Always Tired - Tumblr Posts
I just can't take this anymore. It's been weeks and i can't focus and I dunnu if it's because of the quarantine or because i don't wanna study this boring stuff. This is going too long and i just can't fail my tests i'm tired of being tired
Has anyone had functioning panic attacks, like your having a panic attack but you can still (kinda) function like a human being
Tired of being tired and gay? This simple trick can change that.
Just be gay and tired.
Is being a teenager just going to be this? Because holy sh*t this SUCKS
Nothing better than good ole [2 hours later] ... dissociation
me: *doesnt sleep, is tired*
me: *sleeps a bit, is tired*
me: *sleeps average amount, is tired*
me: *sleeps a lot, is tired*
me: *is tired*
Well I had a surge of energy and gave the house a good clean, now to crash for the next week or so. In preparation to do it all over again!

tell me what does it feel like to have slept and woken up feeling well rested instead of tired?
Finally! I am out of the hospital!
Hello dear readers!
It’s true!
I am free!
We spoke with a wound care specialist late yesterday and we tried new treatments for the wound and it took well overnight.
So now I can go 2-3 days without messing with the wound, giving me time to have home health nurse come and administer the new treatment.
My oldest child and disabled mother were both taught how to do the treatment in case the dressing needed changed before the nurse could come.
Both of them are very secure in believing that they can do the treatment without having any problems
The walking is exhausting and I have to use a walker because I get light headed after about 50-80 feet.
Also sitting in the car or on a chair hurts because of where the wound is.
I am not allowed home because it two story so I am staying elsewhere for now.
I physically do not feel like the same person that I was before all this.
I am weak and constantly tired.
I have NEVER been the weak one in my family.
I have NEVER been the one cared for in the family
Everyone came to me to take care of them and came to me for physical and emotional strength.
I am in totally unknown territory.
But on the plus side… no more hospital food, hospital beds, 3am vital checks, 5am blood draws, and incessant visitors barging in.
lol
💜💜💜
In my mind I am a healthy capable woman. My body however
PLS. We're not your personal therapist.
For once, I'd like to meet someone who won't make me his FUCKING EMOTIONAL DUMP!!
I know, I say "sorry" a lot. But what can I do when I feel this metaphysical guilt for being alive? Like I am guilty of commiting the crime of existing in this world...?

I need a break from myself. How do I do that without killing myself...?
I am emotionally fucked up...


Sometimes I forget that it's ok to just have one of "those days".
When I was 20, I moved out at night with my stuff in trash bags as my mother wept on the floor begging me to stay, asking me how she was supposed to mother the other children in her care. When I was 20, as I loaded everything i could fit into my car my mother dug her nails so deep into my skin that I still have the scars today. When I was 20, and I was holding myself together by threads I watched my mother fall apart and shrivel before me. I left my mother to save myself. I left my siblings to save myself. I was scared and tired and put myself first and now ill never see them again.