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Today consisted of going to a funeral with the partner's family, going to my brother in law's (whose dad the funeral was for) baseball game, coming back to the house with the mother in law, her and my partner each drinking a whole 6 pack of beer, and her trauma dumping to both of us about the following:

(TW: abuse/domestic violence)

• How her ex (partner's dad) abused and threatened to kill her, them, and/or himself on multiple occasions

• How she had to figure out how to protect herself and the kids from him while living in Germany and speaking no German (ex was military) because he wouldn't let her leave the country with them or contact her family

• Having to break up with her other ex (BIL's dad who died) WHILE in the hospital directly after giving birth to BIL, because he started verbally abusing partner and other BIL (middle schoolers at the time) so aggressively that it made the nurse cry

• How weird it is to now be close friends with dead ex's widow and hear her and BIL talk about how great a husband and dad he was, considering the preceding information (which she has told to the widow, but not sure about BIL???)

And now she's throwing up in our half bathroom at 4am lmao

Real photo of me after going to the stupid DMV today to get my stupid license changed because I have to meet the stupid voter registration deadline even though I am in full overwhelm meltdown mode after the weekend:

@critter-exe gonna save these and start sending them to you as reaction pics 🖤🩷🖤🩷 lmao

I need more pics like this

Havin a sad one today, gang!! Feelin real hopeless and empty and lost!! Everything is boring and un-fun but also stressful and scary!! Happy Friday!!! 👉😎👉

Also I'm pissed off and sad that I can never seem to have a fucking normal October because some all-consuming stressful shit always seems to happen so I haven't gotten to fully celebrate my favorite holiday in like 4 years 🙃🙃🙃

Update: raccoon had an actively good day today despite having to work late, and even thanked me for supporting and putting up with him being mopey all week!!!! I know my mental health should not depend on the mood of a man but when it's good it sure fuckin helps!!!! 🎉🎉🎉

Havin a sad one today, gang!! Feelin real hopeless and empty and lost!! Everything is boring and un-fun but also stressful and scary!! Happy Friday!!! 👉😎👉

Additional Update: Turns out I forgot to take my ADHD meds this morning, lol, lmao

Havin a sad one today, gang!! Feelin real hopeless and empty and lost!! Everything is boring and un-fun but also stressful and scary!! Happy Friday!!! 👉😎👉

So I've been looking for a small comfy chair for my hermit nook/sensory room/reading cave, and nursery chairs seem to be a promising option. However, a very large percentage (like 2/3) of the ones I'm finding are upholstered with that "teddy" polyester sherpa fabric?? Listen, I have never had a baby, nor have I interacted much with other people's babies, but let me tell you I cannot imagine a more terrible fabric to have to clean spit up or breastmilk or (god forbid) baby shit out of than that. Even as an adult it gets gross and is impossible to clean!!! There are so many other options!!! What the fuck!!!

Sure would be nice if every single fucking task I try to do didn't turn into 3 more, equally stressful and difficult tasks 🙃🙃🙃 And if the one I set out to complete in the first place could actually work out like it's supposed to after I spent so much fucking energy psyching myself up to do it, instead of something going wrong and me having to start all over 🙃🙃🙃 And then not being *able* to start over and having the rest of my day be fucked because I spent all my energy psyching myself up to do the task that I coulDN'T EVEN FUCKING GET DONE!!!!!!! IT SURE WOULD BE FUCKING NICE!!!!!!!!!!

Welp, he doesn't like his new job 🙃🙃 He says he "doesn't think it's gonna be long term" but won't elaborate on what that means exactly??? Like do we need to start looking now??? Or are we just saying this won't be your 30 year career job???? Somewhere in between????? It's a mystery!!!! 🙃

He says he likes the work itself, but the business of it all is shitty and full of investor/profit/shareholder bullshit and they don't care about their employees - not untrue, but also they don't seem worse than any other business under capitalism 🤷🏻‍♀️ Like they even moved some engineers from a plant in another country here temporarily instead of laying them off!! That seems like a pretty good show of faith to me!!!

I think this ✨episode✨ was spurred by them laying off like 6 people in one day in the process of changing up how they do the schedules/shifts. Which, fine, fair. That really sucks. But I'm also pretty sure that his coworker (who is unfortunately pretty much his *only* coworker) is a super negative and toxic asshole who just talks shit all the time and doesn't give a fuck about the "lower" employees!!! And that's where partner is getting most of his information about this kind of stuff!!!! Like this guy apparently schmoozes with the VP of the company, and he comes back to partner saying all this shit about how they've been planning this layoff for a month because they're not making enough profits and blah blah blah, and it's probably mostly bullshit because this moron thinks he's a big smart business cunt, but I can't tell partner that!!!! He won't tell that guy to shut the fuck up because he doesn't want to not hear about it, he wants it not to happen!!! Which I appreciate and empathize with, but also, who says this bitch is telling the truth anyway!!!!!! I haven't even met him irl but every single piece of information I've heard suggests that he's insanely fucking stupid and a raging asshole!!!!!! But again, I can't say shit!!!!!!!!

At least we did talk about some productive stuff and came up with some ways I can support him better (which I have been trying to wring out of him for like a year but better late than never I guess 🫠) so hopefully that helps a bit!!! But fuck dude, I am so tired!!!!!!! So fucking tired!!!!!!!!!