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burned0utstar
Finns thoughts

vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

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I Miss Him. So Much.

I miss him. So much.

It feels like I will never see him again. It feels like I can never hold him again. It feels like it's all over and lost.

I can't, I don't want to keep going like this.

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burned0utstar
1 year ago

Be proud of me, I set a fucking boundary!!!!

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burned0utstar
1 year ago

When our sleep schedules are so different that I have had 3 breakdowns by the time he wakes up and fast asleep again when he's actually getting his stuff done.

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burned0utstar
1 year ago

Tw: mention of sh

I just relapsed again... 17 days go to waste but I guess it's fine...

I won't text him, no matter what.

I am scared. He'll get sick of me too.

I'm not going to text him first.

No matter what. I am not allowed to text him

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burned0utstar
1 year ago

Am I on 5 different medications and sick?

Yes.

Am I on my way to my boyfriend to get black-out drunk?

Also yes.

My lifestyle is so healthy, yippee!!

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burned0utstar
1 year ago

I'm cold. It's so cold.

Why can't I be with him? Why can't I feel safe and warm? Why can't I kiss him? Why can't I fall asleep next to him?

My heart longs for him, my soul misses his touch.

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