IT'S SPRING!

IT'S SPRING!

My store is officially open again! All 62 new mushroom pins are up as well as 5 new prints. I'm still working on the bandanas, so those will be released next week. <3

Really just want to not feel so alone.

So this one time with my ex-wife

Not gonna describe the situation, but we had to rough it and sleep in a tiny room, an I had to sleep on the floor so she could sleep on the bed, my stomach was always hurting on and off cause I didn't have weed, and the anxiety was so bad cause of our situation.

There was this moment she dropped her hand for me to hold on to it, and I grabbed her hand and felt such bliss. So much energy was coming from her body to mine, I felt no pain, I felt so relaxed and happy and loved.

Moral of the story is I wish I could find that again, I wish more then anything I wasn't so lonely and unloved. I have so much love and no one to give it to, no one that will feel my energy the same way. I'm so fucking lost

I understand that she left me cause of my chronic pains, and I wasn't able to take care of her like we dreamed. We was so full of love and it just wasn't enough.

It'd be nice if I could find someone to love me

bpd culture is feeling so loved and appreciated and cherished in a moment, and then the moment ends, and you're convinced nobody has any love or care for you in their hearts, and that you're just a fleeting thought.

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*Looks in mirror* Wow I look super handsome! I’m gonna take a picture!

*Gets Phone out* what the f… is that how I look? Why’s so much different?!? Why do I look so creepy? Where’s the handsome part!? Why did I get fat when I’m skinny! why does the camera hate me!!!