I Wanna Get Drunk And Kiss A Lot And Not Think For A While

i wanna get drunk and kiss a lot and not think for a while

In a world that made me feel worthless , you made me feel something. Like I'm finally enough.

𝖨𝗍'𝗌 𝗍𝗋𝗎𝖾, when it comes to people Rafe prefers to keep a small circle of people he actually keeps close. So far that circle is Topper, Kelce, and his own little sister. Anyone else is just there as a side character, background at best. That includes his own sister, Sarah since they no longer get along.

Georgie has done nothing to Rafe, personally. He just simply had no interest in getting to know anyone else ; he didn't need anyone else looking down on him like he's nothing or worse. Yet as a favor to Topper he's picking her up as she's walking in the rain.

Because sometimes...he can be nice.

❝ Yeah, yeah...❞ he could just say 'you're welcome' but he doesn't. At least not at first. Not until an awkward silence and he glances toward her a few times.

❝ You're welcome. ❞

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Ending up in a car with her cousin’s best friend honestly hadn’t been part of Georgie’s plans for the evening. She had gotten the sense the eldest Cameron didn’t like her initially, and so she had spent the last three years steering clear of him for Topper’s sake. Her visit had only been meant to last the summer, after all. She had thought she could wait him out.

Then had came the accident that had turned her into a permanent resident of the island. And since she’d already been in the habit of avoiding him, Gigi had just…kept doing it when he was home. Rafe didn’t seem to like many people, so it had been easy enough to stop taking his attitude personally on the rare occasions they did interact after a while. She’d even come to expect it, which made his stopping his car beside her and offering her a lift home before it rained all the more out of character. “Whether you did it for Top or not, I’d have gotten soaked if I had to walk the rest of the way in this. So, thanks.”

❝ Yes you have ! ❞ Rafe snapped at Sarah knowing that he's seen it in her eyes. Even if she thinks she hasn't, he's seen her do it. At least...he thinks he's seen her do it.

❝ Because he always compared me to you. Why can't you be more like your sister, why can't you do what your sister does, why can't you just do like you're told like Sarah does...Always the comparison when I'm supposed to be the older one setting the example. No matter what I did for him -- it was you he favored. ❞ He finds himself with his finger in her face but he pulls it back fast, then brings his hands to his head, through his hair.

Then he hits his head with his knuckles hard - the thunks are audible. And then he starts to pace back and forth only to force a laugh when she makes note that he was so wrapped up in the coke and he looked down at everyone else.

He mutters something under his breath , but it's the same thing , the rhythm is there to indicate that he's repeating the same thing over and over and then he says it loud enough.

❝ Because it quiets the voices ! ❞ he shakes his head, pacing back and forth. ❝ They go quiet and I can think, I can think and not hear what they tell me, what dad tells me. Dad wouldn't help me, Rose wouldn't help me...❞ Tears form in Rafe's eyes, and they proceed down his cheeks.

❝ It's all I can do to make them be quiet, to not feel so stupid and so weak and useless...❞

while rafe chases his escape in drugs, sarah had chased hers outside of the walls of tanny hill. she refuses to fall in the same footsteps as her father or god forbid, rose. a life of meaningless wealth and status and unfulfilled happiness. she wants real love and enjoyment of life. no something just to show off with and in her pursue of that, she say what most of her family thought. how they were so wrapped up in their materialistic lifestyle that they lost sight of the real definition of family.

the thing is, even with that knowledge, sarah still hopes that one day they can maybe find their way of being family again. or at least get rafe back as a brother. but that day seemed so far in the future, especially when they are at each other's throats like this.

"that is where you are wrong. i never looked at you like how ward or rose did. i was always worried about you. when dad got mad at you, i wanted to help but you were always so angry with me, with dad. i didn't know how to help." because sarah was young after all. before the gold, before john b, before her life almost ended multiple times. "all i wanted was my big brother back but you were so wrapped up in barry and his coke but looked down on anyone else."

❝ So what you're saying is your parents just fed you the baby variety of everything ; baby carrots, baby corn..? ❞ He knows if he keeps this up she is going to get him back ; and yet .. the smile on his face indicates that he isn't going to let up any time soon. ❝ Oh now you're just getting kinky, Juni. ❞

❝ Did you eat your veggies when you were a kid ? ❞ There is a light yelp he lets out when she pinches his side, but he also ends up laughing after the fact. ❝ You're about as intimidating as a chihuahua. All yips, no bite. ❞

...What is that book title...

How to Lose Friends & Alienate People, a Rafe Cameron Biography.