burned0utstar

Finns thoughts

vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

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His Hands Are So Warm And Comforting And His Smile Is So Sweet And His Eyes So Pretty And His Voice So

His hands are so warm and comforting and his smile is so sweet and his eyes so pretty and his voice so calming and his overall presence just everything and and-

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

"mental health matters!" until your screaming and crying in the early hours of the morning over losing something as miniscule as your phone charger. but the reason your crying isn't actually about the charger, or your favorite pen you can't find.

little things add up.

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calling me out like that is rude also why don't people in my life get that it's not about the stupid little thing that happend it's just everything

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Tw: mention of sh

I just relapsed again... 17 days go to waste but I guess it's fine...

I won't text him, no matter what.

I am scared. He'll get sick of me too.

I'm not going to text him first.

No matter what. I am not allowed to text him

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Kinda nsfw maybe??

How the fuck can it be that I had an awesome time with him, really just great even tho I've been really depressed the last few weeks (years) and when I leave everything breaks?

Like, when I left, I wanted to say goodbye, like we normally do, with kisses and stuff, but nooo

Because jerking off on the toilet was just way more important to him than actually saying goodbye.

The only reason I even know that he was doing that, is because he didn't fucking lock the door and I wanted to fucking use the loo.

But noooo

Instead I walk in on him, dick out, jerking off to fucking pornhub??

What the fuckkkkkkk?

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mental health vent blog depressing shit vent post relationship boyfriend angry fuck this

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

I'm cold. It's so cold.

Why can't I be with him? Why can't I feel safe and warm? Why can't I kiss him? Why can't I fall asleep next to him?

My heart longs for him, my soul misses his touch.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

I still miss him :(

He's out having fun and getting drunk and I really really miss him...

I am just here, existing, all alone and loving him from a distance...

I miss him so much

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mental health vent blog depressing shit vent post relationship boyfriend actually bpd borderline fp bpd fp bpd thoughts bpd problems borderline problems actually borderline borderline blog borderline personality disorder HIM !!!! i miss him i miss him so much my bf <3 open relationship

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