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me, hoping a book named ' our violent ends' , that's a literal retelling of romeo & juliet, won't have a tragic ending :

jesper fahey 🤝 benedikt montagov

endearingly insulting people’s faces

Alisa: Roma how do I get revenge?

Roma: the best revenge is living well and moving on.

Alisa: Juliette how do I -

Juliette: knife.

Why does this plot give such strong cressworth vibes. Like, murder on a train connected to their own mission. Literally just hunting prince dracula.

I'm not complaining tho

Just finished Our violent ends and I am not doing well 😊

Moriarty & the Priest

(This will contain spoilers for the second season of Fleabag)

So, I discovered the fic These Violent Delights by @pasiphile (and its accompanying stories) last year and it was incredible. I have loved Andrew Scott’s Jim Moriarty since the freaking pool scene and just devoured the world that @pasiphile has created. Truly spectacular. It’s canon as far as I’m concerned.

Then I saw that Andrew Scott was playing a character in the show Fleabag so I watched a clip on youtube from the show (of him and Fleabag making out by a confessional) and I thought, “I have to watch this show.” 

So, I watched it. And it was beautiful. Bittersweet. I started watching the second season again and this thought popped into my brain (and I can’t have been the first to think this):

What if, after Jim “died,” he spent the ensuing time (before his resurrection) becoming a priest? 

(Now, I like to consider myself to be a fanfic reader of discerning taste. In any crossover fic there has to be a believable reason for the crossover. I’m pretty good with the whole “expansion of disbelief” thing, but there are limits.)

So, here’s how it would work: 

Jim “kills” himself on the roof of the hospital and he needs to lie low for awhile. He needs to distance himself from Seb because while the rest of the world may be ignorant of Seb’s existence, the criminal world is rife with information (all rumors and hearsay because Jim is nothing if not thorough) and they can’t be seen together (or even rumored to be seen together) until Jim’s ready for the next stage of his plan to commence. What’s he gonna do in the interim? He’s not going to be himself, that’s for sure. And a priest is pretty far removed from consulting criminal, so why not go to seminary? 

He’s ordained and is sent to a perish and that is where we enter the Fleabag universe (yeah, we might be getting a bit timey-whimey, get over it). One thing he forgot was how Seb helped ground him in reality. Without him (and his Web) it is easy to get lost in a character. He’s molded himself into this foulmouthed priest and people are drawn to him - they can’t help themselves. Jim’s magnetism is a lot harder to hide, easier to do for smaller characters, and he makes it work for the priest. He meets this woman, this beautifully tragic woman who doesn’t fit in with the rest of the world - her resonance doesn’t quite match up. 

(I love that, in the show, the Priest is the only one who notices Fleabag’s 4th wall breaks. That is such a Jim thing - after all, the Priest may not be Jim but Jim is the Priest and he can never fully turn off his brain. Of course he’s going to notice someone slipping away here and there.)

Jim loves chaos, he thrives in it - it’s never chaotic for him - and he revels in the chance to see what chaos this woman will cause. He reads her easily, unconsciously, the mask falling away as if it were never there. There’s so much grief and fear and guilt and loneliness - it’s intoxicating.

(At the dinner scene in the restaurant, when Fleabag asks if he is a real priest, she surprises him. He can count on one finger the number of people who have done that. But Jim is Jim and his mask stays up. Yes, he is a real priest. But, darling, he doesn’t say, I’m so much more.)

Jim enjoys making her fall in love with him, pretending to be so vulnerable and so human. It’s beautiful and, despite being predictable, it’s the most fun he’s had since before the trial - before he began to lose himself in Rich Brook and before he started distancing himself from Seb. And for a moment Jim’s irreversibly furious at Seb for turning him into such a romantic idiot. But that’s the Priest, not Jim. Jim doesn’t love. Jim owns. 

(When their drinking G&Ts in his garden and he tells her they’re not going to have sex he knows he’s lying. He also wishes that he could convince her to drop it. He doesn’t really like sex - this stint as a priest is hardly his first go of celibacy. [Seb is the exception, of course, but that had more to do with Seb than Jim.] But then he get’s a bit bored and messes with his own plan and has her bear her soul to him in the confessional. For a second he’s Jim Moriarty again, commanding his subjects to kneel. He can see how uncomfortable this makes her, how vulnerable she is. And he almost laughs. But instead he drags the Priest back up and the Priest kneels before he and kisses her. It really is luck that brings the painting crashing to the ground.

In the end, they do have sex. Of course they do. Even she knew they would. And it’s…not his worst sexual experience. She’s not Seb, so the emotion she’s practically suffocating him with is uncomfortable. But she’s stopped slipping away quite as much when she’s with him. Interesting…and a bit disappointing.

He notices it at the wedding. Her resonance is not quite as off as it use to be. She’s a bit less out of step with the everyone else around her. And he’s so disappointed. She’s so ordinary now. But he knew it would end like this, of course.)

He leaves, pretends to be heartbroken about it, pretends to love her, even manages to shed a few tears. But he has an empire to get back to, a right hand to whip into shape, and a pair of brothers to destroy once and for all. 

He leaves, because that’s what people do. 

I've loved so many of them

book quotes that i will never recover from

"he is half of my soul, as the poets say. " - song of achilles

"write me a letter telling me how to live the rest of my life without you." - how to make friends with the dark

"they were my birthday presents." - shatter me

"she had realized that she had forgotten the precise blue of his eyes and the depth of his laugh." - clockwork princess

"my name is sam cortland... and i will not be afraid." - assassin's blade

"you chose me four years ago. would you choose me still?" - these violent delights

"we were all supposed to make it." - crooked kingdom

"i remember everything." - the invisible life of addie larue

"come home and shout at me. come home and fight with me. come home and break my heart, if you must. just come home." - cruel prince

"i wasted all those yesterdays and am completely out of tomorrows." - they both die at the end

"you hated the idea of me." - the final gambit

"bob says hello." - house of hades

"abuse can feel like love. starving people will eat anything." - nightfall

"i missed you only with an ocean between us. but if death was separating us... i would find you." - queen of shadows

"i loved him. i love him. as best i could." - we were liars

"i'm the villain, even in my own story. but you were supposed to play a different role." - finale

"i will find you again in the next world—the next life. and we will have that time. i promise." - a court of wings and ruin

"i spent half of my time loving her and the other half hiding how much i loved her." - the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

Title cards inspired by @bybdolan

“The stars incline us, they do not bind us.”

The year is 1926, and Shanghai hums to the tune of debauchery. A blood feud between two gangs runs the streets red, leaving the city helpless in the grip of chaos. At the heart of it all is eighteen-year-old Juliette Cai, a former flapper who has returned to assume her role as the proud heir of the Scarlet Gang—a network of criminals far above the law. Their only rivals in power are the White Flowers, who have fought the Scarlets for generations. And behind every move is their heir, Roma Montagov, Juliette’s first love…and first betrayal.

This took forever but I think I’m finally happy with it!

These violent delights have violent ends,you have always known this.

Rating: ★★★★★

Today I finally had time to finish Our Violent ends by @chloegong and I think it is better to say that this book violently ended me.

So here's my rant >.<

These books make me feel something that I can only describe as bittersweet.Roma and juliette are characters I hold really close to my heart.These two were constantly caught up in things that they never even got a chance to love properly.

It was so fascinating to see someone love so quietly yet so fiercely.

The ending made me cry but never have I been so satisfied with an ending.As it is said in the book,hope is a cruel thing and this book left me hoping hopelessly.It makes me wonder if they're alive or dead but as juliette said that it is not always this or that so I just hope that they both are happy somewhere in the world,alive or dead.

I was in awe as u put down this book.They both went down together just like roma had said "Together or not at all,dorogaya" and i don't know if I'm the only one who thinks like this but imo dying together is better than living apart.

We all knew what was going to happen eventually (it's a romeo juliet retelling so of-fucking-course) but i still looked forward to it.

So congrats miss chloe,you successfully made me cry my heart out but I love you for it.

I always love books like these,I LOVED the whole Shanghai vibes and it felt good to read something so beautifuly tragic set amidst the chaos that happened in the 1920s China.

Also does anyone know how can I get my own roma montagov who'd call me dorogaya oh so lovingly?!😭😭

sorry for going completely disappearing off the earth. if you’ve stopped following me, i totally understand why.

that being said, while i have deviated from writing haikyuu fan writes, i’ve been really into a duology called these violent delights and i’m almost about done with a piece of work about that book series and i’m hoping to push it out next week or possibly even this week. so if you’re into that, i hope you’re excited :))

but this doesn’t mean that i don’t like haikyuu anymore because frankly, it’s the complete opposite of that; i still really enjoy it. i’m willing to take requests (they’ll just take longer to write because high school sucks :/) and i think it will give me more inspo for longer works. it’s just that i’ve been getting to reading published books more so that’s why this blog hasn’t been my main focus last year.

anyways so sorry the lack of activity on this blog, i’m hanging in there and i’m doing my best to nourish my creative writing but it’s very inconsistent so don’t get your hopes up too much if i push something out ;)

you know how i said i might post a tvd fanfic? yeah, i deleted it bc there was too much overwriting and it basically unfixable at this point so i’m going to be approaching it with a different idea