So Tired - Tumblr Posts - Page 2

Made it to the appointment exactly on time. It went okay. Eldest had to have a quick finger prick which we anticipated would be an awful experience like all the other times. But it wasn't! Husband and I were shocked. Didn't even cry or scream once.

It was sanitize the spot! Quick prick! 1, 2, 3 wipe away wipe away! *collects sample* okay bandaid time! *wrap* boom done!

That.... never happens!! So the appointment went super fast too after that and suddenly we were done. Ran to ONE store. Grabbed maybe 5 things. Checked out. Grabbed a small, fast lunch. Drove half an hour home, eating along the way. Checked all diapers. Changed everyone into comfy house clothes. Promptly crashed for the entire evening.

Woke up several hours later (which is now an hour ago) so disoriented. Didn't know what year it was. "Family Coma" we joked. Both kiddos out cold. Both parents out cold. We were all so drained from one appointment and one store stop. Absolutely took out the whole family.

Husband and I woke up and immediately made dinner and he had thankfully woken up in time for work. (He had an alarm but with how out cold we were I don't think he would've woken up if I hadn't jostled him awake right when I woke up)

Kiddos are happily eating dinner and running around. I'm a zombie on the couch. Husband is already wide awake and working. My head feels so pressurized, pulsing with every heartbeat. My body aches so much. I want to go back to sleep already. 🫠🫠

I cannot keep myself awake today. I keep passing out on the couch. First when lying down so I forced myself to sit upright, but kept passing out still.

Thankfully my husband will wake up and take over when our eldest wakes up from his nap here in a bit and I can get some actual rest vs my body force-shutting down in the living room. Well, as close to actual rest as I can get.

I hate how today is going. I had tasks to complete plus I wanted to be more involved today with the kiddos but it just doesn't seem to be my day today. (Not that any day is my day when chronically fatigued but anywayyyyy)

I wish rest was.... restful. I wish it was refreshing. I wish sleeping 13 hours didnt feel the same as 13 minutes. Never rejuvenated. Always perpetually drained. Shit sucks. My hands have been mean today especially too. All my joints inflamed. All muscles/tendons/whatever, aching terribly.

I'm so tired. So so tired....

time to try to develop my own art style [its 06:48 on a saturday and my brain didnt let me sleep in]

More Hazel drawings! I’m very bored!

I am not playing too much Fire Emblem Fates!

(I’m definitely playing too much Fire Emblem Fates...)

MASOCHIST SHIP DYNAMIC

not really masochism 8ut pretend hes 8eing ripped apart, also ik i was trying to do diff fandoms for each day 8ut this promt reminded me of my ocs

WHY IS NOTHING EVER ENOUGH?

WHY AM I NEVER ENOUGH?

“why do u always seem so overwhelmed” the feelings are swallowing me whole and they don’t stop

Finals are comming!

Highschool shows no mercy. Finals are next week and I'm so tired... end me already, I look like a ZOMBIE!!

Reblog if you're asexual and tired

Im goin to bed now in my room with power Good night people who are probably reading this in the middle of the day.

I hate going to my dads The power went off in my room AND ONLY MY ROOM. and it wont turn back on and I'm getting progressively more and more upset

I knocked on the adults door multiple times but im afraid to go in there because im a wuss.

Something like this always seems to happen to. And now im sitting in the hallway crying at 1:13 am with everyone who could theoretically help me asleep.

I think this would be an excellent time to wither away into nothingness.

Update

Hey everyone!

Sorry I've been absent for the past..what? a couple of months? Shit has just been happening so I haven't had time to stream, make a video, or even post anything orz

So to catch everyone up on what's been going on, my room is slowly getting destroyed by water.

So I'm still sleeping out in the living room since my floor is starting to warp like...really badly. So bad that I have to walk on the floor beams so I don't fall through my waterlogged floor. On top of that, the hole that the raccoon created is still not completely fixed. Me and mom had checked the room a couple of days ago and there’s some mold slowly growing on the ceiling not too far from the hole. So even if everything was fixed I still wouldn't be able to sleep in there.

A family member did come over to make a temporary fix for both the hole and floor about a month or so ago, but the temporary fix for the hole just fell off a day or two ago so now I smell wet installation every time I walk in.

On top of that, the water is spreading into the hallway and bathroom. So we have to watch our step everytime we go near my room or the bathroom least we will start to sink.

So I’m gonna have to pack my belongings and move them somewhere else least they accidentally get waterlogged, fall forward, or through the floor.

But there is some good news to share.

I never really said all of this out in the open like this but basically Mom had a heart attack about 3ish years ago, she had gotten heart surgery and what not but the surgeon fucked up somewhere cuz not only did she still feel pain from the surgery, but the bottom part of where they had made the incision never healed causing more problems. It’s been like this ever since she got the heart surgery. On top that, just recently an actual, honest-to-good wire that they had used to keep the ribs together became loose and had started to poke out of the hole that never closed on her chest.

We had been trying to get this fixed for the past 3ish years, yet almost every doctor we talked to didn't want to actually do anything and kept telling us to go to different doctors, plastic surgeons, or back to the original surgeon who did this to begin with. The main problem was that the original surgeon that had done her heart surgery in the first place had retired, the plastic surgeons outright said ‘we can't do anything until you talk to a heart surgeon,’ or another doctor didn't want to touch her in fear of a POSSIBLE lawsuit. ORZ

This was twice as frustrating since the closest hospital that treats this sort of thing is an hour long from our house, and my very easily motion-sick ass didn't help things either.

We had only just now found a doctor who could help take the wires out and clean her wound so it could heal properly and not cause any pain to her. I'm still unbelievably pissed that it took this long for an actual doctor to finally help us instead of sending us off on another wild goose chase that would last for actual months. Thankfully, everything went as planned, the doctor made sure to clean everything up. Right now, she's out of surgery and is catching some much-needed Z’s. We would have gone home today, but her right eye was hurting so badly that we opted to stay at the hospital overnight.

That's what has happened these past few months. Sorry if this post looks like the ramblings of a madman, I haven't had a a decent night of sleep these last couple of days so my vision is a bit blurry. >_<