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tears

pairing: vision x black!reader

summary: after a mission gone wrong, vision accidentally hurts someone. tony is furious with him and berates him for his mistake, but fails to realize that he has feelings.

warning: sad vision

a/n: seeing vision cry makes me cry.

“how did you manage to hurt someone” tony yells obviously furious.

“i didn’t mean to sir-“ vision tries but is cut off

“you didn’t mean to” tony yells making me flinch “you aren’t supposed to make mistakes, you are a robot they don’t make mistakes” tony yells hitting the table.

i look at vision and see the hurt look on his face. i feel my heart break as he quickly changes his hurt expression to a neutral one.

“i’m sorry sir it won’t happen again” he says lowly, looking down at the table

“you’re damn right it won’t happen again” tony yells.

vision gets up and walks out, i look at a furious tony and steve and give him a look. i look around and notice the avengers just sitting there like vision hasn’t saved their asses in multiple occasions but won’t defend him.

“wow” i say catching everyone attention

“what y/n” tony asks bitterly

“for a genius you are really fucking dumb at times. why do you fail to realize that vision has emotions, he’s more than a creation tony. you don’t think he feels guilty about what he did. he’s saved humanity from ultron when we couldn’t, that should say a hell of a lot” i stop to take a deep breath “he’s hurt by what you said but you couldn’t take a moment to realize it” i say and tony just stares at me.

i walk out of the room and go after vision. i see visions door is closed so i knock lightly, i wait for a minute but he doesn’t answer.

“vis its me” i softly say as i open his door and walk into his room.

i shut the door behind me before turning around, i see vision sitting on his bed staring at the wall.

“you okay” i ask snd he shrugs.

“i didn’t mean to hurt her” he says softly “i would never do that” he says and i walk over to him and stand in front of him.

“i know vision and i know you feel terrible but what tony said isn’t true” i say softly as i lift his chin so he can look at me “you are allowed to make mistakes because it’s normal” i assure but he looks away from me.

“how do you even love me” he asks barely above a whisper

“i love you because you’re wise, strong, kind, loving, you’re the love of my life vision and i would not trade it for anything” i admit.

he looks back at me and his eyes search mine before a tear falls from his eye (gif).

i frown at the sight of the tear and quickly wipe it away. it was visions first time crying but i wasn’t going to make a big deal about it because he’s experiencing new emotions.

“thank you darling” he thanks and i look at him confused .

“for what” i ask and he stands up and caresses my cheek.

“everything” he says and i smile before kissing his cheek lightly.

“anything for you vis”

hope you understand

pairings: loki x black!reader, thor x black!reader (platonic), odin x black!reader (platonic), frigga x black!reader (platonic)

summary: loki takes you to asgard to meet his parents but things don’t go as planned

warnings: odin being an ass, yelling, swearing, just heartbreak

a/n: this hurt to write and also should i make a part 2???

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“are you excited love” loki asks jumping onto the bed with a big smile spread across his face “yes i am i finally get to meet your mother and father” i look at him as i put my curling iron down.

“is your brother already in asgard” i ask and he nods “yes he’s there for some battle” he rolls his eyes dramatically making me giggle. “loki he’s protecting your home” i reason and he smiles “come on love we have to leave soon” he warns and i nod.

i turn my curling iron off and unplug it before grabbing the white flowy sundress i had laid out and put it on. i walk over to my vanity and fix my hair, making sure i look good so that i dont embarrass him.

“you ready lo- wow” i look over and see loki smiling at me “how do i look” i ask nervously making his smile grow wider. “you my love look stunning” he walks up to me aves wraps his arms around my waist “no woman on asgard could compare to you” i smile shyly at his compliment.

“alright heimdall is waiting for us” he says as he pulls me out of the room “loki i don’t have my shoes on” i tell him through my giggles. he looks back see me and with a wiggle of his fingers i have my gold sandals on “now you do” he says making laugh.

we walk out of our apartment and loki, wraps his arm around me tightly before yelling, “heimdall!”. a rainbow bridge that loki called the bifrost surrounds us and pulls us up into space.

i cling on to loki tighter and he chuckles “i’ve got you” he assures with a smile and i smile back. we are pulled through the bifrost and walk into a circle structure where a man is standing and holding a sword.

“welcome to asgard” the man greets and i smile “you must be heimdall it’s nice to meet you” i smile and he smiles back. “they wait for you” heimdall looks at loki and he nods before grabbing my hand.

*******

we walk into the palace and i look around in awe as i admire the gold pillars that line the hallways and the ceilings painted with the most beautiful art i have ever seen.

when we get to the throne room loki looks at me in my eyes “are you ready” he asks and i nod hesitantly, he nods at the guards and they nod back before opening the doors. loki grips my hand tighter as we walk into the room, odin is sitting on his throne with frigga and thor standing in either of his sides.

loki and i stop a few feet away from the steps that lead to the throne “mother, father” loki addresses them with a nod. “i see you have brought her” frigga says as she walks down the stairs “she’s gorgeous” she admits as she walks up to me.

“it’s nice to finally meet you dear” she smiles at me and i return her smile “it’s nice to meet you as well” she looks at loki with a smile before looking at me again. “has he been doing alright” she asks and i nod “he’s been great” i assure making her smile.

“lady y/n it’s lovely to see you again” thor nods my way and i smile at him “its great to see you again too” he smiles at me before his expression changes back to soft smile he had before.

“that’s enough” odins voice booms as his staff collides with the ground, i wince at the harsh sound before turning my attention to him. “you have brought the mortal you have been talking about” he says as he looks at loki “father she has a name” loki argues. i put my hand on his arm to let him know it’s ok and not to argue with his father.

“if i may i would like to have a word with loki alone” odin says and i look at loki confused and he nods before handing me over to frigga who takes my hand. as we walk away from the throne i look at loki one more time before walking out of the throne room.

*******

loki looked at his father confused as the doors you just walked out of closed “what was that” loki asks raising his voice. “leave her” odin says making loki scoff “i’m not leaving her i love her” loki argues.

odin laughs at loki’s confession “you fell in love with a mortal” odin yells “thor did so whats so wrong with me falling in love with one” loki asks but odin doesn’t answer.

“do what i told you or i will” odin warns before leaving loki in the throne room all by himself.

*******

“did i do something” i ask thor and he shakes his head “you did nothing wrong” he assures and i nod hesitantly before frigga walks back into the room and pulls thor out to talk.

i play with my fingers nervously as they talk. my mind going a thousand different places wondering, each place worst than the last.

soon loki walks into the room and i get up to hug him but he stops me, i look at him confused and he shakes his head. “we’re done” my heart stops as those words leave his mouth.

“what?” tears cloud my vision as i look at him in disbelief “we’re done” he repeats as the tears fall down my eyes.

“why” i ask trying to keep my voice steady “i don’t love you anymore” he looks at me with a straight face as he says it. “is it because of something i did” i ask and he scoffs.

“you’re a mortal of course you did something wrong” he raises his voice making me flinch, he’s never raised his voice at me. “i could never love or even like a mortal, you are nothing but a waste of space, brainless matter that mopes around all day” he says calmly as the tears fall down my face

“brother” thor warns “shut up” loki yells at his brother “you never meant anything to me, you never will mean anything to me because you are nothing but a pathetic mortal” loki spits at me as i stand there shocked, embarrassed, hurt.

“that’s enough y/n come with me” thor says as he walks over to me and guides me out of the room and into another. i break down in thor’s arms letting out the most painful cries he had ever heard in his 1500 years of living.

*******

frigga walks over to loki’s shaking body and hugs him as he cries into her shoulder “he made me do it mother i never wanted to hurt her” he sobs into her shoulder making her heart break. “i know” she rubs his back gently as he cries into her shoulder “i know”

frigga looks back at odin who had a read less expression on his face before turning back on to her son who was in need of comfort.

as loki cried he hoped that one day he could tell you or at least understand why he did what he did.

reunion

pairings: peter parker x black!reader, mj x reader, ned x reader

summary: you all reunite after the snap

a/n: thank you so much for 100 followers

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i walked into school completely lost on how they expected some of us to move on like we didn’t miss five years of our lives.

i walked down the hallways and watched as friends reunited and found each other., it made me sad and happy that’s these people got to see people they missed.

the more i walked through the schools the more i realized that maybe all of my friends did move on. “y/n!” i heard from behind me, i looked over my shoulder and saw mj looking at me with tears in her eyes.

i ran over to her and hugged her tight as if she would turn to dust again, surprisingly she hugged me back. we stood there and cried for a minutes before pulling away “shit i thought you were dead” she says through her tears and i giggle “i could say the same for you”.

“have you seen peter or ned” i ask and she shakes her head “no i was looking for them too” we walk down the hallway and catch up on everything we missed since the last time we saw each other.

as we walk down the hallway i see ned and peter hugging and relief floods through my body, the tears i didn’t even know i was holding in fell down my face. “go get em” mj says with a smile on her face and i run down the hallway.

“peter” i yell trying to get his attention but the hallway is too loud “peter” i yell again and he looks over at me and smiles.

i run up to him and jump on him clinging onto him as tight as i possibly could, he wraps his arm around my waist pulling me impossibly closer. i raise my head from his shoulder and grab his hands with both of my hand before i kiss him, it takes him a minute but he kisses me back gently.

when we pull away he puts me down and i smile at him “god i missed you so much” he whispers and i laugh through my tears “i missed you too pete” the use of his nickname makes him smile.

“you guys are disgustingly adorable” mj comments making us laugh “it’s good to see you parker” peter smiles and hugs her.

i walk over to ned and hug him “thank god you guys finally admitted your love for each other” i laugh as he pulls away from the hug.

“it only took them two years but yay” mj deadpans and we all laugh. “it’s nice to be together again” peter says and we all smile at each other.

moral of the story

pairing: bucky x black!reader

summary: bucky has been distant your entire relationship and you finally find out why

warnings: mentions of alcoholism, cheating, harsh language, violence (hitting and shoe throwing)

a/n: now this is coming from a place of hurt on my part bc i’m dwelling over a past heartbreak but i felt like bucky was a good character to do this with. i know bucky would never but just for the sake of this he did.

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i remember the day he asked me out, i would have been what you described the happiest girl in the world.

if i had know what the future held maybe i would have never seen him again after the first date.

through out my entrie relationship with bucky he was distant, i knew he had his reasons but at some point he had to make an effort. sadly he never did and each time i was left disappointed and disappointment at some point in time leads to anger.

the anger took a while to build up, approximately two years. spending years of “loving” someone and ending up disappointed and angry was never how i expected my relationship to go, especially with the man who i thought was the one.

i initially thought it was my fault, that i was being too clingy. i distanced myself and i guess that gave him the ok to distance himself even more.

when he was away i found myself staying up and waiting for him to return, i stay up for days. days eventually turned into a week and a week turned into two. sometimes i thought he’d never return and honestly on some occasions i hoped he wouldn’t.

when he was home he wouldn’t talk to me, always looking at the tv with some sort of alcohol in his hand. in my attempts to talk to him he either completely block me out or tell me to go away once again leaving me disappointed.

i dont know why i stayed with him, i wanted to fix whatever was happening but talking to bucky was like talking to a brick wall. i also was in love or so i thought, maybe it was a placebo for the hurt and pain i felt.

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i walked into the kitchen to see bucky sitting at the island with a glass of brown liquor in his hand, “we need to talk” he looks at me confused “about what?”. the clueless look on his face makes me angry “about us bucky because clearly there’s something wrong” i say and he shrugs “i think our relationship is completely fine” he takes a sip out of his glass as he looks at me.

“of course you don’t see the fucking problem because you are the fucking problem” he looks at me shocked “i’m the problem?” he’s in complete disbelief. “yes bucky you are you’re never here, you’re always gone and it’s been like that for the last two years and you don’t know how much it affects me because when you are here you stare at the tv like a zombie” the tears are hot as they fall down my face.

he stands up and walks towards me “did you ever think that you could be the problem?” he practically spits in my face as he yells at me “you were so fucking annoying my god asking about dates and trying to do this and that you never stopped, i never loved you shit i barely even liked you steve was the one who talked me into asking you out anyway” i look at him shocked as the words leave his mouth.

“you peice of fucking shit” i yell as i hit his chest “i hate you” over and over again, i yell this words as i continue to hit his chest, i don’t stop until someone pulls me always “let me go i wasn’t done” i struggle to get out of the strong arms that were holding me.

“she was good you know she was way better than you were she made me feel so good” i take my shoe off and throw it at him in complete anger but he dodges it. “you know i was actually planning on ending this earlier so we could get hitched and make her my old lady” he continues and i just cry in the arms that are holding me.

i didn’t want to believe anything he said but it’s so hard not to, part of me wished this was some sick joke but it wasn’t.

“i hope it doesn’t last, you don’t deserve any ounce of fucking happiness coming your way because you drained me of mine, i hope she cheats on you too yeah get a piece of you own medicine” i look dead at him “karmas a bitch and i hope it bites you right in your ass” he just stands there and it pisses me off even more “get out” i look at him “get the fuck out now” i throw my other shoe at him and this time it hits him but it doesn’t nothing.

he walks away and i immediately break into a fit of sobs in the pair of arms that are holding me, the placebo had run it’s course.

i never really knew the man i “loved” for three years but my mother told me young people fall in love with the wrong people sometimes but that’s good because in the end it’s better for me because that’s the moral of the story.

sparks

pairing: steve rogers x black!reader, steve rogers x natasha romanoff (mentioned briefly)

summary: you and steve were soulmates you just never knew you weren’t the only soulmate he had.

warnings: soulmate au, kind of lovers to strangers trope

a/n: once again i am using my past heartbreak as motivation to write.

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i had once heard that people could have more than one soulmate and i believed that, there was no way that out of seven billion people in this world only one was meant for you.

steve rogers was someone who i never expected to be my soulmate, i expected someone who worked a normal 9-5 not a superhero.

many people said that you knew when you found your soulmate because it was like a magnet drawing you two, that was exactly what if felt like.

steve and i hit it off instantly and before i knew it four years had passed us by, it was great and i would never have wished for anything else.

sadly something in our relationship had shifted, steve was distant but so was i and honestly i had no idea how it happened.

when steve was working out i noticed that he had the mark of an hourglass on him, i instantly knew that he had more than one soulmate. from then on i started to distance myself even more, whenever steve would get into bed i would turn away from him or whenever we would hug or kiss i would make it short.

steve had definitely taken a notice to it, there wasn’t any way he hadn’t. steve distance himself as well, doing all of the same things i did.

part of me hoped he would bring it up and part of me hoped he didn’t, i didn’t want to loose him but i also didn’t want to hold him back from his other soulmates love.

everyday i looked at that mark and wondered if he knew but there was no way he didn’t.

months passed by and he still never brought it up, at this point we were just walking on eggshells.

we sat at the dinner table eating in silence like we had been for the last couple of months, i looked up at him and saw him reading the paper and eating.

once we finished eating we both took time to wash the dishes together like we always did, i sadly realized that this might be the last time we ever do the things we normally do.

i felt myself start to tear up but i quickly blinked them away, i wasn’t going to cry it was only going to make this harder. we finished washing and drying the dishes before walking into the living room to catch up on the recent show we’ve been watching.

halfway through the episode i looked over at steve who was already looking at me, he had a sad expression on his face as he looked at me and i knew it was time.

“i know” a tear falls down his face as the i look at him “i’m sorry” he apologizes and i shake my head as he starts crying. i shed a tear seeing him in such a broken state “it’s ok, i knew along time ago i was just waiting for you to come to terms” the tears fall from my eyes and he wiped them away.

“i don’t want to leave you” he continues to cry and i cry with him “you have someone who’s waiting to meet you and had been all of their life, i had my turn and i wouldn’t trade it for anything” i grab his hand and hold it tightly “i’ve had an amazing five years with you, go out at meet whoever it is you need to meet i’ll be ok” i do my best to assure not just him but myself that everything will be fine.

“i love you” i cry even more as the words leave his mouth for the last time “i love you too steve so much” i place my hand on his cheek and rub it with my thumb.

he leans in and kisses me one last time, we put all of our passion and love for each other into that kiss. i pull away and smile at him sadly “go steve i’ll be alright” i rub his arm gently before he gets up and walks away.

i look down at my arm and see the mark start to fade away, i watch as the mark leaves my skin.

sparks eventually burn out and sadly so did ours

strangers again

pairing: steve rogers x black!reader

summary: you and steve had a lot of changes in your relationship but you never intended to end up at square one again.

warnings: strangers to lovers and lovers to strangers trope, injury and memory loss.

a/n: y’all probably hate me for all of the sad ass content i have been writing lately but i swear i’m just trying to get all of the ideas out of my head while they are still there.

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strangers to friends

“do you mind if i sit here” i looked up from my computer to see a man with beautiful blue eyes looking at me. “sure” i smile at him and he takes the seat across front me.

“so what brings you here captain” i smile as he chuckles “just wanted some coffee before going back to my superhero duties” i laugh at his response before really talking a good look at him, he’s beautiful, his jawline is perfect, eyes a beautiful blue, and his lips full and soft.

“did anyone ever tell you about stranger danger?” his question makes me laugh “yes but you are a stranger who looks like he doesn’t mean any harm” he smiles at my respose “and besides you aren’t really a stranger to me if anything you should be worried about me, i could be a supervillain just waiting to kill you” he raises an eyebrow with a small smile “and are you” he asks “oh absolutely not” we share a laugh.

we had been talk for what felt like hours, he was incredibly funny and kind. he told some amazing stories but also listened to mine, i could tell he wanted to have a conversation on anything other than aliens and saving the world.

his phone went and his smile slowly disappeared “duty calls” i nod as he gets his things together. “before i go is it ok if i get your number” i smile and nods before writing my name and number down on a napkin, i hand him the napkins with a smile. “good luck cap” he smiles and nods before walking out of the coffee shop.

friends into lovers

i walked throughout the hospital look for steve’s room, sam had called me telling me that he had a fight and that he got beat up pretty bad. i look around until i found the number and walked into the room quietly, i saw steve laying in the hospital bed unconscious.

i closed the door behind me before looking over at sam “how is he” i ask as fear spread through my chest. “he’ll be alright he’s just unconscious right now” i nod before walking over the other side of his bed.

after a while sam left and i was still in the room, the nurse brought me a blanket and some snacks for the night. i eventually got tired so i laid my head on the side of his bed and drifted off to sleep.

**

i felt a hand shake me gently and i whined before pushing it away, i heard a chuckle i recognized and opened my eyes. i turned my head and saw steve smiling at me “morning sleeping beauty” i smile as he chuckles.

i hesitantly put my had on his face and rub his cheek gently “you alright” i ask and he nods “i’m fine sweetheart” he asssures and i nod as the tears i had been holding in fell. “hey hey don’t cry” i wipe my tears before sniffling “i’m sorry i just thought i was going to lose you an-“ before i could finish he kissed me, the kiss was gently and passionate.

we pulled away in need of some air, we smile at each other before giggling like little kids. “i’ve been meaning to do that for a long time” i smiles as he touches my cheek and rubs it.

“i love you y/n”

“i love you too steve”

my phone rang as i was driving, i was at a red light so i picked it up and saw tony calling me. i answered it and put it on speaker “hello” i pressed the gas pedal as the light turned green “y/n we need you to get back to the compound now it’s steve”

without saying a word i turned around in the middle of the street and made my way to the compound, i broke about every traffic law there was to get to the compound.

when i got there i didn’t even bother to park right, i got out of the car and ran towards the medical ward. when i got there i walked into the room and saw everyone surrounding the bed steve way laying in, i walked towards him and saw that he was beaten pretty badly.

everyone moved out of my way and i sat down in the chair next to the bed like i had done many times before, i held his hand and rubbed it with my thumb. he looked over at me and i smiled as a tear of relief fell down my face.

he pulled his hand way from mine and my smile dropped, i look at him with a confused expression “who are you ?”

and strangers again

we could’ve had it all

pairing: thor x black!reader

summary: you and thor could have had it all

warnings: angst, death, blood

a/n: i am in no way trying to take away from loki’s death i just wanted to reverse the roles. the reader also has telepathic powers.

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thanos

the mad titan was standing right in front of me, his armor gold and shining in the light of the fire surrounding us. the bodies of asgardian people everywhere, some dead some alive but on their way to death.

thor was laying on the ground next to thanos, he hasn’t moved it what had felt like forever. thanos picks him up by is armor and walks with him towards loki, he drops thor in his knees and looks directly at loki.

loki’s is surrounded by thanos’ childrens, each one of them holding a weapons at them. i kneel to the left of loki as i multitask watching heimdall and the interaction between loki and thanos.

“the tesseract or your brothers head” thanos looks directly at loki “kill away” loki doesn’t even budge as the words leave his mouth.

i look between loki and thor with wide eyes, i can sense loki knows i’m looking at him confused. painful screams leave thor’s mouth as thanos put the power stone on his temple, his screams get louder as thanos presses the stone into his temple further.

i feel myself start to tear up as i watch the man i love scream in pain, “alright that’s enough” loki yells and thanos removes the stone from his head.

“we don’t have the tesseract it was destroyed during ragnorok” i look at thanos as i speak up and he just smirks at me before looking at loki again.

loki raises his hands and the tesseract appears in his hand and my eyes widen in shock, he walks up to thanos and goes to hand him the cube.

out of nowhere hulks tackles thanos startling me, i watch as thanos and hulk fight. the fight ends fairly quickly, hulk is on the ground unconscious and thanos is standing over him.

thor runs up to thanos and attacks him as i discreetly run over to the hulk and attempt to wake him up, i shake his shoulders and tap his face lightly but i get nothing.

i hear struggled breathing so i look up and see thor being lifted up by his neck “no” i scream as i get up and run but one of thanos’ children uses their magic to push me back and up against as wall.

“stop please” i cry as i watch thor struggle in the hands of thanos, thor makes eye contact with me and i know he wants me to connect with his mind.

“i love you y/n” i cry as he repeats the words over and over in his mind “i love you too, so much”. one of thanos’ children shoved a spear through thor’s heart, he screams in pain as they remove the spear and stab him again.

i run away from away from hulk and run over to thor’s body, i drop to my knees and cradle his head. “thor please baby stay with me” i cry as i plead, i pushed the hair out of his face as i gently caress his face.

i moved one of my hands grab his and he squeezed with all of the strength he had left “i love you” he grunts as he tries to mask his pain, “i love you too but you’re not dying, you’re going to live and you’re going to rule asgard along your brother and we’re going to get married and have kids and then grow old” i cry as he smiles at me, that twinkle in his eye still there as he looks at me.

“i-i’m sorry” he coughs and blood pools from his mouth, “it’s okay” i continue to hold his hand as the ship burns around us. “you know i’m happy that you’re the last thing i get to see” the words only make me cry more as he struggles to keep breathing.

“we’ll meet again” his words are barely above as whisper, his body goes limp and his hand drops from mine.

i sink further into the floor and hug his body, as a broken cry leaves my chest. my heart breaking as the love of my life lays lifeless on the ground.

as i cry a memory a memory of thor and i in the gardens of asgard strolling around after dinner.

“you know love we should get married and have kids you know we could have it all”

we could’ve had it all

favorite crime

pairing: steve rogers x black!reader

summary: steve never knew but he was your favorite crime

warning: cheating??

a/n: this is a rewrite of one of my old one shots that i accidentally deleted.

2014

“i made some calls back in russia and this is all i could get for you” nat says handing me the files and i smile. “thank you so much” she smiles before hugging me, i hug her back tight before pulling away.

“you really care about him don’t you” she asks and i nod “good because he really needs someone like you in his life” i smile at her before hugging her again.

2016

i was sitting in my cell staring at the blank wall in front of me as tears fell down my face, i felt like a fucking idiot but steve got his bestfriend back.

“y/n” i hear from beside me, i look over and tony looking at me sadly. “hey” i greet as i stand up to walk towards the glass that’s separating us.

“i’m so sorry tony” more tears fall down my face as i apologize to him, he shakes his head “love makes you do some stupid shit i would know” i nod as give me a small smile.

“he’s going to come back for you don’t worry, he loves you too”

2018

“miss y/l/n i am not letting you help an enemy of the state back into the country” ross says and i huff in annoyance. “this threat is beyond the government ross, this is half of all life we are talking about not just earth but every other planet in the universe” i reason and he sighs.

“y/n you have been romantic with mr. rogers i have no reason but to believe that you have a certain opinion on him” he says and i roll my eyes “this has nothing to do with what happened between me and rogers two years ago this is about the state of the universe so either you let me do it your way or i do it my way” i warn.

“fine” he sighs and i smile “thank you so much general”

2023

“y/n i’m not doing this i’m sorry” tony says and i nod as morgan plays with one of my braids. “i know tony you’ve got everything you want now and i’m not trying to ruin that all i’m asking you to do is think about it” he sighs before nodding.

“i see he finally did it” he says nodding towards my hand that has a ring on it “yeah i really wanted you to be there but you had your reasons” he nods before smiling at me.

“if he fucks up you let me know alright” i laugh at tony’s warning and soon he joins in too.

now

steve fucked up and he fucked up big time and tony wasn’t here to fuck him up.

i looked at the bench where an older steve sat staring off into the distance, his hair was now a silver instead of a blond and his physique has changed a lot but most of all he has a band on his hand.

i knew exactly what he did and my heart broke, more like shattered. bucky pulled me into him and rubbed my back gently as sam talked to steve, i clung onto bucky like my life depended on it as i felt my knees get weak.

i felt a tap on my shoulder and i looked over my shoulder and see same nodding at me, i nod back before wiping my tears and letting go of bucky.

i took a deep breath before walking over to the bench that steve was sitting on, i sat down next to him and stared of into the distance.

as we sit in silence i think of every happy memory we shared and how he probably wasn’t happy, instead thinking of what his life would be like with peggy and i just being there to fill the empty space for a while.

i shed a few tears as i take the ring off of my finger before placing it in the space between us, i get up and walk away from him leaving him alone.

i only have eyes for you

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pairing: mcu!peter parker x reader

summary: when peter walks into the cafe that you and mj work, he still only has eyes for you

warnings: none, angst and fluff, no happy endings, this is not prof read so there are typos!

a/n: i don’t get hurt very often writing this but i am actually heartbroken, this shit took days to write simple’s because i didn’t want to cry while writing. i do not think that it is my best work but i still think that i did a bombass job.

also happy fucking new year i hope that you all have an amazing year and i also want to thank you guys for all of the support last year when i started this blog, i love you all!

peter was walking down the street going over the piece of paper that had down all of the things he was going to say on it. once he walked into the café everything immediately stopped as his eyes found you. all of the memories that the two of you shared came flooded his mind as he looked at you.

“hi is this seat taken” the voice startled him a little, when he looked up he saw the most beautiful girl ever seen. “um a-actually it’s not” he stuttered, you smiled at his antics before sitting down in the stool next to him.

“im y/n” you say looking over at the boy, his cheeks and ears were rosy making you smile. “im peter” he squeaks, nerves filling his whole body as he talks to you. “nice to meet you peter” you beam making him smile.

everyday after that peter would go home and tell may about your interactions and she would always encourage the boy to ask you out but the boy never did, well not until homecoming came around.

when he finally got to ask you to homecoming he was a stuttering and shaking mess.

“hey y/n” he calls and you turn around to see him smiling at you. “hey peter what’s up” you greet and he starts fiddling with his hands and start shifting from side to side.

“i-i was wondering if you wanted to go to uhm homecoming with me” he asks looking at the ground, you smile at him “i’d love to” you beam. “it’s fine if you don’t wan- wait what” he asks, his big chocolate eyes looking at you. “id love to go to homecoming with you” you express again and peters smile grows.

“ok yeah uhm cool” he starts “yeah i’ll see you around peter” you giggled before giving peter a kiss on the cheek and walking away.

peter went home once again and told may all about it, she was happy to see the boy excited for once.

“may she said yes” he screamed as he ran into the small apartment “oh my gosh she did” she asks running up to him and hugging him. “oh peter im so happy for you” she coos as she rocks him back and forth. “thanks may” he sighs as he hugs her back

at the dance peter was a sweaty and nervous mess, he hated being in the public eye and this out him directly in the public eye. he could hear the whispers of people thanks to his spidey senses, it didn’t help that they were all judgmental.

“hey pete you ok” you whisper in his ear and he nods trying to play it cool “yeah yeah i’m fine” he whispers back but you’re not having it. you grab his hand and pull hims out of the back door of the gym, “it’s better out here, less muggy and not as loud” you grinned making peter smile.

as a new song came on peter grabbed your hands gently and pulled you into him, the familiar tune of i only have eyed for you by the flamingos filled the air. “i love this song” you whispered making peter smile.

the both of you felt comfort in each other’s arms, your warmth was something peter got use to quickly seeing as though a couple months (well years) later he asked you out.

“PETER” you yelled looking around at the damage that had been done “Y/N” peter yelled as he saw you looking around for him. the moment you spot him you run up to him and hugged him, he immediately wrapped his arms around you and squeezed you as tight as he could.

“are you ok” your questions was muffled in his neck but he still heard you “yeah i’m fine” he chuckles. you move your face from his neck and hold his face im your hands “god i’m so glad you’re ok” you whispers feeling tears well in your eyes.

“are you ok” he asks and you nod “don’t worry about me i’m so glad that your ok” i whisper finally pulling away from him. “oh this tall guy who’s uhm in love with your aunt gave me this necklace” i say, looking up at him.

peters face drops as he looks at the broken flower in your hands “oh no i’m so sorry” he starts “i had this plan to give you this necklace and-“ he’s cut off with you giving him a quick peck on the lips.

he looks at you stunned before pulling you in for another kiss, your wrap your arms around his neck and card my fingers through this hair. when you both pull away your rest your foreheads on each other’s.

“i really really like you” he whispers and you smile “i like you too peter” you whisper and he smiles. “so that makes you my girlfriend” he asks and you nod “yeah and that makes you my boyfriend” you beam and he smiles.

things quickly went down hill after that’s, peters identity had been revealed and because of that peter, you and ned had lost lots of opportunities. peter felt so bad for you and ned, you guys had nothing to do with it and because of his guilt he asked the one person he knew who could fix this, dr, stephen strange.

peter asked strange to cast a spell to make everyone forget that peter parker was spider man, long story short he messed up the spell and opened up the multiverse.

this created a lot of problems, the main one being him losing his aunt may. peter had never felt such rage and loss in his life, he was angry at the world, at himself especially for trying to be a good person but you never let him forget that being good is apart of who he is.

“peter you can not let that man change who you are, may wanted you to help them out right” you ask and he nods feeling tears fall from his eyes “then you do that, she would be very proud knowing that you fulfilled what she wanted you to do” you assure him and he nods.

“thank you” he whispers and you nod wiping the tears from his cheeks. “you’re welcome baby, now let’s go cure some ass” you joke making him laugh.

peter would have never thought after curing everyone that he would have let go of you and ned and pretty much everyone he loved.

peter heart broke when he had to tell you and ned that you wouldn’t remember him.

“peter you cant just make that decision for me” you say and peter nods “i know i know but it’s the only way” he stresses. “i don’t wanna forget you” you mumble as tears continue to fall down your face.

peter pulls you in for a hug, probably one of the tightest hugs he has ever given anyone. “promise me you’ll come find me” you beg as you continue to hold onto him “peter promise me” your voice broke as you spoke making his heart break even more. “i promise baby i promise” he promises.

when you pull apart his heart breaks as he sees your demeanor, you’re shaking, your eyes are bloodshot and tears are still falling from them, the bags under your eyes are extremely prominent.

“make me remember when you find me, make me remember when i sat next to you our first day of junior year, homecoming, and london” you plead and peter nods “i’ll make you remember” he promises placing his forehead on yours.

“and if you don’t you know i’m gonna figure it out, i always do” he knew exactly what you meant, you found out he was spider man before he even got the change to tell you. “i know” he chuckles before going silent again.

“i love you peter parker” his heart breaks knowing that’s the first and last time he’ll hear you say it “i love you y/n y/l/n” he whispers before kiss you gently, he pours all of his love for you into that kiss. when you pull apart you peck his lips gently one more time.

and here peter was staring at you in the little café that you and mj worked at, “hi how can i help you” your voice broke peter out of his trance. “hi can i uhm get a coffee” he asks and you nod “would you like anything with that like cream or sugar” you ask and he shakes his head “no just black please” you smile and him and nods before going over to the machine.

“hey mj can you get ned’s doughnut ready for him, he should be here soon” peter overhears you say and mjs nods. once the coffees done he watches you put the lid on the cup and walk back over to him “im sorry but i forgot to ask your name” he smiles at you feeling tears brim in his eyes “peter” he says and you smile “well here your coffee peter” you beam as you hand him his coffee cup.

“oh i love this song” peter mumbles as i only have eyes for you by the flamingos plays lightly in the background “i love it too” you whisper making him smile.

“well have a good day y/n” he smiles at you as he walks backwards out of the door, you smile back at him “you too peter” you wave at him before he walks out of the door.

peter walks to the windows and sees you talking to mj about something that clearly makes you flustered, peter smiles before walking down the cold street knowing that no matter how much time may go by he’ll only have eyes for you.

fade away - mcu!peter parker

pairing: mcu!peter parker x black!reader

summary: you never forgot peter after stranges spell but even after he promised to find you and make you remember, you did what was best for him and let him move on.

warnings: angst upon angst, heartbreak, one-sided love???, lovers to strangers sort of ???, idk what ever this is it needs a trope.

a/n: i have so many ideas for that cafe scene at the end of nwh thats it’s honestly ridiculous. i was also supposed to post this a couple days ago but life absolutely kicked my ass so it got delayed but i hope that y’all enjoy this.

the day the world forgot peter parker…

i didn’t.

i remembered every freckle on his face, his uneven nose, his chestnut hair, his beautiful brown eyes, and that little scar above his eyebrow, i remembered everything even his deepest darkest secret.

i remembered his promise, the last things he told me before he left.

“i’ll come find you and i’ll make you remember, i promise”

the words never left my mind, always on a constant loop no matter what i was doing or who i was with.

i had to continue daily life just like he did, i had to go to work and school so that i could live. no matter how hard it was to continue daily life without peter, i did it because i had to and not only was i protecting myself i was protecting him.

there were many night where i stayed up late staring at his contact in my phone, contemplating on wether i should call him or not and each time i couldn’t find the guts to do it.

everyday i walked into the same shitty café i called work, i fed the same older people who were regulars and the absolute best people ever, they made working in the cafe a lot more bearable.

i was talking to my favorite regular omie, she was an older black lady who came in every morning for a glazed donut, a french vanilla latte, and good conversation. i love talking to her, she always made the best conversations and always kept it real no matter what.

as i was talking to her i heard the bell ring “i’ll be right back with you omie” i say and she waves “don’t worry baby take all the time you need, he’s a cutie by the way” she says and i laugh before shaking my head.

i grab my pad from the counter and walk over to the register. when i look up it feels like all time had stopped, all air from my lungs had disappeared and my body went stiff.

peter was standing right in front of me with a small smile on his face, the same smile he gave me before he swung off into the distance.

“im so sorry uhm what can i get you” i say finally snapping out of my trance “no no you’re fine, can i get a black coffee please” he asks and i nod, writing it down on the pad. “would you like anything else” i ask looking up at him and he shakes his head “no thank you” he says, his smile growing.

“what’s your name” i ask and his smile falters a little and my heart drop to my stomach, “uhm peter” he says quickly and i smile at him “ok one black coffee for peter, that’ll be two dollars” i say and he hands me a five, “uhm you can keep the change” he says and i look at him “are you sure” i ask and he smiles and nods.

“ill have your coffee ready in a minute” i say and he nods. i walk over to the machine and i grab the pot and pour his coffee in a cup, i grab a top and make sure it’s secure before putting a sleeve on it.

i walk up to the counter “black coffee for peter” i say and he smiles before walking up to the counter. “thanks” he beams as he grabs the coffee, “you’re welcome have a good day peter” i say with a smile and he nods before walking out of the cafe.

i watch as he walks down the street and my heart shatters in my chest “there’s a story there” i hear omie’s a familiar voice fill my ears and i look up “between you and that boy there’s a story” she inquires with her chin resting on her head.

“i don’t know what happened or what the story is but what i do know is that boy still loves you and you still love him” she says and i smile as a tear falls down my cheek. “i love him so much but what i’m doing is to protect him” i express and she nods.

“you’re such a good person baby and you’re holding yourself back from love, you sitting here and watching him fade away because you’re protecting him, if anything you’re hurting the both of you” she explains and i sigh “y/n i know your hurting, i can see it and he’s hurt too, it was written all over that boys face y/n, behind that smile he’s hurting too” she explains and the tears just keep coming.

“like i said i don’t know the whole story but he’s lonely in a world full of people and so are you, you need someone and he needs someone too” she continues finishes and i’m wiping all of my tears with dry, scratchy napkins from behind the counter.

“jesus” i mutter as i continue to wipe my tears, thankfully we’re the only ones in the café “that was a lot but i needed to hear it, thank you omie” i thank with a nod.

“of course baby, now i have bingo with the girls but i’ll see you tomorrow at the same time” she says as she gets out of her chair, she grabs my hand and gently squeezes it with a smile before walking out of the café with her walker.

after omie leaves the cafe is very empty, a few people walk by and no one really comes in. the owner tells me to close early so i do, as i’m cleaning up i see a line of police cars speeding down the street and i know that peter isn’t far behind.

i fish down in my pocket and grab my phone, i unlock it and find peters contact. i stare at it for a minute, my figure hovering over the call button. i press it and like i expected it goes straight to voicemail line it did when we were together.

“hey pete, i know you are out their saving the city but if we could meet up and my job tomorrow uhm and talk i’m not working so we won’t be interrupted, if not that’s fine but that’s all uhm good bye”

the other woman - tasm!peter parker

pairing: tasm!peter parker x black!reader, peter parker x gwen stacy

summary: you’ll always be the other woman

warnings: angst, heart break, one-sided love, mentions of death and greiving

a/n: this is what you get when i listen to the other woman and think of peter and gwen. i have no clue what is up with me and that one sided love trope but i love using it and writing for it is so much fun. i really hope you guys enjoy this as much as i enjoyed writing it <333

i loved peter the moment i saw him on that play ground when we were five years old. he had fallen off the swing and of course me being me i helped him.

“hey you okay” i ask kneeling beside him, he nods as tears continue to fall down his face. i looked down and saw him holding his knee, i looked up at him again and he was looking directly at me. “can i see your knee” i asked and he nods before uncovering it, i gasp as i see the big cut on his knee he hisses as the breeze touches his knees “im sorry” i squeal and he laughs a little making me smile. “im ok don’t worry” he says and i smile a little bigger and nods l.

“i’m y/n” i say as i hold my hand out and he takes it, i pull him up with a little struggle but get him to stand up right. “peter” he says with a goofy smile. “nice to meet you peter would you like to play, we don’t have to because you just fell” i ask and he nods “i wanna play” he says and he grabs my hand again.

and ever since then we had been inseparable. i was there with him for everything, the good and the bad. i was there when he rode a skate board for the first time and when he became spider man, i was also there when his parents and ben died. i helped peter through everything even getting his first girlfriend.

peter was absolutely head over heels for gwen, he would do anything for her in a heart beat. i remember the first time we talked about her after he met her.

“y/n she’s so amazing, i think i’m in love” peter sighs and i smile at how happy he is “what is she like” i ask and he looks at me with the biggest smile on his face. “she’s like a shot of espresso” he says like he’s day dreaming.

i smile once again, feeling my heart chip “im happy for you, she seems amazing” the words are truthful, gwen seems like a wonderful but i just wish i was in her position. “she is, she is more than amazing actually words can’t describe how great she is” he goes on and once again i smile through it.

“im happy for you pete, you deserve it”

the day they got together i cried myself to sleep, feel my heart continuing to chip slowly. i had boyfriends through out their relationship but none of them lasted seeing a though i was in love with my best friend.

the relationship didn’t last long, they broke up after her fathers funeral and he was an absolute mess. he already felt like his death was his fault but leaving gwen was the icing on top of the cake, and once again i helped him through it.

“peter none of it is your fault, he made that choi-” i say gently but i’m cut off “you don’t get it, he’s dead because of me and i left gwen when she needed me the most because when i- i look at her i remember the promise i made to her dad and i- i cant break that promise” he yells, startling me.

the room was silent for a moment, the air suddenly becoming cool “if you want what’s best for gwen you keep that promise but if you want what’s best for you then that’s a decision you have to come to on your own and know that there will be consequences with that” i say before getting up to leave his room.

“if you need anything you know i’m always a call away” i remind gently before closing his door

peter broke the promise and got back together with gwen not too long after her father funeral, once again my heart chipped.

by senior year they were inseparable but peter was dealing with his own problems. the promise he broke was constantly on his mind, haunting him. on the day of our graduation peter was contemplating not being with her because his conscience was finally getting to him.

“y/n it’s like every time i’m spider-man i see his face and the words he told me replay in my head on a constant loop” he explains and i nod “it’s eating alive because i don’t want to break her heart but i don’t want her to be in danger because of me” i explains and i nod.

“would you rather her have a broken heart or her end up hurt or even worse dead because i know you and you wouldn’t be able to live with yourself if she got hurt because of who you are” i explains and he nods.

that night at her dinner be called it quits and they were both heartbroken but over time they both healed, or at least that’s what it seemed like because quickly after they ended up seeing each other again. peter explained it to me as trying to be friend with her which i could tell he was trying to do but, it was eating him alive not being with her all the time.

shortly after they got back together gwen died and that night peter showed up at my windows needing some type of comfort.

i opened my windows and helped him climb into my bed room, i knew by his body language that something was off so i pulled his mask off gently and laid it on my bed. i looked up at his face and saw that tears were falling down his cheek “what happened” i asked barely above a whisper and he chokes on his sob.

“gwen’s dead” he says and my heart drops, i feel tears well in my eyes not just got my own heart break but peters as well. “she’s gone” he sobs and falls to the ground talking me with him, i pull him into me and he cries into my shoulder. he clings onto me as if i’m his life line.

that night i cleaned peter up, bathed him, dressed him, and put him to sleep. it was like he couldn’t function so i did everything for him and it went like that for months after her death.

he got better with each day, coming back to his senses. he still refused to be spider-man no matter how bad the city was getting, crime was up 43 percent and he was still sitting in the house. well at least until i encouraged him a little.

“peter i know you’re all woe is me but you need to get the fuck up and put that suit on and go help the city, last night two women got abducted hell i almost got mugged the other night” i express “it’s not safe anymore peter and the people are i need of a man in a red and blue suit peter” i finish and he nods.

“you sound like gwen”

there would be many more comments like that over time, if i was patching him up it would be “oh gwen’s would to it this way” or if i was cooking it would be “gwen would add this” and it was never ending.

and the more and more he made those comments the more and more he thought it was acceptable. one night it all just became too much and i lost it.

“peter i really need you to help around the house” i beg and he shrugs “peter i don’t get it i’m doing the absolute best i can to keep everything together all im asking is for you to help around the house” i yell and he gets up.

“im going through a rough time” he says and i nod “i know and i’m trying to help but i can’t do everything myself” i say and scoffs. “gwen would be more understanding” he says and i lose it.

“well newsflash peter im not gwen” i yell “i cant be gwen and i’ll never be gwen’s but i can be y/n because that’s all i can be” i yell. he looks at me with an apologetic look on his face and i walk away from him and go to my room and shut my door.

that night i cried myself to sleep knowing i’ll always be the other woman.

Prompt: “ don't cry... oh, please don't cry... “

-screnwriter

Loki x 1st person reader

(Fem? I said ‘little girl’, but other then that gnc :)

We were all trying our hardest to take that thing down. It was nearly impossible. We were all losing stamina; me a bit more than the others. We were almost done. We were so close. But there he went. Straight to the ground with only a single, fatal jab.

“Go! I got this!” Thor called out to me as he saw the panic nearly consume me. I swear, I ran faster than light itself. He attempted to silence his groans and cries out of pain as I greeted him at his side.

“Loki..” it was almost inaudible as I brushed his tangled hair off the side of his cheek. We both knew; though I’d rather not admit it. He stopped trying to sit up and examine his wound, resting his head against the scorched planet. His breathing was unsteady as I tried to get through his armor.

“Tell Thor I love him and-“

“No!”

I was not ready to let go. Determined as I was, I looked back at him, his smile still sweet as ever, even through his ache. I had been choking back my tears until that point.

‘Oh gods, down come the flood gates’

I couldn’t even help it, they were just flowing. My hand stayed resting on his cheek while the other sat on his shoulder.

“Don’t cry, oh, please don’t cry my love.” He started an attempt to put his own hand on my cheek. It shakily made its way there, still warm and soft. His thumb swiftly started wiping away tears as they fell from my eyes.

“We were supposed to have more,” I gasped. He gave me the type of ‘I know’ look a mother would her child. All I’ve dreamed of since I was a little girl, was gone. his eyes seemed to be falling heavy as his hand started to slip from my cheek.

“I love you, you know that right?” His voice was that of a groggy and raspy old man. I couldn’t help but let out an exasperated gasp of a laugh, quickly grabbing his hand with mine to keep it in place.

“I know.” My smile was wilting as fast as he was. I bent down to his face giving him one final kiss.

“I love you more.” My own hands were shaking as I whispered my remaining words to him. His smile perked up at that; I was just happy my words hadn’t fallen on deaf ears yet.

“Preposterous,” His smirk would remain engraved in my brain for a lifetime. My facial expression couldn’t stay the same. Only as his last breath was released did it remain a frown.

My head rested on his hardening chest with his now cold hand still on my cheek. Silent pleas fell out of my mouth as tears continued to fall from my eyes. I was afraid I’d be mute for life. Words cannot do him or I any justification, what his life and mine would’ve-could’ve been. Something everyone would know for sure about the what-ifs is that it would’ve been all for me; just as mine would be for him. I couldn’t unlove him now; and I didn’t want to.

“(Y/N)..” Thor hated to disrupt me, but our job was done. My voice remained silent and unused. The hurt in his own voice seemed as if it was attempted to be concealed, poorly. My eyes closed tighter, wanting to sit here till he was no more than a bag of bones. I wanted to say sorry, what for? I had no idea.

“He loves you.” I was no more than barely coherent, for it would break me to be any louder than I needed to be.

“I know.”



I love you

A/N: Bonsoir everyone ! This is the very start of my song collection, where I write a one shot based off of a song. The very first one in the collection is going to be ‘I love you’ by Billie Eilish. Hope u enjoy !!

Premise: Loki confronts you about his feelings.

Pairing: Loki x Russian!reader

Warnings: angst, commitment issues, overthinking, I think that’s it?

(NOT PROOF READ)

Word count: 1k (ikik, it’s short >:[ )

Translations: детка = baby Kjæreste = darling

I do not give anyone permission to translate or repost my work, please be respectful — if you enjoyed please comment or reblog !!

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It was late at night, the sun already finding itself halfway around the world. You were snuggled down in the lap of your lover, watching television as he read his book. His hearty chuckles and obvious discontentment as he read made you smile. You were barely even watching TV anymore. It was more appealing to listen to his reactions and his faint heartbeat.

You had been laid down on his chest for an hour or so, listening to his concave chest before he questioned you.

“Kjæreste?” Loki whispered, putting his book down and resting his hand on your back; sending shivers down your spine. You looked up at him and replied with a quiet ‘hm?’, your eyes heavy from the light.

“I want to take you somewhere.” He smiled quaintly, rubbing your back slightly. As your brows contorted towards confusion, you wondered where on earth it was he wanted to take you at this hour. You had barely been dating for a month, nothing major bound to happen.

“Now?” You mumbled groggily. Loki nodded, patting your back slightly. Your brain began racking around what he could possibly be up to. It wasn’t either of yours birthdays, it wasn’t an anniversary, it wasn’t a holiday, what could he possibly want to do at two in the morning?

“Alright.” You said, laying your head back on his chest for one final breath of his scent, a loud sigh forming in your lungs. As you let it out, you sat up, stretching your arms as Loki scurried off the moment he was free from your weight.

You thought it was odd, making sure you hadn’t forgotten some estranged holiday housed in your brain’s calendar and furrowing your brows once more at the occurrence. He soon returned with his coat and shoes on, as well as yours in hand.

“Here you go kjæreste.” He smiled offering you your coat. His smile warmed your soul. Thor had mentioned that you and his mother were the only two people he had seen Loki smile at. Which felt weird, considering he does it all the time when he’s with you. As you took the coat out of his hand with a yawn, he knelt down and began putting your shoes on.

“Thank you детка.” His cheeks grew red as you spoke, making you smile. After he finished tying your sneakers, he offered his hand to help you up off of the couch.

As you walked to the elevator and all the way to Central Park, where he wanted to take you, not a word had been uttered between you. He held you close with his hand over your shoulder as he guided you to a park bench in front of the Cherry hill fountain.

The silence dared you both to say something. Nothing but your synchronized heartbeats sounding. Until finally he squeezed your hand, forcing you to look at him. As your eyes met,

“I love you.”

Was murmured from his lips.

Your eyes went wide from utter disbelief as your hand lost its grasp on his. As your body unconsciously inched from his, you could hear his heart pound even faster. His lip began to quiver as your thoughts ran wild.

Did you hear him correctly? There’s no way in hell the god if mischief is seriously in love with you. This has to be a cruel joke. Were you even ready to commit if it wasn’t? He didn’t mean it. He couldn’t have. It was an accident. He didn’t mean to say it. What the hell were you thinking, getting involved with him in the first place? It wasn’t like you, you had never done this before. Yet here you found yourself, dumbfounded. The livelihood of your relationship relied on this moment right here, right now, and you couldn’t think of a damn thing to say.

When you finally came back to reality, you saw his eyes, preparing for rejection. Tears already forming in his eyes. He’s never cried in front of you, and here you are, the root cause of it. Your eyelids fluttered, causing tears of your own to fall. You felt stupid. Not being able to think of a single word. You allowed your mouth to open, hoping it would take over from there. But it didn’t. You sputtered out a single word before he interrupted.

“It’s fine, I understand.” He looked into your eyes one last time, blurry as tears rushed down his face. He carefully stood up, wiping down his slacks before setting off.

You sputtered once again, your eyes trying to catch up with what was happening. As everything fell back in place, you realized his image becoming smaller, realizing this was your last chance. You quickly jumped up, sprinting after him. He didn’t glance back even once. You quickly caught up to him, calling out his beloved nickname.

“Детка,” he quickly turned around as you placed your dainty hand on his shoulder. His face was expressionless. His eyes were puffy and red as he looked down at you.

“I-“ you sputtered once more, eyes wandering his features as you laid your hands on his shoulders. As they wandered up to his cheeks, your brain scavenged for words. Just something to spit out, but you couldn’t find it. Soon enough you had pulled his face gently towards yours, kissing his once soft and smooth lips for what seemed like the last time. His hands met your waist, trailing up to your neck pulling you even closer.

As you finally released, foreheads connected, you found your words.

“I love you.”

He smiled, pecking your lips carefully.

“I love you too.”

You smiled back, grabbing his hand and tugging it back in the direction of your bench. As you sat down together, your head laid in his lap once more, watching the sun make its way back around to you.

You loved him, and he loved you.

There was no doubt about it.

PLEASE, WAKE ME UP.

WORD COUNT: 1300

SUMMARY:  Tony has a nightmare.

WARNINGS: none

AUTHOR: Killer raccoon

It was the quietest morning there'd been in months, save the dull croak of the piano and the moaning of the floorboards beneath the pianists tapping foot.

Tony stood behind the rows of white chairs, stiff and unmoving, hands clasped tightly behind his back. Across the quickly filling room, Bucky noticed him and attempted a smile, but immediately his lips began to quiver and he turned down to look at his feet before Tony could try to return the gesture. 

Bucky, the only one in this room who fully understood Tony's presence here, the only man who knew what had been going on behind closed doors. Because Steve had insisted he know, had told Tony that if he couldn't trust Bucky, then what were they even doing?

Tony watched Sam slide in next to Bucky, place a hand on the man's shoulder and sit him down, and then Tony was alone again. Something he hadn't felt in years.

The more people filed into the room, the more sullen the mood became. Natasha sat on the other side of Bucky, and Clint next to her, and Tony's throat tightened in anguish as even Nick Fury, accompanied by Phil and Maria, made their way down the rows of chairs. It didn't matter if nobody had the time for a full blown ceremony: they made time. 

Sam had pulled him aside a few days ago to assure him that he'd be welcomed with open arms, but Tony had his doubts, and therefore kept his distance. He was somewhere deep in his own head anyway. He didn't even notice Pepper next to him, brows furrowed as she tapped furiously at her phone, or Rhodey, dressed up in his navy blue suit, hands also clasped behind his back, but in respect rather than anxiety. Tony knew he should have been one of the men carrying in the... but of course he chose to stand next to Tony, and in some lost part of his conscious mind, Tony appreciated that. 

But when the music slowed and died and what was left of the hushed conversations among the room was cut off, Tony was sure his heart stopped. He was able to keep himself composed, lips pursed and face blank, all of his muscles tensed to keep from shaking. However, when the first two soldiers stepped into the room, shoulders straight and hats in their hands, and Tony knew what would be following them, he fucking lost it. His breathing shortened, his head swayed dizzily, and before he knew it, he was busting through the side door into the empty hallways, straight towards the wall to keep him right side up. He pressed his forehead against the cool, brick walls, gasping for air. Luckily he was in the back, so he hardly disturbed anyone. 

But of course, one man had noticed. One man had dashed out after him, was now placing a hand on Tony's shoulder, gentle, but firm.

"Breathe." 

Both hands were on him when he wouldn't calm down, and he knew that they learned this in the military, he understood, but with the steadiness of his voice, with the serum, Bucky sounded and felt too much like Steve, all those restless, summer nights when Tony was kept up and he had been there for him, and it made everything worse. He couldn't get air into his lungs, his eyes spun in and out of focus, and he trembled violently beneath the other man's grasp. And who the hell was Tony to Steve, to be comforted by the dead man's best friend. It was absolutely unfair to Bucky, and Tony felt sick with guilt and selfishness. He turned around, gently pushing Bucky away from him.

"I'm sorry," He wheezed, and Bucky was shaking his head like Tony had no reason to apologize, but he absolutely did. 

Within the next few seconds, Rhodey was in the halls, pushing Bucky to the side to get to Tony.

"Thank you, Buck, but I can handle this." He said.

"I don't think you understand" Bucky protested.

"The hell, I don't understand." Rhodey snapped. "I know Tony better than he knows himself. I'm not stupid, and I'm not blind." He looked up to Bucky then, and his face softened apologetically. 

"Please, you are the last person who should have to do this. Go pay your respects to Steve. I'll take care of him." He said. Bucky nodded silently and turned to leave. 

By then, Tony was catching his breath, letting a warmth flood through him and calm his nerves, though his hands still shook hard. 

"You knew?" He asked quietly, and Rhodey, despite everything else, managed a smile. 

"You thought you could keep a secret like that from me? I mean, honestly, Tony." 

Tony huffed, just then realizing how foolish it was to actually believe that he had kept the relationship between he and Steve from Rhodey. 

"He's gone," he breathed suddenly, clasping a hand over his mouth in awe at what had just escaped, a electric shock shooting through him as the words rang true, and then Rhodey was pulling him into a hug, burying Tony's face into his shoulder. Tony clenched his teeth, refusing to cry, but breathed heavily through his nose, gasps shuddering through his body as he held it all in, and Rhodey became the only thing holding Tony in one piece. 

Steve was gone okay, and did Tony ever fully appreciate when he was around? Did he take the time to let him know that? Looking back, he knew it had always been a frantic, desperate rush of fumbling fingers and clothes strewn across the floor. Tony always thought they'd have time to take their time. 

Did he even ever tell Steve that he loved him? That he was doubtlessly, unconditionally in love with him?

Did he even know at the time? 

Tony shut his eyes tight, held on to Rhodey tighter in horror as his knees buckles. He could feel his heart wasn't going to hold together, could feel the world around him crumbling, and when he managed to open his eyes...

 There was darkness. Tony blinked once, twice, realized he was on his back. His hair, shirt, and the mattress beneath him were all soaked in sweat. Tony shot up, the force causing an immediate headache, and searched the room as his eyes adjusted to the dark. His heart was pounding hard in his chest, fear in his throat as he chanced a glace at the weight he felt against his hip. He sucked in a breath.

"Steve?" He croaked. There was a small, groggy yawn and then two large, muscled arms that peaked through the covers, revealing a half asleep, but definite Steve Rogers as he stretched, shifted to turn around, and put an arm around Tony's waste, pulling him back down and against his own body heat. Tony's sigh of relief came out as a choked sob, and he pressed his nose into Steve's chest in an attempt to muffle his sudden sounds. However, that startled Steve completely out of sleep.

"Tony? He tried to sit up, pulling Tony away from him and brushing his damp hair out of his face. "Tony, are you okay?" He was pouting at him as Tony quickly regained control of his emotions. 

"No, I'm not okay. I love you." 

Steve stared at him, confused in his half dream state, cheeks flushed with the heat of the summer night, hair sticking up in a way that warmed Tony's heart. 

And then he was kissing him, the slowest kiss they'd ever had, and Steve kissed his cheek, his jaw, his neck, his shoulder. Tony felt dizzy as Steve took his hand and pressed his lips gently to his wrist, the palm of his hand.

"I love you too."