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Tips and info from a manifestor who also struggled.
Yes, i’ve struggled. We’ve all been there. If you are struggling, read this.
Most of you already know the basics but here’s some things i think people should know.
• Your subconscious does anything you tell it. It is basically the messenger from the 4d. It works to manifest and bring your assumption/state of being into the 3d reality.
Your subconscious works in the 4d realm to show you who you’ve been in the 4d, in the 3d realm.
Your subconscious basically a like a little worker for the 4d that brings you want you want in the 3d. It cannot refuse the 4d at all. IT IS A “YES MAN.” It doesn’t care about rules.
• The 3d is limited.
When you are manifesting, the immediate change is occurring outside time and space in consciousness where there is everything. The limited 3d cannot see the occurrences happening since the 3d is within the constraints of time and space.
•When you are doing any technique, it is NOW. It is actually happening in reality- consciousness. The 3d’s job is just to show you who you’re being.
• Negative thoughts and doubts do not have any power unless you identify with them. They do not have any meaning. It is normal for the human mind.
Example: Ben is a body builder. He identifies as a very strong body builder. After a bad day, Ben has bad thoughts that he is a weak body builder. It wouldn’t affect him. Why? Because at the end of the day, Ben truly knows that he is a strong body builder. That’s who he is. Small useless thoughts will not effect him since he truly knows who he is.
“I am strong,” “I am the strongest body builder in my city.” Since Ben identifies with these thoughts, they have meaning.
“Why do i keep thinking i’m doing something wrong in the 3d when i was doing so good? ”
I know many people don’t talk about these things a lot but these could be the cases.
Conditioning/Programming: Your conscious mind is conditioned to follow society norms and expectations which can create self doubt and fear of doing something "wrong." Which you aren’t.
Ego control: The ego tries to maintain control by creating doubts and fears, making you question your actions.
Limited perspective in the physical realm: The conscious mind has a limited perspective, making it difficult to see the bigger picture of things.
“How do i over come this?”
If you feel yourself thinking you’re doing something wrong or spiraling, take a deep breath, let the thoughts pass. Remember they do not have meaning unless you identify with them.
You did not mess up, or have to “start over”. You’re fine. Pick yourself back up, go inward, affirm, do anything that satisfies and tell yourself who your real identity is, which is your consciousness.
Summary.
• Know thoughts are neutral.
• Know the human senses are limited.
• You either have it or you don’t.
• The 4d is the actual evidence.
”So what do i do now?”
Decide (assume) a new identity in your imagination.
Fulfill to remind yourself that’s who you are. When you fulfill yourself, it is immediate. It happens instantly.
KNOW THAT NOTHING IN THE 3D CAN GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR MANIFESTATION. Anything in the 3d regarding your manifestation means nothing at all. The 3d CANNOT create anything.
Remember your 5 senses are limited to consciousness. Live your regular human life here, but know you already are who you want to be.
-4disall.
♥
Fulfillment Challenge!!✰
Hey Upper East Siders.
Gossip girl here. Aren’t you just tired of me calling you an “upper east sider”. When you could be so much more. Like one of manhattans finest elite. Don’t you wanna be elite?
If so, here’s your new routine for fulfillment ->
WAKING UP -> As soon as you wake up you are going to fulfill yourself with any method you want. Hold the feeling of the wish fulfilled whilst you are in that drowsy state.
REST OF THE DAY -> You are going to fulfill yourself EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. you think of your desires.
-> You are also going to fulfill yourself every hour of the day. Take aside 2-5 minutes of each hour to fulfill yourself. For example when it’s 2pm you will fulfill yourself then when it’s 3pm you will fulfill yourself again and so on and so on.
-> You are going to fulfill yourself every time you are doing a mindless task like chores etc (inspired by angels fulfillment challenge)
GOING TO SLEEP -> You are going to do the lullaby method or SATS in order to fall asleep in the state of the wish fulfilled.
There’s your new routine for fulfillment for those who need that extra push. It also gives people consistency and prevents new incoming doubts which cause people to start over.
MUST DO’S:
-> When you are doing your “techniques” you MUST realise that they aren’t techniques. They are your actual reality. You’re not just visualising, you’re seeing what is actually there. You’re not just affirming, you’re telling yourself what is true and what is the real fact. Feel it to be a fact in imagination because it is.
-> When you are fulfilling yourself FOCUS on the FEELING your imaginal act gives you.
WHY IS THIS FULFILLMENT CHALLENGE IMPORTANT
-> Because the more you feel the feeling of fulfillment, the more natural it becomes. And the materialisation of your desire is directly proportional to the naturalness of having it.
-> You’ll start to feel the feeling of the wish fulfilled on autopilot. It will become your natural state very quickly.
-> Fulfill yourself because you’ve spent too long denying yourself of the life of your dreams.
P.S. Spooky season is near, and the only thing in life you should be scared of is the horror movies and costumes. XOXO
- gossip girl
Weekly manifestations
Thought I'd make a list of things I manifested during the week to motivate myself :)
Laptop unfreezing (is that what you call it? Lmao) after I said my umbrella affirmation a couple of times.
Ohhh myyyy gooodneesss this one is sick, at least for me, okay, so, idk it propably will sound weird but its very important to me. I actually just started doing this challenge HERE and everything was going great the whole day until in the evening my mom told me one of our chickens is sick (at that moment I was like wow cool I just started the challenge and THIS fucking happened), she wasn't moving much, making any sounds and she's usually very noisy etc. And I was so scared of her dying, I took care of her since she was a baby chick I just couldn't think she would just die like that and if you ever had chickens or know something about them u know they're fragile when it comes to health like usually when they get reaally sick they just die the next day like there's just not much you can do to help them at that point except put them out of misery, but I was just like noooooo no, no, this isn't happening, no and I came back to what I was doing, trying so much to not think about it, and affirmed sometimes to correct myself. When I went to bed I kept saying my umbrella aff and kept imagining her in my arms, screaming or doing other funny sounds she usually makes while I pet her. At some point my visualization changed to something sadder, I started imagining her gone and couldn't really control it anymore so I decided to just affirm regardless of what I saw in my minds eye. Next morning aka today when I write this, I woke up at like 6 AM and thought about going to the shed (or whatever u call it in English I don't have time for checking )to check if she's okay or laying stiff on the ground but I was like its too early so I visualized again and affirmed but at some point I just couldn't stand it anymore, I did affirm even though my mind made darkest scenarios while affirming but I was like no no no even if these bad thoughts went through my head faster than my affirmation I didn't stop correcting myself. When I went there holy shit she was outside walking as if she was never sick like she's normal I couldn't believe it but was so glad like every time I look at her I cry, literally when I saw her I picked her up and hugged her for like 10 minutes like guys I've never seen a chicken go back to being normal after being so sick that they just stand in place and suffer, I'm sooo happy right now. I'll definitely continue the challenge I'm doing, perhaps I'll write this success story on the challenge in the comments but idk, maybe others will find it weird that I wrote a success story about a chicken so I'll have to think about it.
Luckily now I didn't have to manifest any pet to get healthy xD but since like 2-3 days I've been having some dreams, one night I dreamt something about my ideal self + few days ago I made myself a subliminal to dream of something specific that I like and welp I dreamed of it like 3 times now but today it felt wayy better can't wait to go to sleep tonight ^,^
Meh, something annoying happened in the 3d but that's beside the case, but hey my crooked tooth or wait…no… It's a chipped tooth yep, so I have a chipped tooth THANKFULLY in the back of my mouth so it's not visible QwQ and today I touched it with my finger curiously if I have something on it cuz the chipped side felt weird, and I felt that it's more filled and I looked in the mirror and yep! It's growing back and while I'm still a bit upset at the 3d I'm glad that other stuff for ex. This manifested.
I weirdly get some dreams and flashbacks, I guess, from around the time when I was in middle school which now when I think about it, it makes sense cause I want to go back in time and relive my childhood/teenage years.
Today (18.08) I just feel… Different… And I look better. I also think a bit different about the 3d. I think I changed states.
Weekly manifestations #2
Manifested away some dumb shit I did out of fear xD (thank God it's finally gone!!!!)
Yoooo literally the day I was so stressed about turned out soo good!! Idk like nothing huge happened but still like gooosh I finally found& bought a flower I wanted to buy for like months now but couldn't find it anywhere. Second, like, I just felt so good, so at peace, like a happy child. I affirmed robotocally a lot that day, since I had to go and talk about my eeerm... Internship I think..? So yea at first I was so fucking stressed but when that visit was over I still affimed and still at the end of the day I affirmed eobotically cuz it just felt so good and I didnt wanna stop. And today when I woke up I was so fucking happy for no reason like I literally wanted to jump around my room and breakdance like my body was just sooo energized and I had really good visions of my perfect life & affirmed through that so that fueled my excitement even more. The whole time I was like ??? But still enjoyed it XD. 100% recommend to affirm robktically when you go through somethin stressful. BTW, I start my internship in 2nd of September, exactly when school year starts Owo. Coincidence? I think not!! I'm gonna think I'm going to school this whole time XD.
@etherealkissed’s law of assumption checklist ✮
[ ] you are staying true to the real you, imagination, and accepting only who you are being in imagination as true
[ ] when the 3d shows you otherwise, you dont care because you know you have already manifested it
[ ] you arent checking for movement or worrying about time or if youve done enough techniques (why would you check for movement if its already done?)
[ ] you realize you are the only operant power that controls every aspect of the 3d dream
[ ] you realize that by law, whoever you are being in imagination + what ever you accept as true in imagination, will always reflect into the 3d
[ ] you realize you arent waiting for anything to reflect because you are already living in your dream life in the real reality, imagination
[ ] you realize that you dont have to do anything in the 3d to manifest; you know you can continue living the same human life but while staying true to having your desire in imagination
[ ] you realize the human five senses are limited and cannot see everything in the 3d (cant see sp’s thoughts; cant see fat cells burning), unlike in the limitless imagination
[ ] you continue to return to the state wish fulfilled, you make it your dominant state by continuing to persist in it and make it natural to you
[ ] you do techniques for fun because its fun knowing you control everything and can give yourself everything in the real reality *opinional
[ ] you know manifesting something is as simple as deciding you have it and sticking to that assumption
@etherealkissed
Another tip and info from a manifestor who has struggled.
The ego tries to take control because that is just how human minds and society are programmed. But please know you are not doing anything wrong. You are fine.
As someone who is a manifestor, yes the ego is actually tricky to hurdle over at first. I don’t know why many people don’t talk about this, but yes, as a person who struggled it is true.
I see asks all the time that explain this exact same thing. People are happy, everything’s good, then they spiral and doubt after some time.
When i first started to manifesting, as everyone else i persisted, was doing great. After a few days, i would spiral, and doubt.
That is the cause of ego control, and conditioning. But that also means you are doing a good job. You are on the right track.
But i always used to give into the doubts, i would get frustrated and i thought i was doing something wrong. Sound familiar?
It is just your mind adjusting to the your assumption. Jump over the hurdle. Do not give into it. I know it can be hard to just “jump back into the state.” Yes, i really get it.
Just take some deep breaths, all you need to know is that you have what you want in consciousness (4d.) What you do in the 3d doesn’t matter, your thoughts are neutral. Don’t forget that.
Yes, your consciousness is the root of everything in front of you, you are consciousness experiencing life as a human. You can call it whatever you want. I thought this would be helpful for some.
-4disall. (first post for reference.)
TO ALL MY MANIFESTING GENIUSES.
Am I the only one who still gets surprised when they manifest things so quickly and easily like life is so easy.
The body you want? Achievable with discipline. The career you want?Achievable with discipline. The life you want? Achievable with discipline. That car you want? Achievable with discipline.
(TW is labled before I mention it, you can read up until the ⚠️⚠️⚠️ if you want and there shouldn't be anything until then)
My hot take on astrology is that you should probably only do it for yourself.
The way I use it, I align myself with my birth chart (it kinda already made sense for me, lucky me I guess?) and find the areas I'm lacking and pull myself into be a well rounded person.
I'm a Leo, and my whole life I've been told I'm "such a Leo!" And it bothered me. Personally I may look shiny and like bright coloured , and look like I want attention, but in reality I'm very secluded and stay home most of the time (still shiny and bright coloured mind you). I'm almost overly creative to the point that I have to design everything around me, change it, paint it put stickers on it you name it.
However, my partner is also a Leo, and they aren't as outwardly expressive in the same way. I also haven't really read their chart beyond curiosity. I *could* think of a way it applies, but it seems pointless to me. They don't need or want astrology, and if they did, I'd rather them read themselves through their chart than for me to do it.
I used to reject astrology, I used to make fun of it in private and honestly I'm ashamed of myself for doing that. I was *very* naive about it and honestly I think most people are. It's something you can do casually or seriously in my opinion. The only issue is when you read others charts who don't want you to, or you get cause up in your own reading of someone else that you don't take their experiences into consideration.
This is where it gets both complex and frankly upsetting. I suggest you don't continue to read if you do not want to read about:
TW ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ abuse s*xual *ss*lt
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A few years ago I opened up to a couple who were into astrology, one was also a Leo the other shared my moon sign.
I don't think I can type this out right now this was just supposed to be a hot take, but long story short, they wanted to create a small perfect community with pretty much everyone sleeping with everyone.
I am ace.
They did not believe me.
They did not believe in asexuality and wanted to cure me.
I am also trans masc and honest one of them just saw me as a floating strap on holder.
They would regularly talk about how I was perfect for them, had me bring my own friends, a friend who shared the others moon sign.
They would bring up our signs to tell us how perfect we were for the group. They kept telling me how perfect I'd be as a flashy queer man bursting with sexual and "top" energy.
It felt like I was in their image, a perfect blend of what they wanted.
That my shyness at the time was cute but the "raging" bisexual Leo was going to come out. (Something about one of my planetary alignments).
I was just learning about astrology, I was just coming out as trans, and I was just figuring out what asexuality was and in myself.
I enjoyed reading MY OWN chart. Alone. My friend did too. They had been doing astrology longer than me but had been isolated from really practicing it because of people around them saying what they do, "it's not real" and "anyone who believes it is stupid" and the like.
I remember having conversations at the time with them, we'd talk about how we understand how our sign feels for us but their interpretations were weird and *specific*. They would talk about chakras and how each of us was perfect for one single chakra (I don't really do chakras not just because of this reason but when looking into it, it gets really.... Weird and.... I'm not really sure about it's origins tbh so I just stay away from it).
This couple wanted to dictate how we felt based on our charts, but not even just the basic "Leo's are loud and flashy" but more and more specific as time went on.
This mind frame is dangerous and led to very depressing and terrifying ends. As the tw suggests. One of them asked the other to essentially "help" me with my asexuality. I won't really be going into details. But basically the one who told the other to do what they did, thought it was a good idea because we have the same sign.
That's it, they wanted community and used astrology (horribly) to do that.
I understand that those who get super into others charts are screaming for community. Sometimes it makes it faster to talk to people, to engage, I get it. Astrology can be fun in that way.
But as someone who has been harmed by the FEW that do this, and I don't just mean weird job bullshit where your boss is obsessed with your chart, I mean literally SA'd because my sun sign was the same and my moon sign was the same, it bothers me to hear people just casually throw out lines like
"you know the star map doesn't even line up perfectly? Right?" (We literally all know and you saying this makes you sound really fucking silly to most of us. Seriously it's not a fucking gotcha at all, it's mostly funny)
Or
"you know all horoscopes are the same and work for anyone right?"
Or my "favourite"
"anyone who believes this is insane."
Do not use this language if you're actually trying not to be ableist for one.
Two not all astrology practitioners believe in it the way you think.
And three (this is really my hot take) if they do believe in it and don't harm others with it, it's actually fine?
Do you, regularly make fun of people's belief systems? Is it fun to you? How often do you do this practice, of dismantling people's beliefs? Who do you do it for? Everyone? Or just the ones that make feel superiour online for like 5 secs?
Astrology (and honestly this applies to magick as well) is only an issue if you expand it beyond yourself to others who have not given consent.
Doing someone else's birth chart without permission, OR if they do not seem enthusiastic about getting it is also WRONG.
I practice Magick and Astrology. And like doing so. My literal belief seems unnecessary to acknowledge if I'm going to be honest. It seems counter productive.
Now making sure I'm not harming anyone or my environment seems more important.
And I think a lot of people for get that when discussing other people's religion or spiritual beliefs.
If you do not want to participate in astrology then actively say that.
Do not trick people, I find it deeply disrespectful and any time I see it it makes me want to scream.
You're issue is with the person not the tool in which they are using.
So stop.
Tricking people with fake birthdays and joking about it is almost akin to tricking Christians with stating things from the Bible.
At best you're stopping a single individual being a dick.
At worst your literally trying to destroy someone's belief system for the sake of being "right".
It's literally spiritual beliefs?
And again if it's only for the sake of stopping harmful actions then it's literally the person using the tool dangerously and THATS what should be pointed out.
Do not use ableist language it's literally not helping, it'll probably make it worse.
And to those who practice Astrology there's only one thing I think we should all universally understand. It's the only thing we need to do in this situation and it's:
Do not read the birth charts of people who don't want you to. It's a pretty intimate thing to do and you can do it very wrong and hurt people. Do it for yourself and those who want you to.
Other than that go for it, take it seriously for yourself or don't. Read horoscopes and understand what it may mean for you.
Whether you think is literal Magick or the "power of perception" honestly doesn't matter.
How you treat others do.
I understand how it feels to be harmed by this practice, but I also know it's not fair to belittle the people who practice either.
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Yes!!
stop making "jokes" about male, female, and queer victims who were abused my cishet men, women, and queer people.
Men can be verbally, emotionally, physically, and sexually abused by not only men but women as well. The same goes for women abused by women and queer people. Traits like gender may play a role in the reasoning and forms of abuse and how victims express trauma, but it's not a main factor of who takes the role of victim and or abuser.
The continuous notion of men are the only problems when it comes to abuse is so wrong, because there are other factors to why people act out abusive behavior other than the lazy argument of "men biologically love sex" and or "men bad". And some may reject that but I've seen posts of men, women, and queer people having their reports of abuse dismissed because it wasn't man. Sometimes if a man sexually abuses a man it's either seen as "desirable if the two are queer" or used as "valid" reasoning for hating "queer people". Instances of abuse like this are often twisted into a false narrative to either laugh at or exploit to fearmonger.
Support victims of abuse and trauma no matter who they are and don't invalidate their feelings just because "they have it better than others". As well as finding help for abusers to possibly reform and learn from the mistakes and take strides to better themselves. Don't be dismissive. And for people who have low empathy or just struggle with comforting others and expressing emotion in general just let the person know you'll be there for them and ask how they feel and what they want to discuss and do moving forward. If the person doesn't want to talk about then that's fine just hangout if they want company and suggest types of therapy they can use or anything that would be more appropriate in the moment.
abusiveness and predation is not unique to men. abusive women (and the abuse of men for that matter) are much, much more common than you think. if your support for abuse survivors only extends to women or people who were abused by men, you don't actually support survivors.
so to all the survivors who aren't women, and the survivors whose abusers weren't men: i believe you, and i see you. you deserve to be safe and supported. you are not alone. your pain and suffering matters just as much as others' does. what happened to you is just as awful, and i'm wishing you so much healing and happiness.
monday's going to trigger my PTSD so merry christmas, you'll likely not hear from me 🙃😘
things i needed to hear (as conversation hearts)
Defining Sexual Assault and Harassment
WARNING: Mentions of Sexual Assault and Trauma
Today's blog is going to deal with some really heavy topics. Sexual assault specifically, but I will also be covering the effects of sexual assault and the trauma that follows after.
If you think that might be too much for you or you're just in the wrong head space. Go ahead and skip this blog post, maybe check out a different one.
Alright. You okay? Yeah. Okay. Let's start with defining Sexual Assault and the difference between it and Sexual Harassment.
Sexual Assault:
The term sexual assault refers to sexual contact or behavior that occurs without explicit consent of the victim. Some forms of sexual assault include:
Attempted rape
Fondling or unwanted sexual touching
Forcing a victim to perform sexual acts, such as oral sex or penetrating the perpetrator’s body
Penetration of the victim’s body, also known as rape
We have covered Consent before in the blog but as a reminder.
Consenting to someone touching you in a sexual manner means agreeing to it by choice and having both the freedom and capacity to make that choice.
It is NOT consent if you or someone else was:
Asleep, unconscious, drunk, drugged or 'on' drugs.
Pressured, manipulated, tricked or scared into saying yes.
Too young or vulnerable to have the freedom and capacity to make that choice.
Consent can be withdrawn at any time, including during sex or a sexual act. Just because someone consented to something before doesn’t mean they consented to it happening again.
If someone’s unsure whether the other person is giving their consent for something sexual, they should always check with them. It is all about communication and trust. It's important to trust your partner and to fully agree when crossing your boundaries.
Sexual Harassment can be similar, but there are clear differences.
What is sexual harassment?
Sexual harassment includes unwelcome sexual advances, requests for sexual favors, and other verbal or physical harassment of a sexual nature in the workplace or learning environment, according to the Equal Employment Opportunity Commission (EEOC). Sexual harassment does not always have to be specifically about sexual behavior or directed at a specific person. For example, negative comments about women as a group may be a form of sexual harassment.
Although sexual harassment laws do not usually cover teasing or offhand comments, these behaviors can also be upsetting and have a negative emotional effect.
Sexual harassment is a broad term, including many types of unwelcome verbal and physical sexual attention. Sexual assault refers to sexual contact or behavior, often physical, that occurs without the consent of the victim. Sexual harassment generally violates civil laws—you have a right to work or learn without being harassed—but in many cases is not a criminal act, while sexual assault usually refers to acts that are criminal.
Who are the perpetrators?
The majority of perpetrators are someone known to the victim. Approximately eight out of 10 sexual assaults are committed by someone known to the victim, such as in the case of intimate partner sexual violence or acquaintance rape.
The term “date rape” is sometimes used to refer to acquaintance rape. Perpetrators of acquaintance rape might be a date, but they could also be a classmate, a neighbor, a friend’s significant other, or any number of different roles. It’s important to remember that dating, instances of past intimacy, or other acts like kissing do not give someone consent for increased or continued sexual contact.
In other instances the victim may not know the perpetrator at all. This type of sexual violence is sometimes referred to as stranger rape. Stranger rape can occur in several different ways:
Blitz sexual assault: when a perpetrator quickly and brutally assaults the victim with no prior contact, usually at night in a public place
Contact sexual assault: when a perpetrator contacts the victim and tries to gain their trust by flirting, luring the victim to their car, or otherwise trying to coerce the victim into a situation where the sexual assault will occur
Home invasion sexual assault: when a stranger breaks into the victim's home to commit the assault
Survivors of both stranger rape and acquaintance rape often blame themselves for behaving in a way that encouraged the perpetrator. It’s important to remember that the victim is never to blame for the actions of a perpetrator. It is also important to remember that sexual assault can be carried out by a person of any gender against another person of any gender.
Does sexual assault have to involve force?
It’s a really common myth about sexual assault, rape and other kinds of sexual violence and abuse that they have to involve physical force or leave the person with visible injuries. But that isn’t true.
There are many other ‘tactics’ that someone might use to sexually assault someone. For example:
pressure
manipulation
bullying
intimidation
threats
deception
drugs or alcohol
BUT, none of these have to have happened for it to still be sexual assault.
Many people find themselves unable to speak or move when faced with a scary, shocking or dangerous situation. If that happened, it does not mean the person gave their consent.
And if there’s no consent then it is always sexual assault.
Now just like an injury, Sexual Assault can lead to long term issues for it's victims.
Right after a sexual assault is a very difficult and confusing time.
Sexual assault is a common yet underreported crime. According to a 2018 study, 27% of women and 7% of men reported experiencing sexual assault in their lifetimes.
If you or someone you know has experienced the trauma of sexual assault, the steps that follow — exams, kits, police, prosecutors — can be confusing and difficult. Whether the assault was in the last 48 hours or many years ago, this guide will help you or a loved one understand and navigate the process.
There are also numerous different hotlines you can call and this website that gives more information about the help a person can get.
Calling the National Sexual Assault Hotline gives you access to a range of free services including:
Confidential support from a trained staff member
Support finding a local health facility that is trained to care for survivors of sexual assault and offers services like sexual assault forensic exams
Someone to help you talk through what happened
Local resources that can assist with your next steps toward healing and recovery
Referrals for long term support in your area
Information about the laws in your community
Basic information about medical concerns
There is also this website which lists 5 Sexual Assault help organizations.
Unresolved wounds can impact current health, even if the trauma occurred long ago.
Licensed clinical social worker and trauma specialist at the UCLA Rape Treatment Center Jane Willens has been treating women for decades. Some have been assaulted recently and others a long time ago.
The violation, according to Willens, is typically accompanied by a loss of self-esteem and feelings of powerlessness and worthlessness. “I always emphasize that no matter how many decades have passed since their sexual assault or trauma, it’s never too late to seek mental health treatment,” says Willens. “It’s common to see intense emotions such as guilt, self-blame, and shame. There is often underlying anxiety, anger, and depression. The assault also impacts the ability to trust oneself and others, particularly if the assailant was a known acquaintance.” Willens further describes theimpact of sexual trauma as neurobiological, meaning the trauma can affect the brain and nervous systems. Trauma-related symptoms may include chronic headaches, body aches, fatigue, dizziness and nausea, sexual difficulties, as well as emotional issues.
If you or a loved one has been sexual assaulted, there are no words to truly describe the hurt a person can feel. This blog can not go into all the different aspects of sexual assault and the trauma it can cause, but it is here to inform and educated others.
It is hard living and breathing after something so traumatizing. The very least I can say is that, you aren't ruined after this. Everyone deserves love <3
cw: hypersexualiation as a trauma response, talk of SA and use of the word r*pe
i had a reputation as the system's “child whxre”
can i say to the world
please
please
please
avoid judging your littles for how they act.
avoid giving system members labels unless they consent to it
avoid commenting on other alters behaviour if it's not truly harmful to the system.
ive been reading about trauma responses and SA holders in systems, and i have a few things to say;
i'd pretend to be the body's age to get myself into sexual situations because that was what i knew. that is what I expected from people. especially men. sex was predictable (even if it was hellishly painful). assaxlt was predictable. take what you want, leave me to clean up. it was a rhythm i was used to
it felt Safe in a way. and anyone who hasn't experienced long term sa will not understand that. i knew what they'd do and i could doll up accordingly. once the sa abuse finished i still expected that people would act that way, and when they didn't, id seek out the patterns of abuse. it was more controllable than my own emorions.
hypersexualising myself came from not having any other option during the abuse but to sit down and take it, and not knowing of any alternatives when it ended.
sex and sexual situations were safe.
whenever i'd make sex jokes.. more accurately rxpe jokes. i was trying to cope with having my most basic human rights stripped. i was doing my best to handle sexual assaults on my own. i wasn't trying to, or aware of the impact it had on the others.
it was trauma.
it was always trauma.
i was too afraid to tell anyone any of why i acted that way (especially not how id been moulded into the prefect obedient slxt by my previous abusers) due to how the system and outer world spoke of me.
so please
if your littles/middles/tweens/teens, sometimes adults too, are acting out, especially sexualising themselves, here's a high chance they'd dealing with something no one else knows about.
check in with your system.
- teddy (11 years)
csa/sa warning [slightly graphic}
..our primary protector recently started listening to a podcast called 'the deep'. the host of the podcast dives into people's experiences with..well, anything challenging, traumatic..scary..
when i switched in we were listening to an episode speaking with a survivor of tween sa (12 year old in a relationship with a 26 year old)..
...and unlike our primary protector, i remember my own experiences having an erect penis forced down my throat while my hair was gripped so hard my eyes watered
...and somehow i only now placed that.. that was rape. that was by definition, sexual assault. even between two people over the age of consent that is still rape. but im eight (body is older), and the pastor took unforgivable advantage of us.
...it was only this podcast that..made me realise that was wrong..and i had every right to defend myself, my body, and to speak up.
i wish i did.
~ chastity-kiel
Tw // sexual assault discussions, CSA
"The word 'rape' is really harsh. But at the same time, I had to leave my body mentally in order to stay physically there. Then it's against your will."
I found this quote in a book today (the book is called "Cult Trip" by Anke Richter if you're interested - I do recommend it, but look up the trigger warnings; it contains graphic descriptions of sexual assault). I think it's important for people to hear, especially SA survivors, like we are. <3
Sending love to anyone who relates
Girly he did it UNWILLINGLY he was s.a for 8 years on Calypso's island (he cried every day it became he's routine, when Hermes camed to release him, Hermes asked wherd he was and She said: Odysseus is at the beach with his crying ritual. He abhorred her and never wanted!.
With Circe more or less but here it was because of coercion of Hermes: Do Not Refuse Her Bed! And it was for the protection of his men. For a year he did it with her so his men could heal, (lomg story) and resupply, thanks to Circe they went to the Underworld and passed Caribdis and Scylla before that.
But yeah he did it, Unwillingly and s.a also almost died when he was telling Penelope.
watching epic fans find out odysseus is a pos is actually hilarious
like “omg nooo hes so loyal thooooo hed never do that to penelope” girly thats the source material he straight up canonically did that
watching epic fans find out odysseus is a pos is actually hilarious
like “omg nooo hes so loyal thooooo hed never do that to penelope” girly thats the source material he straight up canonically did that