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I was so obsessed with you that I ignored your red flags to try and make things work. I warned you about my personality disorder and struggles and you took that as an excuse to make it seem like I was the only problem.
I was so obsessed with you that I ignored your red flags to try and make things work. I warned you about my personality disorder and struggles and you took that as an excuse to make it seem like I was the only problem.
I was so obsessed with you that I ignored your red flags to try and make things work. I warned you about my personality disorder and struggles and you took that as an excuse to make it seem like I was the only problem.
I was so obsessed with you that I ignored your red flags to try and make things work. I warned you about my personality disorder and struggles and you took that as an excuse to make it seem like I was the only problem.
I was so obsessed with you that I ignored your red flags to try and make things work. I warned you about my personality disorder and struggles and you took that as an excuse to make it seem like I was the only problem.
Why don't I feel safe with my safe person anymore?
Why do I feel bad about sending them a text even tho a few weeks ago I would send them 10 audios in a row?
I miss them.
I know that I'm desperate, but I really wanna text him...
I texted himðŸ˜
I'm so weak, why can't I just not text him???
He want to meet up tomorrow...
I am kinda very scared that he'll go no contact with me, haha....
Hahahahaha.
But I know I shouldn't be.
I know...
I know I shouldn't be.
I'm sorry for thinking that everyone will always leave me.
I am sorry.
I miss him. So much.
It feels like I will never see him again. It feels like I can never hold him again. It feels like it's all over and lost.
I can't, I don't want to keep going like this.
I wish I could make you realize how much you actually mean to me.
I wish I could tell you I love you.
I'm cold. It's so cold.
Why can't I be with him? Why can't I feel safe and warm? Why can't I kiss him? Why can't I fall asleep next to him?
My heart longs for him, my soul misses his touch.
I still miss him :(
He's out having fun and getting drunk and I really really miss him...
I am just here, existing, all alone and loving him from a distance...
I miss him so much
To love him is to hurt.
The way I ache for him is unbearable and goes through time and space.
All I want is to be loved. To have him cradle me in his arms. To lay my head on his chest and listen go his heartbeat. To braid his hair and kiss his nose.
My heart breaks because I can't be with him.
The only thing I was looking forward to is seeing him. But I don't know when that will even be.
Maybe never again.
Maybe I'm just dramatic.
But it feels like we'll never be together again...
I want to be back in his arms. I want to be with him.
Tw: sh
Guess who just got broken up with and is on his way to the hospital to get stitches??
Yesss, you're right, it's meee!
Why does it hurt so much to see his shirt in my laundry?
I have to give it back...
There will never be anything to hold on to anymore. He is gone. He doesn't like me anymore.
Why does it hurt this much?
All I ever wanted was to be with him
Am I still in love with him or do I just love him now?
I don't know...
It still hurts to think of what we had and how it all ended.
But I still for sure love him, as a person, as a friend, as someone who I trust.
But am I still in love with him??
I don't know, I don't think so. Not like I was.
I am a little bit in love with everyone who I ever was in love with.
They stay a part of me, but I think that's all. I think I'm not in love with him anymore.
I want things to be normal between us again. To be friends, joke around, tell secrets, drink and laugh and cry and cuddle.
Just that.
I really really want him back, as a friend.
Cried about him today again.
All the things he said, did he mean them?
Does he still mean them?
Can I ever stop wondering if he just lied to me the whole time or if he actually meant it?
What the fuck?
I want to talk with him.
I miss him.