Depresssion - Tumblr Posts
theres a pretty big community of people with mental illnesses and eds but i havent really seen anyone here who has panic disorder and i actually dont know anyone (besides myself) who has a panic disorder and maybe we could be friends? who knows
Has anyone had functioning panic attacks, like your having a panic attack but you can still (kinda) function like a human being
Not being wanted for years is really sad...
I keep thinking this Girl will be different! She will treat me the way I wanna be treated! I will be loved and hugged tell I can't take it!.
I just want that to be a reality instead I'm lost, nobody wants me?.. single for years, and not a single person has wanted me??
What is so wrong.. I am Goofy asf, I have a tiny crooked nose, I have dark, dark, dark brown eyes, my teeth aren't perfectly straight. But they're close.. I'm trying to understand how a person can decide within a fucking min that I'm not attractive anymore...
This just keeps happening, Compliments on how I'm cute then ghosted or deleted, why??.. why even start my hopes.. why not reply? What the fuck is wrong with me.
So this one time with my ex-wife
Not gonna describe the situation, but we had to rough it and sleep in a tiny room, an I had to sleep on the floor so she could sleep on the bed, my stomach was always hurting on and off cause I didn't have weed, and the anxiety was so bad cause of our situation.
There was this moment she dropped her hand for me to hold on to it, and I grabbed her hand and felt such bliss. So much energy was coming from her body to mine, I felt no pain, I felt so relaxed and happy and loved.
Moral of the story is I wish I could find that again, I wish more then anything I wasn't so lonely and unloved. I have so much love and no one to give it to, no one that will feel my energy the same way. I'm so fucking lost
I understand that she left me cause of my chronic pains, and I wasn't able to take care of her like we dreamed. We was so full of love and it just wasn't enough.
Do I have any friends on here or anyone wanna talk about their day? Or how they're feeling? That urge not to be here :(
My depression fucks me everyday 😒
"Waking up thinner is worth going to bed hungry."