Mental Disorder - Tumblr Posts

Hey y'all, I don't know what's going on in my life anymore but if like to make this blog into a public account of my life and struggle against mental health. I plan on posting my feelings and and vent into the void and hope it says something back. I plan on placing the necessary trigger warnings at the top of all of my posts. I will occasionally post pictures of myself and what little art that I have been up to.

The purpose of this is to hopefully raise awareness of mental health and to effectively post a public diary and track my personal progress through this crazy, wild ride.

Life isn't a movie . When you talk to your parents about your depression , or any other mental problems , they don't automatically understand . Instead they think that you're a freak , a weirdo who's brainwashed by the things you like , movies , music , books , etc . So they cut your hair , take away the things you like , your phone , notebook , probably the only things you've found happiness in your miserable life and act like a savior that you should be grateful for. But of course some parents understand and try to help , or at least stay out of it . Unfortunately , I hate the fact that my parents are abusive assholes who thinks they know best . I just hate them .

Feeling like shit for several months and then discovering that your struggles line up with most of the symptoms of a mental disorder is like finding out about the Patriots in Metal Gear Solid 2.

I really hate it when the people who are closest to you don’t believe you have a mental disorder. It makes me feel like a fraud and I’m just faking everything

I really hate it when I see a list of symptoms of my mental disorder and I see one that doesn’t fit me because my mind immediately thinks that I’m an imposter and I made the entire thing up

When I see a neurodivergent person with the same mental disorder as me and they have more visual symptoms I always feel like an imposter of my mental disorder, like why does my brain do this to me

Why is it when Geralt goes mmh it’s iconic, but when I do it I’m boring, lacking of a response or they laugh at me

What to do when nobody believes you’re neurodivergent, just because you don’t act like the stereotype of that mental disorder.

Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in  Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion -NF Holymoly! I really should edit more drawings like this one.  Like it? I would be happy about a follow or a honest and appropriate comment! :) #skull #skulldrawing #skeletons #skeleton #art #myart #drawing #coaldrawing #pencildrawing #selflove #trusting #trustissue #mentalhealth #depression #deadbody #darkart #artist #youngartist #betrayal #broken #brokeninside #macabre #zombie #zombiegirl #bones #rotten #lonely #aloneinsidemyhead #emotiondrawing #friendship #lizzyeatsart #feelingdown #forsaken #pencilart #sadness #twoface #nf 

There’s no point getting angry about an “I don’t know.” It’s not like yelling at a child will make them suddenly know. It’s not like I’m intentionally not knowing something. It’s not my fault that I don’t know. I just... don’t know. I don’t know everything.

Also, on the ADHD thing? YES. I don’t know why or how I managed to forget to do a chore immediately after you told me to do it. It just happened. My executive functions don’t always function executively. It doesn’t mean I’m not trying my best, it means I didn’t succeed this one time.

Anyway adults saying “I don’t know isn’t an answer” is part of the reason I learned to lie and bluff so well.

I feel like the reason so many of the people from older generation don't take psychological disorders seriously is that a lot of them weren't forced to deal with it.

I once read a comment saying that kids in his generation never went to adults crying about some petty problems. They just dealt with it and moved on.

I feel that the more accurate description would be: if anyone did have OCD or some other disorder at the time, there wasn't as much on the topic for professionals to use, and friends wouldn't take you seriously either. So that kid from your high school that killed himself, he might have gotten help today.

He or she knew about the problem, and wanted to get it solved, but that option may not have been available. And when he did kill himself, you probably thought it was just cause he was weird or fucked in the head. He could have been for all you knew, but you didn't care then, and you don't care now.

It's not that psychological disorders are new. It's that the attention afforded to them is, and I'm glad to see it.

When I'm ready to explain to someone why I can't do a certain thing because of my mental illness but then I remember how it ended up the last time I did

Me:*jokes about mental illness/depression/suicide...*

Someone: you shouldn't joke about these things, some people are actually suffering from them!!!

Me:

Friends: Hey wanna hang out tonight?

Me:*when I just left my workplace where I have been the last 15h with annoying people that I don't like at all and I don't have energy for socializing anymore*

I love to sleep, but I actually hate it... you know?

I'm always sleepy when I shouldn't, and I'm wide awake when I'm in my bed. I don't have to deal with problems when I'm sleeping, but if I sleep too much, I'll have more problems. And I always wake up TIRED. Like, b**ch I've been tired the WHOLE DAY and I SLEEP AND... WOKE UP TIRED... AGAIN...? give me a break...

Hi so ummmmm...... you're...... pretty .......and.........smart........and funny........ And you deserve like.......the best.......so just don't ummmm don't forget you'll make the world better no matter how small if a change it is your life means alot and I love you for that even if you don't. you don't have to be happy I just ask that you stay alive I learned recently that your life can change alot in just a week so get some food and a drink take your meds open a window and breath hang in there my loves ❤️❤️

I made two grown up phone calls today...... And it's not even 10:30am yet so what I'm saying is you got this

Mental Stuff

I am living with ADHD, PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. People think it’s easy. It’s not. I am here to share what it has been like so far for me and to help others to the best of my ability.

Maladaptive daydreaming really does get you down; like one moment parame is living their best life, in a happy, safe and loving relationship away from all stress and pain. Then all of a sudden I've been pulled away from that world and into this one, kept focused on the moment by words of hatred and discontent at my very existence, desperate to go back to daydreaming.

Or getting in a relationship with a guy and accidentally telling him about my forest faerie queen wife... 👀

Imagine you’re dating someone and you find out they have a fictional universe inside their head where they’re married to an anime character and not you