Wonder - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
In the last few months things have been more abnormal, than normal for me. It’s pretty interesting to say that I find myself operating at a level of chaos that I shouldn’t be. Hectic situations are like being able to see the sun clearly. Where others only see purple storm clouds. I have always been grown. My youth was stolen from me. Ripped from the cage in my chest that holds my little beating heart. The adults around me forged a weapon against one another fom my little remains. Mother and child against father with son. Kin against kin.
Since the age of 7 years, adults have questioned me! Told me! Volun-told me what I should think and what I should do.
From there I was told how I should feel about my mother and ill fitting she was. And I was told about how much a loser my father was. Nothing, was fair for me. No experience of greatness thrusted for me to experiment of what I had come from. Only what I supposedly lacked.
By the ones we call family. On both sides, are the ones that create situations that ultimately have nothing to do with them. It’s always when the shoe is placed on the other foot they see how it feels.. …With no regret, I practice my bitch craft and I practice it fiercely. No hold bars. And anyone can catch a sift blade of my palatial sword. Burn from my relentless gaze.
I. Still angry because no one want to hear me speak. Vent, let out all of that anger. Tell my truth. I need to have the. Own up to what they have done. Admit that you were wrong and that I cost me emotionally type venting. In the end everything feels as it doesn’t matter because I was not planned more wanted in the first place. The shadows of there faces linger on my thought because I have been on my own for a very long while. I have been creating my own families. And still nothing ever compares. In one way or another I am, in the subtlest of ways. Reminded of my place in these places. In these groups, in these homes. I think that I will feel at ease. And at home, when I create my own organic family. Find my partner. Build a home. Create a stable life. And have babies.
I think that I’m ready to do this and never look back at those who I have come from. To never let my children and partner know what foolery, ignorance and contemptuous people that I birth from. “Now Is the time. Now is the hour. Now is the magic. Now is the power!”
If I were to play P5X, I would name Wonder-kun "Sango". Sango means coral, and I came up with the name because it is found in the ocean and is reddish, the same as his hair color.
There are Japanese names like "Shingo" and "Daigo," so I thought it sounded realistic. I have seen a few Japanese fans saying the same thing I did, so the game system may not allow me to register it because it is the same name as another player. I haven't thought much about the last name, but it might be interesting to take on the meme that he looks like Tatsuya and make it Suou. In the current beta test, I can't seem to separate the first name from the last name, but if this is the case in the official version, I'll just use the first name.
Space
Here is one of my 30 minute drawing challenge in the BYU-I Visual Society meeting.The theme for the challenge was "Space". I really enjoyed the challenge and helped me to think creatively.
Here is a link to BYUI Visual Society's social media if you want to check it out.
https://instagram.com/byuivisualsociety?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=