conversation to favor him. I roll my eyes once more and turn to finish looking presentable.

“That was years ago, unless you plan on sneaking another girl here-” A hand grips my waist turning me around to be pushed between his dresser and him.

“It wasn’t as many girls you may be picturing” My head twisted a bit wondering if he would continue. He softly exhaled and continued, “It was only one and it wasn’t a one time thing” Now I was beyond intrigued. “She became my fiance at one point” Shocked. It was the only words I could think of to describe my state. “We were young and things got in the way” He spoke like it was instructions on how to cook an egg, quick and simple.

“You can’t just spill something like that and just leave me hanging” I hit his chest. “What was her name? How old were you guys? How did she look?” I see him close his eyes trying to fight himself. “How many times did yall do it on the bed? Wait!, did yall do it in the bathroom?” I gasp jokenly, “Against this dresser?” I pushed myself off but I was against it in a quick second. His grasp on my hip pushed me harsher.

“Her name was Lorraine,” He whispered. I look up, his eyes intensely looking at mine. “I can’t remember where we did it” His tone lowered. “The only thing I remember is you on my bed” His face moves closer but to the side of my face. He places a kiss and another moving lower towards my neck. “How I want to remember you in the shower” I close my eyes. His breath was hot,traveling further down. “On the countertop” He moves my shirt to reveal my shoulder. “On this dresser” Slowly I came back to life. I felt his hand circling my back. His pelvis rubbing against my stomach and his lips which already left marks on my neck was currently leaving some on my shoulder.

“Javi” I pull on his shirt trying to grip something for stability.

“Mi amor?” He pulls back and I groan, already missing his attention. “Years ago my horny teenage self would stop at nothing to have you in his bed” I chuckle.

“I can always count on you being romantic” I laugh, shaking my head. My laugh quiets down as a small smile is on his face.

“I just want you to know that it was the past” He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into a hug. “My whole existence is stained with you. My past nor my future matters to me because I am stuck in the present with you” That tugged on my heart strings.

“Javier Pena” I smile looking up. “I don’t care what happened back then” I move my hands to grip his face. “As long as you stay here with me” Before he could answer a soft knock interrupted us.

“Breakfast is ready! Hurry up you two” We looked at eachother and smiled.

“Coming Pops!” Javier answers. He looks down, stealing a kiss before enterwining our hand and making our way out his room to the kitchen. I was always able to control myself, but that was when I was in charge of a minimal situation. This was not the case here. This was huge, I had never met someone's parents. We didn’t even know what we were. I know I'm not a little kid but having been caught in someone's bedroom by their parents as an adult is worse. I have never done such a thing.

“I have coffee and conchitas in that bag” he points out to the table. “Bacon and sausages will be out in a second” I thank him before he heads back into the kitchen. I guess Javier read my body and noticed I was stressing.

“Baby?” I felt a tug on my hand which guided me towards the table to sit down. “Do you feel okay?” I look over trying to calm myself down

“Yeah” I cleared my throat making sure I was okay in the chair. “I just havent’ been in this situation before” It was his turn for his eyebrows to furrow.

“What? Like having breakfast with someone?” I look over and roll my eyes.

“No, I havent met someone's parents or have had breakfast or any kind of meal with one. I have been caught with someone's son in their bedroom! What could he be thinking of me” I looked over freaked out but a stupid grin appeared on his face.

“You’ve never met a boyfriend’s parents before? Never sneaked into their bedrooms?” I give him an, are you stupid look? Do I look like the kind of girl who would? Well now it was a different story, I was older but that still didn’t make it okay.

“I’ve never had a boyfriend before let alone try to do these sort of things” I hear a gasp from Javier.

“So?” I look over to see him scooting closer. “You mean am your-?” His stupid grin was just waiting for my answer to grow bigger. Like a medal of ownership.

“Technically no” Grin disappeared. “You haven’t asked me properly or even taken me on a date” I shrug, turning my attention to the older gentleman who walked with a plate of bacon and sausage.

“So tell me,” He starts to speak as he settles down. “Javier told me about you but I still have questions” I give him a gentle smile. I look over to Javier who looks embarrassed. I held back the big smile, Javier spoke to me to his father.

“What do you want to know Mr. Pena?”

“Please, call me Chucho” He smiles as he passes me a cup of coffee. “So you are mexican?” I nod

“From Veracruz”

“Beautiful place” I agree. After my other grandmother died there was no use to visit

anymore but as a child I remember the bright pink roses in her garden and how wonderful the people were there. “But your family lives here?”

“Yes. I don’t have a huge family so most of them stay in a communal farm made up of a couple houses”

“Where?”

“Pops” Javier shakes his head.

“Right, I am sorry I asked” I gave him a smile. “Javier tells me you have many talents” I heard a sneaker from Javier who covered it with a slight cough. “Do you mind sharing?”

“Not at all” We spoke a while about my job and what I did for college. He embarrassed Javier with stories of his childhood. I enjoyed talking with someone and enjoyed it even more seeing the relationship Javier had with his dad.

“Well I better get started on my day” He stood up grabbing his hat. “Will you be staying for lunch?” I turn to Javier who slightly nods. Under the table he takes hold of my hand reassuring me it was okay.

“I have to go back to town-” I had to tell Javier why I was here and who knows how that is going to end.

“Well we would love to have you.” Chucho smiles as he excuses himself to go outside.

“What's wrong?” Javier makes me nervous hearing him acknowledge my discomfort.

“I am just going to come out and say it” I took a deep breath. “You have been called into the embassy” Javier nods

“For an evaluation, I think I can explain it to them so there's nothing to worry about” I shake my head

“It's not an evaluation. The ambassador sent me out to talk to you first.” I didn’t even know what details to give him to make it make sense without hurting his pride. “You are not going to continue with the Escobar case” Jaiver straightens up. His nose flaring trying to take it in.

“I expected that” He simply says leaning back against the chair. I grab his other hand making him look at me again.

“That's not it.” I know how much Escobar’s case took a toll on him, would he be willing to put himself in that situation? “The USA counsel wants to place you on another case”

“What? What case?”

“Once Escobar is captured, which could be any day now, they want you to lead a team to capture the Cali Cartel” His eyes fall to the ground. He was searching for an answer. “Javi?” When he dropped my hands I knew he was having a difficult time taking in the news. I took a chance and decided to invade his space. I got up and moved to sit on his lap which he surprisingly took with open arms. His arms moved slowly around me and I engulfed him in a hug around his shoulders.

“I need you to talk to me about what I am going to tell you next” His head fell against my chest. He nods without looking up from his spot. “I made a deal with the Mexican embassy who helped get to that decision” Now his eyes were plastered on mine. I nervously played with his hair. “As an agreement whether you take the position or not I have to take mine”

“What position?”

“Before I worked for the Embassy directly looking for people I had another job.” How do I even start? “I started off as an intel person. I went into bars, clubs, and even joined girls on the street to get information.” His eyes widened. “I never had to do anything else other than listen” I grab his face hoping to ease the thought that may be forming in his mind. “It got to the point where I was in deep in the Cartel”

“How deep?” He took my hands knowing it was a defense machinism.

“Deep enough to be considered family” Of course that wasn’t the worst part. “I was young so it was easy to lead the guy I was involved with into a trap and when he fell, the rest fell with him”

“So you are going to go undercover again?” Kind of.

“I can’t tell you much about it other than that I will be using an old member to create a new group. That group will infiltrate a cartel,”

“And then?” He spoke harsher

“I don’t know Javi. The goal is to capture or threaten them enough to weaken them”

“What happened to moving to Colombia together?”

“Javi” I cup his face pulling him into a kiss. “I think we are in the right time to do this” It pained me to say but it was the best for us both. “I think you are going to take the job and I have to take mine. Either way I have to do it and I know you wouldn’t move with me because you are a man who can’t stay still and would hate seeing the Cali Cartel winning”

“We made it work before” I smiled knowing that was not true. He took it hasrsher than I did at the time. I opened my mouth to talk but was interrupted with Javiers father walking in. Javiers face was filled with thoughts. Like millions of dots were trying to connect to make it work.

“Javier, I need you to-” Javier suddenly removes me from his lap to stand. He takes hold of my hand and walks over to the door.

“Sorry Pops, I have to do something important first” I tried to hold myself back knowing he wasn’t thinking straight.

“Wha?” Chucho asked as he walked after us. I was asking the same thing, what was Javier doing?

“I need the keys to the truck” Javier stops turning to his father.

“Javier?” I moved infront of him before he took another step. He looked down at me and then at his father.

“I am taking her on a date” He announced. He lifted his arm catching the keys in a quick move. I look over to Chucho who had a smile filled with pride. I didn’t have time to think when Javier pulled me to the truck and into the passenger seat. “Do you have your passport?”

“What do I need-?”

“Answer me woman?” He closes the door pulling my head closer to his through the window. I looked for answers in his eyes since he wasn’t going to tell me anything even if I ask. His eyes were soft. No anger nor confusion. I think about the man infront of me, it was a man I could trust, my Javi.

“Yes” He plants a kiss on my lips before running around the truck to get in. He put the vehicle in drive and we were on our way. I looked over to him and I couldn’t help but smile. “Javi?” I grip his hand to make him aware I wanted to talk. “Are you okay?” A smile appeared as he shook his head. He moved our hands to place a kiss on mine.

“I am taking you on a forever date” I laugh a bit. I have never seen Javier this way. “A date you will definitely say yes too” I looked into his eyes and knew I would definitely say yes to the date.

Chapter 20

GHOST

Chapter 20

I play our last day in Laredo over and over again. From the moment we got out of the car until we reached his fathers house and closed our eyes in bed. A smile playing on the end of our lip each time our eyes met. Our hands find eachother even to hold a loose string on one's clothes. The breathing and exhales speaking what we wanted to say. Never in such time did I regret holding on to Javier and saying yes to him. “This is our last trip together” He took my hand in his eyes looking down as he enterwines them. I wasn’t sad, I was happy. I was overjoyed and nothing could ruin it.

“We spent almost 2 weeks in Laredo and another week in Miami visiting Murphy.” I lay my head on his shoulder. “We still have a week left in Mexico before having to think of goodbyes” He lets out a sigh nodding his head.

“I know” He places a kiss on my head before leaning in against mine again. “What if I don’t take the job?” My head shoots up in surprise.

“Javier if you don’t take this job you will drive yourself into madness” In the past days with Murphy they spent their time talking about the Cali Cartel. He wouldn’t admit it but I saw the excitement it brought to his face. He was a huge part of catching Escobar and not being there when they did, well it did affect him.

Flashback

“Does he speak about it?” I shook my head towards Connie as we looked to the living room from the kitchen. Steve and Javier sipping beer just yapping away about the Cartel.

“The only thing I could get out of him was an admission of guilt for messing with Los Pepes. Of course I can piece things together and know that guilt falls on himself for being stupid and missing the end of Escobar” But he wasn’t the one to dewell much on things. He was happy and if anytime he needed to talk he knew I was here.

“He did what he needed to do,” Connie sighs. I look over to her, she looks better than the last time I saw her in Colombia. “And I am damn greatful for it since it brought Steve back home” The last couple of days here I have seen happiness from both of them I hadn’t seen before.

“Now that he isn’t risking his life, planning on expanding the family some more?” Connie almost choked on her drink. My worry switched from confusion to realization. My eyes grow wider as a playful smile appears on her face. She has always been pretty but now I get why she was glowing recently. How Olivia was stringing extra close and so was Steve.

“Connie are you?” She nods

“But Steve doesn’t know yet” I sat back straight in confusion. “I found out a couple days ago. I want to do something special”

“Okay” My worry vanishes knowing it was all working out between the two. I grab onto my coffee and continue drinking it.

“Are you two going to try soon?” It was my turn to choke on my drink.

End

“I know” He huffed, throwing his head back to the seat. “Maybe we can run away?” That caused me to laugh. “Think about it” He turns his body to face me. “We can live on an island surviving only with things we catch and make from our very own hands” I shake my head knowing there was more nonsense coming. “We could ride on our boat each morning and we wouldn’t even have to talk to other people” What a dream. Of course I said that sarcastically. And of course, I said it in my mind. “You know what the best part of it would be?”

“What?” I smiled amused because his expression was all serious.

“We wouldn’t even have to wear clothes” I roll my eyes, throwing myself back into the seat to lean back. “It would be perfect. Just you and me, naked” He nudged my shoulder, “We could do it everywhere at anytime” I joined him in a simple chuckle for his stupid idea.

“You and I both know I don’t do hard labor” I show him my hands. Manicure done. Gold and occasionally silver rings stacked on my fingers. This is not a working hand, I don’t even deal with guns, unless I have to of course.

“That's why you have me” He gripped my chin to turn my head towards him. “You don’t have to do anything other than being with me”

“Then there's the other thing of my dream of living in a ranch. Bunch of animals running around. Couple acres” I grin seeing his mind turn. “We could also be naked there” He drops his hand.

“You’re right” He sighs like he just had a realization. I shake my head laughing, hitting him jokenly on the arm.

“Javi” I say with a warning tone. Our smiles disappeared as our eyes found eachother.

“I know,” He says once again. “One day” I nod smiling again.

“We are about to land sir, can you put your seat belt on again?” The kind flight attendant

announced.

“Of course,” Javier nods. When he is done clipping his seat belt his hands once again find my own. It was okay to dream about what we could have planned in the future. The future is still out in the air so anything is possible. But for now we need to deal with the present. We were currently traveling to Mexico to see the embassy. Javier needs to meet up with the USA counsel and since I am getting involved and needed in Mexico it was easier to knock two birds with one stone. Javier, although saddened and still conflicted with the decision, knows he was making the right decision to travel back to Colombia and be head of the Cali Cartel case.

Flashback

“You remind me of Javier when he chose to leave Laredo” I feared saying something wrong so I kept quiet and cautious when speaking with Chucho. “He wanted to leave this place and travel as far away as possible” We were currently out walking in the field, waiting for Javier to return from the town. “I saw it in his eyes when he came back that he didn’t like what he found out there” Chucho stops in his tracks looking out into the long field. “He wants to change it and even though I warned him to be careful because something that big you can’t change, he is also god damn stubborn” I smile understanding exactly what he means. “I also told him to be careful, no matter how hard he tries to change it, it is capable of changing you” Chucho turns around to face me. “I have seen who Javier once was when I heard about you in his life and now that I have seen you two there is no doubt he is still in there” His dad had the same soft eyes as Javier. “My boy has put a hard shell on due to the cruel world,” He walks closer grabbing my hands. “I know he would take it off to shield you from it. I just ask you to not give up on him because I'm scared to lose him forever” his eyes welled up and I couldn’t help myself but to hug him.

“I met Javier on his harshest days and know there are plenty more to come” I try to soothe the older man. “Even if his temper wasn’t the best match with mine at first he found a way to sneak himself in” Throught locked door mostly. “I can’t make a promise that it won’t happen but I will promise that aslong as I am still breathing I will fight and not let go of Javier” God knows I wouldn’t find someone to deal with me like he does. “It may sound stupid but for the first time I feel whole and carred for and that is something I won’t take for granted. It may be selfish but I will never be ready to let that go”

“And he will be stupid if he lets you go” Something about the love from a stranger who knows not much about you makes it feel even better than someone who has known you their whole lives.

End.

When we arrived at the airport a vehicle was waiting for us. I was wishing we would get a couple hours to settle down but I guess that will have to wait. We get into the car and I am surprised to see the ambassador sitting across from us. “I wanted to give you a personal welcome back” He smiles while he pours some champagne in a glass. “Nice to meet you Agent Peña, I am the ambassador of Mexico” He extends his hand towards Javier which he shakes.

“A pleasure ambassador Rodriguez” I smirk at Javiers responds.

“How was the flight?” The ambassador leans back, taking a sip. “I hope the arrangement

was to your liking?” Oh now this is a version of him that always pissed me off.

“It could have been better” I twist my body a bit while moving one leg on top of the other. “What is so important it couldn’t wait until tomorrow?” Rodriguez smiles, giving a quick nod. He places his glass down and pulls a file out of his suitcase.

“I think you will find this very important” I opened up the file, finding it filled with paperwork trails and pictures. My eyes widen trying to focus on a certain someone in those pictures. I read every single word and made the connection to things. I looked over to Javier who had a wondering look. I close the file quickly, handing it over back to Rodriguez.

“How long?” I ask blankly

“It's only been about a week but the shipment includes 2 months worth of product” I try to connect those dots but nothing pops up. “We have more details inside” I looked over and noticed we had stopped right infront of the embassy. “Welcome back Agent” He pats Javiers knee before getting out of the car.

“Mi amor?” Javier turns towards me, worried about my state. I look over making sure the driver is out but still decide to whisper.

“The cartel has transported over triple the shipment they usually do through the border in about a week” I know I was telling him but it came out more like a realization.

“Are you worried about how much product they have transported or how?” I shake my head facing Javier.

“I am worried about the reason why” The cartel have never been out in the spotlight and it is concerning that knowing this we still fall short on stopping them.

“But that’s still not it,” I nod, having a small smile on my lips. It wasn’t good news but having Javier here, knowing me was a nice feeling. “In those pictures I saw someone I know personally”

Flashback

Walking through the town I was from brought no memories to mind. “This is where you were born” We stand outside the hospital steps. I look up seeing the old, now pale blue building right infront of us. “This is where in the middle of spring a beautiful little girl took her first breath of fresh air” My grandmother had a small smile on her face. “How I regret not being there for your mother”

“Well you didn’t miss much. Plus all the fun happens when we get older” I smile, turning her to keep on walking.

“No, that is when the fun disappears. You are no longer loving and innocent” She scolded. My hand hits my chest jokenly offended by her remark.

“I am still loving and innocent,” I say, rolling my eyes. “But I guess you don’t see it because you are too focused on your other grandchildren” I continue walking with my arms folded together. I feel a tug on my hair pulling me back.

“The attention you need is discipline” She unfolds my arm and takes hold of my hand pulling us to the park.

“When someone needs to discipline their child in our culture they usually do it privately” I remark to all the people around us. “Unless you are into exhibition, which in that case, why to go grandma! But I hate to tell you, I am not into that” My laugh broke when she sent me a scolding look. Our feet finally stop and she turns me to look at the middle of the park.

“You have heard about the day you were born. So small and fraile.” Where was she going with this? I looked anywhere else other than the middle of the park. “Your mother took care of you on her own and I hate myself for not being there” I had some health problems being born prematurly and no one was around to help my mother who decided to leave home at an early age. “I know this will never be enough but when I decided to move with you and give up seeing them for what I know would be a long time, I took the chance because I care about you”

“Grandma,” I whine. I wasn’t into these sentimental moments.

“Everyone needs someone” She grabs my chin and forces me to look at the mural in the middle of the park. “I don’t know where you got your caring side. It goes beyond your mothers and mine.” I can’t look away now. I know if I do, tears would start to leave my eyes. “This is our last time together for a very long time, I know you made your decision because you care but I want you to know that the living here cares for your safe return too” I feel her caressing my skin. The mural was filled with flowers and notes. People around stopped and read, someone even saying a little prayer.

“I know who I have,” I say, turning over to look at my grandmother. “I know where I came from and what I want” I wrap one arm around her bringing her into a hug. “I will never forget the people who pray for me and wait for my safe return”

End.

“When I got my mothers cousin's file I discovered he was one if not the only politician I was 100% sure wasn’t part of any dealings” Javiers head twisted a little. “In that file, there was receipts, transactions, and picture of his family being in the same place as some major cartel bosses”

“So he was involved?” I shake my head.

“I never had my doubts he wasn’t. But of course with evidence it was hard to back up my story so I left it alone.” It wasn’t going to be much help either if I looked into it since he was already dead. “Their family was already suffering enough and didn’t need to be branded a fake because of actions he might have taken or not” The kids didn’t deserve that.

“So how is he involved in this?” I scoot closer to Javier knowing there was always a chance of a recorder or camera somewhere. I lean closer to his ear.

“The file Rodriguez showed me had a picture of the wife. The kids were young in one picture and the other, young adults”

“So you think?” I nod. No one would figure out the wife was part of it. She was always smiling by his side and taking care of their children.

“The faster I find out the faster we don’t miss a chance of capturing and shutting down the cartel. It seemed like after her sweet husband died she already had one in reserve. I took Javiers hand and led him out the car and into the embassy.

Miss l/n?” My head twisted seeing the young woman trying to catch up with us. “The ambassador wanted me to give you a message” She holds on a piece of paper.

“Thank you” As she turned to leave I looked down at the paper. I look up at Javier with a smirk. “Seems like you didn’t make a very nice impression with the ambassador” He furrowed his eyebrows as he began to follow me into the elevator.

“What?”

“Your meeting has been canceled. He will be sending over your plane ticket” I say nonchalant. I look over and see a blank space expression. “Don’t worry, I will have you here for a couple of days” I pull his face to plant a quick kiss.

“But he-”

“Don’t forget I have even more power” I send him a wink. The doors open and I continue to walk towards my office.

“Goodmorning Boss” I send the man a smile while walking by.

“So nice to see your officially back l/n” I say thank you, not stopping a second to chat.

“I will be your new secretary” A man already ready with a pen and paper stands infront of my office. “So nice to meet you Miss l/m”

“Yeah no way” I turn around hearing Javiers voice. I quickly grab onto his arm and pull him into my office.

“Come back at 10” I smile awkwardly before shutting the door on his face.

“When did they become men?” I laugh while setting my things on my desk. “Women did perfectly fine” He throws his hands to the air in frustration.

“Calm down macho alfa” I roll my eyes pulling my seat back to seat down. “Plus how can you have some eye candy and not me?” I didn’t think through my response and when I don’t it usually leads to unfortunate events. I look up seeing literal fire behind Javiers eyes.

“So you think he is cute?” Suddenly a grin appears on his face. I shrug, not really wanting to say anything else without thinking. “So it's okay for me to look at other women?”

“You're a man, I would put it past you” his steps become louder with each step he takes towards me. He harshly pulls my chair back and pulls me up. His face less than an inch away. One wrapped tightly around my waist while the other held the back of my neck.

“I am not just a man,” He groans, placing a kiss on my cheek. “I am your man” He places another kiss on the other cheek. A small grin appears on my face. “Your man,” He whispers in a husky voice. “Who doesn’t like to share,” I go in for a kiss but he pulls his face away. “I can’t look at another woman or person without thinking of you” He hovers above my lips. I want to kiss him but his reflexes are much faster again.

“Javi,” I whine, stomping one foot on the floor like a little kid. We didn’t have much time together so I was trying to soak in as much time with him as possible. A quick chuckle leaves his lips before grabbing my chin and making me look at him.

“You don’t need to fire him just-” His head now in the crook of my neck leaving a trail of kisses as he spoke. “Send him to someone else” I be honest I wasn’t too focused on any words that came out of his mouth. “Tell him to beat it’ My hands grip his hair pulling it to get a reaction but of course that didn’t work so I guess I had to do way more than that.

“Peña” A felt foreign saying his name in a serious tone. He looked just as surprised. “If you don’t bend me over this desk and fuck me I will have to go with another option” One eyebrow rises waiting for his responds.

“Mi princesa wants me to fuck her?” I nod my head excitedly pulling him closer. “Right on her desk?” A groan leaves my lips as he pulls me up. I wrap my legs around his waist and I am not ashamed to say my body started grinding on his. “Having the whole place hear how sweet you say my name?” Stupid beautiful hot smirk. I groan as he places me on my desk pushing us down until my back is layed completely down. I could never grow tired of this man, my man.

“Javi?” I whine wanting him to take his pants off already. He pulls away leaving one last kiss on my neck. I look up seeing his eyes intensely admiring me. One hand grasps my hip while the other moves up towards my chest until it wraps around my neck. Dear God, if you can hear me, don’t. I am to be praying, screaming, and worshipping another name like a new religion. His grasp tightens and I couldn’t help but moan.

“Get.Rid.Of.Him.” He taunts finally letting me go.

“What the hell Peña?” I sit up distraught. His body fell on my chair.

“You heard me.” With his arms folded he sits there looking at me. “Use all that anger” He shrugged. Shrugged! Like it was some kind of punishment. He was holding out because he was jealous of some kid? I could easily climb on his lap and take him but I know it will come back as soon as we are done. I jump off my desk fixing my clothes and hair.

“You will regret this Peña” I move closer leaning against the armrest of the chair to come face to face. “Remember the day I walked into your office?” He nods.

“I was mainly focused on your cleavage” He smiles

“Remember what I said?” His eyes switched towards mine searching for the answer he knew perfectly.

“I was too focused then on your lips” He comes to touch my face but I snatch his hand away. I give him a scolding look. “You said you held a lot of power in your position” His eyebrow lifted telling me that is wasn’t the case right now.

“Yes.” I innocently say. “I still hold a lot of power and even more now” His eyes follow me as I slowly get on my knees infront of him. “Don’t you think?” My eyes flutter looking up at him and one hand rubs his knee, then his leg, until I am above his cock. I see him swallow hard looking down at me with very little power to hold himself back. My hand starts to push a little harder, giving him the friction he was craving. “You will regret giving me orders” He throws his head back and that is when I stop and stand.

“What?” It was my time to shrug.

“Feels horrible doesn’t it?” I looked down at his eyes knowing what I had to do. As I remember our encounter back then I realise he wasn’t that Peña anymore. He was Javier, Javi who only wanted me.

“Where are you going?” Just like clock work there is a knock on the door. I ignored Javier who stood with fist on my desk. I open the door and tell the young man to follow me.

“Attention everyone!” All the people in the office stop and turn to face me. “As you all know I will be coming back to work soon and there is a matter I will like to be taken care of before that happens”

“Miss l/n?” I turn to see a worried face on the secretary as I turn to notice the ambassador walking up. Then I turn to look at Javier leaning against the door frame with a worried smile. I turn back around addressing everyone again.

“I want in every email, paper, any message or tag in my name to be changed” Everyone had an expression like I grew two heads. “I want you to change it to my last name, Peña” I swore I heard a gasp. The silence was broken when Rodriguez walked up towards me.

“Mi Niña is married?”

“Sure is” He laughs, pulling me into a hug. A couple people clap. “I got a couple details to run by you” I say seriously pulling away from him.

“Of course you do,” He sighs. “But tell me in a couple of days when you get back” He pats my shoulder, turning around but not before giving Javier a wave.

“Mrs, Peña?” The young secretary comes up and like he just won a prize Javier has a huge smile on his face. He asks his question and after that I dismiss him.

“How's that?” I say pushing Javier back into my office.

“I like it” I shake my head. “Lock the door” I ordered pointing at my office door.

“Aren’t we going to leave?” He asked while he locked the door.

“Not until you fuck me on this desk.” I say, taking off my shirt. “Then we are going to the hotel and I want you to fuck me on every possible surface” His eyes grew darker. “Understood Peña?”

“Yes Mrs Peña”

Flashback

“Javier?” I looked around, noticing we parked in a parking lot. Unknown buildings around us. It looked like the main street. I hear the driver side door open and when I look over Javier closed the door. “Javi?” I twist my body to follow his movement as he jogs around to open my door.

“Ready?” To look at his face and a smile plastered on it was all it took to take his hand. He shuts the door behind me and leads us to wherever he was taking me.

“Javi all these places are closed” There were some cars parked on the street but as I looked at every store, the lights were off with a sign that said closed. We walked along the sidewalk as I admired the town Javier grew up in. The sound of doors opening and a slight pull brings me back to reality.

“I will be right back” He places a kiss on my forehead before running down the aisle of the church. What the hell were we doing in a church? Forgive my words I say looking up to the ceiling. Beautiful moldes all around. Huge tall windows decorating the second floor walls. The column traveled with even more beautiful artifacts that led you to the stands. The whole church was white and beige with the exclusion of the wooden church chairs. The floor stones. I walk down following the steps Javier took until I stop right infront of the altar. On one side you can see a god statue and on the other the virgin mary. In the middle, a cross is adorned with flowers.

“You must be y/n” My head snaps to the right seeing a priest and close behind was Javier. “I am Father Gallegos”

“Padre” I take his hand bowing my head.

“Javier has asked me for a blessing” Switch my attention to Javier who only nods. “Is that what you want as-well” I was totally lost here.

“Mi amor” Javier moves to my side, taking my hand. “This has been so sudden so just know you can run away at any moment” I see him take a deep breath before kneeling down to one knee. My mouth wasn’t able to call his name before he spoke again. “We are about to go in different paths and to think that I could lose you was unbearable,” He rubs my hands as his eyes are fixed on mine. “I don’t want to regret a single thing when we are thousands of miles away. I want to be able to call you officially mine and I know it is a big step over a date, but I know this is what I want. I want you.” My nose stinged knowing tears were close to showing. “Will you marry me?” I blink the tears that were blurring my vision and nod.

“Yes Javi” His arms quickly engulfed me in a hug.

“Alright kids.” We turn to the priest giving him a smile “Can’t believe little Javier is getting married” He shakes his head heading up the altar. “I don’t usually do this but due to the circumstance and that I know you two are honerable I will make an exception” We turn to look at eachother smiling like idiots. I giggle quietly holding on to Javier’s hand. We stand infront of the priest as he was preparing himself.

“Was this your church?” I whisper not wanting to disturb the priest. Javier nods. “Ever taken someone to the back?” I hold in my laugh seeing his reaction.

“No,I am not that evil” he rolled his eyes with a smile.

“Doesn’t mean he didn’t try” I turned around to the priest and back to Javier shocked “It was once but I think it was due to Don Chucho giving him a good lesson”

“Padre, you are supposed to unite us, not give her a reason to run” I shake my head pulling us closer.

“I know the Javier I am marrying, I won’t run” Javiers eyes meet mine. Full of hope we both looked back at the priest so he could begin.

“We are gathered here today to unite two hearts” As he spoke I couldn’t help but look at Javier. The low gleam of the candles burning around us made the aura warm. The slight cast of the morning sun shined throught the windows creating a beautiful gleam towards the ceiling. I heard every word. Took in every word. It was like my whole world agreed to pause so I could charish this moment forever. “Y/n do you have any vows you would like to say?” I took my eyes off Javier for a second before shaking my head. My mind was conflicted. There weren't enough words to tell him how much I needed him. What he means to me and how much better person I am because of him.

“I love you” It wasn’t until I blinked that I noticed my eyes swelled up with tears. One of them escaped and slid down my cheek.

“Javier?”The priest spoke, I gave Javier a reassuring smile.

“I love you” I was thankful for not having to wear makeup because I am such an ugly crier.

“In the sight of God, I now pronounce you man and wife.” Our smile grows.

“Can I kiss her now?” Javier looks over.

“This is the only time God will see it right. You may kiss your wife”

“My wife” Javier whispers pulling me close

“My Javi” Javiers captures my lips in a tender,passionate kiss. The world around us melting away. As long as it lasted we weren’t worried about being separated or worried our jobs would tear us apart. Our hearts will beat for eachother for as long as we live and even as a ghost.

End.

Family

Javier Pena

Javier never met your family. He didn’t know who they were or how they were. Based on past conversation he knew you loved them dearly, but god if you hadn’t left home you would have gotten yourself in a mental instituted.

“When were you going to tell me your family is in town?” I almost spit my food out. I look over to Javier confused as he looks up from his phone. “Your father just sent me a text for a dinner reservation,” He turned over the phone that had a text from an unknown number. It explained who he was and the time and place for the dinner. I looked out the cafe window taking in a deeo breath.

“I guess he checked my location” I pushed the small dessert away and leaned back cupping my coffee close.

“You share your location with your father?” I look up at him, now he was the one confused. I barely spoke to Javier about my family. The reason was more because It was a breath of fresh air everyday without them. My father was a man of buiness so naturally I seen little of him. My mother was the best part of him so she spent most of her time by his side. My siblings was either parted to be under their shadow or out on their own in another part of the world once they reached a certian age. That was the parts I didn’t tell him. I told him how my father spent any spare time he could with us. How my mother knew me the best and loved me in her own way. How I missed my siblings, cherishing the memories we had when we were small. It wasn’t a lie, but it wasn’t the whole truth.

“Not exactly” I look down again and under the table I turn off my phone. “The hotel we are staying in are some close friends so I am guessing they spoiled the news” I sent him a smile as I felt him becoming bewildered. “We don’t have to go if you don’t want to,” I grabbed his hand from across the two person table.

“Do you want to?” I chuckle trying my damn hardest to make it seem like I was totally okay about the idea. I was hoping for a little bit more time to prepare myself. I didn’t think it was the right moment to introduce Javier to them, but then again it has been 3 years, 3 years since we have been married.

“Of course,” I squeezed his hand. “I don’t want to push you into something” I turn it over to him, maybe he will shake his head and say we could skip this dinner for another time. Maybe when we are 40, 60? Let's say 80 to be safe. I look at him hopeful. I smile as he shakes his head. But he stands up letting go of my hand. He takes out his wallet and pull out some bills before setting them on the table. He puts his wallet back and with a smooth swoop he grabs hold of my hand and pulls me up and out the double doors of the cafe. We walked down the streets of New York, our 2nd stop of this vacation. His hand makes his way across my waist to pull us closer in the cold wind. My mouth is a straight line scared to say something wrong that could lead to an argument or worse, an interigation of my family.

“Listen” He whispers as he grabs on my hips and turns me to face him. “You are going to go into this store,” He points at the one he just made us stop infront of. “You are going to pick out a pretty dress and we are goint to have dinner with your parents” I pouted. I couldn’t avoid this anymore. I look up innocently towards Javi hoping he might change his mind. He lets out a weary sigh. I move my arms around his neck as he pulls us closer by my waist. “After all these years together I learn something new about you everyday,” The pout is gone as I listen close to his words, “Tonight I want to learn where you came from,” One hand moves up to form a hair from my face. “I want to know who raised the woman I fell in love with,” He will be in for a suprise. “I want to know from their perspective who you were as a kid,” He placed a kiss on my forehead, with that I didn’t need anymore convincing. Having Javier there doesn’t sound so bad now because I know no matter what he won’t leave. “I want to show them how much I love you and just how wonderful you are to me” Yeah, I think my mother lost her crown. He is who I dreamed of and prayed for so long. Someone who takes their time to understand me.

“Okay” I smile, pulling away from him. “You had me at pretty dress” He let out a dry chuckle before I dragged him into the store.We began shopping at around 2 and as I screamed out of the dressing room to Javier he announced it was currently 4:23. I mean he should know better right? I wasn’t huge on shopping but when I am nervous I shop. I am a shop addict and currently relapsing. I know I didn’t need all those dresses currently laying beside Javier outside the dressing room but he gave me his card and I was about to go full out. “Honey, when was the reservation?” I slip into what my mind could recall being the 16th dress? And walk out the curtains to show Javier.

“6” He looks up and a huge grin appears. “I don’t care what I said a minute ago” He gets up grabbing my face and pulling me into an intense kiss. “We can forget about the dinner and go straight to the hotel bed” His hands move down to caress my curves until he reaches my hips. I bit my lip holding in the squeal he caused with such a simple action.

“I guess I can be nice enough since you are paying” I sway my hips until we are less than an inch apart. He booped my nose with a wide tooth smile.

“Nice try, I wasn’t serious” The smile died on my face and I rolled my eyes pushing him away.

“You suck!” I throw my hands up in frustration going back to the dressing room. I hear a low chuckle as he settles back on the couch outside. “I hope you enjoy dessert tonight because that is all you are getting-” The curtains fly open and close. I turn around scarred for a moment until Javier has me cornered in the dressing room. Thankfully the curtains covered the room to the floor and hooked on the side so it wouldn’t move. He hand pushed my jaw up to meet our eyes. His other hand removes the other strap I had left. His face moves to the side of my ears and he begins to nibble.

“I guess I will have early dessert than” My hands instantly move to grip his hands in anticipation. My legs rub against eachother already desprate for what he can only give me.

“Javi” I moan pushing my head back to give him more access to my neck. He moves down sucking and bitting. Its like he didn’t fuck me this morning, I could feel my panties being soaked. “Please my love” I whine lowly not wanting to make so much noise but it was impossible. He other hand move down below my back, squeezing and massaging make me let out a uneazy moaned.

“You need to be quieter mi amor” My chest pushed forward involuntarly wanting to follow his lips but when I opened my eyes to whine he was already on his knees. His calloused hands slipped under the long dress to skim up my legs at an infuriating pace. My hands move to grip his beautiful cury hair that I always find when he goes down on me, but only for him to stop them.

“You want to be funny, let's see how fun it is to handle this without something to grip” His stupid grin disapears under my dress.

“Fuck” My head is thrown back as I feel his lips make contact with my skin. My panties were not on for long after that kiss. My hand moved to the walls but I had no grip. The mirror and the wooden walls did nothing to stabalize me. His hands part my legs to give him space to move closer. Fuck, but it wasn’t enough. I could feel his warm breath close to where I needed him but as my hip moved forward a low chuckle left his lips.

“So desparate mi vida” Our moans in sync as his finger moves up to spread clit. “So wet” He hums as his tongue makes a quick and simlple swipe. One of his hands grips my thigh and moves it over his shoulder. “You better thank this pussy for making me happily hand over my card” He gives it a kiss knowing damn well I am on the verge of screaming. My hips wanted to find his lips. I didn’t care how desprate I seemed, I wanted him.

“Baby please” I whine. Fuck I could cry right now. “Forget what I said, I will give you anything tonight” Seems like that was enough reason for him to give me what I wanted right now. “Fuck amor” My hands become warm and sweaty, unable to stay put on the mirror creating a fog on my hand print. His lips started with simple licks before he starts sucking on my clit. Smooth and harshly, who was desprate now? My hand shake wanting to touch him but I couldn’t. One hand gripping the back of my thigh and the other gripped my hip. “So good Javi” I moan throwing my head back and closing my eyes. Feeling how his tough magically worked my pussy. I cover my mouth stopping a squeal of suprise. His tongue fucking my hole in a rapid pace. “Javier!”I groaned. My hands slap agaisnt the wooden and mirror, I didn’t care anymore about the noise. His grip on my skin making it more pleasureable as his pace became harsher. I felt the knot on my stomach increase. “Sigue mi amor” I moaned moving my hips unable to stay put. “You are so good to me” My voice became raspy and breathless. “My sweet husband” I scream feeling him slow our pace but eachtime he fucked his tongue in hard and long. “Fucking hell!” I was cumming. My head moved unable to accept such ecstasy. My nails in pain trying to grip something and my legs shaking. He pushed it wider as he continued to fuck me with his tongue. My hips moving shamfully around his face. I didn’t care if he could breath and by the looks of it, he didn’t either. “Fuck” I let out a long await sigh. My hip jumps unable to resist it as Javier pulls out his tongue and begins to lick my sensative clit.

“I don’t think I need dessert anymore” I chuckle looking down at him still under the dress. I push his head back, not letting him finish. “This was sweet enough for today” I rolled my eyes, grabbing my panties from the floor and throwing them inside my purse. I get out some wipes I had because we weren’t strangers to fucking in public and other suprising places. I looked over to him once I was done and laughed. “What?” He asked, trying to move in to give me a kiss. I place a hand on his chest shaking my head. “Do I have something in my face?” He grins, moving his face side to side. I pull out another wipe and grab his jaw.

“I should let you walk out like that” I warned, unable to stay serious when his eyes stared down at me. Like he wanted to fuck me and god did I want him to.

“And show them how proud I am to be able to have you like this? Make them jealous? I would walk out their head high” I grab his jacket stopping him from walking out.

“Shut up” I finish wipping his face and turn to throw it in the trash. “Now get out and pay for the dress” I let the dress slip out and throw it at him.

“What about the rest outside?” He asks, confused. I sit down on the chair as I start to get dressed again.

“Pick your favorite and leave the rest” I shurg standing back again and move to push him out the dressing room. “We are going to be late” He looks down to check his watch and nods.

“How the hell am I supposed to choose just one?” He groans, turning over to look down at the pile of dresses. I chuckle closing the curtains and getting back to getting dressed. We only had about an hour to get to the hotel,get ready, and meet my family at the restaurant by 6. Thankfully we didn’t get distracted and stood infront of the building 12 minutes after the reservation.

“Name?” The host spoke tiredly as we walked up to the stand. I tell him the name on the reservation and with wide eyes he looks up quickly. “I apologise, I didn’t-” I shake my head

“Everything is okay” I smile. He whispers okay and motions us to follow him. We walked behind him past the crowded dining room and up the stairs to the roof.

“I hope you enjoy dinner with the stars” The host says before opening the glass double doors for us to enter.

“Your father went all out tonight” I looked around the place, just like I remembered it. Window walls and an open skylight. Candles, flowers and every other greenary surrounding the table on the roof. Of course each one of them were empty except for one overlooking the city.

“He tends to do that for people” I hope he didn’t notice the poison that came out with those words. One thing about my father is that he likes to impress. He likes to show how much wonder there is in the world, but never to his family. I turned over looking at Javier eyeing everything he could. “Are you ready?” It was finally time. Time to share Javier with people who felt entitled to everything.

“Yes” I grab on to his extended hand and with a deep inhale we start walking towards the table. I noticed my mother and father laughing and two people sitting infront of them with red wine already in their hands.

“You have to been fucking kidding me” I whispered. It almost made me want to turn around a leave but it was too late once I heard my fathers voice.

“There you are! We never got an answer so we came blindly here” He moves closer giving me a hug.

“Seems like you brought back up just incase” I look over to the poeple sitting infront of them who hadn’t turned around yet.

“Be nice,” My father warned as he pulled away. “You must be Javier” He smiles, going straight for a hug which Javier welcomes. I held in a laugh knowing he wasn’t one to hug.

“Nice to meet you sir, I-”

“No need for formalities, we are family afterall” He laughs patting him in the back before guiding him to the table. “Well I think soon enough we will be, I hope?” Javiers eyes fine mine, unable to hide the confusion. I shake my head moving over to my mothers side.

“Hi mami, I’ve missed you” She hugs me and pulls me over to look at their guest. “It's wonderful to have you two reunited isn’t it?” She smiles looking over to me, giving me a shake. “This is Javier, the man who finally got through this one” I give a fake smile pushing off of her hold. “Nice to finally meet you Javier” She says, taking her seat once again. Before Javier could respond we heard the chair screech beside him. He was currently standing on the other side of the table with my father and someone he will get to know pretty well is not at all a good person.

“The imfamous DEA agent who took down Escobar” She smiles widely, going in to wrap her arms arond his neck and pulling him into a hug. “My name is Amelia, I am the cousin” She pulls away, dragging her hands as slow as possible down his chest before turning over to me with a fake smile. “Nice to see you again”

“Likewise” I smile. I turned over to her husband standing next to her “How have you been Ezra?” I shake his hand as he sends over a smile.

“Company is going great so I can’t complain”

“That's wonderful, how are the kids?” I look over hearing Amelia start her own conversatin with Javier and my parents.

“Wonderful” He lets out a happy exhale. “They always say they grow too quickly but you don’t know it until it happens to you” My face softens hearing how much love he has for his kids. “Tell me you are staying for Lucy’s birthday this saturday”

“Oh yes! You should sweetie, you can introduce Javier to the whole family” My mother pitches into the conversation. I looked over seeing how uncomfortable Javier was.

“I would love to but we only have this trip planned until thursday” Javier looks at me giving me a look. I know what he wanted me to do but I gave him an innocent look faking like I didn’t understand what he was eyeing me to do. “We are on a schedule and everything is booked and paid for” Javier takes this time to walk over to my side and pull out a chair for me. My hand is itching to shake their hands goodbye already.

“Well that is no problem” My father exlaims as we all took our seats around the table. I see him pull out his phone already knowing what he was going to do.

“You don’t have-”

“Don’t be proud” My mother taps my hand lovingly, atleast that's what I know she meant. “Your father is doing something nice so be greatful” I shake my head forcing out a smile.

“There. The best planes,hotels, and activites booked for a later date” I feel Javier squeeze my hand under the table. His gentle touch reminded me I could take a deep breath in and allow things to happen. It wasn’t the end of the world, yet. “So Javier-” The conversation continued without a stop. We ordered our food and as it camed I couldn’t believe how easy it was for Javier to smooth into my family. I stayed quiet, watching the reaction radiate from their faces as Javier spoke about his DEA days. My eyes caught my fathers and his gentle smile could have fooled me. “So you went from a respected DEA hero to now becoming a rancher?”

“Dad,” I warned him. I place my fork down that I have been using to poke around the food on my plate.

“Honey,” My mother says warmly, placing her hand ontop of mine. “He is just asking questions a concerned father would,” I shake my head, removing my hand from her hold. I have seen these conversations start like this millions of times and all those times it has ended in chaos. I go to push my chair back to stand but it doesn’t budge. I look over, noticing Javiers hand grabbing on to it.

“Yes sir. I work in my fathers ranch in Texas. Peacefully and wellfinanced” He turns over to me giving me a reassuring look. “A place we both love,” I look down with a smile admiring how well he responded. “A place I hope to raise a family in” If I had food in my mouth I would have choked, just like my mother did.

“You two aren’t even married, what kind of life would those kids have out of wedlock?” I hear the taunting in Amelia’s voice saying what my parents' eyes were wanting to say.

“I have seen people in marriages who don’t prioritize their kids,” I turn to give her an obvious look “So as long as the parents love them, that will be enough. No need for a piece of paper”

“Well of course you do!” My mother says. “If not for the kids then for your family” She turns over to her father who nods agreeing. “What would people say?” I feel the tense twitch in Javier’s hand.

“My daughter will start a family the right way” There we go. My father always waited for a sign to continue and the dislike in my mother tone gave him the go ahead. “I gave her the privilege of attending the best schools and best programs to improve her career” I take in a deep breath, “I am even allowing her to live in a ranch-”

“Which is below us already” My mother adds

“No daughter of mine will put that humilation on my name, but I am allowing it because one day she will come to terms that it is not a place she belongs” I wanted to slam my fist on the table and tell them off but I watched the reaction on Javiers face. Jaw tense, eyes burning, and his other hand in a fist. “You will be back to claim your position in my company where you belong” He says calmly. He leans back satistficed with his words. With a simple nod I stand up still grabbing onto Javiers hand.

“I am where I belong,” I stare deeply into my parents eyes. I didn’t owe Amelia an explanation to waste energy on her. “I am grateful for everything you have provided me but since day one I told you I wanted nothing to do with it. I took business classes, marketing, and even majored in electrical engineering to make you happy but never promised to step foot in your company” I let out the breath I was holding in. “I have built my own name no matter how small it is compared to yours” I grab my things ready to turn around and leave.

“Fine,” My mother stands up in her spot. “If you walk out those doors you will be leaving this family for good. You have always been an ungrateful girl. When you decided to leave after graduating from college. Take that job in teaching.” She huffs, shaking her head. “Deciding to move to Colombia of all places, but you know what your worst disappointment of all was?” She walks around the corner of the table to stand in front of me. “Choosing a man who probably only wants you for your money, you will see once you marry him that he would take the first opportunity and dump you” My eyes threaten to fill with tears, how wouldn’t such words hurt? They were my mothers. I walk closer not wanting to give her that satisfaction of seeing me cry or flich at her intimidation.

“He hasn’t done it yet, and he has had 3 years to do so,” Her eyes widened in shock. “And I know he wouldn’t take the first chance to run because I choose to marry him for love” I adore my parents, they work well together but one thing I would never forget is what my mother told me at a young age. I walked closer whispering in her ear, “You married my father for his money, because you wanted a better life. I have a better life because of him, I don’t need the money” I pull back seeing her mouth shut at my confession.

“You will see once you have children that they deserve better” I turn around angrily.

“My children will have the best of both of us,” I say, holding on to Javiers hand. “That's all they need” I turned around to walk away but I couldn’t end it like this. I turned to look at Javier who gave me a look. A look I can always count on when I am in a hard place. A look that tells me he is with me every step of the way. So I stop in my tracks and turn around one last time. “I hope they get the chance to meet their grandparents one day.” I look over to my father who has blank eyes as his hands hold on to the table. “You know where to find me” Holding tightly for support I walk out the restaurant with Javier. As we step outside I stop looking up. The sun was now gone and the stars in full display. I close my eyes feeling the wind hit my face letting in cold air through my lungs. My shoulder drops, feeling the weight of worry fall. I no longer had to carry my parents guilt, I no longer had to hide them from the person I love most. “Can we go to a bar?” I turn my head a bit watching Javier looking at me.

“Sure Paris Hilton,” He snatchs my hand up again with a smile leaning us to a bar close by. “Why didn’t you tell me who your parents were around here?” He asked calmly.

“Because if I started talking about them and what they did you would want to meet them and you saw how that went” I say in a monotone voice. Suddenly I realised I didn’t feel the slight tug on my heart when I spoke about them. It didn’t hurt anymore.

“Hey” He pulls me back, placing his hand on my back pulling me close. “I’m sorry if I pushed you to do this” His hand instantly grabs my face making me focus on him.

“It was bound to happen one day” I kissed the palm of his hand enjoying his company, or more so that he didn’t run away after all of that. “They always had closed opinions and that is the main reason I am happy to have found you” I smile wrapping my arms around his neck. “I hate to say it but it's Karma to them” I look up proudly at him. I peck his lips quikly and pull away. “Come on let's get you something to drink” I motioned for him to continue walking. “You can have a drink for me too, since I can’t have any for another couple of months” I hear a snicker from behind me before he shows up beside me with a

grin.

“You were the one begging for it” I turned slightly, giving him a hit on the shoulder.

“Shut up! You were the one begging for it” I rolled my eyes walking a bit faster and into the bar. “Order me the usual” I tell him heading into the bathroom. I watch as he goes up the bar and with a stupid loving smile I go in. As I finish my business I hear my phone ringing. “Hello?” I answer without looking at the caller id.

“Hey,” My head lifted up, shocked and a little embarrassed. “Listen, I just wanted to see how you were going and let you know that I support you,” His voice was low, probably hiding from Amelia.

“Thanks Ezra. Everything is fine,” I try to sound happier. “I will even be there saturday”

“Really?! That's great, I am glad everything is okay” I don’t know why it came out but it was too late to take it back. I finish talking with Ezra and with a last look at the mirror I walk out. Nerves start to hit once again as I catch Javier’s eyes. With a smile nod he points at his glass. Those nerves went straight to the trash as I know that I have nothing to worry about.

“This is my third one mi vida” he puts the glass down proudly.

“And your last” I grin leaning back on my seat. I look in front of me and my usual plate is there.

“Okay, I have to get my precious family home safe” he smiled looking over at me. At that moment I was sure of my actions. I hated to end things like that with my parents but that’s it how it was supposed to end I guess. As I look over to Javier who was explaining something he read in a baby book about eating too much spicy food I get up from my chair and take a seat on his lap. It was my own family I needed to take care of now.

It's Never Too Late Masterlist

Summary: You are an elementary school teacher who just moved to Texas for a fresh start when you meet a very handsome man from the Laredo Sheriff's Department coming to give your class a presentation.

After your co-workers pull some strings for you to meet again, you and Javier Peña find yourselves falling head over heels for each other.

Story takes place post Narcos Season 3 in Laredo, Texas, starting May 1997.

Paring: Javier Peña x OFC (Reader is an elementary school teacher whose nickname is Osita, no use of y/n)

Warnings: SMUT (18+ chapters containing marked with * and each chapter will also have its own warnings), language, fluff, romantic comedy, reader has physical descriptions, Javi being so soft and getting all the love and affection he deserves, you two being the biggest weirdos so in love

Status: Ongoing

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Main Story:

Chapter 1: I D.A.R.E. You

Chapter 2: What's Cookin', Good Lookin'?

Chapter 3: I Wanna Be With You Everywhere*

Chapter 4: Add You To My List*

Chapter 5: You're The One That I Want*

Chapter 6: Dinosaurs, Dates and Diners, Oh My!*

Chapter 7: School's Out for Summer*

Chapter 8: My Favorite Cowboy*

Chapter 8.5: 007- Peña, Agent Peña*

Chapter 9: I Promise*

Chapter 10: Happy Birthday, Javi*

Pt. 1*

Pt. 2*

Chapter 11: Abe Froman, Sausage King of Chicago *

Chapter 12: I Love You. I Know. *

Chapter 13: There's No Place Like Home*

Chapter 14: Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas*

Chapter 15: She Shoots, She Scores*

Chapter 16: The Lone Star State*

Chapter 17: No Ifs, Ands, Or Butts*

Chapter 18: Hole in None*

Chapter 19: Good Luck, and Goodnight*

Chapter 20: I Do

Pt. 1*

Spin-Off Series:

Forever and Always*: Slices of life following the Peña family after their first child

One Shots (In chronological order of the main storyline):

Movie Night*

Dirty Laundry*

Again*

You're My Home*

Not Yet*

Happy Valentine's Day, Javier Peña*

The Mouse and the Motorcycle

You Make Life Worth It

Take Me Home

Plaid Pajama Morning

Agent Peña*

Every Inch*

Soup for Breakfast

Whatever My Wife Wants*

Oh, Baby

Peanut Butter and Pickles

Asks/Headcannons:

Javi and Osita before work

Javi's DEA Jacket

Javi's Tac Vest

Javi and Osita when they argue

Javi being distractingly cute

Javi when he's sick

Osita when she's pregnant

Osita after a bad day at work

Javi coming home after work to his kids

Extras:

NSFW Alphabet- Javi and Osita

1K Followers Celebration Asks and Answers

Never Too Late Playlist

Mood board

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So I haven't written literally anything on here in FOREVER and I've decided to start again. I'm gonna try to get a Joel Miller fic out by the end of tomorrow so if you're interested look for that! <3

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This is not my usual content I would post but it needs to be said. Earlier today I was at Walmart to pick up purple shampoo and a loaf of bread. I decided to browse their makeup to look for a new blush and there were maybe three other people in there: a mother and her daughter and a young woman, maybe in her mid twenties.

While I was standing there the young woman came up to me and very nervously asked if she could walk around with my while I finished my shopping because she thought a man was following her in the store. She told me what he was wearing and his build and said that she had been weaving in and out of aisles in the store and everytime she changed aisles the man would follow her from a not so subtle distance. Where I live there has been a rise in human trafficking in a few nearby areas and she told me that she had seen a lot of that on the news and I could tell she was extremely nervous. I let her know that she could walk around with my while I grabbed what I needed and even offered to walk with her to her car just in case. She ended up just walking with me to get my stuff and then we separated when we both needed to checkout; per her assurance that she would be fine.

Being another young woman alone in the store I was very alert and mildly nervous walking to my car alone even though I have been there a million times by myself. I made it to my car safe and as I was pulling out of the parking spot I saw the same woman walking out to her car, alone and safe as well.

The point of this is that people, women and men and everyone else, shouldn't have to put up with the fear of being kidnapped and sold while simply shopping, or anywhere else for that matter. While this should never happen, the sad truth is that it does happen, and please if you notice anything suspicious going on or see someone in need of help do not hesitate to step in to help or clear up any confusion on a situation.

And if you are ever in a situation like this, please please please, don't wait for something to happen, talk to security or an employee, ask to walk with someone for a few minutes, find something to do to PREVENT NOT DEFEND. Don't wait to be the person on the news that has everyone else worrying.

Hiii!!! I have a request

Can you write something with heavy angst at the beginning like maybe a fight? And at the end super super fluffy!!! Any Pedro characters!! (Preferably whiskey or pena)

Complicated

A/n: Thanks for the request anon! I decided heavy angst meant HEAVY angst so here you go. It isn't exactly what you requested but this kinda popped into my head when I read your request and I really wanted to write it, I'm sorry. This is my first Javier Peña fic so pls have some grace <3!

Word Count: 3K

All my work is 18+, MDI!!!

Warnings: Swearing, typical Narcos violence, hurt/comfort, kidnapping, torture, real angsty, kinda fluff at the end jk I can't write fluff apparently, mentions of drinking and smoking, poorly translated Spanish (google translate 😃), no use of Y/n, attempted/talk of SA.

Your relationship with Javier Peña was complicated to say the least. You weren't officially together but there were two toothbrushes in his bathroom, there was a drawer full of your clothes in his dresser, and your coat was hanging by his front door.

He made breakfast for you most mornings and you'd kiss him goodbye when he left for work, but you weren't dating. You loved him but you've never said it to each other.

That was the worst part. You practically lived at his apartment and you feared for his life every single fucking day he went to work, but God forbid he put a damn label on whatever you were. So that's how the argument started.

"You don't need to risk your life every fucking day Javi! The world won't end if you just relax for one goddamn second!" Every single day Javi would come home black and blue. Today he came home with a fractured nose and bruises littering his body from a run in with one of Escobar sicarios.

"Why the fuck do you care? You're not my wife! You're not even my girlfriend! You're nothing to me!" The moment those words left his mouth he immediately backtracked. "Querida, I'm so sorry, I didn't me-"

But it was too late you were already walking to the door to grab your keys and pull on your shoes. "No, Javier. You're right. We aren't dating no reason I should give a damn about you. See you around." The door slammed behind you as you walked away and down the apartment complex to your car parked out front.

Your solution to the hurt radiating throughout you was to head to the nearest bar and get shit faced. Javier would've had your ass for going out and getting drunk alone in the crime capital of the world but who the hell was he to tell you what to do. Especially after what he said when you tried to show concern for him.

So here you were sitting alone at the bar, well past midnight, and probably three too many drinks deep. Getting home was the issue at hand now. Home. That should've been Javier's apartment filled with both of your belongings. The two of you should've been intertwined in bed right about now, connected in the most intimate way.

But instead you were drunk, alone, and extremely vulnerable. All because Javier fucking Peña couldn't find it in himself to commit to one person after over a year of almost dating.

As you made a move to walk out the bar and back towards the car you almost immediately stumbled just standing up, no way in hell were you driving across town to your apartment.

Walking wasn't an option either. There were already three men outside the bar looking at you in a way that was much more than just friendly.

There was only one person you could call no matter how much you wanted to avoid it.

He picked up on the third ring. "Hermosa? I'm so sorry, I didn't mean anything I said you know that right?" He immediately started spewing apologies the moment he answered the phone.

"Javier, I don't really care right now? I'm drunk, really drunk and there's these guys that aren't too far away from me and I can't drive."

"Where are you, Carino?" You gave him the address and you could hear him grab his keys and slam the door. "Stay where you are and stay on the phone ok? Do not hang up."

You nodded before remembering he couldn't see you. "Ok. " You kept an eye on the three men and couldn't help but notice they were closer than before, they had now crossed the road over to your side of the street. "Javi?"

"What is it? I'm 30 minutes away."

"Javi they're getting closer." You gasped when a flash of metal lit up in the dim streetlight. "Javi they have guns. What do I do? They have fucking guns Javi." You were panicking now and the men were only getting closer. Javier wouldn't be able to do shit in half an hour if the men decided to use their weapons.

"Lock your doors. Do not open the doors. Can you drive at all?"

You're gaze darted around and sent your head spinning. "No. Javi I can't drive! I'm so fucking stupid why would I get drunk right now? Javi what if they try to d-"

The sound of your voice over the phone was cut off by a scream and loud gunshots ringing through the line.

Javi gripped the wheel and pressed the pedal down to the floor while shouting your name. "Hey! What happened? Answer me please!" He called your name again before the line went dead. "Joder que hago? ¿Qué debo hacer? Fuck, what do I do? What do I do?"

With sweating palms and a racing pulse he called Murphy for backup.

After the men shattered your windows with bullets, they roughly yanked you out of your car, uncaring of any cuts or scrapes you got from all the broken glass, and shoved you through the doorway of the house across the street they had sat in front of earlier.

The entirety of the short walk there was spent with you fighting tooth and nail to get out of their grasp while the men felt you up through the tight dress you wore. Their dirty hands grabbed and pulled at every available inch of skin they could reach while you tried to kick and bite at their skin.

"Deja de pelear o te paso una bala por el cerebro! Stop fighting or I put a bullet through your brain!" The press of cold metal against your temple had you freezing where you stood before you were roughly shoved into a chair with the gun still pointed at your skull, keeping you still.

You tried to remember what Javi had told you to do if you were ever in one of these situations. "Do whatever they say, Hermosa. If they ask you what you know, you do not tell them anything. They will kill you the moment they don't need you anymore. Wait for the right moment if you can to fight." Right. Do what they say. Don't answer questions. You could do that.

The man with the gun came closer to you and caressed your face with the back of his hand causing you to jerk away as far as you could. The man's gaze narrowed and he backhanded you across the side of your face, sending you to the ground with your ears ringing. "Don't be a bitch. I'll have to teach you a lesson, then I'll let them have a turn with you, Hermosa." The pet name sent a fresh wave of sobs through your body at the memory of Javi calling you that only hours earlier and the man straddled your thrashing form then pulled out a knife from his jean pocket and cut away at what little remained of your torn dress and undergarments, leaving you entirely exposed to the three men while you fought beneath him.

"Stop! No, don't! Please stop!" You begged as tears flowed down your cheeks and you kicked uselessly a the man pinning you down.

"I told you to stop moving!" The man swung his fist down across your jaw, sending black dots flooding across your vision and make your ears ring once again. "Now hold still or this is gonna be so much worse for you." The man released his grip on your arms to reach for his belt, only for another man to send his boot into your ribs causing you to curl away and let out a wheezing cough.

Just as the man got his button and zipper undone and leaned over you once again you let out a scream and threw your throbbing head forward into the man's nose making a river a blood flow down his face. "You fucking bitch!" He sent his boot into your side again, making your curl up into a ball and gestured to his two men. "Tie her to the chair. Make sure she stays conscious, I want her to know what happened.

The man's words sent your eyes flying open and you immediately kicked and screamed at the hands that grabbed at your bruising arms. "No! Stop! Please, please I'm sorry! I'll do whatever you say, please!" Your screams and begging only brought a sadistic smile to the first man's face when we held up the knife he had earlier and brought the tip to your bare ribs.

He trailed the blade with just enough pressure to draw blood down to your exposed stomach and pressed the tip deeper into your skin and dragged the blade down, forcing a scream from your throat. He did this a few more times before he pulled the bloody knife away from your stomach and up to your cheeks to cut a deep line across both. He leaned forward to whisper in your ear while his hands roamed your bare body, "You look much prettier with that. Look at your pretty little stomach, Hermosa." He forced you to look down at where he had cut into your skin and your sobbed at the markings left there, AJS; the man had carved his fucking initials into your stomach.

Just as the man grabbed at your body again deafening gunshots rang out and the man's body slumped forward against your own while blood from his head and chest spilled across your skin. The two other men barely had enough time to raise their own weapons before more gunshots sounded and they slumped to the floor as well.

You looked down at the body in your bare lap and your tormentor's blank eyes stared back at you. You let out a scream and yanked at your bindings in an attempt to get away from the body, but you only managed to thrash enough to knock your chair backwards and fall to the side when you heard thundering footsteps rush into the room. You forced your eyes as closed as tight as they would go in an effort to ignore what you new was sitting right in front of you. Your body wouldn't stop shaking.

Suddenly hands were on your bare skin and you let out another piercing scream, unable to process the much more familiar grasp that pulled you upright and cut away the ropes on your wrists and ankles. "Shh, Hermosa, it's me. It's Javi." You were still shaking and sobbing when he pulled his jacket off to cover your exposed body and you still wouldn't open your eyes open from their sealed position. "Look at me, Hermosa, look at me."

You finally pealed your eyes open at his soft voice and saw the man kneeling in front of you. "Javi?"

He nodded and made sure your gaze stayed on him when he lifted you up out of the chair. "Yeah it's me, hermosa. You're okay now. you're safe."

At the sound of that name you flinched and new tears sprung to your eyes. "Please don't call me that anymore. H-he called me that."

Javi's jaw clenched and anger flared in his brown eyes but he nodded and continued walking you out of the house to where an ambulance sat outside the building. He set you down on the back of the open vehicle so the medics nearby could check you over but you gripped his hand as hard as you could the moment he let go of you.

"Please don't leave me alone, I can't be alone right now." Your hand shakes where it grips his and you can't help but stare at the cuts and bruises littering the skin there. It all seemed much more real now that you could see the marks on your skin. Your skin. The man had carved his fucking initials into your skin. You looked down and moved Javi's jacket away from your stomach to stare down at where your hip began. Blood covered the wound but you knew what was there. You lifted your hand to try and reveal the marks in a moment of morbid curiosity but-

"Querida, don't." Javi's voice pulled you from your thoughts. "I'll stay with you however long you need, but you can't touch it. Try not to look at it if that helps, alright? Estarás bien, te lo prometo. You'll be okay, I promise." You just nodded and Javi held your hands while the medic checked you over and cleaned and bandaged your wounds.

The medic informed you that you shouldn't be left alone for a few days and that you'd have to change your bandages twice a day, but you were cleared to go without having to go to the hospital.

"You'll be ok staying with me right, querida? You can't be alone and I don't want you out of my sights." You nodded silently to answer his question which only made him furrow his brows and concern took over his face, but he said nothing and just guided you over to his jeep.

The two of you drove in silence for about ten minutes before you spoke for the first time in well over an hour. "Javi?"

"Sí?"

You swallowed hard and stared down at your still shaking hands. Why won't they stop shaking? "I'm sorry for all this. If I didn't try to be so controlling with you earlier and if I didn't go and get drunk like a fucking idiot you wouldn't had to have dealt with me and-"

"Darling. Stop it. Stop thinking for one second that any of this is your fault. You aren't controlling, you care and I didn't know how to act because of it and that is no excuse for any of the absolute shit I said, by the way. And you aren't an idiot, you are the smartest person I know and you just did what anyone would do after a long day. The only people to blame are the hijos de puta that did this to you. So please, darling, for both our sakes don't blame yourself." He had just pulled up to your apartment when he stopped speaking and he parked before turning to face you.

Tears streamed down your face and the tight feeling in your chest was back from earlier and your fucking hands wouldn't stop shaking. "He marked me, Javi..." You whispered in between sobs as your shoulders shook. You looked up just to see Javi's face fall apart.

"He did what?" His voice came out a broken whisper full of pain for you.

"He marked me! He took a knife and carved his goddamn initials into my skin! He made sure it would scar so that I can't ever forget! What kind of sick fucking psycho does that shit?" Your sobs came faster and Javi hopped out of the car and ran to your door, pulling you into his arms.

"Baby, I'm so fucking sorry. I know that doesn't do shit, but you didn't deserve a single second of what you went through. You know that right?" You nodded and let him pull you out of the car as he ushered you upstairs to his apartment.

Once the door was closed and locked behind you two, you steeled yourself and forced away your tears before turning to face Javi again. You would not waste anymore tears on the fucker who did this to you, he didn't even deserve a thought. You wanted to set things right between you and Javi and if what happened today is what that takes, so be it."Javi. I love you, and I'm sick of your shit."

Shock filled the man's face across from you and he shook his head. This was the first time saying those words to him and the circumstance seemed less than ideal. "Querida what are you saying?"

"I love you so goddamn much and I know you love me and you just won't say it. I will not stick around if it's going to be more of the same as what it has been. You will either take me on a date when I'm over all this bullshit and make what we are official, or I'm getting my stuff and leaving." You stared Javi dead in the eyes and narrowed your gaze when his face split into a grin and he let out a short bark of laughter.

"There you are, baby."

"What the hell are you talking about?" Javi just grinned wider and shook his head before he wrapped you in his arms and pressed a kiss to your temple. You melted into his grasp but confusion still filled you.

"You've had this... this look on your face after everything like you're not quite here but you are now. That's great, baby. And just so we're clear, I will take you on a date the second you are feeling up to it. Then I will take you back here and you can officially move in after I spend hours making up for everything stupid thing I have done or said to you." His voice had taken on a slight seductive whisper at the end that sent a small shiver through you and you grinned as you wrapped your bruised arms around him.

"That sounds perfect, Javi. Now let go of me because I really need a fucking shower or I'm never going on that date with you." The reminder of the blood and grime still on you from the events of the night made you shudder and the mood changed instantly but Javi just nodded and squeezed your hand in reassurance as he walked with you towards the bathroom. He would be with you through everything and he would help you get through this.